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I opened my eyes in the middle of the night...
Checked my mobile...

From: Nouf
2:30am
12. Aug.2002
"Hey guys ... gonna miss you all!;* take care .. I'll text bas ousal .. "

What?
It has been 2 days since I told her about me and faris!
oo she told me enna she's gonna ask him oo etgooli ..
and that what I get after 2 days of waiting?

I texted her ..
To: Nouf
" etrou7en wetriden bilsalama honey;* .. did you talked to faris?? "

She didn't replay ..
So I fell a sleep ..
And in the morning .. guess what?
I didn't fond anything!

The days were moving so slowly without Nouf and faris ..
I love jassim oo fa6oom oo a7mad .
But my relationship with nouf was something else ..
Something out of this world ..
And faris .. you know!;'*

** (( Rajja3 shere6 7ayatak .. alleb fe thekrayatak .. 7a etla'ey 7abeb wafalak .. 7aqaqlak kul amalak .. yama shaal il basma mn foog shafaifoo 3ashan yedehalak .. kan huwa ildafa oo ilbard .. kan 7uthnuu janayen ward .. kan 7abebe far7ak .. waqt jar7ak kan yebki badalak ….)) **

My phone rang ..
While I was in my own world ..

My mom : " Shouug .. "

In my head : " why I'm so down and concern about faris? .. he's my cousin tara … I shouldn't care this much! .. what's wrong with me? "

My mom : " SHOUUUUUUUGG!! "

I jumped : " haa.. hala? Hala? "

My mom giggled : " heheheh esmillah 3alaich .. ur phone is ringing sarla sena! "

1 Missed call ..
" jassim "

I called him back ..

Shoug : " hala jassom .. "

Jassim : " ha shwaig shlonch? "

Shoug : " good.. you? "

Jassim : " you don't sound "good" at all! .. 3asa masher? Be3eeni bil soug yuba .. "

Shoug: " ma-mafene shay wa-walla .. "

My voice starts shaking ..
I was weak!
I don't know why ..

Jassim : " shougo!!! Shfech? La etkhar3eny! "

I took a deep breath : " nothing walla .. "

Jassim : " you know ena I'm always there for you .. sa7? "

I nodded : " I know jassom .. thankyou 7abebe inta .. "

Jassim : " shda3wa .. you're my sister .. "

I smiled ..
I felt peace naw3an ma ..
I felt enna I'm not completely alone ..

I closed the line ..
Wella there's a msg from Nouf ..

From: Nouf
" hello;* shloonich .. miss you ;* "

Galbi naghazne ..
Nouf mu chethe tetkallam ..
There's something different!

I replied …..

To: Nouf
" ahleeeeen .. good ;) .. miss you too .. "

I roolled in my bed ..
I was tired imotionly
I couldn't figure out what's wrong with me ..
I felt like .. loosing my self!

From: Nouf
" wainch at home? .. Deshay msn ... miss you;* "

THAT WASN'T NOUF!!!!!!
SHE DON'T SPEAKES CHETHE .. AT ALL!!!

She got into my nerves ..
Ehya already ba66a chabdi laish 7aqratne oo didn't talk to faris!
I was pissed off because of the fact that she's with faris and I'm .. NOT!

I joined msn ..

- Nouf .. P A R I S .. says:
Ahlaaaaaan ahlaaaaaaaaaan ;* miss you ..

- Shouga .. hal za3la la tab6e il entethar mamlool..! ;'* .. says:
hala 7obe .. miss you too .. shlonch? Shakhbarich? Are you having fun? ;*

- Nouf .. P A R I S .. says:
Eeeeh walla .. waaaaayid ;p

Her display picture showed it ..
It was her and faris in front of evil tower ..
I missed his face so much ..
I moved my toshiba laptop close to my face ..
Her dp 7ad'ha small! I couldn't see 3adiil ..

- Shouga .. hal za3la la tab6e il entethar mamlool..! ;'* .. says:
your displaaaaay etshaaaaaawiq .. shakla il weather 3awar galb! ;/

- Nouf .. P A R I S .. says:
Yaa .. and faris too! 3awar galb :*!

My eyes start scratching me ..
And my throat start shaking ..
I wasn't able to understand shenu taqsed..!

- Shouga .. hal za3la la tab6e il entethar mamlool..! ;'* .. says:
hehe .. ya7lela salmay 3alaihum kelhum

- Nouf .. P A R I S .. says:
Yousal ;* .. agoolich shogoo I wanna tell you something .. baine oo bainech .. okay?

- Shouga .. hal za3la la tab6e il entethar mamlool..! ;'* .. says:
noufo men sejich you're asking?? .. Sure you can say whatever you want! ;*

- Nouf .. P A R I S .. says:
7abebtiiiiiiii ;* ..

My heart start beating so fast ..
7asait enna it's beating in my throat!

- Nouf .. P A R I S .. says:
Ana men ziman 7asa eb hal shay . but now I had the courage to bring it out to the whole world ..

- Shouga .. hal za3la la tab6e il entethar mamlool..! ;'* .. says:
are you pregnant? ;p

I start giggling in a nervous way ..
I was so pissed off .. oo ham scared ..
I wanted to show her that " I don't care"!
And channy cool oo 3adii .

- Nouf .. P A R I S .. says:
Heheheh .. NO! ;p .. agoolich ..

She starts typing ..
It took her a while ..

- Nouf.. P A R I S .. says:
It have been 2 weeks we7na eb Paris .. and today qarart enna I'll take a step ..
Shougoo im falling so hard for faris! .. I couldn't imagine enna I'll fall for him .. but .. well, it happened .. he's so sweet , charming and caring man .. and he's my cousin after all! Ya3ni mu a7ad ma3ref tarbeta oo his family oo chethe ..

IT WAS A SNAP ON MY FACE..!!
I covered my face with my small hands ..
And took a deep breath ..

- Nouf .. P A R I S .. says:
Shougoo I know enna it's hard to face all the family .. maybe some of them will find it sick .. bas I LOVE HIM .. and I shouldn't care what others think ..!

- Shouga .. hal za3la la tab6e il entethar mamlool..! ;'* .. says:
but .. but you're older..!

- Nouf .. P A R I S .. says:
In what? .. 3 months? .. 3ady!!

- Shouga .. hal za3la la tab6e il entethar mamlool..! ;'* .. says:
did you told him??


PLEASE SAY NO .. SAY NO ..!

- Nouf .. P A R I S .. says:
Shougo .. I have to go now .. bas agdar ashbik I'll text you .. bye babe;*

I closed the laptop without shutting it down..!
It broke my heart ..
It literally b r o k e m y h e a r t ..

I laid down in my bed ..
Remembering her words ..
She's saying my thoughts ..
Chenna .. ana!

Wait shoug ..

Do You love him?
Do You wanna show him off to the world?

I closed my eyes ..
Hoping i wont open it the next day ..!