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A long post ..
Dedicated to your souls ;*
Love you girls;*



I couldn't sleep that night..
I kept sniffing and rolling in my bed all night long ..
I couldn't believe enna he's not .. Mine!
What is love?
I just wanna know the answer of this question ..
Because I'm feeling something new .. Something weird ..
And I just can't point my finger on ..!

" Shouuuuuuuuggggggggggg .. " my mom kept yelling ..
" gomaay! It's 2 pm!! 7aram 3alaich!! "

I opened my eyes .. and nodded ..
Shoug : " inshalla! Inshalla! "
She went out side my room ..

I covered my head with my cold Buffy yellow cover ..
And started my day with a .. hot tear touched my frozen heart ..

After washing my face .. brushing my teethes .. eating corn flex ..
I checked my mobile ..
Do you know the feeling elli mn kether ma you're down ..
You don't wanna see your mobile because every time it beeps your heart
hurts you more and more?

I found one mms ..

From: Nouf
It was a picture of Nouf and faris holding vanilla ice cream and smiling toward the camera ..
it was wonderful ..

I zoomed and zoomed and zoomed .. there he is ..
His charming face ..
I stared for few mins at his face ..
I whispered : " what's happening to me faris? .. I can't control my self.. help me .. im falling .. and .. it hurts .. "

* beep *

From : Nouf
" heeey beautiful did you received the picture? "

To: Nouf
" yaaaaa it's amazing ;) "

From: Nouf
" heheheh thanks .. we charming love birds .. "

I thought like : " huh! A7ad yemda7 rou7ah bil ghasub ?? "
I just wanted to bunch her on the face ..
To cut her into small pieces and throw her to sharks!
I just wanted to spit on her face ..
To .. CRY HARD!

I joined msn as always ..
Put (busy) ..
Because makan li khelq chatting at all ..

*deeding*
* deeding*
*deeding*

I said : " bas bas! Darainaaaa enna you're talking! Ge6aa3! "

I though it was jassim or fa6oom ..
No3hum when anyone joined msn .. they'll start talking oo typing ebsir3a 3alshan e6afroona oo start sending nudges oo hal suwalif illy taqher ..

I turned my red eyes to the laptop screen ..
It was ..

( - Faris ….)

Why? Why you're talking to me?

I just wanted to ran away ..
While screaming ..

I opened the conversation ..

- Faris …. Says:
Hello

- Faris ….Says:
Aloo??

- Faris…. Says:
Shaklich really busy .. just wanted to say hi ..

I took a deep breath ..
I don't have the right to be mad ..
I didn't say anything to him about falling hard for him ..
Oo Noufa too matadre enna Im .. in love .. with .. the one she chose..!
so .. astahel!

- Shougan .. ya3ni mafe? Mafe ghairek eb kil hatha ilwujod? .. Says:
Ahleeeeeeeen .. Sorry kent away ;)

- Faris .. Says:
La that's okay ..

Awkward silent ..
So he knew that Nouf told me about "them" ?
He loves her back?
Even if he doesn't .. any man in this world if a girl told him that she loves him .. he'll love her back!!! ohma chethe…!!

- Faris …. Says:
Miss you ;*

I just start collecting my broken heart..!
I don't wanna fall for a taken man!!
I just can't ..
oo mo ay man? ..
NOUF'S MAN?
My best cousin ..
I just can't do that to her ..
But nouf ..
Seriously ..
Mako ella faris?? :')


- Shougan .. ya3ni mafe? Mafe ghairek eb kil hatha ilwujod? .. Says:
Me too walla misses you all guys ;)


And I went offline ..

I just ran to our backyard ..
And start crying and breathing so fast ..
I need some ear ..
I'm choking with my tears and my disappointment ..
How can I face them as a "couple" ?
When the idea of it killed me that much?

*beep*

From: Nouf
" where are you? .. Im faris ;) "

Are they kidding me??
Uhma qasdene wela shenu?
And we have been close since forever ..
Men metaaaaaaaaaa faris ediz msg from her mobile?

I replied :
" Im sleepy oo banam! Gn "

While I was going up stairs to my room ..

" Nouf" is calling ..
I pressed the red button ..
And closed in on her face !

From : Nouf
" what's wrong with you? .. I'm N.! "

I texted her back ..

To : Nouf
" men meta faris yestakhdiim ur mobile? .. did you told him? "

From : Nouf
" wait .. why you're angry at me! Did I do anything wrong? "

To : Nouf
" No you didn't .. shakli ya nouf walla ana elli did! :') .. Im tired .. good night .. "

" Nouf" .. Is calling

I took a deep breath ..
And picked the phone ..

" alo .. " I said .. it was obvious that I was crying ..

Nouf : " heeey babe .. "

Shoug : " hala nouf .. what wrong? "

Nouf : " what's wrong with you .. mu with me .. "

a couldn't control my tears ..
and my sniffing ..

Shoug : " nothing nouf! .. im tired oo banam! "

Nouf : " shougo .. "

Shoug : " ha nouf? ha? "

Nouf : " can I ask you a question? "

Shoug : " wh-what? .. " *Sneef*

Nouf : " how do you feel right now? "

Shoug : " I wanna slap you on the face nouf! I swear I do .. " and I start crying ..

Nouf : " men mita e7na chethe ha shougo? Men mita ma etgolili what's happening in your life? .. what's in your heart ha? .. menu elli galli once " we share hearts and thoughts" ?? .. mu hatha kalamch? .. "

Shoug : " *Sneef* .. what do you mean ya3ni..? "

There was a white flash on my head ..
I couldn't understand anything ..
I though this would be the last phone call between me and Nouf ..
And over what? Over .. faris!
The idea of loosing nouf and faris at the same time .. crushed my heart ..

Nouf : " shougo ya 7mara 3alabalich ana blind wela ma3rfich?? "

I'll lose her .. Now ..
I knew it ..
Sa7abt clinks from my bag ..
And started whipping me cheeks ..
I took a long breath ..

Shoug : " Noufa .. I wish you luck ok? And Im happy for you .. but please .. Im tired ok? And I don't wanna talk about anything right now .. ok? And please add to that ….. "

Nouf cut me off : " listen to me.. listen .. before more than one month .. when we were in mama 6aiba's house oo you was seeing hatha il greek wedding movie .. tathkeren? "

Shoug : " I don't wanna know how your love story started nouf! I really don't want ……."

She cut me off again : " shut upppp Shougggg and listen to what I have to sayyy..! " ..

she added while giggled : " hathe elli ba6eqha .. "

I smiled .. that's my nouf!

Shoug : " golay .. im all yours"

Nouf : " that day .. faris came to me oo galle enna he loves you since forever oo never knew how to tell you .. because etha gallich oo you didn't feel the same it would be awkward and we'll lose our group cus beser ilwath3 khayis oo we'll never be able to hang out together .. he was gonna tell you enna he loves he eb that meeting eli sawwoh lihum eljam3a .. but he couldn't .. and yoom bait mama 6aiba .. we played truth or dare 3alashan enshuf maytich! .. and you broke his dream Shougo .. kesartay feeh! "


I think I saw heaven while she was describing the way he was trying so hard to tell me ..
I recalled a lot of situations where faris kan begooli shay oo tana7!

Nouf : " shougo? "

I was smiling and blushing ..

Nouf : " and one more thing .. I do not love him! Wai333 loooooool! " and she break a laugh ..

Shoug : " oh god noufo! "

I closed my eyes ..
And threw my self on the bed ..

Shoug : " and shdarach now enna I'll say ok and it wouldn't be awkward? "

Nouf : " wayhich! .. aslant 7ady met7asfa laish I wasn't there to see your face! I know it's worthless! "

I giggled : " khaisaaaa .. "

Nouf : " fedait el soout elli khaaaqqqq .. "

I blushed so hard : " heheh chubaaaaaay .. "

Nouf : " so .. what do you think shouga? "

I whispered while smiling : " I think I love him .. I really do .. "


















…………. " oo ras ommiiiiiii me tooo! "
He yelled from the back!
I was on speaker?
Shit! Fashlaaaaaa ..