why Im not in the mood for posting wayid?

Hi everybody ..

*Sneef* *Sneef* ..

let me cry first ..

Today estaw3abt enna thanks God why I didn't

gave my man. ilblog ,..

IMAGINE! ..

we have been In love men 7 years ..

okay?

and before 2 years he had a dawra o Should pass it

to get a promotion in his job ..

which he find it nessasary 3alshan ya56ebne ..

He don't wanna get married oo uhwa mu 3enda his Dream job!

marraw il 2 years .. oo he didn't pass il exam ..

So he had to join il dawra again ..!

and I shut my mouth up oo ne6artah ..

mu 6eeb menne ya3ni .. I had too ..

I love him .. Still ya3ni ..

anyway ,

before One month kan his exam .. ( for the 2nd time )

and guess what?

yes!

he didn't pass it AGAIN!!!!!!

oo he's treating me chanan shda3wa 3alaich em3asba!!!!!!!

So ..

I have to wait ba3ad 2 years ..

oo Not sure enna he'll pass it ..

oo ra7 eserli 9 years a7ebba oo an6erah!!!!

isn't that too much 3ala my heart?? ..

guys im so down and tired without him ..

I can't stand my life without him ..

mallaaaait..!!!!

7 years passed from my life ..

oo he's still ib his place!!!!!

Girls ..

I can't ..

I swear to god Im rolling in my bed mn Dubai wana bas abche ..

In the plane I couldn't stop my tears ..

7etan nasmat il hawa etbachene .. I can't ..

Im so weak without him ..

oo nothing kan emsaberni ellah enna in apriL he'll

finish haL dawra oo netzawaj ..

and Now what? ..

I'll wait 2 more years??????

sometimes afakkir enna what the hell?

I don't need all of this ..

and I wanna cut him out from my life ..

bas I know ..

I can't! ..

Istaghferallah .. ;/