26 - [ Re-leve .. him;*!]

[ Mohim yadre enni Sirt .. AGWA ,

oo 3ala nafsee gedaarrt .. AGWA !! ]

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I Layed down 3ala my bed ..

thinking about Mishary and Salman ..

who should I pick??

It's zawaj .. not a relaitionship with Salman ..

Should I tell him about Mishary?? ..

no no ..

Okay Should I call Mishary?

wella I let him Know from ilnas?

Noo ,

I should stay Now without any kind of relaitionships ..

take a break between Mishary and a New start ..

Do I wanan move on 3ala mishary?

I love him ..

and that's what kept hurting me so hard ..

okay ..

I'll tell him ..

I called Mishary ..

Shaikha : "ilsalam .."

Mishary : "Hala shaikha?"

he was so shocked enna Im calling ..

Mishary : "fech shay??"

I choked ..

he really do Love him ..

Shaikha : "No .. bas .."

Mishary : "bas what babe?"

I whispered : "Im not ur babe .."

Mishary : "fine .. "

Shaikha : "I need to talk to you about something ..

but 7e6 something in your mind ..

Im not asking for your permission ..

because saying no or yes something raje3li ana .."

He didn't understand what I was talking about..

Mishary : "ok??"

Shaikha : "There's Someone .. very good man .

.oo met3alim oo kilshay ..

he's a good man , 5a6ebne ..

And Im taking him so seriously .. but ,

I reject him if you promise me enna everything

will be just okay between us and we'll get back

together and live happely ever after .. "
He didn't reply ..

Shaikha : "alooo??"

Mishary : "asme3ich!"

Shaikha : "well? .. shrayik?"

Mishary : "I can't promise you a thing ..

I didn't tell my mother the truth yet ,

so madre shra7 etgooL ..

and I don't know Shaikha

when i'll marry you ..

maybe after Sentain or thalatha

or yemkin 4 years .. "

Shakha : "what?? No! .. you told me

before enna you'll ta56ebni Now ,

and we'll marry after few years .."

Mishary : "I don't Know ..

ma3a ilwath3 elli

Now I need more

years 3alshan aqne3 my mom .."

Shaikha : "oo yemkin ma teqtene3

in the end!"

Mishary : "yeah.. maybe .."

I couldn't feel a thing ..

SHNA6ERRRR??

Shaikha : "shenu ya3ni??"

Mishary : "allah wafgich."

Shaikha : " ha ? "

Mishary choked with his words ..

Mishary : "Go shaikha .. mabi ogaf eb ur way .. allah ewafgich ..

oo dam elli yaylich tares 3ainech .. Go to him ..

I can't promise you a thing!"

I start crying ..

Shaikha : "Laish mishary?? Laish you can't?"

Mishary : "because .. I promised you before oo

ma gedart asawwey wa3di ..

So I don't wanna do it again .. "

Shaikha : "Okay ... I believe you ..

bas give me Hope .. "

Mishary : "I can't lie .."

Shaikha : "Hope?? .. "

Mishary : "it's kind of lying!!"

I choked .. ; " you broke my heart .."

Mishary choked too ; " Im sorry .. "

Shaikha : "that's it??"

Mishary : "I think so .."

Shaikha : "and you'll let me go?"

Mishary ma rad 3alay ..

Saket ..

IS THAT A YES?????

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I rolled in my bed ..

and cried so hard ..

I couldn't believe it!

did he just let me go??

did he just said " allah ewafgech ..

ro7ay" ??

I HATE HIM ..

I LOVE HIM ..

ooh god ..

I can't even figure my own

feeling shenu uhwa!

what should I do know?

I can't ..

galbi e3awerne ..

I called Heba ..

Shaikha : "HEBBBBBBBBAAAAAAAA .. "

Heba ; "Shfffffech babeeeeeeee????? "

Shaikha : "he .. he .. told me .. enna go ahead ..

rou7ay .. "

Heba : "ha?? .. menu??"

Shaikha ; "Mishary .. I called him

oo getlah about Salman ..

gali allah ewafgich!"

Heba ; "Ok?"

Shaikha : " I DONNNNNNN'T WANNA

MOVVVVVE ON...... "

Heba ; "You should move on! ..

abbaih shaikha walla 7aywan! ..

you called him oo egoolich go ahead! .. shenu 3abalah

betgoleen lah no abeek oo ban6erik?"

Shaikha : "getlah! .. an6erik? gali No ..

I can't promise you .."

Heba ; "OOOOO HAM YOU DON'T

WANNA MOVE ON?????? ..

walla enna 7mar! ..

walla mu kafoooo shay hatha .. "

Shaikha : "I can't .."

Heba : "Shaikha .. leave ur heart shwayya oo think eb your mind ..

shaghlay moo5ech! .. he told you ashkarra! enna he'll never marry you! .. oo min Now yet3athar oo e7e6lich suwalif! ..

so laish et'9ay3een someone really

good 3ala Mishary haaaL asshole!"

that's true ..

bas I don't wanna believe it ..

I coverd my head bil blanket ..

oo cried so hard ..

Heba : "Shaikha calm down .. ta3awethay mn ebliis ..

elli allah katba beser .. don't Cry babe .. "

Shaikha : "Shasaawey Now?"

Heba : "entay mu ma'3sooba! .. if you don't wanna Salman la ta5theenah! .. tara lel7een nothing sar between you guys .. so ma tabeenah khalas! .. reddeh .."

I closed my eyes ..

Shaikha : "But im waisting such a good man!"

Heba : "that's my girl .. fakray eb 3aqlich babe .."

Shaikha : "enshalla .. i'll see .."

I hang up the phone ..

and took a deep breath ..

what Should I do Now??