36 }~

Hours passed by .. and I was still holding my Mobile so close to my heart waiting for Dr. Bader to call me .. tell 3 .. I let me mobile down and fell a sleep ..


The weekend passed slowly .. while me still hopelessly waiting for him to call! I didn’t touch the midterm material! Ma ba6alt il ketab! I wasn’t in mood to study .. makan lie kholq afakker feeh
oo eb madetah ..



Sunday morning ..

I tucked into my favorite dark blue jeans with a colorful long sleeves loose shirt .. let my hair down in a big waved –the way he likes it!- and get into my car ..
I entered the class without looking at him .. took the papers from the secretary ely kanat etraqebna ..
I wrote my name while thinking : “ khalisaw el secretaries eyeb hathy ely et7eba? Laish ga3ed esaweli chethy? “
I managed to write few things down .. after 15 mins I gave him the paper ..


Dr. Bader said with a grin on his face : “ khalastay? That was fast mashala! “

I gave him a look while whispering : “ if a passed this course , I’ll be glad! “

His smile faded : “ of! Why? “

I walked away without saying a world to him ..
I dialed shoug’s ..

Nouf : “ omg! Shoguuuu! “

Shoug : “ whaaat? “

Nouf : “ Dr. Bader = jerk! “

Shoug : “ wupsiiii! Whyyyy? “

Nouf : “ bas! “

Shoug : “ faj’a? “

My voice starts shivering : “ god .. men..qah..ra!! Im .. so .. mad! “


Shoug : “ Nouff!! 7abebty! Shfech? Shenu sar!! “

I told her what happened ena dazaitlah email oo ena he sent me his number oo he didn’t call!

Shoug : “ mmmmm! Enzain I wouldn’t judge you even though I don’t want you to call him le’any a7is you should know him better then fall for him , bas after all kaifech that’s ur life .. anyways , maybe kan yen6erich you edegen? Or maybe kan 3enda sheghel .. “

Nouf : “ Shouguuuu! Elyoom yetsarraf chana mafy shay sayer!! Takhayelay!! Luw ohwa mo kashet oo yan6erny adeg chan sa’alne!! Chan bayan 3alaih ena madqooor !! “

Shoug : “ well , I dunno Noufo .. ne6ray you’ll find out hal yoomain laish ma dag .. “

I saw him walking toward me .. So, I just kept talking on the phone with Shoug and didn’t bother myself to look at him .."

Nouf : “ ee aked! Enshaalla sure I wil show up! “

Shoug : “ ok! Someone lezag feech! Haha! “

I giggled : “ heheh! Yeeesss! Exactly! “

Dr. Bader : “ Talk to me .. “

His manly Armani Perfume washed my lungs .. I just couldn’t help my self .. I took a deep breath .. while saying good bye to Shoug ..

Nouf : “ Shougii .. I will call you later ok ? yala bye bye .. “

Shoug yawned while saying : “ aaaaah … okkk babes! .. bye bye .. “


I closed the line while saying calmly to him : “ Yes? “

Dr. Bader : “ why are you mad ? “

Nouf : “ Im not mad! “

Dr. Bader : “ 3ayal? What do you call this frowned eye browses? “

My heart smiled on his remark ..

Nouf : “ I’m Not mad .. I’m just disappointed .. you said you will call me later on night , oo I waited for 3 days and you didn’t call!! What that suppose to mean? “

Dr. Bader : “ I got busy Nouf .. wala il3athem I got so busy ma amdane .. makent aby adeglich bu 10 mins oo aseda .. kent aby asoolif weyach ellail eb 6oolah .. bas I got busy with midterms oo grades oo homework .. “

I cut him off : “ I wanna get FA! “

The shock tight his tongue .. : “ Nouf? WHY! “

Nouf : “ Because I don’t wanna attend you classes anymore! I don’t wanna See you! “

I took 2 steps to the back .. while my small nose start turning into cherry red ..

Nouf : “ ma aby ashoofik anymore .. men il bedaya kilshay ghala6! Men il badaya! “

He touched my fingers gently and said tenderly : “ Noufa .. I didn’t mean it .. “

I felt so weak from inside ..

Nouf : “I don’t know you! I just don’t! ma3arf 3anek shay! That’s mess! “

Bader : “ come with me .. yalla lets go to my office oo I’ll tell you everything about me .. ok? “

Nouf : “ why you didn’t call Bader? “

It felt weird .. calling him Bader .. without Dr. aw any sign of respect ..

He smiled : “ my name sounds nice mennich .. “

I smiled back : “ answer me? “

Bader : “ can you let this go? 3alashane? “


I nodded while walking with him to his office ..

We sat down .. ordered coffe .. and starts talking about our lives ..
hours passed by chenha degeega ..






Bader : “ shagoolech ba3ad? “

I giggled : “ ba3ad ba3ad .. I didn’t get enough from you! “

Bader : “ bas wala nouf .. I told you everything about me .. 2 boys me and my bigger brother Ahmed , I have one sister Maha o 3endaha 2 Kids Yousif And Saleh she’s divorced fa sakna weyana ehya oo e3yalha .. 3ady I have normal dad and mom , I work here bil jam3a .. I drive Black Cayenne .. I hate fast food! I don’t drink soft drinks .. I smoke .. Im quite akrah lez3aj 3aks ahaly elly kilwa7ed fanan bil 7ana oo ilez3aj oo el khbaaal .. “


His mobile ringing cut our conversation ..

“ Maha.”

He said while smiling : “ kaaahom ahalyy bedaitay etshofeen 7anat’houm oo ez3ajhoum! “

I giggled ..


Dr.Bader : “ Hala Maha .. eeh bel jam3a .. elyoom? La magdar! Rou7aw ebrou7kom! La laish? .. aha ok .. I will see! Faman allah .. “


He closed the line while saying : “ oooooooh! Nesait ena ilyoom il a7ad .. our family gathering .. 3aizaaaaaaaaaaaaan! “

Nouf : “ bil3aks! I love family gathering .. I used to gather everyday taqreban with my cousins elly geltlik 3anhoum .. bas min safaraw athneena menhoum .. a7is we are not the old ones 7asafa .. “

He said loudly: “ akkkkkkkkkkkkrah il family gathering! “

I giggled : “ set next to someone you love oo gazzerha suwalif laima etkhallis elyam3a .. “

Bader : “ hehe eee shakli chethy .. “

Nouf : “ and who’s the lucky beloved one? “

He said softly : “ You. “

I blushed : “ hehe! Shewadene yam3atkom! “

Bader : “ la I will text you all the time , laima etkhalis elyam3a .. akhalich tet7asefain laish you gave me your number! “

I giggled while saying : “ luckyyy me! 3ady mara7 at7assaf! You more than welcome .. “

Bader: “ khalas 3ayal .. I will go to my gathering oo you go 7ag your classes .. oo bainah texts .. ok? “

I nodded : “ ok .. “

Bader : “ yala baba let’s go .. “

And he opened the office door gently for me ..

35 } ~

Extra Long post for your souls! ;*






** NOUF **

I start running in the hall way,
resisting the urge to get back to his office and … and … I don’t know!
I can’t define shenu bil thab6 .. I like him so much , yet I don’t a tinny little thing about his life!!


I headed To Shoug’s House .. I miss her so much! Maly shoghel feeha! I don’t care , I will always be her side no matter what , 7eta law mal’ha kholqe .. I will be there for her ..

I knocked on her door .. It was so quite .. Everything seemed missed up! .. il dar 3afsa oo thalma ..
I lifted her cover gently while kissing her head ..
Nouf : “ babe .. “ Tears starts running coldly on her cheeks ..
She broke my heart …. Latterly! BROKE .. MY .. HEART … I just hugged her tight .. while whispering : “ uuuuush! That’s ok .. that’s ok .. I’m here for you shoug .. ta3awethay mn eblis .. “

We went outside the house , abee etghayyer jaw .. re7na temashaina .. hatharna .. she seemed lost bas Strong ashwa ..
I start blabbing about Dr.Bader ..

Nouf : “ agoooolich he flirted 3ala my yellow dress! Shfech entay! He likes me!! “

Shoug : “ hatha proper comment ballah 3alaich? “

I stormed : “ EEEEH!! SHFEEH YA3NIIIII?? 7aram 3alaich magal shayyyy!! It depends 3ala tafkerich! “

She said calmly : “ noufo deer balich! Shakla kellish mo hayyen! Plus I didn’t accept the idea of loving your professor! “

WHAT!!! 3ADAL!!

Nouf : “ agooooool 3adal! Loving your cousin arqa3 ya3ne? “

She giggled : “ malat 3alaina! Ma arda men ilmarbou6 ella el meftelet! “




We start laughing about normally stupid things .. a7is enna we’re back .. the old friends ..
Sharaina Mcdonalds and headed back to her house ..
Gabel la tanzel .. I whispered : “ Shougg .. “
She replied while eating her crispy golden fries : “ hmmmm? “

Nouf : “ Dr… bader .. gave me .. shesma .. “

Shoug yelled : “ A KISSSSSSSSSSSSSSS? “

Nouf : “ besmellah! Masra3!! Laaaaa! Wain ga3den!! Shesalfa! Hahahaha! “

She choked : “ haha! 3abalyyyyyy! Wala athbe7ich! Et7ebly eyah mn esbo3ain oo she gets a kiss .. oo ana a67as mn sentain 3ala shenu? Hehehehe “

We start laughing so hard ..

Nouf : “ hahah .. laaaaa! He gave me ,.. hahaha .. Sunday’s Exam! Hehehe .. “

Shoug eyes winded : “ WHAT? “

She put her coca cola down while saying : “ 3eday 3eday! He gave you Sunday’s exam? Ya3ne 3a6ach emte7ankom ely eb ta5thona after few days? Ya3ni .. ghasheshech!! “

I nodded with fear on my eyes .. : “ eemm .. “

She covered her mouth .. shocked! As I expected for sure!
Shoug : “OH MY GOD!!!!! YOU ARE SO LYING!!!!!!! “

Nouf : “ wallah il3atheem!! I swear!! I went to his office as’ela 3an shaghla , wela egooli questions el exam!! Walah!! I didn’t ask him to do that! Uhwa ebrou7a gal besa3edny because he likes me!! “

Shoug : “ ABAAAAAAIH! HE’S SO CUTTTTE! “

Nouf : “ abaih bas shougo that’s so wrong muu? “

Shoug : “ I guess , bas shako ya3ne he gave it you .. you didn’t do anything wrong ya3ne .. uhwa elly ghal6an not you! Even if anyone found out! .. uhwa elly 3a6ach .. you didn’t steal it ya3ne .. did you? “

Nouf : “ hehehe! LAAAAA! No way!! “

Shoug said while getting out of my car : “ hehehe dirsay 3adel mo etfashleena! Ham emghasheshech ham stupid! “

I giggled : “ huh, yala yala nezlay ebser3a I wanna go fast home 3alshan araje3! Hahaha! “



I clicked on the “RADIO” sign ..While heading back home ..
Ilmothe3: 3oumrik fakart eb a7ad oo matadry shel sebab? Eb kil mawqef .. eb kil 7azza .. telga nafsek sar7an feeh .. laish ya tara? Es’al nafsek hal so’al .. laish ga3ed etfakker feeh? ..
I smiled ..
“ a7ibak laih ana madry? Oo laih ahwak ana , madre? .. oo lay marat 3alay thekrak? Efiiizzz enabth fe sadreey .. “


I whispered : “ I miss you .. I really missed your voice dr. bader .. I don’t know what’s happening to me .. I really don’t know .. “

I got back home , dawart eb my file .. found the syllabus paper with his E-mail on it ..

To: Dr.Bader@Gust.Kw
Title: hi
Hello Dr. Bader , Shlounek?? .. I just wanted to thank you 3ala ur help today .. it wasn’t necessary walah .. thanks so much .. and I will study hard inshala : )
NOUF.

I clicked send ..

And went to take a shower .. a7is etha jabalt il laptop ra7 astekhef .. khal alahy rou7y shwayya .. 3ala ma erid .. I turned after 10 mins to the laptop ..
The Inbox was … 0 messages
I felt disappointed ..

*dideng*
I smiled : “ yeeeeeeey! New Email! “

To: Nouf
Title: Hey!
Ahleen Nouf .. you’re most welcome. Good luck : )

I stared at the laptop screen .. ok? That’s it? That’s all what I get for thanking you? I’m hitting on you!! Ya3ne efham!! Omg!

To: Dr.Bader@Gust.kw
Title: Hey!
What’s wrong with you? Laish emnaffis 3alay!

My fingers were shivering so hard when I pressed send to this email ..
I was scared and mad .. shfeeh emnafis 3alay?

After few mins ..

To: Nouf
Title: Hey!
Emnafis? .. nothing! I’m upset about something ..

7abebeeeeeeeee! ;’*

To: Dr.Bader@Gust.Kw
Title: Hey!
Ely uhwa? .. tell me .. I will be glad to help you out ..

To: Nouf
Title: Hey!
I have leave the Laptop for now , call me after 2 hours .. 3ala il 12 .. and I will have time to explain everything .. ok? Its 99***** ..

I got horrified by this idea! .. I can’t call him! .. I can’t do this .. abaih! Akhaf! Akhaf!

To: Dr.Bader@Gust.Kw
Title: Hey!
What? No no .. I can’t call you Dr. Bader , I’m sorry .. I will talk to you later on this week .. but I just can’t call you ..


After mins of gaspomps ..

To: Nouf
Title: Hey!
oh Sorry!! I thought I was special! .. as you want Nouf, don’t call me .. don’t stand by my side when I really need you..

DAMN! Why why why!! He have his magical way of making me feel really guilty!!

To: Dr.Bader@Gust.Kw
Title: Hey!

Khalas .. la tez3al! I’m sorry .. call me meta ma khalast your work .. I don’t wana disturb you .. 9*** .. : )

To: Nouf
Title: Hey!
Xoxo!

My eyes smiled ..

his “xoxo” lightened my life ..

34} ~

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH GIRLS!! :*










** NOUF **

Few weeks passed by ..
And my love for Dr. Bader starts growing bigger and bigger in my heart..

Dr.Bader : “ so girls , Sunday ra7 ekoon the first midterm ..
Study hard and get good grades for me .. ok ? “

I was collecting my books oo mobile oo a7e6’houm eb my big Gucci bag.
I went to his disk eb awal il class ..

Nouf : “ excuse me Dr. .. bas’elik about this one .. “
Pointing 3ala question number 3 bil exercise akher il chapter ..

“ give me .. ashoof! “ he reached for my book while touching my tips gently .. I shivered ..
I let a quite giggle ,I felt flirted .. so flirted .. he gave me a half smile with a dazzling look ..

“ etha7ik? “ he whispered .. I nodded while saying : “ shway! .. “

The girls were crowds around us .. but still he managed to make me feel special! 7assait henna we were in a bubble .. mako 7olna wela a7ad! Only me .. and him ..

Dr.Bader : “ hatha em6awwel shar7a! come to me after the class in my office hours .. “

I nodded while taking my book from his hands : “ mm .. khalas okay dr. thank you! “

I walked to the bathroom .. fixed my makeup , took a quick shower with my perfume! And head to his office ..

I whispered deep in my heart : “ GOD! I’m doing something wrong sa7? .. I can’t resist him! Emshaweqnyyy!! I just can’t back off! 7ail 3ajebni .. what would harm me to take steps forward? Ya3ni he’s so cuuuute! Oo dr. oo 3oumra zain oo everything perfect! Laish ma a7iba? Laish I feel so guilty about it? .. yeah! Maybe 3alashan I didn’t talk about it with anyone! .. I will head today for shougo oo I’ll chit chat about my crazy crush! Oo akeed it will make me feel better about this .. “

I knocked on his door ..
Nouf : “ hello? “

Dr.Bader : “ come Inn .. “

I entered his tiny office .. and his face just glow up when he spotted me ..

Dr . Bader: “ NOUF!! “

I smiled : “eeeh! Hehehe! “

Dr. Bader : “ come! 7ayach .. “

I blushed : “ allah e7ayik .. I just wanted to ask about Question three! Getli enna 6oweela il answer so lazm aye to ur office? “


I love to play that naïve kid jedamah! I knew it enna mu emnadeny to his disk 3alashan ejaweb sou’al! .. bas makent aby abayenlhaa enna ana fahma .. egoloon it’s smart to play dumb sometimes?

Dr. Bader : “ yeah! Right .. give me your email , and I’ll send you the exam! “

My heart skipped a beat : “ Wh..wha .. what? The exam? “

He laughed 3ala my face : “ hehe! Shfeech chethy masdooma? Yes! The exam! “

Nouf : “ no! abaih 3aib! No no .. abaih! No ! fashla! La mo hatha qasde!! .. which exam? Sunday’s exam! Oh my god!!!!! “

Dr. Bader : “ Nouf! Shfech? Calm down!! .. khalas .. I wouldn’t send it to you! .. sem3ay .. where’s your book? .. 7e6ay .. page 200 Question 8 .. page 170 Question 29 .. page 120 Question 3 .. “


I start pointing 3ala il ashya elly ga3ed egoolha .. afta7 il page oo a7e6 check yam elly egoola .. while my heart was etching me so hard!

Dr. Bader : “ khalas? “

Nouf : “ omg! That was scaryyyyyyy! “

Dr. Bader : “ haha! Laish? “

Nouf : “ cause omg! Wala il3athem I just came to ask you about question number 3 .. mo to get il exam eb kobrah!! Awal mara eserly shay chethy eb my life!! .. okay ana sam3a ena drs iljam3a e7laiwen .. bas mo chethyyyyyyy! “

Dr. Bader : “ la mn gallch e7laiwen? They are not e7laiwen! Bas ma3a ely edeshon mazajhoum eseron ghair .. “


He said that while picking sama3at il phone oo dialing a number!
I didn’t know what to replay .. “ edeshoon mazajhoum”? ana dasha mazaja ya3ne? .. what that suppose to mean aslan!!
He ignored my questioning eyes ..
oo sawa rou7a lahy eb papers jedamah while talking with his secretary I guess!
A7iissa bas bege6 3alay ilkelma oo e5alene agoolebha eb rasy ..
he don’t want me to answer ..





“ Nouf .. “

He brought me back to reality .. : “ hala? “

Dr. Bader: “ bashawrich eb shaghla .. “

Nouf : “ sure? “

Dr. Bader : “ there is a secretary here .. ely laima tedkhelen etkon 3ala yemenich .. she always set bil disk ell y yamme 3end dr. Yousif oo tetkalam eb loud voice .. I hate loud voices .. akrah il az3aj! .. kilyoom kilyoom teg3ad 3endah oo taqreq .. I can’t concentrate menha! .. tell yesterday I shouted on her! Getlaha az3ajteeeeeena!! Bas sektay! .. I felt ina I hurt her feelings .. bas ehya allah ehadaha 24 sa3a tetmasha jedame oo etsarekh oo taz3ejne! I hate this! Bas ham ma a7b asarekh .. I hate being rude to someone .. “


Nouf : “ 7araaaaam! .. okay goulaha sorry! .. ya3ni e3tether menha .. goulaha inna I was under stress oo ga3d a7e6 il exams oo entay la5ba6teeny fa I shouted on you! “

Dr. Bader : “ I would never apologize for anyone! No way!! Ensay! .. ehya moz3eja sej! “

I giggled :” heheh .. she likes you! Sorry ya3ni .. bas she likes you! She wants you attention! Ga3ed tetmasha jedamik oo etsarekh bil disk elly yamek oo etzefha oo still ma taghayerat 3alaik .. she likes you! “

Dr. Bader : “ how did you knew that eb degega wa7da? “

Nouf : “ common! Ya3ni fe ashya wath7a! ma te7taj tafker … elly enta ga3ed etgoolah .. ashkara she likes you! “

Dr . Bader : “ it took my 1 year to notice that! Oo entay eb one minute chakaiteeha? “

I felt proud of myself enna I’m smart!
Meanwhile , I felt so jealous! Abaih shaaaaaako she likes him!

Nouf : “ hehe! Madry .. girls know each other maybe! “

Dr. Bader : “ so? Shrayich? “

Nouf : “ etha she likes you fa 7aram la tadqerha oo taksir galb’ha .. say sorry aw be nice to her .. make it up for her .. “
I said that while a7tereg mn dakheeeeeel ..
I wanted to bunch her in the face! He’s mine!!

Dr. Bader : “ ahh .. I guess so .. “

Nouf : “ yalah I have to go to my class , thank you for the help .. “

Dr. Bader : “ Nouf ..... did anyone told you before? “

Nouf : “ about? “

Dr. Bader : “ how this yellow flow dress brings your figure out? “

I took a step to the back , while blushing so hard : “ hehe! Th..ank .. you! “

Dr. Bader : “ la wala jad! I’m so damn serious! .. that dress mafrooth ahalich maykhalonch
te6le3en feeh! “

I felt a little offended by that! : “ why! Shfeh? It’s tall and flow! “

Dr. Bader : “ and breath taking! “

Oh my god! I can’t handle this ..
I want to fall hardly for you! Magdar chethy ..
a7ibek bas ma a7ibek ..

Nouf : “ hehe! Well .. mashkoor! Be3yonek! “

Dr. Bader : “ Nouf .. that’s so wrong! “


Nouf : “ sheno ? “ I felt my hands shivering and my cheeks burning ..

Dr. Bader : “ falling for you! Mayser .. I’m your professor .. I can’t be so obsessive with your sharp wide brown eyes .. I can’t let my heart chase yours .. Nouf! I can’t imagine myself smelling your dazzling big waves .. mayser! “

He covered his face nervously .. while taking a big breath ..

Nouf : “ gosh! That’s too much to take! .. I don’t know what to say! I don’t know anything about you dr. bader .. “

He let a sweet giggled out : “ lel7een etnadeny dr. bader? Bas! “

I blushed : “ what? Shanadeek ya3ne! “

Dr. Bader : “ rou7ay classich ya bnaya! “

I giggled while walking away : “ hehe yeah! Atwaga3 a7san! “

33 } ~

Months start passing by ..
While I was still stuck eb nafs ilmokan ..
Lel7en olah 3ala Faris everyday .. every minute ..
I would fake a laugh to avoid the question “what’s wrong? “ which came so attached to me ..
Kilma a7ad esalem 3alay or eshofny 3ala 6ooool yes’alni what’s wrong ..
So I just tried to fake the perfect image which everyone wants from me!

I cut msn from my life .. sirt ma a7eb adesha .. cus ta3abt oo ana andeger ..
I used to stay online for 24/7 with no sign for Faris ..
Even though I’m the one who broke up with him , it wasn’t easy because 3oumrah makan hal break up shay ana ekhtarta! It was something enfarath 3alay ghasoob! So I didn’t find the right way to deal with this .. Faris za3lan 3alay .. mom pushing me so hard .. Nouf falling in love with her dr.!

Going to Nouf .. I’ll steal few posts from my story , to talk about her story from her perspective .. it would be better , write?
So,




*** NOUF ***

It started the Day elly 7a6 reela 3ala e3tebat il bab!
His tanned skin , His muscular shoulders .. the way he laughs .. the way his dazzling eyes glow whenever mayser bainnah eye contact ..
I wasn’t dreaming ..
I kept staring at my Note .. sketching dresses .. smiles .. flowers .. B ..
B .. B .. B .. I just kept writing B’s in a messy way .. I wrote the number 29 in the middle ..
I love men elly 3oumerhoum akher il 20’s .. a7is eshba3aw men ildenya oo they are real men .. mu boys! MEN! .. men to fall in love with .. to marry ..

He said : “ YOU! THE ONY WITH YELLOW FLOW DRESS!! “

The girl next to me whispered : “ eklmach il dr.!!! “

I raised my head : “ ye? Yes?? Ana? “

Dr. Bader : “ LA ANA!! .. sarlich sena shtakteben? Ana gilt shay yenketb? “

Damn! I suppose to hate the way ur talking to me .. right?
You’re so cuuuuuuute! I’m sorry don’t be maddd! ..

I whispered : “ sorry.. “

Dr.Bader : “ tadren enna awraq el syllabus wagfa 3endch mn sa3a!!! “

I nodded while taking one oo passes it to the girl next to me .. : “ asfa .. “

He kept talking about things us wil be covering this course oo meta il exams oo blah blahh …

I walked barra slowly .. I felt heavy .. a7is eny lost ..
I scanned the place with my eyes .. GOD! I miss jassim so much , kan gayelly bedish Gust with me ..

……. “ Shway ba3ad ethnich! “

I jumped .. : “ besmelah! “

Dr. Bader said in a sarcastic way : “ entay kela chethy lost in ur own world? “

I smiled sweetly to him : “ hehe! Sorry! “

Dr. Bader : “ Freshmen ha? “

I nodded : “ so obvious? “

Dr. Bader : “ offff! .. give me .. give me ur schedule .. “
fahamny kil class waina , oo gally brief 3an kil dr. makhtha 3enda .. he was sweet ..


Nouf : “ mashkor wayid dr. ma gassart! “


Dr. Bader : “ you’re welcome Nouf .. next time entabhay weyay bil class , I dunt ike to shout 3ala someone on public .. ma a7b a7rej .. “

I nodded : “ yes inshala! Goodbye .. “


I walked away .. with my heart beating so fast ..
I called Shoug , but she didn’t picked up ..
I was mad at her aked .. bas for sure, bas on the same time kasra kha6ry ..
I want her to take her time grieving 3ala faris oo kilshay sar bainhoum ..
I wish I can help.

he came from the other side men il mamar ..


Dr. Bader : “ bassseeeech sara7an! “

I turned his side : “ hehe! Mu sar7ana! Ga3da afakkir! “

He gave me a sexy half smile : “ la walla? Oo shel farg? “

Nouf : “ I dunno , ghair! A7is laima tesra7 you’re thinking of nothing! Balek fathy .. bas ga3da afakker enna eb baly things oo ga3da afakker fehoum .. “

Dr. Bader : “ mmmm .. things? Such as? “

I felt weird .. I wasn’t ready yet to open up with him .. plus he’s my dr. oo ezyada 3ala hatha enna I’m not this type of girls ..

Nouf : “ things .. anyways , I have to go .. “

Dr. Bader : “ wain wain? Ur next class after one hour .. “

Nouf : “ I dunno barou7 ashof wain il class! “

Dr. Bader : “ sa3a kamla etshofen wain il class? You’re so weird 3ala fekra! “

Nouf : “ No I’m not weird .. bas I feel awkward right now , this is so not me! “

Dr. Bader : “ and "this is ".. goes to ? enna wagfa etkalmen ur dr.? “
GOD! Why did he put it this way!

Nouf : “ I dunno dr. they way ell yenta etgool’ha a7is that’s ok .. bas madry a7is mo 7elwa ogaf asoolef .. fashla .. ur my doctor .. “

He giggled 3ala my innocent way of thinking : “ fashla? Yazeench! “

I blushed .. YA ZEENIK ENTA WALA! ..

Nouf : “ yala goodbye dr. I have to go now .. “

Dr. Bader : “ as you like .. bas remember , I’m not only your dr. I can be your friend too .. “

I nodded : “ hehehehe .. I will always remember that .. thank you Dr. .. “





And from that moment,
I started adoring you so much bader .. I started adoring you.

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Mathkir shenu libast .. elly eb wayhi sa7abt’ha oo lebasta ..

Nouf start mumbling : “ First with the stinky oily hair oo now hal halaga! Matgolele oo ba3dain? Tara athaiteeeeny! Met oo ana asanne3 feeeeech! “

She really made me laugh : “ heheh chub noufoo tara wala sij male khelq malaqtich .. “

Nouf : “ khalas khalas imshay I will take you to somewhere mafeeh a7ad .. fashla eshofoonch enas chethy! Heheh “

I giggled while pushing her shoulder ..
On the road ..
I was scanning the road with my sharp wide eyes ..
I missed his smell .. 7ail ..

I whispered : “ Noufa .. shasawey? “

She touched my cold fingers gently : “ about Faris? “

I nodded ..

she said calmly : “ shenu beedich shoug? .. it’s a matter of time atwagga3 .. le’ana laima yetkharaj he will come back to you .. oo your mom mara7 etridda .. so kil ilsalfa wagt .. sebray .. oo allah mara7 ethaye3 sabrich .. just calm down .. live your life .. oo everything will gonna be ok .. I promise .. “

Shoug : “ bas I miss him nouf .. I miss him so much! “

Nouf : “ Shay 6abe3e Shougu .. ilsalfa tawa sayra oo eb 7ararat’ha .. calm now .. fake a smile .. oo ba3ad ilwagt sej you’ll be okay oo your smile will genuine mo tamtheel … “
Her words make sense to me .. ya3ni ana shenu eb eedy asaweh?

Shoug : “ enzain should I call him? Text him? “

Nouf : “ mmm .. I dunno sara7a! I depend on you guys .. bas for now? Ma3teqed ena you’re ready wela uhwa .. take your time shougo .. it’s a love story you should enjoy it .. mu ghasob 6eeb .. ya3ni luw ilthoroof now mo emsa3datkom .. let it go for a while .. oo everything will turns to be ok later .. bas low now thagha6tay 3ala roo7ch oo thagha6tay 3alaih .. maybe it will be worse! “

Shoug : “ you’re absolutely right .. bas godddd! i miss his face so much noufooooo!! .. bas walla I will try my best .. specially enna I didn’t do anything wrong .. ya3ni kil ilmoshkela mafeha wallah cheating wella shay elly eza3elny … 3la qooltch it’s a matter of time ..”

She kissed my hand : “ 7abebty takseren ilkha6er .. “

I giggled : “ heheh maliqaaaa! .. soooo, watts up? Shlonch entay? “

Nouf : “ im good .. im so falling for this cutie pieeeee shougoo! Mu gadra ! “

I rolled my eyes : “ ayyy cutie pie? “

Nouf : “ kil marra athakrich? DR.BADER!! for the million time agolich!! “

Shoug : “ abaih mo gadra astaw3eb enna men sejich! .. are you serious about him? “

Nouf : “ HELL YAAAAAAA!! 3ayal laish bashta6? “

Shoug : “ I dunno! Shloon ilwath3 sayer? “

Nouf : “ first of all , you should never .. and I mean NEVER! Forget that he’s extra handsome ..
he’s a mixture of Mexican style tanned skin, dimples , and shoulders all the way .. oo Kuwaiti style eb khof il6eena oo eslooba eshaweq plus he’s so caring shougo!! Abaih e3amelny ghair 3anhoum .. he has feelings toward me I guess ya3ni .. “

She got my full attention now!…
Shoug : “ shloooooooon? “

Nouf : “ he looks at me all the time laima yeshra7 .. and he keeps calling me to his office 3ala salfa oo bedoon salfa! Marat aroo7la bas esoolif! Ya3ni maygoolle shay 3an il lecture .. and he comments about my outfit sa3at .. bas In a proper way ya3ni! .. et3arfeen my yellow flow dress? “

I nodded : “ eehh? “

Nouf : “ e7eeeeeba! He told me enna it looks so cute on me .. oo it brings my figure out .. “

Shoug : “ hatha proper comment ballah 3alaich? “

She stormed : “ EEEEH!! SHFEEH YA3NIIIII?? 7aram 3alaich magal shayyyy!! It depends 3ala tafkerich! “

I said calmly : “ noufo deer balich! Shakla kellish mo hayyen! Plus I didn’t accept the idea of loving your professor! “

Nouf : “ agooooool 3adal! Loving your cousin arqa3 ya3ne? “

I giggled : “ malat 3alaina! Ma arda men ilmarbou6 ella el meftelet! “

We both start laughing 3ala our luck! Shal bakhat? Why we didn’t crushed into random guys in the street oo started a cute love story? Laish en7eb il love ilstories elly start in a complicated ground?

Nouf : “ etsadgeen abaih shougo all the girls mayteen 3alaih! Bas he’s so straight! Noo3ah edaaaqer! 7etan ana .. ma ya36eene wayh wayed .. elly e7laiw ok .. bas mo khafef .. “

I smiled : “ ya7leelah! I wanna see him .. “

Nouf : “ enshalla you will .. “

Shoug : “really .. when? “



Nouf : “ eb our wedding! Hehehe! “

Shoug : “ heheh ma6yoooooooora! egoloon iltheqeeeeel san3a! “


Nouf: " ya 3ammeteeeeee! wana agool il theqel ba3daaain! hehehehe! "


we start laughing so hard about simple things ..
i guess .. ga3da arid 6abe3eya shway ..
ga3da astaw3eb elly ga3id eserly oo trying so hard to deal with it bedal il sleeping 24/7 ..

31} ~

VIVA LA SPAIN FARIS! :*

My voice just ditched me!
I wanted to say anything .. just replay his greets ..
Nothing is coming out of my mouth ..


Faris : “ aloo? Shoug? “

Shoug : “ h-hala w-waal-lla .. “

Fairs : “ 7abebty! Shfech? “

My voice was shivering .. and my heart was beating so fast ..

Shoug : “ don’t call me 7abebty faris .. don’t .. call .. “

Faris : “ Shougiiii! What’s wrong with you? Shfeech? Lat5ar3eeny 3alaich! “

I whispered : “ 7abebe don’t make it harder on me .. “

Faris : “ ya shoug cham marra agoolich its gonna be okay! Don’t worry .. I will always be on your side .. no matter what .. no matter where .. you’ll be always in my heart shoug .. “

Shoug : “ ana adry adry!! You have been always so good to be true! I knew it!! “


I start crying for the first time infront of faris ..
I would have little tears jedammah or at3abbar .. bas it’s the first time where I start crying
honestly from the depth of my lungs ..


Faris : ” SHOUUUUUUUUG!! LA ETSE7EEEEN! WALLA OO GHALATICH MA AROU77777! WALA MA AROU7!! STOP CRYING 7ABEBETYYYY ENTAYY! KELLISH WELA EDMOU3CH! MA AROU7 KHALAS .. WALLA PROMISE MA AROU77! WALA AS7AB AWRAQE BACHER OO AG3AD BIL DEERA BAS LA TABCHEEEEEEEN! “

I start yelling : “ STOP BEING SO KIND TO ME! YOU’RE MAKING THIS HARDER FARIS! STOP LOVING ME! KHALAAAAAAAAAASSSSSS! “

Seconds of weird silent passed by ..

He said in a shock : “ shgasdich? “

I said with a mixture of sadness and letting go emotions : “ Mom Faris , Mom! .. she forced me to choose between you and her … galatly etha I kept talking to you she’ll be mad at me forever! Which I can’t stand Faris .. I love you .. and I will forever .. bas I’m letting you go for the sake of my mother .. “

I heard him says in weakness : “ shno shno? “

I kept talking : “ if we were meant to be .. we’ll find our way back .. but for now, you should concentrate on ur study and making me proud of you faris .. and I will try hard to change my mom’s mind .. bas tell that happens .. we will be apart faris .. “

Faris : “ is this your way shoug of saying goodbye to me?"

Shoug : “ I believe that our love will beat this .. “

Faris : “ what this? You letting me go shoug? You walking away? You ditching me? “

Shoug : “ no faris no .. I just .. “

Faris : “ ga6aiteny 3ala sakhar! “

Shoug : “ faris latgool chethy .. you know I would never do that to you! I love you! Wenta adra ilnas feny oo eb 7ubby lek .. you know I love you so much faris .. bas shenu eb eedy? “

Faris : “ I need some air .. many gader afham elly ga3id eserlina .. “

Shoug : “ be strong and take care of yourself ok? Oo everything will turn to be okay .. and this will make our love stronger .. just stay faithful to me faris .. “

Faris : “ entay meqtan3a eb hal 5arabee6 elly ga3id etgoolenha? Entay sa7ya? Mn kil 3aqlich .. “

Shoug : “ la mo meqtan3a .. but I have to choose .. I have to faris .. “

Faris : “ faman allah shoug! “

Shoug : “ fa.. “


and he hang up the phone ..
I couldn’t breathe or cry ..
I just couldn’t do anything for the next couple of days ..
My mom would come to my room , and I would definitely fake a sleep to avoid talking to her ..
I couldn’t stand anything .. even Nouf .. I didn’t have the courage to tell her about us ..
Bas feeha ilkhair 7abebty ..
After two weeks .. she kept calling and calling me ..
Oo ana kella 7aqra ..
Some days I just left my mobile switched off to avoid any connection with the world …
I just wanted faris .. that’s all .. ghairah? Mo mohim ..


She lifted my cover gently while kissing my head ..
Nouf : “ babe .. “
Tears start running coldly on my cheeks ..
She hugged me tight .. while whispering : “ uuuuush! That’s ok .. that’s ok .. I’m here for you shoug .. ta3awethay mn eblis .. “

I was so weak without him .. I didn’t have the strength yet the hope to face anything ..

Shoug : “ N.. “

She said while brushing my messy oily hair : “ hala 7abebty? “

Shoug : “ shakli loo3a? “

She giggled : “shwayy .. luw ma sha3rich lemdahhen etkonen zwaina! Hehe “

I smiled .. for the first time from weeks .. I talked to someone .. and smiled!
Shoug : “ khaisa .. “

She kissed my cheek : “ yalla wake up .. isa3a 5 ilmagharb .. take a bath oo lets go out .. your room stinks ge6ee3a! 7asha ga6wa mo ademeyya! “
I giggled while walking to the bathroom .. to take a long healing bath ..

30}~

I posted before two days! But I don’t know where the post suddenly disappeared! ;/
2 posts for today! ;* or maybe 3 ? (a)
ENJOY.

I whispered to him .. : “ betrou7 khalas? “

He nodded gently : “ ee barou7 khalas .. “

I swelled my sadness with my heavy breathes and smiled to him : “ ra7 afgedik wayid .. “

He touched the corner of my eyes : “ I will miss you too .. “

I said while brushing my hair nervously : “ aby arou7 baitna , maby ashofik zyada .. the more I see you the more I will miss you .. “

He giggled : “ hehe! Chana shako? “

I giggled back : “ heh! Adre .. bas that’s true! “

Faris : “ Shoug la et7ateen .. everything is gonna be okay , I promise! Walah! I swear! “

Shoug : “ adry! I trust you .. bas .. bas .. “

Faris : “ bas sheno? “

Shoug : “ take a good care of yourself ok? And come back safe to me as soon as possible! Ok? “
He smiled and pointed on his cute sharp nose : “ 3ala hal khashim .. “

“ malik shebeeh .. ya aghla ilnas kellouhum .. “

I took my mobile from my miumiu bag. : “ alo? “

Mama: “ wainch shoug? “

Shoug : “ ana eb bait mama 6aiba , I texted you gabel sa3a! “

Mama : “ shetsaween there? “

Shoug : “ haw youma! Nothing! 3ady ga3deen .. “

Mama: “ ga3deen stands for what? “

Shoug : “ I didn’t get it mom. It means ena ga3deen doing nothing, 3ady .. why? “

Mama : “ because ana kany rada mn tasyoora m3a omch 6aiba! Kannah barra! .. yala nizlay .. “

And she closed the line ..
I gave Faris a confused scared look ..

He nodded : “ adry adry sima3t .. il volume 3ali .. sema3t! “

I said while pushing his shoulder from the back : “ go and move ur car! So I don’t get into troubles with mom”

Faris said calmly : “ first, I don’t have time ana oo reely 3alshan asbeq omch wehya barra .. second even though 7arrakt sayarte matgolele shetsawen ebrou7ch ehny? Ya3ni it’s not logical .. fa te6le3en ghal6ana a7san men la te6le3een mu sa7ya .. I guess! “

I giggled : “ hehe! Yeah I guess! .. yalah bye .. I should go .. “

Faris : “ yala lets go .. “

Shoug : “ la please! Walla she’s gonna kill me! .. en6er here for 10 mins then rou7 .. “

He nodded : “ elly eray7ich .. “

I blow him a kiss and went to the main door to face mom and mama 6aiba walking toward the door ..

I kissed mama 6aiba’s head and my mom’s too .. while she gave me the coldest look ever ..
Wasalt mama 6aiba the living room , and went to the car where mom is .
Rekabt ilsayara acting innocent ..
Shoug : “ ilsalam .. “

Mom : “ wa3alaikoum isalam. “

Shoug : “ shlon ilyam3a? “

Mom gave me a look .. : “ yam3ete wela yam3etch? “

I felt so guilty : “ la yours.. “

Mom : “ good .. shoug ? “

I mumbled : “ mmmm? “

I was really scared .. 7asait mom for the first time ra7 e6eqni ..

Mom : “ shoug e7na shgelna?”

My heart start etching so hard : “ shgelna mom? Khalas .. I just went there to say goodbye .. its over .. he’s traveling after tomorrow .. “

Mom: “ la safreta shay ooh ally etsawoona shay thany! Shoug you will never find an understanding mom methyl! I’m so open minded oo sema3tch oo fahamt mench .. bas you promised! Sa7 wela la? “

I start playing with my fingers nervously ..

Mom : “ sa7 wela la!! “

I nodded while tears start rolling in my cheeks ..
Mom knew that I don’t cry that much ..
She knew that when I cry over something? It must be really big ..

Shoug : “ mom I couldn’t keep my promise although I tried .. wala il3atheem jarabt aheeda oo jarabt to end it all bas 3alshan 5a6rich .. but I couldn’t resist him .. it’s a matter of 3 years and he will marry me .. you know me mom .. you know that I don’t play around .. and I will never do something will make you a shame of me .. “

I took a deep breath while saying ..

Shoug : “ you know mom I’ll do anything for your sake .. you know that if I had to choose between you and the world .. I wouldn’t think twice! I will always take ur side .. mom don’t do this to me .. you know me .. you know us .. and walah il3atheem we are not doing anything wrong walah! .. bas neg3ad wensoolif as any normal cousins .. mom you know faris! You know him akthar men chethy .. you should trust us .. “

Mom gave me a serious look while saying : “ etha tabeen erthay? Leave him .. erthay oo ez3aly hally ga3ed eseer .. I swear shoug enny mo rathya 3alaich 6ool ma enty ga3ed etsaween chethy .. “

She parked in our garage .. but we were still dakhel ilsayara net7acha ..

Shoug : “ mom you raised mo so well , and I know right from wrong! I know what I’m doing .. don’t force me to do something I dunt wanna do! .. youma allah ekhalich! La et5ayreene bain shayyain magdar 3alaihoum! Leave faris or you being angry at me? Shlon akhtaar? Magdar afakir! Mom , you were a girl and you absolutely know the way I feel .. imagine ur self in my shoes .. “

She cut me off .. a7is galb’ha beeda e7in 3ala kalmay fa makant taby et’hawwen .. : “ SHOUG! Hatha akher kalame .. ez3aly oo erthay faris .. “

I stormed out of her Bmw .. and went to my room ..
I locked the door behind me .. and slept , slept like there’s no tomorrow to face .
Around 12pm I opened my eyes .. I was facing a horrible headache oo my eyes 7ad’houm puffy ..
You know when you sleep 12 hours but you still feel exhausted?
I stared at my creamy roof while thinking about mom and faris ..
I have to choose ..
I have to pick one side ..
A hot tear on my pillow made the choice ..
Mom , will always take the lead of my heart ..

I pressed his number to tell him that it’s over..
I picked mom over his love ..
I will let him go for my mom’s sake ..

His deep passionate face lightens my morning : “ saba7 ilward babe .. “

29 }~

Nouf clicked her fingers, I suddenly jumped...

Shoug : “ besmellah!! “

Nouf : “ wain er7tay?? Yabaw ilfatoora oo 6ala3t my wallet oo defa3t! wentay etkhezzeen nafs il direction oo e3yoonch tetloma3! What’s wrong with you shwaig? “

I smiled : “ nothing! .. “ I joked while picking my bag up : “ atna7ash maby adfa3 efloos! Hehehe “

She giggled .. while walking to the car 3alshan enrou7 bait mama 6aiba ,

Shoug : “ entay eb tanzeleen bait mama 6aiba? Wela betrou7en baitkom? “

Nouf : “ I dunno , bas atwagga3 I wanna go home cause hathy 6al3ete mn ilseb7 .. “

I nodded .. while texting Faris ..

To : Faris;*
“ 5 mins wakoon there , where are you? :* “

From: Faris;*
“ 3a6eny rube3 sa3a oo aye ;* “

Nizalt bait mama 6aiba , called my mom getlaha enny there ..
Ga3adt a7os bil bait mako a7ad!! I called the maid oo galatly
enna mako a7ad oo mama 6aiba emsayra 3ala bint 3amha!

I called faris ..

Shoug : “ ha wainek ? “

Faris : “ kany barra .. “

Shoug : “ mafy a7ad!! 7ada khirmss! “

Faris : “ emshay tabeen ne6la3? Wela neg3ad eb bait mama 6aiba? “

Shoug : “ la neg3ad here a7san I think .. “

Faris : “ yalah kany nazzelich .. “

I sat on the coach waiting for him to come ,
He entered the living room wearing a navy t-shirt oo beige shorts with yellow cap and farad wa7da yellow crocs , oo his left leg malfoofa lay ta7at erkabba eb cham sebe3 oo 7a6een 3alaiha nafs blue cover,
I walked to him with big steps ..

Shoug : “ 7ABEBEEEEEEEE! Shaklik e3awer ilgaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalb! “

He smiled while ga3ed e3ary , he looks funny ilsara7a ..
Faris said while walking : “ ay .. ay .. “

I giggled : “ 3an ildalaaaaa3 lat5arre3nyy! “

Faris : “ laaa! Ay ildress mu ryooliii .. “

I blushed while pushing his shoulder : “ 3ayyaarrr .. “

He sat on the corner of the comfy coach .. : “ 3ady ta36eny il buff ma3alaich amor? Aby amed eryooli .. “

I giggled while going toward the buff in the other corner of the living room : “ abaih shayyabt ebsir3aa! “

7a6ait 3enda il buff oo ga3adt yamah on the coach ..
while turning my face to him ..

Shoug : “ mmmmm ? “

He cupped my face : “ ra7 olah 3ala hal wayh .. “

I gave him a sad smile : “Unfortunately, real life isn’t always such a Disney movie … ha? “

He replied in a calm voice : “ don’t say that! Its gonna work Shoug , oo kilshay will be just perfect .. I’ll finish 3 years .. arid akhthich .. then akamel my last year .. “

I layed my head back on the comfy couch : “ oo ana? Dirasty? Jam3ety? “

Faris : “ we will find a way shoug .. “

Shoug : “ yalla guli? Shenu il way? After 3 years I’ll be in my 2nd year biljam3a .. shlon? Awaqef derasty oo arou7 sena oo ard? .. netzawaj enta etrou7 wana ag3ad here? Nen5e6eb bas oo after hal year netzawaj? “

Faris : “ See! Fee a lot of solutions! Bas 6awlay balich oo everything is gonna be okay .. “

Shoug : “ ga3da ate6annaz faris! I’m not serious .. hatha mu 7eloul man6eqeyya .. hathoola emotional kellihoum wela ra7 yathbe6oon 7azat ilsejeyya! “

Faris : “ Shoug , life comes with no guaranties! Take it or leave it .. mako shay eyeelich 100% perfect .. enshalla after 3 years we will set down .. oo enshouflina 7al .. anshouf lina fekra .. 3asa allah ye7yeena .. “

I whispered with a tear on my eye : “ 7abebe .. “

He mumbled while rubbing my back : “ mmmm? “

Shoug : “ I’m struggling to find a reason to get out of bed in the morning , I don’t wanna face the reality than you’re gonna travel 3oqob bacher! I feel lost already .. “

Faris : “ me too , entay maskatny m needy elly et3awerni .. mu gader arou7 .. I don’t feel excited anymore! A7is eb pain akthar mn joy .. I will get back after 6-5 months .. tara mu ta7sebeen eny barou7 aghe6ly 3-4 years! I will come kil fatra oo kil 3e6la ra7 arid akeed .. “

I nodded ..
I couldn’t talk .. le’anna if I said a word I will go into tears ..

Faris : “ Shougii .. no matter whats facing us .. we’re gonna survive .. we’re gonna marry each other oo we’re gonna make it 7abebty .. I promise .. “

Shoug : “ I’m trying to sort my head to deal with this .. bas ma7is enny msadga , faris I can’t get it clearly wallah!! A7is enna it’s a nightmare oo bekhallis aked .. ma7is enna it didn’t start yet! “

Faris : “ don’t make it a big deal shougu .. tara kahy America .. kelaha 12 hour .. walla eb yoom wa7ed aredlich! I swear to god , etha tabeeny aridlech ay 7azza walah wa3ad I will ! wallah il3athem I WILL! “

I put my head on his shoulder : “ I know that faros .. I know .. “

We sat on silence for few minutes ..
Tell I whispered ..

Shoug : “ I blocked and deleted Faisal gabel shahar maybe .. “

I felt his smile : “ laish? “

Shoug : “ bas le’ana n3aya .. “

He laughed : “ haha! N3aya? Shakhbary hal masabba! “
I giggled ..

Shoug : “ Farros .. etha safart tetwaqqa3 I can talk with you about random things? “

Faris : “ akeed! 3ayal 3an shenu bet7achene? “

Shoug : “ madry! A7is etha enta dag mokalama mara7 asoolif about my day shenu sawait oo shenu kalait! .. “

Faris : “aslan ana bashtery kha6 oo mobile there 3alshan 5a6rich! “

I blushed : “ 7abebe enta .. “

Faris said calmly : “ Shoug lat7ateen wallah , the relationship stands 3ala il nas mu 3ala il distance elly bainhoum .. yama nas metzawjeen oo ga3den eb nafs il bait oo nafs ildar oo ildistance bainhoum kebera , oo yama nas kilwa7ed eb sharq oo gharb oo they’re amazingly in love … 3omra ilmasafa mara7 etfarreg bainah damich loyal 7aggy oo et7ebeeni oo nafs ilshay ana , etha ma 7a6ait 3ala nafsy oo tried hard to work this out .. aked mara7 yamshe … fa be sure enna il masafa 3omerha mara7 etgarrib wela etba3ed a7ad .. it depends on us! And I trust you shoug .. I’m sure 100% enna you’ll try your best to make me happy sawa’ kent bil deera wela barra , sa7 wela la? “

Tears start running on my cheeks ..

Shoug : “ akeed faris akeed! Bas I’m afraid wallah! Ma3annah I’m sure enna we will try our best to defy the distance oo to talk to each other 3ala ilaqal once a day … faris adry ennah hathy fatra wet3ady oo ina things will get better inshalla .. “

Faris tried to make me laugh : “ unless I loved an American girl wela shay .. “

I rolled my eyes : “ haha! Bayekh! “

He opened his arms : “ come here .. “

I hugged him so tight .. aby ashba3 mennah ..
I smelled his perfume so deep .. aby tenteris my lung min re7ta ..
Aby laima olah 3alaih later athkir this hug oo ate6amman ..
Aby asayyev emotions oo feelings for the bad days ..
He smelled my hair gently while whispering in my ear : “ I have been always addicted to ur smell Cherry .. “