52- [Re-Love..him;*!]

[ e7na .. khalas! ]

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my words was just too much for him to handle ..

he Start yelling at me ; " Kella mennch! ..

Entay elsibba! .. Entay! .. "

I yelled ; " ANA????? ANAAAAAA???? "

Salman : " eeh eeh! intay! .. 3oumre ma 7asait ench et7ebene ..

7asait enna you chose me just to break his heart ..

entay mawjooda eb you body weyay .. bas ur souL oo

mind kelaha eb his world .. "

I opened the window ..

I need a fresh air ..

Shaikha ; " me salman? ..

just because I told you the

truth sirt ma a7ebik?

No , I do love you ..

bas lilasaf enta mu qad hal 7ub wela ..

wela .. *Sneef* .. "

Salman whispered ; " I'll break up with her .. "

I took a deep breath ; " huh! good for you! "

Salman ; " SHAIKHA! "

Shaikha ; " na3am? "

Salman ; " Shaikha Look at me .. "

Shaikha ; " I can't ... when I see you .. I see her! .."

I whispered ; " shit .. "

Salman took a deep breath ..

Salman ; " listen to me ..

we are having a baby soon ..

oo kelena ghala6na .. fa khalas ..

let's start over .. "

I turned my face and stared at him ;

" start over? 3alablik game boy ilsalfa??

shenu start over? .. ok ok !

mr. open minded! stop her ..

oo let me do whatever you did with hatheech ..

oo tomorrow we'll start over .. okay?? "

Salman ; " 3an hal 7achi .. "

Shaikha ; " hatha 7achyek mu 7achyee!!!! "

Salman ; " Im .. Sorry .. "

Shaikha ; " ok .. "

Salman ; " Im really Sorry .. "

Shaikha ; " enzain! "

I was already thinking about my call to mishary ..

Shenu sawait ana? ..

tara shay so wrong! and so fucking stupid ..

I hate my self .. and my husband and my ex- ..

uuuuuuugh .. I hate my life!

wesalna home ..

nezalna ..

I took a shower ..

layed Down in the bed next to him ..

that man ..

elli I don't even know anymore ..

a7is enna Im in a bad dream ,.

Salman whispered ; " shaikha .. nemtay? "

I nodded ; " eeh! "

we closed our eyes ..

I couldn't sleep ..

kilshwayya afta7 my eyes oo ashof il sa3a ..

3:40 am ..

4:10 am ..

5:05 am ..

6:41 am ..

uuuuuuuuuuuuuugh!

I whispered ; " sleeeeep sleeeeep shaikha

sleeeeeeeeeeep..! "

finally I closed my eyes ..

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* after 8 monthes ..

aroud 1:30 pm ..

Salman ; " Shaikha .. "

I mummbled ; " mmm? "

Salman ; " yalla wake up ..

yan6eroonah ta7at .. "

Shaikha ; " why? "

Salman ; " yam3a .. yalla .. "

I walked to the bathroom ..

and washed my face while thinking

what's will happen to us?

what's our next step?

Salman wegaf 3end bab il bathroom ..

Salman ; " Shaikha .. it's over .. okay? "

Shaikha ; " menu? us? "

Salman ; " No over mn cham?

6 shuhoor wela 7?? ..

Shaikha entay my wife ..

I don't wanna break the

things elli baina ..

I can't .. "

I nodded ; " aha .. "

Salman ; " it's over between me and her

mn ziman! khalas! ..

Im sorry ..

we'll start over .. Im really Sorry ..

I'll do anything you want okay? .. Im .. "

Shaikha ; " bas salman! bas! .. stop being so weak!

khalaaaas! .. hatha ilmarra il million elli engoL feeh nafs il kalam! .. "

Salman ; " Shtabeneeeeeeee asaweeelich??

being nice to you ma3natah weak??

lazim al3an khairech 3alshan akon

rayyaL eb 3ainech ya3ni? "

I smiled ; " 3alabalik la3nat il khayer bas bil 6ag?? ..

believe me ..

you don't know anything

about elli ga3ed etgolah! .. "

I walked toward the closet ..

ga3da a6ali3 ehdoom oo uhwa wagef waray ..

Salman ; " shenuuuu ya3ni? Shel maqsood?? "

Shaikha ; " the idea about wujood another

man eb 7ayate baghat tethbe7ek ..

oo wujoood another woman

eb 7ayatch shay 5alas you're sorry about oo

lazim asam7k oo lazim a6awef?? ..

I can't .. I can't handle you anymore ..

magdar asta7meL ashofik walla .. "

he walked away while yelling ;

" ana ilrayyaL ehne mu entay! fahma? "

huh!

okay?

enjoy being a man! wana shako?

I hattttteeeeee you! ..

libast a black dress ..

oo nizalt lihum ta7at ..

wela kilmn ga3ed ..

Shaikha : " ilsalam .. "

khalty ; " wa3alaikom ilsalaam 7abebti .. "

I kissed her head ..

and kissed my father in law's head ..

I sat all the time playing with my mobile ..

akrahhuum oo akrah walad'hum ba3ad okay? ;@ ..

3ami ; " Shaikha yuba 3asa mashar? "

I jumped ; " ha? hala? .. hehe ..

la mafene shay .. salmatik .. "

3ami ; " akeed yuba? "

I nodded ; " ee ee walla ..

bas ta3bana shway .. "

I wanted to say this 3ammi ..

I really Need to spit it ;

" I hate ur son ..

and I can't handle seeing his

face any fucking more ..

bas 3ami ..

we sat One day ..

and he talked about the baby ..

me too 3ame .. I thought about my little kid ..

and fakart eb my future as a divorced woman with a child!

being with his as " sister-brother" relationship ..

ahwan mn a3eesh eb wath3 menfasla oo 3endy

kid oo ared to my father oo loyat mona oo

al7een Salma ham dashat bil mawtho3 ..

magdar! .. mali khilq ..

yeah I know 3amme ..

How many Kuwaiti couples 3aishen eb nafs il room ..

bas mabainhum anykind of relationships? ..

we'll live chethe ..

kind of roomates! "

3ami ; " Shaikha? "

Shaikha ; " halaaaaaa? "

3ami ; " wain sara7tay?? "

I smiled .. luw tadre bil kalam elli

eb galbi oo wedy abu6ha ehne ..

Shaikha ; " ehehe ga3da afakker eb

esm 7ag il baby ..

lel7een malah esim .. "

3ami laughed ; " heheh .. eeh eeh ana

getlikom la etsamon 3alay ..

ana ma7eb hal suwalif .. "

Salman Smiled to him ;

" 3ayaL yuba? sheelli tamer 3alaih?

enta sammah .. 6albeenik .. "

3ami took a deep breath while smiling ..

3ami ; " mmmmmmm .. Sammoh .. Mishary .. "

my heart just stopped ..

and Salman's eyes poped out ..

I giggled ; " heheh! .. Inshalla .. "

Salman stared at me .. ; " eeh! tamer! "

5alasna ghada oo chay oo kilshay ..

oo re7na to our appartment ..

we sat jidam il tv .

i was writting a report for my work ..

Salman ; " ashofch wayed mestansa! "

I raised my eyebrow ; " really? No! .. 3adi .. "

Salman ; " aha! .. "

I giggled ; " heheh enshalla 3ala ilname? abbaih! 6aggag! ..

Enshalla et5alleh bedon esm! .. shda3wa il name shay mohem?

I really don't care .. Tabe etsameh shay thane .. samah! "

he looked at me in a stupid way! ..

Salman ; " la la! abi asame mishary ana! "

I nodded ; " ok! 3adi .. "

I took a deep breath ..

wai3! ..

I don't wanna name my son Mishary ..

aaw! ..

aw .. aw ..

thahre e3awerne ..

sarlah about a week e3awerne ..

eye oo erou7 il alam ..

oo kilmala wezeed ..

7aram .. being a pregnant with ur first child ..

esaweech sij thay3a bil 6oosha oo ma tadren shenu ilsalfa!

I called my mom ..

Shaikha ; " aloo .. "

Mom ; " hala yumma .. "

Shaikha ; " yumm..yumaaaaaaa .. "

Mom ; " ha?? shfeech???? shfech? "

Shaikha ; " yuma madre .. madre .. jesmi e3awerne ..

yuma kilshay e3awerne .. tathkeren yoom ethalatha getlich?

Now zad waaaayid .. yuma e3awwwwwwwwwwirrrrrrr yumaaaaa .. "

Salman ; " gomay gomay .. "

Mom ; " ha? shgeltay akher shay? "

Shaikha ; " la la hatha salman egooli agoom enrou7 il6abeb .. "

Mom. : " yuma dam lel7een ma nizaL

3alaich ilmay khalas ne6ray .."

I start crying ..

e3awerne sij ..

oo a7is enny Lost ..

madre shasawey ..

Mom. : " la tabcheeeeen yumma 7abebti entay .. khalas khalas

rou7ay il6abeb te6amenay .. bas enshalla mafech ela il 3afya .. "

I nodded while sneffing ; " eeh .. ok .. ok .. "

I closed the phone ..

oo re7na to " dar alshefa " HospitaL ..

bil 6erej I called my dr. ebtesam ..

getlaha enny ta3bana oo kilshay ..

so i'll meet her bil hospitaL enshalla ,

Salamn kept telling me Ennah Sorry ..

oo Ennah he didn't plan to do anything yejra7ne ..

oo ena il ensan ya'3le6 oo yet3allam ..

oo madre shenu .. alot of words e5tal6aw bil 3awar ..

fa ma sima3t wayid ..

I just kept nodding ..

and taking a deep fast breaths ..

I sat in the dr.s Office ..

agoollaha about shenu fene bilthab6 oo shenu 7assa ..

Shaikha ; " and sometime .. Sorry ..

I need .. "

and I start throwing up blood ..

the dr. yelled ; " TAKE HER ..

TAKE HER .. "