25- [Re-love .. him;*!] # WARNING ; this post is extra long and emotional;*

[ abeek etthooq fenjali oo

ana bathooq fenjalikk! ]

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I went back to our house ..

sallait rak3etain ..

oo da3ait allah enna yahdene ley wain il6erej?

I said while crying ;

"ya rab should I pick salman? ..

I don't know him ..

ballah 6ala3 mu zain? ..

I love Mishary .. ya rabii ..

I love him .. please I want him .."

I called heba oo told her about salman ..

Heba ; "well shofeeh! shenu 5asrana?"

Shaikha : "I don't know Heba .. galbi na'3eezne .."

*Beep .. 2nd line M. "

Shaikha : "uff mishary is calling .."

Heba ; "la etredeen saway rou7ch enna you have a life!"

I laughed ; "hehehe ya kalba I HAVE A LIFE ;@"

Heba laughed too ;

"heheh adre adre ..

bas ya3ni enna you're busy

with someone else!"

I smiled ..

She know How to make me

happy and to read my mind ..

Heba mummbled ; "oo shaku galbch naghzech?"

Shaikha : "I don't know .. ya3ni mu naghezne ..

bas ya3ni I don't know him . at all!

oo he's 27 .. mu channa old?"

Heba ; "No he's not! .. shda3wa 27 muuu 47!! ..

tara there's only 6 years bainkom ..

kellish not alot! .. "

I mummbled ; "mmm .. madre .. "

Heba ; "well , shofeh .. set with him ..

kellish mara7 ta5seren shay .."

I nodded ; "saja saja .. let me go to tell my mom."

I went to mom's room ..

oo getlaha enna Im Okay with meeting salman ..

e3yoonha kelaha dmoo3 .. she felt really happy for me ..

*BEEP*

From ; M.

"Okay? 3endich 2nd line then ma etredeen?? ..

Shaikha khalas!..

7aram 3alaich ..

I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU ..

I can't let you go .."

a tear tetlama3 eb my eyes ..

Im moving on Mishary! ..

To ; M.

"you let me go .. "

He kept calling me ..

again and again ..

wana ma arid ..

huh,!

ghareeba ..

ilwath3 kan bil3aks last month ..

walla ildenya .. tedoor..!

"Salma" Is calling ..

my eyes poped ..

Hathe laha wayh??

I picked it up ..

Shaikha : "Hala?"

Salma : "ahleen Shaikha .. listen listen ..

la etsekeenah"

I laughed : "ehehehe shako asekka? "

Salma : "wait wait .."

*TOT*

Mishary : "aloooooo .."

e5tefa my voice ..

abe ared .. bas I can't ..

Mishary : "Shaikha plsss .. 3alashan elli

bainnah don't hang up ..

allah ekhaliich .. "

Shaikha : "yee..yee.. yes? yes?"

Mishary : "ana shaikha ana asef ..

walla enny asef ..

ana '3al6an sadaqt'hum 3alaich ana .."

Salma ; "eeh walla shaikha uhwa met7assef .."

that was so fucking weird ..

la etseeroon 2 3alay ..

mabi a'93af oo aredlah ..

MA ABYYYYYYYYYYYY!

Shaikha : "Mishary enta elli sawaitah mu shwayya ..

you didn't stand up for me ..

oo mu bas chethe ..

sadaqt 7acheehum 3alay! ..

come on mishary ..

ennta 7ettan Kiss ma re'9aitlek etboosne ..

haL door barou7 ga3dat oo sheqeeq?? ..

aslan 3aib 3alaik you think that about me

oo you know fahad o5ooy ..

oo you know enna he'll

kill me bas etha dara enna I know you! .. "

Mishary : "bas walla shaikha ana

kent ma'9'3oo6 oo atharaw 3alay ..

oo ana sheft il pics be3yooni ..

shloon achatheb e3yooni oo asadqech??"

Shaikha : "enta sema3tne 3alashan etsaddeqni??

you didn't even bother your self to ask me about it! ..

bas seeda en7asht! "

Salma : "Shaikha la etloomenah .."

Shaikha : " FE A7AD KALLEMICH ENTAAAAAAAY?????? "

Mishary : "Shaikha!"

I just lost my tempur and began yelling at Mishary ;

" MISHARY ENTA MN SEEJIKK LEK WAYH TETSEL 3ALAY OO MA ARED THEN ETKHALLE SALMA EHYA EELI EDG OO TASHBEHKNA? .. HUH , SALMAAAAAAAAAA???

NO OFFENCE SALMA ..

BAS SHE'S SAS ILBALAAAA KELLAH!!!!!! ..

YOU DIDN'T EVEN TALK TO KHALTI MONA ABOUT IT!!!!!

OO ETHA RADAINA TOGETHER ..

YOU'LL ACT CHANNA SHAY MASAR!!!!!!!!!!! "

Mishary : "I'll talk to her .. if that what you want Shaikha .."

Shaikha : " OH MY GOD! ..LEL7EEN TAN6ERNI

AGOOLIK GO AND TALK TO HER ..

IF HAL SALFA HAPPENED TO A MAN YOU3TAMAD 3ALAIH ...

MA NE6AR HIS GIRLFRIEND ETGOOLLAH DAFE3 3ANNY!!!!!!!!! "

Mishary : "what does that mean??"

Shaikha : " YOU SHOULD STAND UP FOR ME ..

OO ELLI YET7ACHA 3ANNE EB SHAY

EVEEEEEN LUW SEJ .. EDOOOOOOOSAAAAAA! ..

MUU EDOSOONE WENTA WAGEF TETFARRAJ!

LAAAH OO BA3AD ETSEF EB SIDHUM! .. "

Mishary choked with his sadness and shock ..

Salma mincha3ma oo metwahqa ..

oo I .. I was lost ..

I felt so lonly deep inside ..

maybe Im showing to them enny qaweya ..

bas bil sej .. Im crashing down ... slowly ..

Salma whispered ; " we're sorry shaikha .. "

what??

we??

saraww couple??

Shaikha : "OOOH SHUT UP YOU IDIOT! ..

ENTAY LA ET5ALENE AFTA7 BABECH .

WALLA I'LL COME TO YOUR HOUSE RIGHT NOW

TO CRUSH YOUR HEAD .."

Mishary : "Shaikha this is between me and you ..

malha shegheL Salma .. "

I yelled while crying so hard and sneefing ..

Shaikha : " LA WALLAAAAAAAAAAA????

AL7EEEEEN QUMT ADAFEEEEE3????? .. SHENU MALHA SHEGHEL??

ALL HALLI GA3ED ESER MN TA7AT RAS MENUUUUUU????

RAAAASI ANA????? .. PLEASE MISHARY .. LA ETGOOL 7ACHE ENTA MU FAHMA .. PLS! .. KIL ELLI SARLENA FROM TEDE55EL HATHE OO MONA BAINNAH!!!!!! .. BECAUSE I DIDN'T DO A FUCKING ONE WRONG THING TO YOU .."

Mishary : "calm down babe .. calm down ..

la tabcheen .. pls ..

walla et3awreen galbi .."

Shaikha : "A3AWERR GAAAAALBEK? ..

I DIDN'T START YET!"

did I just broke his heart??

well , a7san!

Mishary while chooking ; "Shaikha .. shaikha ..

what that means??

shenu ya3ni?? .. shaikha .. calm down ..

don't do anything stupid oo tandemen 3alaih laater ..."

Shaikha : " The only one stupid thing elli sawaitah oo ta7asaft 3alaih .. uhwa enta .. you don't deserve me walla .. Im sorry for my self enni '9aya3t my feelings m3ak .. I gave you my heart .. shala3taaaaah min my chest oo gave it to you .. oo what did you do?? .. WHAT DID YOU DOOOOOO WITH MY HEART MISHARYYYYYY????? "

silent ..

he didn't reply 3ala my fucking Question ..

Shaikha : "Listen to me .. mu enta elli edoos galbi chethe ..

wela enta elli etthelni hal mathala ..

I gave you my life ..

oo you gave me all this fucking pain back ..

so thank you mishary ..

ma gassart walla ..

mn 6eeb asleek! "

Mishary : "Im .. Im .. Shaikha .. Im .. walla ..

Im .. Sorry .. walla

Sorry .. Im .. give me another chance ..

pls .. I love you .."

Shaikha : "another chance?? .. I gave it to you! ..

wella nesait the One and half year

elli ne6artik feehum?? ..

Mishary .. I trusted you ..

bas enta ma tesla7li .."

Kan weddi agolah enta mu rayyaL

wella enta qad il theqa ..

wella enta testaheeL shay ..

Bas I just couldn't ..

I took a deep breath ..

Shaikha : "please you two .. Mishary and Salma ..

I don't wanna hear about you again ..

wela abi ashoof your numbers eb my mobile aw

ashoof 7ettan your name eb my life ..

please .. you just did enough for me ..

oo luw ana someone hailegeya chan

bahthaaltkom oo sawaitlikom salfa ma et5alles ..

bas please .. metheL ma I knew you guys eb adab ..

I wanna end it with some good feelings shway!"

Salma : " etbahtheelennah?? .. isn't that shwayya over? "

I laughed that hummer laugh ; " hah! ..

you don't wanna meet

fahad oo ehya em3assib ..

believe me! ..

oo ba3dain I can tell my father about it ..

oo sadqene he wouldn't be happy about

showing a boy my picturs without even 7ejab!

oo telling him bad things about me .. "

Mishary : "I'll never let you go .."

Shaikha : " you just did !!!!..

good bye Mishary"

and I hang up the phone ..

while my heart fell 3ala il floor ..

oo tekassar into tinny pieces ..

I washed my face with very cold water ..

I couldn't crash down or

even cry after ma sakkait il phone ..

cus I don't know what's gonna happen next ..

oo I was so .. masdooma

about the power elli e6la3atli faj'a ..

sema3t knocking On the door ..

I yelled from the bathroom ; "welcomeeee .."

Fahad entered the room ..

fahad ; "Shaikha .. please te6le3en mn ilbathroom?

I wanna talk to you about salman .. I asked about him .."

6ala3t from the bathroom wanna asma7 my hand ib toweL ..

oo 7assa eb weaknees eb my knees ..

I nodded ; "go ahead .."

Fahad ; "mmmmm .. he's 27 years Old ..

daris eb UCLA business .."

Shaikha : " UCLA? "

Fahad ; " University of California, Los Angeles ..

walla betfashleena jiddam ilrayyaL!

iljam3a ma fahamteeha?"

I laughed : "hailegeeya shetsawey fene?"

we laughed ..

Fahad ; "bait'hum here bil surra ..

3enda One brother eb ula jam3a

ib Css ma et3arfeenah? Esma khalid .."

Shaikha : "mmm I don't think so .. madre .. ok?"

Fahad : "oo 3endah e5et esemha Sherefa

in ula thanawey .."

I smiled ..

I felt enhum cute!

Fahad : "his mother ma teshtegheL .. oo his father

yeshtegheL lewa bil sher6a he's a well known man ..

oo kilman sa'alta 3annah egolon wene3m .. ubo his father tawa metwaffy oo mashalla 3enda khair oo wartheen .."

I nodded ..

Fahad ; "ha shgeltay??"

I smiled while my cheeks blushed ..

fahad ; "walla shaikha ana kil elli sa'althum

3an salman emda7ooh ..

egolon wene3m oo 5oosh rayaL oo

meltezem oo 7abeb .."

aaaah thanks God ..

Shaikha : "elli etshofah .."

Fahad pushed my shoulder ;

"ma yesla7lich

il7aya oo ildala3 .."

I laughed ; "chaaaaaaab zain .."

Fahad ; "eeh hathe my sister!"

we laughed ..

my mom called he's mother ..

oo etafqaw enna ezoroonah after 3 days .

3alshan ashoofa weshofne .. wenshoof etha

erta7na to each other ..

3ayazt agooL 7ag Omme enna laish

ma eye il jam3a

eshoofne mn be3ed!

bas Salman wanted to talk to me shwayya ..

ma yabi bas eshofne ..

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.

after few days ..

Today is the day ..

Heba texted me ..

while ana a7e6 make up 5afeef ..

just dark brown eye-liner and dirty pink lip stick ..

with bronze blush and a classy baij high waised jeans ..

and flow white top ,

Form ; Heba.

"today , To be or not to be!"

I giggled ..

wanna ashkara ba6ne e3awerni mn ilkhoof ..

To ; Heba.

"I haaaaaaate you! .. Im scared already! ..

I don't need your help .. thanks ;p "

my mother called me ..

mama ; "aloo? ..

yalla shayookha come il sala 7abebti ."

I took deep breath ..

while staring at my mobile ..

madre laish 7asait enna Mishary ra7 e6eb 3alaina!

ok ok shaikha .. that's too much ..

I went to fahad's room ..

I asked him eb very shaking voice ; "fahad .. shakli zain?"

he smiled .. ; "3aha .. bas mekhalif .."

I laughed while walking out ; " I hate you walla! "

He laughed while yelling ; " allah e7afthech .."

I took a deep breath ..

while walking into the living room ..

where Salman oo his mother ga3deen ..

I kissed my mother's head ..

salman's mother ewgeffat ..

while a voice in my head kept talking to me!

; "ok ok .. I should kiss her head??

what should I do?? should I talk?

should I kiss his head? ..

NO NO! NOT HIS HEAD SHAIKHA!! ..

ok ok .. calm down .. calm down .. "

Om salman : "Besmellah Mashalla ..

allah ya7fethch ..

Mashalla .. Mashhalla .. "

thaat voice yelled ..

kheft tesma3ah! ..

"OK OK .. STOP IT .. STOP IT ..

DON'T SAY MASHALLA ALOT ..

I'LL DIE RIGHT HERE .."

he stood up with that gentle smile 3ala his face ..

I couldn't look direct eb his eyes ..

he was smiling to me ..

and saying something like

Salman ; "ilsalam shaikha .. shlonch?"

what?

should I talk to him now?

haa?

what?

Shaikha : "aam .. amm .. amm .. ana

.. zaina .. ana .."

his mother kept smiling to me ..

my mother kept staring at me ..

and dowing some faces I couldn't anderstand it walla!

I couldn't understand any thing right noww!!

my mother ; "agoolich Om salman .. shrayich awareech

il7adeeqa barra eli agoolich 3anha?? ma tabeen etshofeen il sham3adanat?? "

Om salman smiled ..

understanding my mother's point ..

Om salman ; "eeh sajja sajja .. "

She stared at her son while doing my mothers signs!

uuuuuuuuugh! SHKEHOUM HATHOOLA ;@ ..

Om salman ; "ba3ad enakhlii le3yaL ebrou7hum

yet3arefon 3ala ba3ath .."

and they walked away ..

salman looked at me ..

while a half smile 3ala his face ..

Salman : " did my mother just said that?? ..

please tell me enna that's that voice elli in my head? "

shaikha : "hehehe .. No Sorry she did said it.. "

he laughed ..

while his small eyes ye5tefoon ..

Isn't he cute??

Not so tall ..

just perfect for me ..

taller than me ib One sheber maybe ..

white skin ..

gofeL 5afef ..

and small circular light brown eyes ..

I just wanted to screamd ta3leqan 3ala his face ;

" YA 7AAAAAAAYAAAAAAAAAATE! "

Salman ; "well shaikha .. entay eb your 2nd year?"

I nodded ..

Salman ; " and they told me that you love ur major .."

I nodded ..

OKAY SHAIKHA!

HE WANTES YOU TO TALK ..

Salman smiled ; "well , Im 27 years old ..

graduated from UCLA Anderson schooL of management

before 3 years .. I graduated oo 3omre 24!

well it's already 5 years ..

oo I made it in 7 years! "

I giggled ..

Salman : "I work Now in a bank .."

I nodded while smiling to him ..

Salman : "ok lay meta i'll keep

talking and you'll keep nooding?"

I laughed ...

Shaikha : "Sorry .. "

he smiled ; "No 3adi ..

But I wanna know about you .."

Shaikha : "mmm .. My name ib shaikha"

Salman laughed while raising his eyebrows ; "really?"

I laughed oo he laughed too ..

Shaikha : "ok ok that was so stupid hehehe ..

mmm .. 3omre 20

Im in CSS ..

enshalla i'll major 3elom seyaseya ..

I work a part time job in Zain .. "

Salman ; "aha . and can I ask you a

Question before anything happen between us?"

I nodded ; "sure??"

Salman : "can you quite from that part time job?"

Shaikha : "mm .. why?"

Salman ; "I don't want my future wife to work ..

not even after finishing the university .."

Shaikha : "well, I really don't know .."

Salman smiled ; "I really Like you .."

I smiled while blushing ,,

Salman : "think about it .. and i'll respect

whatever you chose .."

our mothers yaw ..

His mother : "yalla salman namshe?"

He nodded while standing up ..

Salman ; "Nice to meet you ..

oo allah yakteb eli feh ilkhair .."

we smiled back ..

while I kissed his mother's cheeks ..

Shaikha : "enshalla .. tesharafna .. "

and I walked them to the door ..

Mama ; "haaaaaa??"

I closed my eyes ..

while my story with Mishary flashed back ..

should I pick Salman and move on??