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After 2 hours the meeting khallas ..
We decided to head to Nino alba7ar to eat dinner .. It was around 7:45pm
I'm only allowed to stay out side till 10pm! So I don't have much time to hang out ..
We sat down there .. While ordering our main dishes immediately ..

** While we were waiting .. **

Jassim : " ha farrroos .. shrayik eb 7acheehum? "
Faris smiled.. he always had been the example of tanaqoth! .. he's weak and tuff .. naughty but innocent .. his eyes had this soft touch while his sharp nose show his manly side .. he's silent and quit but at the same time he's always there to support others .. he's understanding but protective .. he's just so .. unique!
Faris : " she'3ul 3adil .."
I swallowed my sadness: " but .. "
Faris : " but what shooguu? "

He had a sexy move and he always do it for others -Male or females- et3arfoon when you call someone .. egarreb his face oo his eyes talkes to you?? .. LITTERLY talks to you?? .. I always felt his emotions throw his big eyes .. it's warm and so alive..!

Shoug : " farooos .. I'll miss you guys .. "
Nouf : " ee wallaaaaah! .. tara it's malaqa without you walla .. "
Shoug : " stay here .. go to KU .. 3afyaaaaaa .. "
Jassim : " NO WAY! "

The waiter came with our food ..
I kept moving the fork over and over around my polo Nona plate ..
Faris moved my plate closer to me : " eat .. " .. he whispered : " please .. ! "
It just took my heart out ..
I was so down because I knew it! ..
The minute they go to USA .. we'll not be close chethe anymore!

I forgot to mention something .. that Nouf , Jassim , Fatima and faris kelhum the same age 17-18 .. but Me and a7med were younger ib 2 years taqreban ..

Nouf : " enzain laish ma all the three of us go to handasa here in Kuwait? "
Jassim : " I don't want Engineering mn elasas! .. and I do wanna go to usa! .. I have been waiting for this opportunity since forever! "
Shoug : " and .. me! .. e7na .. shloon etkhallonaaaah? "
Faris : " shoug it's 2002! .. there's internet and mobiles .. la et7ateen .. we'll keep in touch .. we'll still be a family mahma safarna oo ba3adna .. "
A tear rolled on my cheek .. mesa7t'ha ibser3a ..
I was so weak when the things contain my loved ones ..
Shoug : " bas .. you faris .. "
Faris : " shfene .. ? "
Shoug : " you're not in a good health .. etrou7 there tahmel rou7ik oo
mafe anyone can take care of you .. "
He cut me off : " shut up shoug! I'm not a child to need anyone to take care of me! .. im big enough to watch over my self! "
Shoug : " I know .. but .. "
Faris : " no buts!! .. don’t dare mention it ever again! "
my voice start shaking : " s..sorry .. "

" 5-6 years back" .. I remember the day that I knew that something were wrong with Faris and why he was so special in my grandmother place ( even though he was the first grandson ) there was another secret to keep it deep in my heart ..
my mom and khalti Ghada ( Faris mom) kanaw yetkalemoon 3annah oo it makes sense to me 7azat'ha fahamt laish khalti Ghada oo her husband 3ami 3abdilra7man always kanaw esafroon with Faris ! mn oo e7na little kids kanaw kil summer esafron .. and I remember feeh 2 years when we were around 10-9 years old .. ekhtifaw for what seemed like 2 years ..
Faris had born with CHF or as they call it bil 3ameya terms "heart failure" condition it's not like he's gonna die any second! .. but it means that his heart can't pump enough blood throughout his body the way it should .. it can lead to serious side effects such as CAD, heart attack , high blood pressure and diabetes .
So yes .. he was really sick .. but he didn't let the sickness let him down .. he was powerful person with such a great personality .. 3moman the heart failure ma ekhalli il wa7ed emot or living bil hospital all the time no .. it just cause tiredness and shortness of breathe.


I went home... take my clothes off and sat with my father...
Around 12am I went to my room...
Opened my Toshiba laptop and wear a comfy PJ oo taraba3t 3ala il bed..
Wrote my email address on the tab and clicked ( sign in .. )
Then went to the bathroom to put a cucumber face mask 3ala ma edish il msn ..


*deeding* ..
The famous msn sound called me ..
( fayaya) ..
I opened the conversation ..
There was fayaya ( Fatima) .. Ahmed .. and Jassim ..
We kept talking about random things .. while me and ahmed kept whining oo en7in enna naby enrou7 iljam3a hehehe ..
The baby blue box popped out ..
( Faris .. )
I don't know menu invited him .. bas mu Ana ..

Fayaya :
7ayaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllaaaaaaaaaah faaaaaarrrrroooossss ;)

I watched him typing ..
I don't know why my heart started beating so fast ..

Faris :
Hallaaaaa bil7uuuub ;*

Fayaya :
hala walla ya ba3ad galbe ..

Hahaha .. they used to act like lovers sometimes late at night! It was funny sometimes .. not only fa6ooma and faris .. all of us .. even girl-girl love affairs was okay with us taly illail ;p hehehe ..

Ahmed :
Ana aghar chetheee! Fa6oom tawwa hal em'3azal lee!

Shougan :
Loool .. a7medane malik '3aire ;$

Fayaya :
Huh! Like I care (h)

Faris :
Eeeee walla dam m3ach il gumar malich oo maal a7mdo! :P

We start talking oo teasing each other ..
While faris kept IGNORING me!
Channy mu mawjooda bil invite ..
Till ..

Shougan:
Faris ..

After 5 mins maybe ..
While fa6om oo a7med sakten waiting for his answer!

Faris :
Brb

awch!
It was a snap on my face..
What the hell?
Why he's treating me like this?

I opened my main page bil msn ..
Oo clicked on his nickname ..

Shougan :
Take your time .. but when you're back we need to talk : )

In less than 10 seconds ..

Faris :
khair?

I took a deep breath ..

Shougan :
What's wrong with you? Shfeek 7aqerni bil invite?
Like I don't exist! Did I do anything wrong to you??

Faris :
Hmm .. No! ;)

Shougan :
Don't lie faris .. I know so well..! what's wrong?

Faris :
If you did anything wrong .. ilmafrouth by your own et3arfen!
I don't need to tell you ;)

Shougan :
No I didn't do anything wrong!!!

Faris :
So? Why you're asking 3ayal?

Shougan :
BECAUSE! .. you're acting like I did something wrong .. but I don't remember doing anything bad to you faris! .. so im asking ..

Faris :
Uh!

Shougan :
Im sorry okay? .. whatever it was .. ana mothakra ..
so for sure I didn't mean it !

Faris :
Shoug .. I wanna give you a piece of advice to your life .. ok?

I nodded ..
Ooh it's msn!

Shougan :
Sure..?

Faris :
Don't talk about someone's pain like it's urs! ;) ok honey?

I opened my mouth ..
And my eyes winded ..
Men meta kan his pain not mine?
Ay pain yaqsid asasan!

I was writing something like : la etgool chethe oo e7na wa7id oo bla bla bla ..

But he went offline ..
Without a simple word..