31- [ Re-Love .. him;*!]

[ Ghal6at il 3ashiq eb alf ..

wenta seed il 3arefeen .. ]

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I choked ..

I can't ..

I can't spit ..

I swear to God I wanna do it ..

But ..

well ,

there's a part in my heart didn't trust

Mishary enough

to leave Salman for him ..

and Salman?

He's just so sweeeeet ..!

and he's mu7taram ..

and didn't broke my heart "twice" before!

He whispered ; " Can't what babe?? "
I start weeping ; " OOOOH GOD! "

I felt enna salman's heart just broke up ..

I felt enna he really CARE ABOUT ME! ..

Salman ; " whaaaaaat's wronnnnnnnnggg??? "

Shaikha : " I .. *Sneef* .. I had a huboo6 few days ago .. "

Salman ; "ok? babe tabene ayelich ewadech il dr. ? "

I cried even more .. He's a REAL MAN ..

not a kid like Mishary ..

I can't count on him without any Doubt ..!

it's a marriage shaikha ..

think with your mind ..

and ur heart ,

but you should count on ur mind akthar..!

Shaikha : "I can't do it wana ma7ebik lel7een ..

I feeL nothing toward you .. okay okay I like you ..

but mu enna Love .."

a7is enna he knew inna im lying..!

Salman : " So? .. Shaikha we Knew each

otehr since what?? One month??

Noo tara aqaL! .. it's okay enna you don't love me ..

Im ok with the "like" thing ..

and it will turn to love one day soon .. "

I closed my eyes .. while whespering ; " I really don't know .. "

Salman : " well , think 3adiL .. at the end it's a marriage ..

you should think about it 3adiL .. "

I choked ; " Im sorry .. "

Salman : " Thats okay babe ..

Im sure you're just scared cus mar one month ..

it's okay .. last week I felt methlich enna

maybe I don't wanna be with you ..

bas when I heared ur voice ...

I figured that Im totally wrong .. "

AAAAAAAAAAW!

Shaikha : "yeah .. you're right .. 7addi me5tar3a ..

so Im declaring a state of energancy right now! ;p"

he laughed ; " hahaha lucky me .. "

I smiled ..

I just couldn't break his heart ..

Shaikha ; " yalla babe ana khaL arou7 araye7 .. "

Salman : " yes sure sure .. deer balik 3ala ur self ..

and lay 3ala ur right side ..

and ta'3a6ay 3adiL ..

okay? "

I smiled ; " ok 7ayate .. i will .. "

I called Heba immediatly ..

Heba ; " YES? "

Shaikha : " I know .. I know .. you wanna kill me right now ..

but .. Heba pls .. I need you .. I can't pick! .. I swear to god ..

I just can't .. plssss heeeeeeba .. "

Heba yelled at me ; " WHAT?? .. YOU CAN'T PICK? ..

ARE YOU TAKING AT AS A JOKE WELLA GAME? .."

Shaikha : " Noo Heba walla Noo..! "

Heba ; "Listen Shaikha .. Mishary let you down 3 times! ..

and you got threatened bu him! ..

oo OMG! .. he's such an ass hole ..

3alabah he's the best oo enna

you're so lucky to have him ..

and that's too way wrong! .. And in the Other

hand salman is just So sweet and caring ..

oo most of all he's a MAN! .. who treats you like a women ..

A REAL WOMEN! .. mu baby kobrah! .. in and outs all the time ..

that's why entay mu gadra etqareren ..

cus you'll have always a faith enna he'll return to you! ..

even if he leave you and got married to another one! .. "

I mummbled .. ; " that's so true .. "

aaaaaaaaaawch ..!

the truth is just so .. haaaaaard! ..

kalam ilsej e3awwer ..

Heba ; " yeah I know .. Shaikha it's not a relationship! ..

it's marriage .. and In the marriage ilbent tet7taj

SOmeone you3tamad 3alaih ..

wella kil cham week begoolich i'll leave you??

wella sending you texts about ur sum3a and shit! .."

Shaikha : " I don't know .. I really dont .. "

Ga6a3atne ; " YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT SHAIKHA?? ..

ENTAY SHAYFA ENNA RE-LOVE HAL BITCH IT'S OKAY??

IF SOMEONE ACCUSED YOU THAT YOU'RE A SLUT , AND DIDN'T

TALK TO YOU FOR 1 MONTH .. THAT'S OKAAAAAAYYY?????? "

I choked ..

he's a 7mar ..

Heba ; " Shaikha .. I love you .. and I don't wanna see you

doing such a stupid thing like this! .. thail ilchalb

3omrah ma yet3adaL! .. believe me! ..

and you saw it TWICE! .. ma yet3addaL! .. "

I hot tear fell from my eyes ..

That's so true ..

I love him yes ..

but I can't trust him eb marriage ..

and that kills ..

believe me ..

Nothing gonna kill you akthar mn

Loving someone ,,

DONT WORTH IT..!

I couldn't accept that fact ..

I layed On my bed ..

and thinking ;

" If Mishary was in Salman's shoes ..

he'll tell me enna thelfay oo go to hell! "

I took a long shower ..

oo pray to god to help me ..

I prayed " estekhara" ..

there's a sound kept telling me .. ;

" salman .. he's the one to count on ..

and you'll love him one day ..

for sure you love Mishary Now akthar ..

cus you know mishary for a longer time ..

but salman .. he's a man! .. "

I texted Salman ..

To ; Salman .

" Im sorry babe about today ;* ..

kent khaifa madre shfene ..

and I don't need to think! .. I want you ;* "

after few mins ..

From ; Salman .

" Luw ma enny ma3a rab3i chan yeetlich

baitkom 5ama6tich! :* ..

that's okay .. 3adii walla I understand ;* "

I smiled ..

he's sweet to me ..

aakh ..

and that's it ..

I should Call Mishary Now ..

and end it ..

I called ..

Shaikha ; " aloooo .. "

Mishary ; " Hala .. "

Shaikha : " listen Mishary .. I don't wanna make it a big deaL ..

oo mara7 a7e6 moqademma .. mmmmm .. fahad talked to me ..

thank you .. but .. I can't do it .. "

Mishary choked ; " what?? whyyyyyy? "

Shaikha : " Mishary you know the answer ..

you don't wanna hear it all over again! .. "

Mishary : " no no ! I wanna know! "

Shaikha : " mmmmm well ,

the lying 3alaik On internet oo

letting me go for 2 years ,

the stupid joke .. Salma case ..

ur mom .. khalti mona ..

and Finally , believing others 3alay! "

Mishary : " ME?? "

Shaikha : " 3ayaL me?? ..

The main thing in the relationships is the Trust ..

and I can't trust you anymore ..

because you broke my heart few times before! ..

and you just let my down ham few times .. so I just can't ..

and mishary I called you before la eser kil hatha ..

oo you told me enna go ahead oo allah ewafgech! .. "

Mishary : "I didn't though that you'll do it..!"

I raised my eyebrows ; " and that's because of .. ? "

Mishary : " you love me! ..

and I though ennich mara7

tegderen etsawennha ..

and if you did it .. you'll come back ..

and that's what happend .. "

WHATTTTTTT?

EKEEEEEEEL KHARAAAAAAAAAKKKKKKK!

Shaikha : " WHAT WHAT WHAAAAAAAAT??

WHO CALLED ME CRYING?

AND MSG ME PLSSS WE NEED TO TALK? ..

WHO TOUCHED MY HANDS IN STARBUCKS

AND CHOKED WHILE TALKING TO ME????????? "

Mishary : " it's your life Shaikha .. I can't force you .. "

Shaikha : " you'll let me go this time? right? "

I felt his heart beating ; " yes! .. I will .. "

Shaikha ; " huh,! what a surprise! ..

yalla Mishary I should go ..

and pls .. pls .. for gods seak ..

I don't wanna see ur number every again! "

Mishary ; " yes sure .. and allah

ewafgich shaikha ..

and Im sorry ..

about everything .. "

I choked ; " it's too late mishary .. goodbye .. "

we hang up ..

THAT'S IT! ..

NO MORE MISHAREY!

I went to the bathroom ..

and washed my face with really cold water ..

it wasn't so hurtfull like the few last times ..!

I think I got used to it ..

I went to the living room wella My mother,

Maryam and Fahad

ga3deen esoolfoon ..

Shaikha : " ilsalam 3alaikom .. "

all of them ; " wa3alaikom ilsalam .. "

Maryam ; " Shfeeh wayich ta3ban? ..

chennich tawnich bachya! "

I smiled .. : " reallyy?? No .. kent nayma .. "

Maryam ; " ashwa .. how's everything?

between u and Salman? ..

they told me enna it's Over .. "

I laughed : " OMMMG!

hehehe esha3aaaaaaaaaattt hathe ;p "

fahad stared at me ; " really? "

My mother smiled : " wallaaaaaaa?? "

I smiled back to them ; " yes walla ..

I was just afraid about the hall thing ..

and I prayed estekhara ..

oo Im soooooo happy and comfortable

right now .. "

my mother ; " ashwa 7emdellaaah .. I told you .. "

Fahad ; " oo my friend eli getlich 3annah? "

GOLLAH YENTE7EEEEEEEEEr!

shaikha ; " shfeh? .. getli ennik radaita! ..

oo if I broke up with salman

eser khair .. and that's will never happen to us .. "

Maryam winked ; " aaaaaaaaahhhhh .. lovvvvvvvieeeeee birds .. "

my mom eth7ekat ..

while Fahad stared at Maryam with half smile ;

" ma teste7en 3ala wayhich wana ga3ed hal 7ache? "

we all laughed about it ;p

my mother : " when it's the milcha 3ayaL? "

I smiled : " i don't know .. i'll ask him ..

bas taw ilnas .. maybe after 3 monthes .. "

She nodded ; " eeh zain .. zain .. "

* BEEP *

From ; Salman.

" I miss you :( ..

I just wanna throw my friends bil street

oo come to you :( .. "