41 - [Re- love .. him;*!]

[jetene metheL il shurooq elli ma7a 3atm eliyale ..

jeet far7a lel 7azeen elli mn ehmooma halak ..]

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I felt so bad and guilty about the whole thing ..

Im Sorry walla ..

I wanna tell salman about mishary ..

bas I can't walla ..

I know enna he'll leave me ..

oo I don't blame him for sure ..

bas ya3ni what can I do ??

Salman whispered while

moving his had 3ala my back ;

" yala babe emshay nakeL .. "

I smiled ; " okay yallah .. "

we went to pauL again ..

oo Orderd Our food ..

while Salman was eating his penne

pasta with white sauce ..

and I couldn't eat walla ..

a7is my stomach et3awerni from that feeling of giult ..

I whispered ; " Salmani .. "

He nodded while eating his pasta ..

aaaaaaaaaaahhhh!

do you that sexy face while you are looking down at the pasta ..

oo raised ur cute eyes oo ur chin still down??

I smiled ..

Shaikha : " okay! .. that sexy look isn't helping me at all! "

He laghed oo choked with his pasta .. ;

" hahahahahahahhaaaaaaa! ..

Shfeeeech 7ayaaaate? "

I smiled oo took a deep breath .. ;

" listen to me salman ..

I wanna tell you something .. I don't wanna

start a marriage based on lies .. "

he nodded .. with that confused look 3ala his face ..

Shaikha ; " e7m .. aaamm .. I .. ok ok .. "

I closed my eyes ..

took a deep breath ..

and count to three ..

1 .. 2 .. 3 ..

calm down shaikha ..

you should do it ..

tell him the truth in a good way ..

you should do it!!!!!!

mu eb kaifech! ..

you should have some moraL bitch!

3aib tara walla ..

Shaikha ; " Listen .. "

Salman ; " Im listening!!! "

Shaikha : " salman .. ana .. listen .. I .. "

Salman began to lose his calmness ;

" Shfech yuba?? ta7achay! "

ok ok .. that's not helping at all ..

chab salman shway ..

let me take my time! ..

Shaikha ; " Salman .. "

I said while my eyes 3ala my plate ..

Shaikha ; " before 2 years kan there's some e3jab between me and

Mishary .. and as you know he called fahad oo 5a6abne .. bas after what?? ..

laish he's so mad enna I let him go oo married you .. because enna I trusted him .. oo kent an6era ye5tarraj 3alashan netzawaj .. but One day .. he let me go without telling me asasan what the reson! .. oo from a friend .. I find out enna my step-mother oo haL friend esemha Salma .. uhma emsawen like a plan 3alshan ma yabone atzawejah .. cus uhwa kan emkallem his mom .. oo his mom etser cousin my step-mom .. elli estaktherta 3alay .. "

Salman stared at me ; " plan? "

Shaikha : " mmm .. they told him enna Im a slut oo bad girl oo

my style elli boys oo parties .. 7adii Im a player .. oo my friend yat galatli cus One day I was using her mobile oo sheft his number .. fa darait enna there's something wrong .. enna laish uhwa kan ela7eqni mn mokan lay mokan .. faj'a qarrar enna Im not the one! .. fa bas .. I let him go .. be6aqaq e6eqqa .. bas he knew the truth later .. oo came back to me enna yabii artha feeh oo atzaweja .. oo he called fahad ena ya56ebni oo you saw him .. "

Salman ; " aaha .. so im ur revenge? "

my eyes poped out ..

and my heart start beating so fast ..

I felt enna every drop of blood poped into my head! ..

Shaikha : " NOOOOO! SHAKO! ..

it's so over .. I don't wanna revenge aslan! ..

he's nothing to me 3alshan a3awer my heart oo enna

get marriend only to break his heart! ..

Salman ,

do you remember one day I came to you oo I told you enna

it's over oo I wanna break up?? ..

That was because I felt enna Im still attached to him ..

oo I couldn't hurt you or play with your heart ..

fa gelt I wanna break up ..

well , breaking up with you ..

doesn't mean enna Im back to him!

cause that's not an option for me! EWAAAAALI!

he betrayed me .. and believe On me 7ache ana ma sawaitah ..

oo every relationship must bigan and end with trust ..

etha il trust ra7 .. 5alas..! "

Salman face was .. expressionless!

emtanni7 .. masdooom ..

its like I just slap him ..

Shaikha ; " but there's a point I get over mishary ..

and his story ..

oo I promise my self to have a New clear start ..

and you Showed up ..

okay there's a point I was'nt sure about you ..

but that's so normaL .. Im sura enna there's a point

makent sure about me ..

I wasn't sure mu le'anna there's another option ..

I wasn't sure bas ya3ni enna inta New man oo ma3refik oo it's a marriage ya3ni .. So if we break up Now ..

I wouldn't think enna get married to mishary or

even think about giving him a chance ..

cus he's a kid oo he had me one day bas mu kaffo

enna a'9aye3 my life 3ala a7ad mu watheq fene .. "

Salman ; " what's the point ? laish gelteli Now? "

Shaikha ; " I don't wanna Began a marriage based on lies ..

oo I waanna make everything clear ..

Salman I didn't Do anything wrong ..

he was 5a6ebni oo we was planing on getting married ..

bas there's nas dashaw in the middle oo 5arebaw ..

oo uhwa saddaq so I break up 3annah oo I don't wanna get back to hem .. and I chose you Over him .. "

Salman raised his Hand ; " check please! "

I stared at him ..

and Choked with my tears ; " Saa .. Saalmaan .. ana .. "

he paid the check ..

and stand up ; " emshay! "

we walked to the car without a word ..

I was deep into my own world ..

oo he was in his own world too ..

rekabna il car ..

Shaikha ; " Salman .. I .. "

Salman ; " Sektay wela kalma! "

I choked ..

Stared at the window ..

while his driving 7ad'ha fast and crasy ..

cursing and yelling 3ala everyone elli bil street ..

Salman ; " khaaaaaaaarrra!!! fuuuuuuck youuuuuu idiiiiiiooooooottttttt! .. allllll3aaaaaaaaan ommmmmmmek! 7ayyyyyyyyywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnn! "

6aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa66 ..

I closed my eyes ..

it was just so mes ..

Shaikha : " SALMAAAAAAAAAAANNNNN!!!!!!!!! "

he put his hand 3ala il hern ..

oo put all of his anger 3alaih ..

6aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa66666!

OMMMMMMMMMMMMG!

I felt enna il hern dakheL my chest ..

I couldn't handle it ..

Shaikha ; " SALMAAAAAAAN! .. SALMAAAAAAN .. "

He turned his eyes .. oo looked direct into mine ..

without saying a single word ..

I start crying so hard ..

actually I crashed Down ..

Shaikha ; " BRAAAAAAAAVO! .. THAT FUCKING MISHARY

JUST DID WHAT HE WAAAANT! ..

HE RUIN MY LIFE ..

AND BREAK MY MARRIAGE ,

I LOVE YOU SALMAAAAAAN!

AND THAT ASSHOLE CAN'T CHANGE IT ..

OKAY I APPROVED 3ALA OUR KHE6BA WITHOUT ANY

TINNY FEELING TOWARD YOU .. BAS HAM ENTA MAKENT ET7EBNI

CUS YOU DON'T KNOW ME!!!!!!!! .. IM SORRY ABOUT THAT .. BELIEVE ME .. IF A HAVE THE POWER TO DELETE HIM FROM MY LIFE .. I WILL! .. SALMAN I CHOSE YOU BECAUSE I FIND IN YOU THE MAN I DIDN'T FIND IT IN MISHARY OR MY FATHER! .. I FELT SAVE BETWEEN UR ARMS .. FELT ENNA I HAVE A THAHAR ATSANNAD 3ALAIH .. AND NOW WHEN I TRUST UR FEELING TOWARD ME .. OO AGOOLIK ILSEJ LAISH HATHA IL 7AQER LA7EQNA .. OO ENNA HE'S JUST A KID MU MET3AWED 3ALA IL REJECTION .. OO ENA I LOVE YOU OO ABEEK ENTAA .. CHETHE ETSAWELI?? .. "

Salman didn't replied 3ala kalame ..

he just kept driving so fast ..

and took a short fast breaths ..

I covered my face with my hand ..

oo choked with my tears ..

gumt ashahhiq ..

oo mummbled like a little kid ..

Shaikha ; " I don't know why ana 3aisha .. what this stupid life

just gave me a great man to love .. eyeli il'3abi hatha oo e5areb 3alay ..

I don't know why the hell I don't have a good life to live! .. wayy3a! ..

walla way3a .. I hate everything okay .. kelman 7mar! .. I swear enna this life just a shit! okaay .. I hate kilshay .. and Im an asshole oo kalba oo 7aqira .. I hate my self .. and I hate Mishary and my father oo my whole life .. and great .. Now .. im just a knocked up 21 years girl .. How owsem is that .. khara .. "

Salman stopped the car 3ala il side of the highway ;

" shaikha stop it .. "

Shaikha ; " no no 3adi salman 3adi .. that's okay ..

I understand ur anger .. astaheL aslan .. Im just a bitch .. "

He put his finger 3ala my lips ; " ush! you're not! "

Shaikha ; " don't ush me salman .. I understand that ..

khalas Im a bitch "

Salman ; " NO! .. yo're not Shaikha .. I know everyone 3endah his past oo drama ib his life .. Im angry laish chathabtay 3alay oo channii Idiot bil mawtho3 .. khalaiteeny arou7 a6eeqqa! okay he deserve it! bas ana 6aqqa 3ala sabab oo I should kick his ass 3ala another reason! "

I said while sneefing .. ;

" No .. No .. walla mu idiot ..

bas I was so afraid to lose you ..

I can't handle loosing you Salmani ..

I love you 7abebe ..

walla I can't lose you .. I can't .. I .. "

he moved toward me ..

while whispereing ; " your red eyes and crying voice ..

maL aklich .. "

I gave him a half smile ; " hehe .. wai3 .. shakli movie!.. "

he smiled ; " I love movies .."

I whispered while biting my lips ; " kiss me .. "

He smiled while kissing my lips in a passion way..