52- [Re-Love..him;*!]

[ e7na .. khalas! ]

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my words was just too much for him to handle ..

he Start yelling at me ; " Kella mennch! ..

Entay elsibba! .. Entay! .. "

I yelled ; " ANA????? ANAAAAAA???? "

Salman : " eeh eeh! intay! .. 3oumre ma 7asait ench et7ebene ..

7asait enna you chose me just to break his heart ..

entay mawjooda eb you body weyay .. bas ur souL oo

mind kelaha eb his world .. "

I opened the window ..

I need a fresh air ..

Shaikha ; " me salman? ..

just because I told you the

truth sirt ma a7ebik?

No , I do love you ..

bas lilasaf enta mu qad hal 7ub wela ..

wela .. *Sneef* .. "

Salman whispered ; " I'll break up with her .. "

I took a deep breath ; " huh! good for you! "

Salman ; " SHAIKHA! "

Shaikha ; " na3am? "

Salman ; " Shaikha Look at me .. "

Shaikha ; " I can't ... when I see you .. I see her! .."

I whispered ; " shit .. "

Salman took a deep breath ..

Salman ; " listen to me ..

we are having a baby soon ..

oo kelena ghala6na .. fa khalas ..

let's start over .. "

I turned my face and stared at him ;

" start over? 3alablik game boy ilsalfa??

shenu start over? .. ok ok !

mr. open minded! stop her ..

oo let me do whatever you did with hatheech ..

oo tomorrow we'll start over .. okay?? "

Salman ; " 3an hal 7achi .. "

Shaikha ; " hatha 7achyek mu 7achyee!!!! "

Salman ; " Im .. Sorry .. "

Shaikha ; " ok .. "

Salman ; " Im really Sorry .. "

Shaikha ; " enzain! "

I was already thinking about my call to mishary ..

Shenu sawait ana? ..

tara shay so wrong! and so fucking stupid ..

I hate my self .. and my husband and my ex- ..

uuuuuuugh .. I hate my life!

wesalna home ..

nezalna ..

I took a shower ..

layed Down in the bed next to him ..

that man ..

elli I don't even know anymore ..

a7is enna Im in a bad dream ,.

Salman whispered ; " shaikha .. nemtay? "

I nodded ; " eeh! "

we closed our eyes ..

I couldn't sleep ..

kilshwayya afta7 my eyes oo ashof il sa3a ..

3:40 am ..

4:10 am ..

5:05 am ..

6:41 am ..

uuuuuuuuuuuuuugh!

I whispered ; " sleeeeep sleeeeep shaikha

sleeeeeeeeeeep..! "

finally I closed my eyes ..

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* after 8 monthes ..

aroud 1:30 pm ..

Salman ; " Shaikha .. "

I mummbled ; " mmm? "

Salman ; " yalla wake up ..

yan6eroonah ta7at .. "

Shaikha ; " why? "

Salman ; " yam3a .. yalla .. "

I walked to the bathroom ..

and washed my face while thinking

what's will happen to us?

what's our next step?

Salman wegaf 3end bab il bathroom ..

Salman ; " Shaikha .. it's over .. okay? "

Shaikha ; " menu? us? "

Salman ; " No over mn cham?

6 shuhoor wela 7?? ..

Shaikha entay my wife ..

I don't wanna break the

things elli baina ..

I can't .. "

I nodded ; " aha .. "

Salman ; " it's over between me and her

mn ziman! khalas! ..

Im sorry ..

we'll start over .. Im really Sorry ..

I'll do anything you want okay? .. Im .. "

Shaikha ; " bas salman! bas! .. stop being so weak!

khalaaaas! .. hatha ilmarra il million elli engoL feeh nafs il kalam! .. "

Salman ; " Shtabeneeeeeeee asaweeelich??

being nice to you ma3natah weak??

lazim al3an khairech 3alshan akon

rayyaL eb 3ainech ya3ni? "

I smiled ; " 3alabalik la3nat il khayer bas bil 6ag?? ..

believe me ..

you don't know anything

about elli ga3ed etgolah! .. "

I walked toward the closet ..

ga3da a6ali3 ehdoom oo uhwa wagef waray ..

Salman ; " shenuuuu ya3ni? Shel maqsood?? "

Shaikha ; " the idea about wujood another

man eb 7ayate baghat tethbe7ek ..

oo wujoood another woman

eb 7ayatch shay 5alas you're sorry about oo

lazim asam7k oo lazim a6awef?? ..

I can't .. I can't handle you anymore ..

magdar asta7meL ashofik walla .. "

he walked away while yelling ;

" ana ilrayyaL ehne mu entay! fahma? "

huh!

okay?

enjoy being a man! wana shako?

I hattttteeeeee you! ..

libast a black dress ..

oo nizalt lihum ta7at ..

wela kilmn ga3ed ..

Shaikha : " ilsalam .. "

khalty ; " wa3alaikom ilsalaam 7abebti .. "

I kissed her head ..

and kissed my father in law's head ..

I sat all the time playing with my mobile ..

akrahhuum oo akrah walad'hum ba3ad okay? ;@ ..

3ami ; " Shaikha yuba 3asa mashar? "

I jumped ; " ha? hala? .. hehe ..

la mafene shay .. salmatik .. "

3ami ; " akeed yuba? "

I nodded ; " ee ee walla ..

bas ta3bana shway .. "

I wanted to say this 3ammi ..

I really Need to spit it ;

" I hate ur son ..

and I can't handle seeing his

face any fucking more ..

bas 3ami ..

we sat One day ..

and he talked about the baby ..

me too 3ame .. I thought about my little kid ..

and fakart eb my future as a divorced woman with a child!

being with his as " sister-brother" relationship ..

ahwan mn a3eesh eb wath3 menfasla oo 3endy

kid oo ared to my father oo loyat mona oo

al7een Salma ham dashat bil mawtho3 ..

magdar! .. mali khilq ..

yeah I know 3amme ..

How many Kuwaiti couples 3aishen eb nafs il room ..

bas mabainhum anykind of relationships? ..

we'll live chethe ..

kind of roomates! "

3ami ; " Shaikha? "

Shaikha ; " halaaaaaa? "

3ami ; " wain sara7tay?? "

I smiled .. luw tadre bil kalam elli

eb galbi oo wedy abu6ha ehne ..

Shaikha ; " ehehe ga3da afakker eb

esm 7ag il baby ..

lel7een malah esim .. "

3ami laughed ; " heheh .. eeh eeh ana

getlikom la etsamon 3alay ..

ana ma7eb hal suwalif .. "

Salman Smiled to him ;

" 3ayaL yuba? sheelli tamer 3alaih?

enta sammah .. 6albeenik .. "

3ami took a deep breath while smiling ..

3ami ; " mmmmmmm .. Sammoh .. Mishary .. "

my heart just stopped ..

and Salman's eyes poped out ..

I giggled ; " heheh! .. Inshalla .. "

Salman stared at me .. ; " eeh! tamer! "

5alasna ghada oo chay oo kilshay ..

oo re7na to our appartment ..

we sat jidam il tv .

i was writting a report for my work ..

Salman ; " ashofch wayed mestansa! "

I raised my eyebrow ; " really? No! .. 3adi .. "

Salman ; " aha! .. "

I giggled ; " heheh enshalla 3ala ilname? abbaih! 6aggag! ..

Enshalla et5alleh bedon esm! .. shda3wa il name shay mohem?

I really don't care .. Tabe etsameh shay thane .. samah! "

he looked at me in a stupid way! ..

Salman ; " la la! abi asame mishary ana! "

I nodded ; " ok! 3adi .. "

I took a deep breath ..

wai3! ..

I don't wanna name my son Mishary ..

aaw! ..

aw .. aw ..

thahre e3awerne ..

sarlah about a week e3awerne ..

eye oo erou7 il alam ..

oo kilmala wezeed ..

7aram .. being a pregnant with ur first child ..

esaweech sij thay3a bil 6oosha oo ma tadren shenu ilsalfa!

I called my mom ..

Shaikha ; " aloo .. "

Mom ; " hala yumma .. "

Shaikha ; " yumm..yumaaaaaaa .. "

Mom ; " ha?? shfeech???? shfech? "

Shaikha ; " yuma madre .. madre .. jesmi e3awerne ..

yuma kilshay e3awerne .. tathkeren yoom ethalatha getlich?

Now zad waaaayid .. yuma e3awwwwwwwwwwirrrrrrr yumaaaaa .. "

Salman ; " gomay gomay .. "

Mom ; " ha? shgeltay akher shay? "

Shaikha ; " la la hatha salman egooli agoom enrou7 il6abeb .. "

Mom. : " yuma dam lel7een ma nizaL

3alaich ilmay khalas ne6ray .."

I start crying ..

e3awerne sij ..

oo a7is enny Lost ..

madre shasawey ..

Mom. : " la tabcheeeeen yumma 7abebti entay .. khalas khalas

rou7ay il6abeb te6amenay .. bas enshalla mafech ela il 3afya .. "

I nodded while sneffing ; " eeh .. ok .. ok .. "

I closed the phone ..

oo re7na to " dar alshefa " HospitaL ..

bil 6erej I called my dr. ebtesam ..

getlaha enny ta3bana oo kilshay ..

so i'll meet her bil hospitaL enshalla ,

Salamn kept telling me Ennah Sorry ..

oo Ennah he didn't plan to do anything yejra7ne ..

oo ena il ensan ya'3le6 oo yet3allam ..

oo madre shenu .. alot of words e5tal6aw bil 3awar ..

fa ma sima3t wayid ..

I just kept nodding ..

and taking a deep fast breaths ..

I sat in the dr.s Office ..

agoollaha about shenu fene bilthab6 oo shenu 7assa ..

Shaikha ; " and sometime .. Sorry ..

I need .. "

and I start throwing up blood ..

the dr. yelled ; " TAKE HER ..

TAKE HER .. "

51 - [Re-Love .. Him;*!]

[ Faman allah ya khelli fegadtik ..

Faman allah ya kil al amanii .. ]

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I was staring at her mobile ..

whispering ; " stop it .. Don't even think about it ..

it's so fucking wrong shaikha .. aslan you have

already mashakeL kafya ..

mala da3ey etzedeenha .. Stop it .. STOP IT SHAIKHA .. "

I took my eyes off .. and washed my hands ..

" I can't!! " .. I said in a loud voice ..

there's a cute woman turned 3alay ..

I smiled ; " hehehe Sorry .. "

She smiled back ..

I took Asma's mobile and entered One the bathrooms

and locked the door behind me ..

I sat 3ala il toilet ..

I couldn't stop my fast breathing ..

I stared at her mobile screen ..

Omg! .. shga3da asawey ana! ..

Im scared ..

I pressed the buttons going for the menu ..

my hand ga3da tarjefff ..

Im so scared ..

that's wrong! so wrong ..

I didn't imagine enna there's a point eb my life

ra7 asawey chethe shay!

that's wronnnnnng abbaih 3aib!

I put her mobile 3ala my lap

I kept rubbing my hands together ..

mu gadra .. 7adyyyy nervos ..

I took a deep breath ..

I whispered ; " Now or never! "

I entered her inbox ..

Farah ...........

Noura ..........

Bluetooth file.

Nasir ...........

I opened his msg ..

huh! maybe that's Salman's nickname ..

bas ya3ni She should name him as a girl ..

From ; Nasir

" yes enshalla i'll pick you guys from ilbait at 10 .. "

uuuuuuugh..

he's her brother or cousin yemkin ..

Im sick!

my huscand isn't cheating on me ..

Im such a sick woman ..

I pressed ana il folder ..

105 msgs ..

" S. "

I entered the folder ..

from ; 7ubi

from ; 7ubi

from ; 7ubi

from ; 7ubi

from; 7ubi

from; 7ubi

from; 7ubi

my heart just stopped beating ..

and my hands start sweating ..

I can't feel my legs ..

I can't feel ANYTHING for fact ..

no no!

it's not his number ..

I pressed 3ala ( msg details )

wella his number ..

NOOOOOOOOO!

I DON'T WANA BELIEVE ITTTTT.......!!!!!!!

NO NO ..

PLEASE GOD ..

LAISH? LAISH???

LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAISH!

I closed my mouth with my hand ..

and start shaking so hard ..

while Sobbing ..

gumt ashahig mu gadra amsik nafse ..

I just kept reading his msgs ..

seeing his betrayaL..

a7is his msgs chenhm knives eb my chest ..

mu gadra ..

it's hurt so much ..

I can't handle it ..

I closed my eyes so tight ..

I don't wanna see it anymore..!

magdar..!

MA ABI ..

I should calm down ..

Im in a wedding ..

magdar ag3ad bil bathroom forever ..

and that bitch will come back to search

for her mobile for sure ..

I took a deep breath ...

oo misa7t my tears ..

I opened the door slowly ..

" aah! thanks god! .. "

madre wainha .. she's not here ..

I put her mobile yam ilsink

where it was before ..

I fixed my make-up ..

when I opened the door ..

I saw some mens wagfeen oo jedamhum

ilwooden door closed ..

they were talking to each other ..

sakait il door ..

I smiled ..

he look stupid wehuwa metwater ..

he looked ..

Cute ..

oh shaikha .. shut up ..

you're married woman ..

7etan luw ur husband 7mar ..

it's don't give you the right to think

about another one ..

oo mu ay another one ..

I opened il door again ..

I just wanted to see his face .. his smile ..

I missed him ..

em6arfa ilbab ..

bas embayna One eye ..

I kept staring at him ..

this look with the besht and shy smile ..

SHOULD BE FOR ME!!!!!

mu 7ag hathe ..

I should be pregnant with ur child

not that asshole's child ..

he took off his besht ..

my eyes poped ..

" Shfeh? eb yen7ash? ok ok i'll run

away after him .. "

he gave his cousin the bisht ..

and walked toward me ..

what? what? ..

He kept looking at somewhere yamme ..

madre wain ..

OH! ..

okay! .. the men bathroom ..

hahah ghabeyaa 7adi .. mokhi wegaf ..

he turned his eyes ..

our eyes met for a second ..

his eyes poped out ..

did he thought enna Im a ghost or something?

heheh his face was worthless! ..

menseddddim ..

Shaikha ; " *Snef* .. *Snef* " ..

He kept staring at me while walking toward

the door next to me ..

I closed the door ..

I had too ..

cus kan bagi degeega oo as7eba

inside the bathroom ..

I can't go out Now ..

I should wait bil bathroom ..

I can't stand seeing him next to her ..

as always I kept talking with

the voice in my head ..

" omg! .. Shaikha move on ..

you don't love him ..

LIAAAAAAAAAR!

you don't love him ..

LIAR!

LIAR!

LIAR! ..

I hate my self .. okay? "

* BEEP *

From ; +965 9*********

" ana at5ayyaL wela hathe you?? "

I closed my eyes ..

I can't ..

that's too much ..

I wanna shrink on my bed ..

cry under the Shower ..

that couldn't happen to me ..

IN A WEDDING!!!!!

From ; + 965 9*******

" you! .. your stunning eyes as always ..

that's you shaikha! "

I took a deep breath ..

I couldn't stop my tears ..

I pressed the green button ..

Mishary ; " alo? "

Shaikha ; " Mii..Mishary .. "

Mishary ; " hala? hala oboy? "

Shaikha ; " Mishary Im .. Im ..

Don't .. la et5alene .. "

Mishary ; " w..what? "

Shaikha ; " Im pregnant .. and my

husband cheats on me .. ana I still love you! "

Mishary ; " wohhhhw! .. that's not the right time ..

I can't love you back! .. I loved you shaikha alot ..

and I did something wrong .. But you didn't forgive me ..

and I respect that .. oo you walked away and married another man ..

while ana 5a6abtch ya3ni .. shtabene asawey? .. and after a year taqreban ..

wentay pregnant etgolili you love me? .. what should I do with your love Now wentay eb themat another man? what Should I do with your love and my wife tan6erni 3ala bo3d cham meter! .. WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH YOUR LOVE ELLI MU GADER E5ALENE?????? WHAT????? TELL ME WHAT? .. "

I took a deep breath ..

Shaikha ; " Misharry .. Im .. "

Mishary ga6a3 kalame ;

" I get to go .. I have a wife Now ..

Im Sorry .. "

Shaikha ; " don't .. No .. alooo ..

alooooooooooooooooooooo ..

ALOOOOOOOOO..!!!!!!!!! "

I texted Heba ; " bathroom Now!"

maskeena She came to the bathroom running ..

I hugged her so tight ..

Heba ; " uushshsh .. calm down .. calm down ... "

I kept crying so hard ..

I couldn't take it anymore ..

Shaikha ; " I wanna die right Now ..

I swear Im serious *Sneef* ..I wanna die ..

please god ..*Sneef*

I wana die!"

Heba ; " shut upppppp .. la etgoolin chetheeeeeee ..

I love you .. I can't live without you .. Calm down Shayookh .. "

I hugged her so tight ..

and Just put my head in her chest and take all my pain away ..

She let me cry 3ala ra7te ..

after 10 mins.

I whispered ; " I love you .. "

She print a kiss on my cheek ; " I love you akthar .. "

e3yuuni ghooreqat ..

Heba ; " No No!! don't cry again! tekfaaaaaaain .. "

I giggled while dmoo3 tanziL ; " hehe omg! I can't ...

I don't know Im in which moslsl! .. walla! .. that's so much drama ..

I can't .. walla .. mabii..! this is not my lfie .. mabeha! "

Heba ; " uushshshh! say 7emdellah! .. la etgolen chethe ..

kilshay lah 7aL .. "

I nodded ; " inshalla .. I hope .. "

I felt so guilty enna I called Mishary ...

ma kan hatha il mafrooth ..

I don't know why I did it ..

I missed him ..

do I love him?

do I REALLY love him?

I texted Salman

To; Salmanii.

" pick me "

after 10 mins he called me ..

it was already 12 am ..

I smiled to Heba ;

" Sou'aL .. did I spent the whole

wedding bil bathroom?? "

She laughed ; " heheheh .. mekhalif .. Enshalla my

wedding ma engazerha chethe .. "

we went back to my place ..

abi akheth my things 3alshan amshe ..

the newly weds was gone ..

and ilnas ray7en il dinner ..

I put on my 3abaya ..

Noura came walking so fast toward us ..

Noura ; " ambaih ma sheftaw asma's mobile? "

from; 7ubi

from; 7ubi

the msgs poped into my mind ..

I mummbled ; " no! "

Heba Said ; " mm madri .. let she ask ahaL ilwedding ..

cus etha a7ad shafa eb ya36ehum .. "

Noura nodded ; " yaa right .. yala bye .. "

" Salmanii" Is calling ..

I closed it ib his face ..

and kissed heba's cheeks ..

and went out side to him ..

I stood out side seeing Salman's egarreb bil sayara ..

kan fe cham car jedama ..

kan fe bunch of guys wafgeen ..

sahait feehum ..

Salman ; " SHAIKHAAAAAAAA.. "

I jumped ..

Bismellah! 7adi kent sahya ..

rekabt ilcar ..

Salman said joking ; " haa? ashoofich et5ezen

il masbeena .. "

I kept staring bil window out side ..

magdar a6eL eb his face ..

Salman ; " Shaikha? "

I closed my eyes ..

Shaikha ; " mmmmm "

Salman ; " Shfech? ta3bana? "

I nodded .. while sneffing ..

I was swallowing my own tears ..

Salman ; " Shaikha? "

I whispered ; " stop talking .. ushshsh! "

Salman ; " Laish? Shfech? .. huh! Seeing Mishary

chethe sawat fech? "

and he pressed the button ..

badamah 6ag ilbab ..

haaaaak iljawab..!

I yelled while crying so hard ..

Shaikha ; " HOW DARE YOU???????????? ..

FIRST DON'T TALK ABOUT MISHARY LIKE THIS! ..

HE'S NOT MY CASE ..

AND HE'LL NEVER BE .. DO YOU KNOW WHY IM CRYING??

DO YOU REALLY WANNA KNOWWWW????

IM CRYING BECAUSE I BELIEVED YOU LAIMA

GETLI THERE WAS NOTHING BETWEEN YOU AND THAT SLUT! ..

SHE'S NOT MY CASE SALMAN .. EHYA MO EM3AWRATNE ..

SHE DON'T KNOW ME .. SHE JUST FOND A MAN WHO IS MARRIED

AND DIDN'T GIVE A FUCKING DAMN EN MORTA .. ANA LAISH ABEEHA TE7TEREMNE OO ETRA3EY MASHA3RE WHILE MY OWN MAN DIDN'T DO IT?????????? .. I HATE YOU .. I HATEEEEEEEEEEE YOUUUUUUUUU! .."

I'm trying my best .. I swear ;'(

Hi ..

please guys stop it walla ..

ga3ed et7asesoony bethanb ..

I swear to god im trying my best ..

I slept yesterday at 5 am ..

and Now im posting with

One presentation bacher and 2 meds.

hal week ..

I have a ReaL life behind this blog guys ..

I swear to god im trying my best ..

but after all Im a human! ;S ..

I have my family , friends , Flan , jam3a ,

ente5abat , my private time , msn , emails ..

So please ..

there's comments such as ..

" thalaiteena" .. " ma sarat " ..

" etbo6een ilchabd" ..

COME OOOOOOOONNNN..!

I love you guys ..

and I know you love me too ..

and I expect from you Not using

this language again ;*

Im so sorry for hal post ..

I think it's kind off rude ..

bas there's some comments ..

OUT OF LIMITS..!

please guys ..

please ..

50 - [ Re- Love .. him;*! ]

[ etha ilawaL thebaa7ni ..

qetalni ethaney 3eshqah..! ]

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I layed On my bed ..

thinking about Salma , Asma , Heba , my father ,

Fahad , Salman .. and Finally .. Mishary!

Salman layed Next to me ..

watching Mbc 1 News ..

I mummbled ; " Salmaann .. "

Salman ; " mmmmm? "

Shaikha ; " I wanna ask you something .. "

Salman replied while still staring at the tv. screen ;

" elli uhwa? "

Shaikha ; " today I saw Salma .. I told you sa7?.. "

he nodded .. ; " eeh? "

Shaikha ; " and she Invited me 3ala her wedding ..

ya3ni enna kilman berou7 oo chethe ... all our friends .. "

Salman turned his face 3alay ; " menu all your friends?

entaw mabainkom common friends

ella heba! .. oo ba3dain ehya menu eb ta5eth? mo mishary? "

I felt enna he wanna kill me right now ..

I nodded ; " embala .. bas ya3ni mu hatha il mawtho3 ..

enna fashla .. She told me ennaha ga3da edawerni mn zeman ..

oo ma darat enna ana emsafra .. "

Salman ; " aha! .. mu lezom etrou7een .. golelha ta3bana .. "

Shaikha ; " bas fashla .. "

he raised his eyebrowses ; " la walla? .. entay taben etrou7een mo chethe? "

I sat on the bed .. ; " no no! .. abaih shako ..

Im just saying ya3ni enna fashla .. "

he raised his voice ; " LA WALLAAAAAA? ..

ENTAY SHAYFATNE GHABI? MAFHAM?? ..

YAYATLI TAQNE3EENI ETROU7EEN 3ERS HAL ASHKAL ILWASKHA? "

e3yooni ghooreqat .. ; " No .. No .. Im .. walla mu chethe ya3ni enna fashala ...

that's it .. walla .. it's .. "

Salman 7athaf il remote oo gam mn 3ala ilbed ..

walking toward the bathroom ..

Shaikha ; " wain .. wain betrou7?? "

Salman ; " BATHROOOOM!!!!!!!! MATSHOFEEEEEN?? "

I swalloed my tears ..

shda3wa ya3ni chethe etsarekh ..

tara ilsalfa ma teswa ..

Im just asking ..

I rolled up in my bed again ..

and covered my head with the blanket .

I was so mad ..

cus I swear to god Im not going 3alshan I love mishary ..

Im going because I wanna send a msg for them all ..

enna I don't care .. oo I moved on ..

oo enna by not comming ashkara still I love him ..

oo that's Not true at all ..

* BEEP *

wakhart il blanket 3ala rasy ..

ashoof my mobile ..

wella mafeh msg ..

I don't know why my heart told me to see Salman's mobile ..

1 new msg ..

From ; Asma ..

" Im so down .. I need ............................."

makent agdar ashoof il baje ..

I should Open the Msg 3alshan agdar agra ..

Salman Opened the bathroom's door ..

so I put his mobile again 3ala il table ..

and walked toward my closet ..

I was pulling my clothes out like a crazy women ..

Salman ; " Shfech Shfech? waain ray7a?? "

Shaikha ; " DOOOOOOOOOON'T TOUCH MEEE......! "

I pushed his hand away ..

Shaikha ; " wakhiiiir 3annnnyyyyyyyyyyyyy ... ! "

Dozen of tears were slapping me on my face..!

How could I believe his trash??

abaih he's a lier!!! oo I knew it .. bas 6awaft!!

Im such an idiot..!

Salman ; " Shaikhaaaa calm down!! ..

kil hatha 3alshan il wedding????? "

I pulled a bag from the top of the closet ..

and start to throw my clothes feha ..

Shaikha ; " Nooo! .. abbaih shakoooooo!

Im a cheater just like you.."

His eyes poped out ..

ans start pointing 3ala his chest ..

Salman ; "ana? shaikha ana?? "

I took a deep breath ..

while my face turned so red ..

and my eyes fulled with tears ..

Shaikha ; " go check your mobile ..

She's so fucking down! ..

yeah of course she's down ..

makanat tadri enna Im pregnant ..

why you didn't told her by the way? "

I said in a humar .. and pulled my bag mn 3ala il bed ..

Salman ; " wait wait .. wain ray7a? menoo ehya? "

Shaikha ; " DON'T ACT STUPIIIIIIID!!!!!

khalaaaaaaaaassss salman

I swear to god you got the role!!

bassik tamtheeeeeeeeeL! "

my words kanaw alot 3ala salman to handle ..

he was in shock ..

I couldn't pull my bag ..

I was so weak ..

I couldn't pull my self together!

huh , How fucking pathatetic is that? ...

I walked toward the door ..

and got out from our appartment ..

I drove to my mother's house ..

while crying so hard ..

I couldn't think about anything .. or see anything ..

I was just thinking about my life ..

Laish ya3ni? LAISH?? ..

my little brother opened the door for me ..

Khalid ; " shfech koko?? "

I took a deep breath ; " where's fahad? "

my mother ; " besmellaah!!!!! Shfeeeeeeeechhhhhhh? "

I ran to her .. and hugged her so tight ..

I crashed down .. I was so broken ..

and So mad in the same time ...

my mother ; " Esmellah 3alaich .. samay bilra7man ..

ta3awethay mn ebliis .. "

Shaikha ; " yuma .. I .. I .. *Sneef* .. "

She hugged me closer to her heart ..

and start crying with me ..

7aram my mother taksir 5a6re ..

She loves us the most ..

after few mins ..

I start pulling my self together ..

and we walked to my room ..

I layed down on my bed ..

Shaikha ; " emmmmmmmm ..

I missed the smell .. "

my mother sat next to me 3ala ilbed ..

my mother ; " what's wrong? Shfeech? "

Shaikha : " nothing ..

Bas I wanna set here for the next few days .. "

my mother ; " Shenu sawalich salman? "

I closed my eyes ..

I don't wanna tell you the truth ..

Shaikha ; " nothing .. "

My mother ; " Shaikha ana omech! ..

etha ma gelteeli menu etgoleen lah? "

I closed my eyes ; " yuma .. he's cheater ..

I find out enna he's cheating on me ..

and he treates me channy Im the cheater! "

her eyes poped out ..

and I know enna her heart just stopped beating..

I took a deep breath ..

Shaikha ; " yuma I'm Sorry .. I .. *Sneef* ..

yumma I don't Know shasawey .. Im so down ..

bamooot .. "

She hugged me so tight ..

and whispered ; " are you sure?? la ta'9lemeenah .. "

I crashed down again .. ; " YES .. IM SURE .. I SAW THE MSGS EB MY EYES ..

I WOUDN'T LEAVE MY HOUSE HAL 7AZZA WANA NOT SURE!!!! "

she kissed my forehead ; " 7abebeti .. get some rest now ..

oo enshalla mn nesbe7 bacher e7elha alf 7allal .. "

I nodded ..

She closed the lights and the door oo walked away ..

I just shrinked in my bed..

and my whole life flashed back ..

I just nedded someone ..

I don't know menu ..

I need someone Next to me ..

a7is enna Im so alone ..

a7is enna Im lost in this big world ..

I hate my life ..

I hate everyone ..

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.

after two days ..

Today is Mishary and Salma's Wedding ..

Fahad ; " Good morning .. "

I smiled ; " ahlan good morning .. "

Fahad ; "shlonch today? "

I nodded ; " fine .. Im going to a wedding .. "

Fahad laughed ; " heheh walla sej? "

I smiled ; " walla! .. I should have a life ..

enshalla I'll set and cry over haL cheater for ever?? "

He kissed my forehead ; " have fun .. I'll meet him today .. "

I choked with my waffle ..

Fahad ran oo yabli water ..

Fahad ; " esmellah 3alaiiich .. "

I was choking while laughing so hard ..

I don't know why I reached the line of craziness ..

Do you know that feeling when you are so sad ..

you laugh so hard to cover your weakness?

well , That was my plan!

I took a shower ..

and went to the saloon ..

Swait the girly things ..

then head back home ..

* Nokia tone .. *

" Salmanii " is calling ..

1 Missedcall ..

" Salmanii " is calling ..

2 Missedcall ..

3 Missedcall ..

4 Missedcall ..

I yelled at the MObile ;

" ENSHALLA MA ET3ALIIIIIQQQQQ .. "

5 Missedcall ..

I took a deep breath ..

and switched my mobile off ..

took a lond shower ..

and libast a bubble black and gold

ferragamo dress ..

with my wavy hair pulled up in a messy way ..

with bronze basics and smokey eyes and nude lips ..

I looked amazing ..

Nizalt downstairs ..

calling for fahad 3alshan ewadeny for the wedding ..

Shaikha ; " Fahaaaaaa............."

I froze in the middle of the living room ..

I stared at fahad ; " Speaking with him ..

mo ma3nata bringing him Home with you!!!!!!!!!!!!! "

Salman ; " Shaikha .. Shaikha .. entay fahma il mawtho3 ghala6 .. "

Shaikha ; " uuh please! .. matabee tetfashaL jedam Fahad walla believe me! ..

bas Im not stupid enna agrah her msgs twice oo kela ana fahma ghala6! .. where's the ghala6 elli ana fahmeta eb her msg enna ehya DOWN!!!!!!! pls Salman stop ilchetheb walla! .. Im so done with you and you stupid lies .. "

fahad ; " Shaikha 7abebeti .. everyone have his mistakes .. She's pushing him ..

bas uhwa mu ma36eeha wayh .. Believe me .. you Know how much I love you .. "

ga6a3tah ..

Shaikha ; " greaaaaaaaaaat! and Now you ib his side??????? "

Fahad ; " Shaikha 3an hal 7ache ..

Im always eb your side .. Shaikha fakray eb masla7tch .. "

Shaikha ; " Fahad wain masla7ty eb living with a cheater?

WAINNNNNN? golli WAINNNNNNNNNNNN????? "

Salman ; " Im not a cheater .. Im not .. walla .. "

Shaikha ; " Stop it .. "

he handle me his mobile ..

Salman ; " Shofay me msgs ..

at7adach telgain shay 3alay ..

I didn't cheat on you .. Never! "

it's so humiliating checking ur husband mobile

infront of your brother ..

I felt inna we are nothing ..

me and salman will never be the same ..

NEVER! ..

I gave him his mobile back ..

Shaikha ; " huh! oo laish you have No sent items!!!

mashalla ma3endik rabe3?? "

He stared at me ; " ya3ni Now when you didn't find

anything ghasib akoon ana ghal6an?? "

Fahad ; " I'll leave you gus tetfahemoon .. "

and he walked away ..

I whispered ; " Fa .. Faha .. "

he closed the door ..

Salman moved toward me ;

"zain chethe etfashleen

rou7ch jedam ahalich? "

my eyes poped ..

and my stomach began to shrink ..

Shaikha ; " whaa? whaat?? "

Salman ; " emshay shaikha let's go back home ..

oo i'll forget about it .. "

Shaikha ; " No! .. leave me ..

maaaaabiiii ard maaaaaaaaa abiiiiii .. "

Salman smiled ; " I know ena you're mad ..

bas think ib your mind .. I didn't cheat on you! "

Shaikha ; " la etyaneneee!! you did ..

you did .. Im not stupid .. Im not stupiiiiiiiidddddd! la etyaaaaaneneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! "

mesakne for my arm so tight ; " emshay shaikha .. "

Shaikha ; " aaawchhh!!!!!

I'm going to salma's wedding!!!!!! hedniiiiii .. "

He smiled ; " hehe .. as you like .. go .. have fun ..

I know you .. and I trust you .. mu methlich .. "

Shaikha ; " ahha! .. okay i'll have fun .. "

Salman ; " emshay .. ana awadech .. "

Shaikha ; " No .. I'll go with fahad .. "

He stared at me ..

Is he gonna kick me ass right now?

Salman ; "emshay! "

I nodded ..

he drove me to the wedding ..

Salman ; " Have fun galbi .. call me laima et5alsen .. "

I nodded while my eyes kanaw fulled with tears ..

3end il bab I called Heba .. galatli ehya bil 6erej ..

So ne6art'ha 3end ilbab ..

we entered together ..

I saw Asma and my other friends ga3deen ..

I whispered to Heba ; " ambaih asma shako yaya??

et3arf Salma ehya?? abbaih malgoofa shako yaya??? "

Heba mummbled ; " abbaih sektay salfat yayat'ha esh6oolha ..

She came bedaL Fay .. "

Shaikha ; " haa?? oo esh3arafha eb fay?? .. "

Heba smiled to them ; " e3arfon ba3ath mn ayam ilthanaweya .. "

I nodded ; " aha! ma teste7y? "

Heba couldn't reply 3ala my Question ..

because Kena egrab menhum 7aiL ..

we Say hello's to the girls ..

I kissed asma's cheeks while eb galbi wedy azne6ha ..

I was setting 3ala my chair ..

luw amot magdar at7arak ..

mali khelq aslan at7arak ..

kilshay fene e3awerni mn il7arra ..

I felt asma's eyes staring at me ..

wai3a wai3a she didn't put her mobile down!

bas ga3da oo takteb msgs!!

kan wedi afla3ha eb her mobile ..

Salma entered so they wanna dance for her ..

I mumled to Heba ;

" Shda3wa I'll dance for her! mn zeeeeenha .."

heba laughed ; " heheh entay film .. "

they all danced for her ..

I went to the bathroom to fix my hair oo make-up ..

cus 3aib ya3ne .. I'll go oo kiss her oo take a picture

with her 3aib ya3ni still ehya 3azmatne ..

I was staring at me hair ..

afaker shenu feeh shay asan3a? ..

Asma ; " hehe why you are staring at your self chethe? "

I turned while hathe ilmes3eeda ..

I smiled ; " hehe .. La Im thinking shenu eb

sha3re something ghala6 3alshan asn3a .. "

She nodded oo stood next to me doing her lipstick ..

Asma ; " so .. you are pregnant ? "

SHAKOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

I smiled ; " yes .. "

She smiled ; " mashalla ..

allah etamim .. "

Shaikha ; " thanks .. "

Noura opened the bathroom door ;

" Asma .. abbaaaih come degeega ..

kabait chay 3ala my dress .. "

She turned oo walked toward the door ..

e6la3at min ilbathroom while her mobile

ma76oo6 yamme bain il sinks ..

I stared at her mobile ..

Should I see the msgs??

Should I know the truth??

that's so wrong ..

I can't ..

I can't ..

I took a deep bretah ..

I just ..

C A N ' T ..

guys ;* .. a7ibkom ana! ;*

e7mm ;$ ..

hahaha ..

I know I know ..

I told you Im in love with randoms ..

bas mu lay hal daraja ya3ni ..

Bas ..

I wanna tell you something ..

tathkeroon I told you Im in love with

someone before 7 years

and bla bla bla??

yes?

first wait ..

he's my cousin ..

3alshan tefhemoon ilwath3 ..

ya3ni my family oo his family yadroon ..

ya ya .. they know ena there's something between us ..

bas 3ad mu li darajat eli baina :P ..

fahmene?

ilmohem ..

yesterday ,

I was really down ..

em3asba enna we should be together ..

ilmafrooth Now I have kids aslan ..

Im not small!

Im 21 ya3ni mu babeeeee..!

oo bla bla bla ..

faj'a I was talking with my self oo

at7al6am 3alaih ..

* Nokia tone ..

" Flan ;* "

Me ; " Hala .. "

Flan ; " shfech? "

Me : " besmellah! .. mafene shay .."

Flan : " are you sure? your voice mu zain .. "'

Me ; " No .. I .. "

Faj'a ghassait eb my tears ..

I was so angry ..

Im the kind of persons elli ma etbayyen her feelings ..

3ady ena asoolif oo ath7ak .. bas asedda amot bachey ..

ma7eb abayen for others shenu my feelings ..

Flan ; " 7ayaaaaate? what's wrong???

fe a7ad thayag khelqichhhh? "

Me ; " no .. "

Flan laughed ; " heheh ..

yalla tara fe mobarattt golili .. "

we both laugh ..

I know what Man utd means to him ya3ne ..

Me ; " khalas go watch ur game .. "

Flan ; " La you know enna I wont leave

you wentay tabchenn .."

Me ; " Im .. Im so angryyyy .. I swear I wanna leave you

mn kether ma me7tarra mennk .. bas I know I can't ..

Flan isn't 7 years alot eb 3aink? .. tara you let me down before 2 years ..

and Now? you did it again .. ya3ni I have to wait another 2 years? oo ba3dain ham another One year .. eser 10 years!! .. 10 years from my life wana waiting?

7aram 3alaik! 3afya gaaaaaaaaaaaalb! .. "

Flan ; " la tabcheen .. "

Me ; " IM NOT! .. tara Im not crying 3alashan abek tetzawajni ..

Im not sick ..

oo I know how much you want me ..

bas Im crying cus

sij sij sij malaaait oo ta3abt .. "

Flan whispered ; " ya3ni ma tabene?? "

I smiled while tears 3ala my cheeks ;

" Emballla! .. I do .. bas khalas ..

wesalt my limit .. magdar .. "

Flan ; " give me your mother .. "

I laughed ; " heheh tara mali khelq .. "

Flan ; " tara ana mn sejje ..

give me your mother .. "

Me ; " shetgoolaha? .. "

Flan ; " khalas .. I have been thinking

aslan enna 7aram

3alay eli emsaweh fech ..

oo luw bint thanya chan hadatny mn zeman ..

I really do love you ..

oo ma weddi a5thech oo abahthelich weyay ..

you Know enna my dawra eb london ..

mabi a5thech wentay bil jam3a .. ya3ni shloon? ..

Bas Now ta5arejay shahar 6 oo netzawaj oo a5thech weyay okay? "

I nodded .. I felt so peace ..

Flan ; " yala wain ur mother ? "

I giggled ; " hehehe walla maskeena my

motehr wayid 6awefatlina .. "

Flan ; " khalas babe 3a6eni couple of days arateb il omor

m3a my family okay? ..

they already yadroon ya3ni ena I want you .. fa mara7 ya5eth

waqt il mawtho3 .. oo nen5e6eb hal cham month ..

oo netzawaj awaL 7 oo ensafer okay? .. "

I nodded .. : " enzain wetha saqa6t? "

hahah I have that math .. waaaay mu gadra!

Flan ; " walain! .. an6erch et5alseen saife ..

bas mara7 tasqe6een .. golay 7ag ur dr. entay

betsafreen m3a raylich .. "

I start giggling .. abaaaaaaaaih the word "raylich" is so perfect for me ..

abbaih a7is'ha et'9a7ekni ..

I can't imagine my self his wife 3oqob shahrain!!!!!!

yummaaaaa .. channy hawaaaaaaaaaaaant??

:D

:D

:D

E3LAN HAM ..

Hey jame3an ;****

khalas Im not Gonna

Complete il story ..

:)

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LooooL ;p wayy ya kerhi .. malat Box :P

I know I know maliiqa oo kelkum ga3ed et5ezooni

without laughing :P heheheh ..

Bas khalas walla ma a3eed il ga66a il baikha ..

agoolikoum ..

* tetrabbba3 with banak eb her right hand

and 7up eb her left hand* ..

ya3ni the Story is gonna end sooner or later ..

fa bagoolikm ..

ana ta3abt wana afakkir eb New Story :D

cus 6abbbbb3aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan ..

this a non-stop Blog ;p hehehe ..

I told you before ..

my blog shi3ar is ;

" mush 7a te'dar teghammad 3eneek " ;p heheheh ..

So ,

any ideas for New story?

please a7san etkoon reaL one ;)

even itha bedoon details ..

just the basics ;)

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So ,

Etha ay a7ad yabii egooli his/her story ..

oo ana aktebha eb my way ..

Email me ..

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kick ur shesamoona ;@ "

okay?

Bas pls .. pls ..

I know you wouldn't do it guys ..

bas ya3ni 3alshan abarre themeti ..

Don't use others stories ..

and Don't fake stories ;*

etha I didn't recieved emails ..

I'll put il story elli eb mokhe ..

bas il maleeq feha enna waaaayid head lines

mafeha alot of details ;S ..

So lazim afakker bil details ;S ..

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that's it ..

mwah mwah ;*

Love .. to ur souls ;*