why Im not in the mood for posting wayid?

Hi everybody ..

*Sneef* *Sneef* ..

let me cry first ..

Today estaw3abt enna thanks God why I didn't

gave my man. ilblog ,..

IMAGINE! ..

we have been In love men 7 years ..

okay?

and before 2 years he had a dawra o Should pass it

to get a promotion in his job ..

which he find it nessasary 3alshan ya56ebne ..

He don't wanna get married oo uhwa mu 3enda his Dream job!

marraw il 2 years .. oo he didn't pass il exam ..

So he had to join il dawra again ..!

and I shut my mouth up oo ne6artah ..

mu 6eeb menne ya3ni .. I had too ..

I love him .. Still ya3ni ..

anyway ,

before One month kan his exam .. ( for the 2nd time )

and guess what?

yes!

he didn't pass it AGAIN!!!!!!

oo he's treating me chanan shda3wa 3alaich em3asba!!!!!!!

So ..

I have to wait ba3ad 2 years ..

oo Not sure enna he'll pass it ..

oo ra7 eserli 9 years a7ebba oo an6erah!!!!

isn't that too much 3ala my heart?? ..

guys im so down and tired without him ..

I can't stand my life without him ..

mallaaaait..!!!!

7 years passed from my life ..

oo he's still ib his place!!!!!

Girls ..

I can't ..

I swear to god Im rolling in my bed mn Dubai wana bas abche ..

In the plane I couldn't stop my tears ..

7etan nasmat il hawa etbachene .. I can't ..

Im so weak without him ..

oo nothing kan emsaberni ellah enna in apriL he'll

finish haL dawra oo netzawaj ..

and Now what? ..

I'll wait 2 more years??????

sometimes afakkir enna what the hell?

I don't need all of this ..

and I wanna cut him out from my life ..

bas I know ..

I can't! ..

Istaghferallah .. ;/

44 - [Re- Love .. him;*!] * dedicated to the anonymouses and the Duwaniya Guy! ;*

[ tejanin kil ma ashofik ..

a7is ennik tethawebni ..

tethaye3ni mn ildenya

oo tesheb eb khafeqi narah ;** ]

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we walked to Mcdonald's shway shway ..

while seeing every little detail around us ..

I kept mummbling like a kid ; " you3ana .. you3ana .. "

Salman ; " enzain Shaikha .. Enshalla .. "

I put my head 3ala his shoulder ; " aaaaaaa .. you3anaaaaaaa .. "

he just hugged me from my shoulder oo kept walking ..

I mummbled ; " I'll eat you right now etha ma re7na kalaina .. "

he laughed in a eviL way ; " mako ma6a3em here .. kilshay closed .. "

I giggled ; " hehehehe salmaaaaaaaaaaaann! tara walla you3ana ..

walla I can't laugh Now .. magdarrrrrr abiiiiiiii mc chicken .. "

Salman ; " ma haqaitch ba6a! "

I giggled ; " okay okay .. Say Ba6a .. Cow .. afaa ..

3ady! .. ilmohem akiL! "

we kept laughing oo suwalif laima wesalna mc.

I sat ib table yam il door ..

Salman ; " shenu tabeeeen? all the menu? "

Shaikha ; " hahaha! .. funny funny .. "

Salman blow me a flykiss ; " mwah .. yala shtabeeen? "

I smiled ; " abiiiiiii .. mmmmmmmmm .. abiiiiiiiii ..

aaaaaaaammmmmmm .. abiiiiiiiii .. "

He smiled in a cute way ..

Shaikha ; " abi mc chicken meaL .. small size ..

7up ildrink pls .. and two BBQ Sauce oo mayo please .. "

He stared at me ; " WALLAA?? "

I raised my eyebrowses in a stupid way ; " shenu shenu? "

Salman ; " al7eeeeen abi abi abi sena .. akherha chethe? ..

I thought betgoolin shay thane! "

I couldn't help it .. mabi ath7ak ..

bas his face e'9a7eek wehwa me6affer ..

Shaikha ; " heheheheheheeeeeee ..

I KNOOOOOOOOOOWWWWW! .. hehehehe ..

metheL ma tawwa te6anaz 3alay wana you3ana ..

gilt akser fek shway .. "

Salman ; " Mashe .. en ma 6alabtlich shay ma tabeenah .. "

I laughed while putting my head 3ala il table ;

" NOOOOOOOOO! PLLLLLLLLSSSSS "

he pinched my cheek ; " wazeeeeeen ilboooooooz .. "

I even made a bigger boooz ..

Shaikha ; " mmmmmmmmmmmmmm .. "

he laughed ; " hehehehehe .. 7ayaaate ilboooooozzzz .. "

I smiled while blowing him a kiss ; " mwah yalla yo3ana .. "

Salman walked away while laughing 3ala 7annete ..

Im a kid when it comes to food .. masta7meL ayoo3 ..

bas bas agfeL ..

I put my foshiya I-pod 3ala One ear ..

oo ga3da ashoof il place around me ..

while listening to NawaL ilkuwaiteyya ..

aaaaaaah .. kent 7a66a pause 3ala akhir " ayooh " ..

eb her voice .. Sometimes I wished that enny Boy oo arou7 samrat ..

the sound of tesherbik and 3ood thakarni eb hal crazy wish ..

I closed my eyes while listeting 7ag bedayat tone il next song ..

" ayam 7elwa .. kanat ayamm 7ubbaak ..

kint fe rou7i tasre .. kint bejnoun a7ibbak ..

Qasi elgalb lakin .. kan galbi be galbek .. "

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWCCCCHH..!!!!!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ..

NO!

NO NO NO ..

SHUT UP NAWAL..!

I opened my eyes while dozen of good memories

passed by ..

I stared at the Next table .. watching me and Mishary ..

talking about our future .. Our small kids ..

Our big House in Shuwaikh ..

Our Small business ..

I was listening to nawaL ..

while my dreams kanaw edoroon 7ooli ..

like a crasy clowns ..

ethakroni enna your dreams didn't come true! ..

yeah even if you had a better man .. so what?

still , YOUR FUCKING DREAMS DIDN'T COME TRUE!

is that Mishary??

the guy elli labes grey training yam ilbathroom? ..

omg! Shaikha don't imagine things mu mawjoden! ..

Is thinking about Mishary in in honeymoon you3tabar cheating?? ..

shit shit shit .. ! yes yes .. I wouldn't be happy etha darait enna

Salmani is thinking about another women ib our whole life mu bas eb our honeymoon ..!

I took a deep breath ..

oo shift salman holding our tray oo walking toward me

with a cute smile 3ala his face ..

I whispered to me self ; " Don't .. Don't! "

a stupid tear Slipped away from my eyes ..

mesa7t'ha ebsir3a ..

while smiling to salman ..

he came oo il concern 6al3a from his eyes ..

Salman ; " What's wrong babe? Shfeech?? ..

did anyone sawalich shay?? ..

shfech babe tabcheen?? "

I smiled ..

Shaikha ; " No 7abebe ..

madre shay dash eb 3aine .. mafene shay .. "

Salman ; " are you sure ?? "

I nodded ; " yes .. "

Salman bend 3alay while putting il tray 3ala il table ..

Salman ; " warene .. shfeha ur eyes? "

I smiled ; " nothing galbi walla .. "

Salman ; " close your eyes ashoof! .. "

I smiled and closed my big eyes ..

he kissed my eyes ..

Salman ; " ha? chethe better? "

I giggled ; " heheheh yeah .. waaaaayid ..

mu lips ba3ad madre shfeehum.. e3awrooni .. "

he laughed ; " hehehehehee! shai6ana .. "

I blow him a kiss ; " anlam? "

He smiled .. ; " mwah .. 7abebeti .. yala please wela kelma ..

you know .. magdar atkallam oo akeL .. "

I laughed ; " hehehe walla haL 6abe3 I hate it feek! ..

tara maliq il 6abe3 walla .. "

He put his finger 3ala his mouth ; " hshshshshshhhhh! ..

we'll talk about it later .. "

Question ..

Girls ..

I told the One I love that I have a blog ..

He's not that computer guy oo ma e7eb haL suwalif ..

anyway ,

Should I give him the link?

I don't want! ..

I don't wanna anyone to know me ..

because this is my Own space ..

fahmene..?

what do you think..?

hahahha 7assait enna Im watching ;

" He's not that into you ;p "

waiting for raykom ..

43- [Re-love .. him;*!]

MISSSSS YOUUU GIRLS WALLA :'( ..

the feeL of losing you ;'( maleq walla ..

I know it's a blog shda3wa 3alay ..

bas walla I felt really baaaaaaad ..

A7IBKOOOOOUM;******* ..

oo Tara kitabt il post chan asik il window bil ghala6!

ughghghghghhhhhh .. I know I know ..

ma7sodeen ;p LOOOOOOOOOOL ..

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[ abi mennik wa3ad wathe7 oo sadiq ..

ma3e tebqa o 3oumrek ma tefareq ..

oo lik menny a7ebbik lil nehaya ,

aseerat 7uub oo mennah ma at7arar ;** ]

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Opening my eyes ..

Next to salman ..

was just unresistable ..

I rolled up oo faces him ..

His cute small eyes ..

and Quite snooring ..

I closed my eyes again ..

I can't Move .. I was so tired ..

Salman whispered ; " I saw you et5ezeene .. "

I giggled while still closing my eyes ..

Salman ; " Do you love me ? "

I blushed ..

oo gave him my back ..

He moved toward me ..

and hugged my so tight and gently from the back ..

I whispered ; " Amoot feek salmani .. "

He put his cheek 3ala mine ..

oo closed his eyes ..

The feeling of his warm body close to mine ..

was all I wanted in the morning ..

I felt enna we belong to each other ..

he's my other half ..

and that was Our first confersation ib

our first morning togther ..

I opened my eyes again ..

OOOOOH GOD! .. It was 1;30 ..

I moved away from him ..

oo ran to the bathroom ..

took a shower ..

oo 6ala3t my Yellow Juicy training ..

with white qames and Cross lv. bag ..

I yelled while searching for my laffa ..

Shaikha ; " SALMAAAAAAAN WAKEEEEE UPPPPPP .. "

He covered his Head .. ignoring my call ..

I walked oo pulled his bellow mn ta7at his head ..

Shaikha ; " YALLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA .. IT'S 2 PM! ..

our flight ilsa3a 6 .. ma yamdeeeeeee .. "

he sat in the corner of the bed ..

while his hair 7adda messy ..

I smiled .. He looked really delecious

m3a haL cranky mood

oo that tight boxer ..

I kissed his head while smelling his hair ..

Shaikha ; " yallaaaa babe .. we're laate .. "

he nodded .. while walking toward the bathroom ..

I mummbled ; " enta still nayem? "

He smiled ; " Shway ..!"

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we went to his parents house ..

taghadaina lay 4 pm ..

then I met my family in the Airport ..

6ab3an you don't wanna Know 3an il party elli sawait'ha ..

I cried channe a little kid ..

Fahad ; " KHALAAAAAAAAAAS! .. Salman Go alone ..

khaaL bintna 3endeena .. "

I laughed while il tears all over my face .. ;

" hehehe it's not funny maaaaaliq..! "

* THE LAST CALL FOR KUWAIT AIRWAYS

FLIGHT NUMBER 14306

HEADING TO LONDON .. *

I hugged kilman ..

oo we walked away ..

while fahad making fun of me esawey

rou7ah crying oo esaweli flying kisses ..

Salman Squeezed my hand gently ; " babe ..

I'll take a good care of you .. I promise .. "

I smiled .. ;

" 7abebe .. thank you .. I will try my best too .. "

faj'a he stopped in the middle of the Airport ..

I satred at him .. ; " What? "

He smiled while whispering to me ;

" your voice wentay tawich bachya .. is killing me soflty .. "

I giggled while my cheeks blushed like hell ..

Rekabna il airplane ..

Salman ; " Shayookha taben teg3edeen Next to the window? "

I smiled .. Don't treat me like a little kid .. ma7eeeeeb ..

Shaikha ; " No .. I hate windows .. thank you .. "

He smiled while setting eb his seat ; " good .. cause I wanna sleep ..

oo mabi a7kerich .. "

I smiled while setting Next to him ..

awaL ma bedat il plane tet7arrak in the airport ground ..

I whispered ; " waay the airplains makes me sick .. "

He laughed while saying ; " and the gum makes me kind of gay .. "

we both laughed ..

I whispered ; " No you're not .. believe me .. "

He smiled .. Knowing my point .. ; " 7ayate entay .. "

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OMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMG!

I'll kill my self ..

I can't sleep bil planes ... NOWAY MAGDARRRRRR ..

and Salman mashalla mn 6erna nayem ..

I felt so crasy watching kilshay bil tv. oo reading

every singl paper 7a6eenha lina ..

even the safety paper garait'hum ..!

thanks god enna Salman woke up eb akhir Hour .. oo

solafna Shwayya ..

we landed in London at 8 am eb tawqeet'hum ..

Shaikha ; " Isn't that weird? .. e6er from ur country

ilmagharb oo landed her at 8 am? .. galbat ras .. "

Salman said while stretching ; " hehehe imballa ..

bas 5oosh nooma ana nemt .."

Shaikha ; " eeeeeeehhh .. I was lonely without you walla .. "

he kissed my cold fingers while giving me his half smile face ;

" I'll make it up for you .. promise .."

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we went to Our AMAAAAAAAAZING hoteL ..

The ritz ..

aaaaaaaaaahh .. I never dreamed about it 7atta ..

the keys 7a6eenhm eb tinny elegant black

bag. 3alaiha big "R" letter ..

it was so big and elegant hoteL ..

channa Old king palace ..

high golden walls ..

oo amazing details ..

m3a big circular lobby oo bil nus red carbit ..

oo the huge crystaL thurayya's 7adhuuuuum breath taking ..

it was just so luxury and awsome ..

we went to out room ..,

salman head direct to the bathroom to take a shower..

while ana magedart even enna atsabba7 ..

I rolled up into that big cosy hoteL bed .. and fall into asleep ..

I opened my eyes again ..

wella il sa3a 2;26 pm ..

I went to the bathroom .. oo washed my face with a cold water ..

I smiled ; " aaaaaah so refreshing .. "

I called Salman ..

Shaikha ; " aloo... "

Salman : " heyy babe gumtay .. "

I smiled While opening the moving our barda ..

oo letting the sun edesh my eyes ..

Shaikha ; " eem .. where are you ? "

Salman ; " around the hoteL .. atmasha ..

waiting for you to wake up .. "

Shaikha ; " yalla I'll meet you Down in 10 mins . "

Libast a purple training oo Nezalt to the lobby ..

Salman ; " Goooood morning princess .. "

I smiled ; " ahlaaaaaan .. "

Salman ; " yalla let's go to Piccadilly Circus .. shrayich? "

I nodded ..

He surrounded me withe his masculin arm ..

oo pullid me close to him ..

Salman ; " lel7een sleepy 7ayate? .. "

Shaikha ; " mmm Shway .. "

He kissed my cheek ; " yalla wake up ..

le'ts have fun .. "

I laughed ; " yala heheh yalla .. "

we went to Piccadilly ..

awaL ma nizalna ..

I said while my mouth opened ; " OH GOD..!

are yo kidding me? "

the place was the typicaL london ..

Big red buses ..

huge screens ..

Big angeL memoriaL in the middle of a small nafoora ..

It was just .. AMAZINGGGGGGGG ..

we kept walking oo ne6ammash 3ala everything around us ..

we was just taken by the place ..

it was so ALIVE ..

it was so ..

M E ..!

faj'a gumna endesh duwa3es oo small places ..

I was so hungry ..

Shift my watch ..

I mummbled ; " uuuuhh .. you3ana .. "

Salman ; " yalla babe .. bas nelga ay mokan nakiL feeh ..

e7na 5an3arf wainah first .. "

I yelled while pointing judame ; " SALMAAAAAAAAAAN! "

Salman ; " HALAAAAA?? "

I said while a huge smile 3ala my face ; " MCDONALDS .. "

He laughed ; " hehehe yalla yalla let's go .. "

I laughed ; " heheh Omg! .. elli yesma3ni egooL yaya from

africa Istaghferallah .. " I put my hand 3ala my belly .. ;

" bas Im so hungry .. "

Salman was walking gable ..

he Stopped suddenly chan alzeg feeh ..

I giggled ; " hehe omggggg! .. Sorry walla 7adyyy

you3ana oo sleepy .. "

he turned 3alay ..

while I was saying my Sorry ..

I didn't finished my "Sorry" ..

He pulled my from my training with One hand ..

and put the Other on my back ..

he looked direct on my lips ; " Im hungry too .. "

I bite my lips In a girly way of saying ; go ahead .. Kiss me ..

he opened his lips slowly and just a little and Kiss me ..

I just .. melted in my place ..

OH MY GOD!!

OH MY GOD................!!!!!!!!!!

GALBEEEEE WEGAAAAAAAAAAAFFFFF!

I MEAN IT!!!!!! WALLA IT STOPPPPED..!!!!!!

MY STUPID 7MARA COUSIN ..

I CALLED HER .. OO GETLAHA DESHAY MY

EMAIL OO TAKE A POST MENNAH ..

KENT KATBETAH ALREADY BIL MA6AR ..

FAJ'A ..

FAJ'A ..

FAJ'A ..

SHE TEXTED ME YESTERDAY SAYING ;

" YCM .. ANA MANI 3ARFA WHY UR BLOG MA TEFTA7..! "

I WAS LIKE ..

" THAT'S OKAY HONEY .. MAYBE THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE CONNECTION .. "

RADAIT HOME AT 10 PM ..

WELLA!!!!!!!

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAT????????

MY FACE CHETHE KAN -->> ;O ;O ;O ..

SHENU " UN DELETE UR BLOG?? "

I CALLED HER .. AGOLAHA RA3ASTAY DELETE?

ETGOOLI NO NO .. ANA 7A6AIT POST BIL GHALA6 ..

THEN SAWAIT DELETE..

GETLAHA DELETE 3ALA ILBLOG WELA IL POST?

ETGOOLI I DON'T REMEMBER ..

WELL ,

OKAY ..

MALAH DA3E ASHRA7 ALL THE REST ;P

BECAUSE IT CONTAIN SOME BAD WRODS ;X

IM SORRY! :***************

IM SORYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

42 - [ Re- love .. him;*!]

[ 3aroos il theya .. ;* ]

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I was so happy about the fact enny gilt for Salman il sij ..

oo enna there's nothing to hide ..

thanks god enna that feeL of guilt e5tefa ..

oo Im so calm oo 3endy self confidence ..

Tomorrow is my wedding to salman ..

yeah , I know ..

I'll break Down any second soon ..

I called Heba 3alshan I wanna go to

naiL bar basawwey my naiLs ..

oo barou7 Lamode Salon 3endy maw3ed for

my hair oo skin bride treatment ..

kil 5 mins ag3ad a5iz my mobile ..

waiting for Mishary's call..!

a7is enna he'll ruin my day ..

a7is enna he hate me oo can't stand the fact enna

Im over him oo enna IM HAPPY .. without him! ..
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* THE WEDDING DAY .. *

I can't sleep ..

I kept throwing up all night long ..

ooomg..!

my eyes ta7at'hum black because of enna ma nemt!

I look like a panda! .. wai333333! ..

Omg .. I can't I can't ..

I'll have a small wedding In our house ..

with around 250 women bas ..

oo ilcolors 3enaby , Gold and dark green ..

it's so classic .. and elegant ..

I don't love il too much weddings ..

oo il point enna getting married to Salmaan ..

I took panadoL night ..

oo sleep around 10 am ..

I opened my eyes at 3 pm ..

aaaaaaaaaaaakh! .. waaaaaaaayyy ..

I ran to our sirdab ..

chechikng the latest details ..

aaaaw ;'( .. The Kousha is just so perfect ..

2 big gold chairs with classic small bellow 3alaiha flowers

prints bil dark green oo navy oo red ..

I closed my eyes picturing my self oo

Salmanii ga3den 3alaiha ..

re7t 7a6aitley spagetti from our lunch ..

oo ga3da at the living room akiiL oo abche ..

Fahad ; " Bismellah! .. shaklich e5are3! shfech? "

I replied while sneefing ..

Shaikha ; " Fahoooood .. ana me5tar3a .. "

Fahad ;" haha! shaklich e5arre3! mu me5tere3! "

I cried even more ; " Tara it's not funny .. tara walla I hate you .. "

Fahad pulled me mn eedii ; " gomay gomay .. "

I said while standing up ; " waain? .. waain arou7? "

Fahad while walking to my room .. ; " ilsa3a 4 !! ..

take a bath oo yalla go 7ag il salon madre wain .. "

Shaikha ; " la she's eb dar mama ..

ga3da etsawelihum .. betsaweey 7ag kilman

akhir wa7da ana .. mama galat about 8 pm doori .. "

Fahad scratched his head ; " walla belsha! "

I giggled while dmoo3 dmoo3 ; " yala yala .. Now batsabba7 yalla barra "

he laughed while walking out side my room oo closing the door ..

I took a long bath .. while crying under the shower ..

I don't know why Im crying walla..!

it's just so overwhelming ..

Lebast my danteL corset ..

oo went to my mother room ..

layed on the bed while talking with my sister Maryam oo

ehya etsawey her hair ..

my mother oo baji my sisters enzalaw ta7at ..

it was about 7 pm .. oo bil card maktoob enna 7:30 ..

fa enzalaw enna maybe a7ad eye aw shay ..

arou7 8 pm ..

The artist ; " yalla Shaikha .. "

I took a deep breath ..

Shaikha ; " Okay yalla .. "

The artist ; " shu baddik? .. any Main Ideas? "

I said while staring the the mirror imagining me finaL look ..

Shaikha ; " mmmmm .. Okay .. I wanna thik eye-liner ..

oo red lipstick .. I don't wanna the redness elli side il dark ..

I wanna shinny red .. "

She nodded .. ; " bas eye-liner? "

Shaikha ; " yes .. ya3ni Sure there's fondation basics ..

bas ya3ni illy shown up

yes Only the eye-liner .. "

The artist ; " and ur hair? "

Shaikha ; " aaam .. Im thinking about wavy

hair with Side Qethla ..

and side kubba from the Other side .. did you get it ?? "

She nodded ..; " okay?? "

Shaikha ; " yes because my 6ar7a not too tall ..

it's this long .. "

I pointed 3ala nes my back ..

my 6ar7a was taqreban to the half of my back ..

oo ted5aL bil dress nafsa ..

etser kind of my sleeve ..

my dress was From fadi nakhla ..

3ala ilbody .. different layers with gorgeos

Printed Organza details ..

I texted Salman

To ; Salmanii

" 6e7 ghashyan?? "

after few mins ..

* BEEP *

From ; Salmanii

" not yet! ;p "

I giggled ..

mali khelq ath7ak walla ..

around 10:30 ..

my mom came to me ..

while the artist khalisat everythings ..

mama ; " MASHALLAAAAAAA .. BISMELLAAAH .. "

I turned my face to her ..

Shaikha ; " mamaaaaaaaaaaa .. "

She smiled while touching my gown with her fingers ..

Shaikha ; " good? "

She nodded ; " angeL .. "

I smiled ..

mama ; " yalla 7abebti .. let's go .. "

I nodded ; " yalla .. "

misakt my dress eb a6raf my fingers oo refa3ta ..

took a deep breath while walking toward the elevator ..

nezalna to the qa3a ...

mama dashat il qa3a ..

and closed the big white door waraha ..

I took a deep breath ..

after few mins ..

7asait ena sar hedoo' ..

I whispered to my self ;

" what's wrong? shfeehum esketaw ?? "

I start listening to a tone ..

NO NO!

don't open the door..!

I WANNA RUUUUUUUUUN AWAAAAAAAAAAAY ..

ashof ildoor jedami yefta7 slowly ..

and Abdullah alruwaished voice singing ..

for me .. me?? .. ME!!!!!!!!!??

Abdullah alruwaished - al banafsaj ..

[ http://song.6rb.com/songer/x/kw/rwaishid/mn-6rb57-albnfsg-3bdallh-alrwyshd1.ram ]

ya banafsaj ya masa' il yasemeen ..

fe mo7aya mn baha il denya tezeen ..

hal 3uroos elli khathat kil il wosoof ..

reem jeed oo reem qad oo reem 3ain ..

* alf sallalah 3ala ilhadi al ameen *

meqbela oo e3yonena bard oo salam ..

lazim ensalle 3ala seed il anam ..

3annebi ajmaL ta7eeya o ilsalam ..

radedoo gouloo ma3e ya il7atheren ..

* alf sallah allah 3ala ilhadi al ameen *

tamshe oo yamshe baha se7er oo jamaL ..

oo e3tedalin mektese eb 7esen oo dalal ..

temtezej feha il 7aqeeqa bil khayaL ..

oo iltheya feha emtezaj bil yasemeen ..

fetneten rabbe 5alaqha lil3eyoon ..

mn rathat il ghaim oo ebrouq ilmezoon ..

qedrat il khaliq lah eb khalqa shou'oon ..

fetneten sub7an rab al3alameen ..

* alf sallalah 3ala ilhadi al ameen *

3athbeten metheL ilsa7ayeeb oo ilzuhoor ..

oo ilfarashat iljameela oo il6eyoor ..

kilaha 6eeba oo e7sas oo shu3oor ..

oo ilwefa fe galbaha il6ayyeb sejeen ..

* alf salallah 3ala ilhadi il ameen *

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I walked toward the koousha ..

while drops of teas yanzelon 3ala my cheeks ..

Maryam whispered ; " Shayookh! calm down .. "

I took a deep breath ..

OMG! shakliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii idioooooottttttt ..

I whispered to my self ; " ushshshshh .. calm down ..

ushshshshhh .. don't cry .. "

I can't .. I wish I can swallow my tears ..

walla mu gadra abla3hum ..

I sat 3ala il kousha ..

while smiling oo staring bil nas ..

wana mu gadra a3arf il faces ..

after 1 hour ..

the dj said ; " ilme3rs out side .. "

I took a deep breath ..

aaaaaaww ..

I need to cry pls ..

pls ..

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath ..

the big white door opened ..

I saw fahad's face ..

that all what can I remeber ..

with ;

" ya m3airees .. 3ain allah tarak ..

wel goumar wenejoum .. tamshe warak .. "

I choked with my joy ..

Salmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan ..

OMG! ..

he's handsome ..

with his cute circular light bron eyes ..

and cute pink cheeks ..

his nervos smile ..

and his childish way of playing with his nails ..

masek il besht so tight .. and kept looking toward me ..

while I was staring at the floor ..

he kissed my forehead ..

and stood jedamme ..

oo kissed the guys elli dashaw with him ..

Fahad ne6ar yamme while chatting with me ..

il akh 3abalah e7na in Our living room ..

Fahad whispered ; " Shayookh .."

I said while smiling ; " ha? "

Fahad ; " ya il jeker .. "

I gigled ; " heheh 7abebe walla .."

Fahad ; " ana fahad tara mu salman .. "

I smiled while looking at salman's back ; " chab .. "

he laughed ; " maskeena metwahqa? "

I giggled ; " fahood barra .. "

he laughed while whispering to me ; " lucky him ..

walla ya ba5ta fech .. "

I smiled while drop of tear ga3da telma3 eb my eyes ;

" fahod .. a7ibek walla .. "

he wanna make me laugh o ma yabene abchi ..

fahad ; " 3aib entay metzawja .. "

we both break a small nervos laugh cus kilman e5ezna ..

the men e6la3aw ..

oo fahad oo my father oo Salmani's father

took a picture with us oo went out side ..

salman sat next to me ..

I smiled while looking at the floor..

Salman ; " Shayookha .. "

I smiled while blushing ..

Salman ; " Shayookha .. "

I looked at him ..

just by tuning my big eyes ..

Salman choked .. ; " aaaaakhaih! "

I giggled in a shyly way ..

Salman ; " walla gaaaaaabla .. "

I smiled ; " 7abebe .. "

Salman ; " don't! .. la etgoleen chethe with this

dress oo this look ..

walla feha ente7ar hathe! "

I giggled while my cheeks 7ad'hum red ..

after half an hour taqreban ..

my mother whispered to me ; " tamshoon? "

I turned 3ala salman .. and he nodded ..

I whispered back ; " yes "

and we walked out side ..

while my mom crying oo my sisters esaktonha ..

we went to Marina hoteL ..

where The heart is ;x ..

aaaaaaah we love this place ..

we enterd the room ..

Salman smiled ;

" do you remember this room ? "

I smiled ; " yes .. 308! .. OUR ROOM .. "

he smiled while kissing my cheek ..

Salman ; " yalla babe let's change .. "

I nodded ; " yeeah il dress ethayeg .. "

Salman took his besht and qethra off ..

and that's it .. that was his tebeddeL ;p

and I took my dress off .. oo libast

a cute peach with white bridaL lingerie

not so revealing ..

I opened my hair .. sar big messy waves ..

okay in a good way I swear .. well , thanks go

it turnes into sexy waves ..

Salman gave me that naughty puppy eyes

while playing with my hair ..;

" tara you didn't dance for me! "

my eyes poped out ..

Shaikha ; " OMMMMMG! tadre I totallyyyyy

forgoooooot! chan getli .. "

he stared at me ; " ana za3lan .."

I kissed his cheek .. ; " that's okay ..

I'll dance to you Now .. "

he laughed while clicking 3ala il tv. button ..

searching for any music channeL ..

Salman 3afas his face ; " uuuf! mako anything! "

I put my hand 3ala his hand ; " bas bas stop stop ..

I'll dance 3alaiha .. "

he stared at me while raising his eyebrows ; " ya 6abab!? "

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I laughed while raising il tv. volume ..

he sat 3ala ilconrner of the bed ..

and danced for him in a sexy egyption way ..

yeah it was a dirty dancing shwayya ;x ..

he kept smiling ...

I can see enna his mind get over dirtyyyyyyy ..

I winkied to him while saying ;

" 7ukom il awwe .. bamot feh awwe.."

giving him a naughty half smile ..

he laughed while moving his back lay wara and

and layed 3ala il bed ..

mad his hand while moving his fingers slowly ..

Salman ; " come here .. "

I smiled while agasser il tv. ; " where? "

Salman smiled ; " fogi .. "

I bite my lower lip ; " the dishdasha thing isn't

turning me on babe .. "

he laughed while moving his body lay foog

and taking the dishdasha off ..

whe he look damn sexy in his tigh Ck white boxer?

I smiled while laying over him ..

and start kissing her neck ..

and enjoying the feel of his cold fingers 3ala my back ..

I whispered ; " close the abajora babe .. "

Salman ; " no .. I wana see you .. "

I smiled while hugging him so tight ..

41 - [Re- love .. him;*!]

[jetene metheL il shurooq elli ma7a 3atm eliyale ..

jeet far7a lel 7azeen elli mn ehmooma halak ..]

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I felt so bad and guilty about the whole thing ..

Im Sorry walla ..

I wanna tell salman about mishary ..

bas I can't walla ..

I know enna he'll leave me ..

oo I don't blame him for sure ..

bas ya3ni what can I do ??

Salman whispered while

moving his had 3ala my back ;

" yala babe emshay nakeL .. "

I smiled ; " okay yallah .. "

we went to pauL again ..

oo Orderd Our food ..

while Salman was eating his penne

pasta with white sauce ..

and I couldn't eat walla ..

a7is my stomach et3awerni from that feeling of giult ..

I whispered ; " Salmani .. "

He nodded while eating his pasta ..

aaaaaaaaaaahhhh!

do you that sexy face while you are looking down at the pasta ..

oo raised ur cute eyes oo ur chin still down??

I smiled ..

Shaikha : " okay! .. that sexy look isn't helping me at all! "

He laghed oo choked with his pasta .. ;

" hahahahahahahhaaaaaaa! ..

Shfeeeech 7ayaaaate? "

I smiled oo took a deep breath .. ;

" listen to me salman ..

I wanna tell you something .. I don't wanna

start a marriage based on lies .. "

he nodded .. with that confused look 3ala his face ..

Shaikha ; " e7m .. aaamm .. I .. ok ok .. "

I closed my eyes ..

took a deep breath ..

and count to three ..

1 .. 2 .. 3 ..

calm down shaikha ..

you should do it ..

tell him the truth in a good way ..

you should do it!!!!!!

mu eb kaifech! ..

you should have some moraL bitch!

3aib tara walla ..

Shaikha ; " Listen .. "

Salman ; " Im listening!!! "

Shaikha : " salman .. ana .. listen .. I .. "

Salman began to lose his calmness ;

" Shfech yuba?? ta7achay! "

ok ok .. that's not helping at all ..

chab salman shway ..

let me take my time! ..

Shaikha ; " Salman .. "

I said while my eyes 3ala my plate ..

Shaikha ; " before 2 years kan there's some e3jab between me and

Mishary .. and as you know he called fahad oo 5a6abne .. bas after what?? ..

laish he's so mad enna I let him go oo married you .. because enna I trusted him .. oo kent an6era ye5tarraj 3alashan netzawaj .. but One day .. he let me go without telling me asasan what the reson! .. oo from a friend .. I find out enna my step-mother oo haL friend esemha Salma .. uhma emsawen like a plan 3alshan ma yabone atzawejah .. cus uhwa kan emkallem his mom .. oo his mom etser cousin my step-mom .. elli estaktherta 3alay .. "

Salman stared at me ; " plan? "

Shaikha : " mmm .. they told him enna Im a slut oo bad girl oo

my style elli boys oo parties .. 7adii Im a player .. oo my friend yat galatli cus One day I was using her mobile oo sheft his number .. fa darait enna there's something wrong .. enna laish uhwa kan ela7eqni mn mokan lay mokan .. faj'a qarrar enna Im not the one! .. fa bas .. I let him go .. be6aqaq e6eqqa .. bas he knew the truth later .. oo came back to me enna yabii artha feeh oo atzaweja .. oo he called fahad ena ya56ebni oo you saw him .. "

Salman ; " aaha .. so im ur revenge? "

my eyes poped out ..

and my heart start beating so fast ..

I felt enna every drop of blood poped into my head! ..

Shaikha : " NOOOOO! SHAKO! ..

it's so over .. I don't wanna revenge aslan! ..

he's nothing to me 3alshan a3awer my heart oo enna

get marriend only to break his heart! ..

Salman ,

do you remember one day I came to you oo I told you enna

it's over oo I wanna break up?? ..

That was because I felt enna Im still attached to him ..

oo I couldn't hurt you or play with your heart ..

fa gelt I wanna break up ..

well , breaking up with you ..

doesn't mean enna Im back to him!

cause that's not an option for me! EWAAAAALI!

he betrayed me .. and believe On me 7ache ana ma sawaitah ..

oo every relationship must bigan and end with trust ..

etha il trust ra7 .. 5alas..! "

Salman face was .. expressionless!

emtanni7 .. masdooom ..

its like I just slap him ..

Shaikha ; " but there's a point I get over mishary ..

and his story ..

oo I promise my self to have a New clear start ..

and you Showed up ..

okay there's a point I was'nt sure about you ..

but that's so normaL .. Im sura enna there's a point

makent sure about me ..

I wasn't sure mu le'anna there's another option ..

I wasn't sure bas ya3ni enna inta New man oo ma3refik oo it's a marriage ya3ni .. So if we break up Now ..

I wouldn't think enna get married to mishary or

even think about giving him a chance ..

cus he's a kid oo he had me one day bas mu kaffo

enna a'9aye3 my life 3ala a7ad mu watheq fene .. "

Salman ; " what's the point ? laish gelteli Now? "

Shaikha ; " I don't wanna Began a marriage based on lies ..

oo I waanna make everything clear ..

Salman I didn't Do anything wrong ..

he was 5a6ebni oo we was planing on getting married ..

bas there's nas dashaw in the middle oo 5arebaw ..

oo uhwa saddaq so I break up 3annah oo I don't wanna get back to hem .. and I chose you Over him .. "

Salman raised his Hand ; " check please! "

I stared at him ..

and Choked with my tears ; " Saa .. Saalmaan .. ana .. "

he paid the check ..

and stand up ; " emshay! "

we walked to the car without a word ..

I was deep into my own world ..

oo he was in his own world too ..

rekabna il car ..

Shaikha ; " Salman .. I .. "

Salman ; " Sektay wela kalma! "

I choked ..

Stared at the window ..

while his driving 7ad'ha fast and crasy ..

cursing and yelling 3ala everyone elli bil street ..

Salman ; " khaaaaaaaarrra!!! fuuuuuuck youuuuuu idiiiiiiooooooottttttt! .. allllll3aaaaaaaaan ommmmmmmek! 7ayyyyyyyyywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnn! "

6aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa66 ..

I closed my eyes ..

it was just so mes ..

Shaikha : " SALMAAAAAAAAAAANNNNN!!!!!!!!! "

he put his hand 3ala il hern ..

oo put all of his anger 3alaih ..

6aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa66666!

OMMMMMMMMMMMMG!

I felt enna il hern dakheL my chest ..

I couldn't handle it ..

Shaikha ; " SALMAAAAAAAN! .. SALMAAAAAAN .. "

He turned his eyes .. oo looked direct into mine ..

without saying a single word ..

I start crying so hard ..

actually I crashed Down ..

Shaikha ; " BRAAAAAAAAVO! .. THAT FUCKING MISHARY

JUST DID WHAT HE WAAAANT! ..

HE RUIN MY LIFE ..

AND BREAK MY MARRIAGE ,

I LOVE YOU SALMAAAAAAN!

AND THAT ASSHOLE CAN'T CHANGE IT ..

OKAY I APPROVED 3ALA OUR KHE6BA WITHOUT ANY

TINNY FEELING TOWARD YOU .. BAS HAM ENTA MAKENT ET7EBNI

CUS YOU DON'T KNOW ME!!!!!!!! .. IM SORRY ABOUT THAT .. BELIEVE ME .. IF A HAVE THE POWER TO DELETE HIM FROM MY LIFE .. I WILL! .. SALMAN I CHOSE YOU BECAUSE I FIND IN YOU THE MAN I DIDN'T FIND IT IN MISHARY OR MY FATHER! .. I FELT SAVE BETWEEN UR ARMS .. FELT ENNA I HAVE A THAHAR ATSANNAD 3ALAIH .. AND NOW WHEN I TRUST UR FEELING TOWARD ME .. OO AGOOLIK ILSEJ LAISH HATHA IL 7AQER LA7EQNA .. OO ENNA HE'S JUST A KID MU MET3AWED 3ALA IL REJECTION .. OO ENA I LOVE YOU OO ABEEK ENTAA .. CHETHE ETSAWELI?? .. "

Salman didn't replied 3ala kalame ..

he just kept driving so fast ..

and took a short fast breaths ..

I covered my face with my hand ..

oo choked with my tears ..

gumt ashahhiq ..

oo mummbled like a little kid ..

Shaikha ; " I don't know why ana 3aisha .. what this stupid life

just gave me a great man to love .. eyeli il'3abi hatha oo e5areb 3alay ..

I don't know why the hell I don't have a good life to live! .. wayy3a! ..

walla way3a .. I hate everything okay .. kelman 7mar! .. I swear enna this life just a shit! okaay .. I hate kilshay .. and Im an asshole oo kalba oo 7aqira .. I hate my self .. and I hate Mishary and my father oo my whole life .. and great .. Now .. im just a knocked up 21 years girl .. How owsem is that .. khara .. "

Salman stopped the car 3ala il side of the highway ;

" shaikha stop it .. "

Shaikha ; " no no 3adi salman 3adi .. that's okay ..

I understand ur anger .. astaheL aslan .. Im just a bitch .. "

He put his finger 3ala my lips ; " ush! you're not! "

Shaikha ; " don't ush me salman .. I understand that ..

khalas Im a bitch "

Salman ; " NO! .. yo're not Shaikha .. I know everyone 3endah his past oo drama ib his life .. Im angry laish chathabtay 3alay oo channii Idiot bil mawtho3 .. khalaiteeny arou7 a6eeqqa! okay he deserve it! bas ana 6aqqa 3ala sabab oo I should kick his ass 3ala another reason! "

I said while sneefing .. ;

" No .. No .. walla mu idiot ..

bas I was so afraid to lose you ..

I can't handle loosing you Salmani ..

I love you 7abebe ..

walla I can't lose you .. I can't .. I .. "

he moved toward me ..

while whispereing ; " your red eyes and crying voice ..

maL aklich .. "

I gave him a half smile ; " hehe .. wai3 .. shakli movie!.. "

he smiled ; " I love movies .."

I whispered while biting my lips ; " kiss me .. "

He smiled while kissing my lips in a passion way..