19 } ~ B.

I fell a sleep around 8:30 am ..
And woke up 3ala ilfu6oor ..

I didn't found any msg or missed call from Faris!

I texted him ..

To: Faris
" taqabbal allah .. please we need to talk .. call me!"

All the time in tarawe7 I was checking me mobile!
He did even reply 3ala my msg ..!


On the way home ..
I called Nouf ..
And told her what just happened yesterday ..


Nouf : " oh my goodness! He's such a child! Common! Faisal! Shkobrah? He's like our big brother! Ambaaih shougo he's sick wallah!! .. maskeen 7abebe feeh marath nafse!"

Shoug : " uuh chubay! Don't talk about him like that! .. okay he over reacted .. bas he's not mareth nafse or anything! "

Nouf : " mmm .. agoolich wait shrayich ashbuka with us? Oo you can talk to him? "

Isn't that kind of cheap?

Shoug : " mmm .. la la noufo .. I don't wanna talk to him chethe .. etha uhwa ma yabe khalas .. it's up to him! "

Nouf : " mu eb kaifaaaaa! You didn’t do anything wrong! .. omg! .. wait wait .. "

Shoug : " but …… "

She put me on hold..!

* BEEB *

Nouf : " aloooo all! "

Faris : "who's all? "

Nouf : " oh please! Don't act channa there's nothing wrong! .. you and shoug should talk to each other! .. "

Faris : " shit! I don't want to! "

Nouf : " don’t act like a child! Yaaaaaaahil? "

Faris : " chab nouf! "

Nouf : " faris! He's or cousin! .. don't act like she cheated on you or something! .. law ehya 7assa enna it's something wrong magaltlik 3anah wela galatle! .. right? "

Faris : " she didn't told me!! She sent me a msg at 4 am by mistake! "

Nouf : " yeah … but she told me about him .. ya3ne walla he's a brother! Ambaih aslant he's our cousin! "

Faris : " I'm her cousin too! "

I finally spoke .

Shoug : " ouch! "

Nouf giggled : " heheh yeah qaweya tara! "

Faris : " No! Shoug don't say ouch! .. cus it hurts laima ma etgolili about a "cousin" entay 6aqqa suwalif weyyah oo e7na yalah bil sena enshoufah mara! Oo I fond out about him by a msg la oo bil ghala6 at 4 am! With that stupid level of meyana!! .. and you Nouf .. please! I'm not baby 3endich 3alshan tashbekene eb kaifech! I know her number oo meta ma wedi akalemha I'll call her! .. "

I cut him out .. I know him so well ,
After that point he'll lose it …
Be3asib ezyada 3an elizoom .. oo ra7 yet7asaf ..
Bas in order to keep him self " maghloo6 3alaih" ..
Mara7 ye3tether bil3aks bekabbir ilsalfa izyada ..
I know him so well ..

Shoug : " I love you .. "

Nouf : " awwwh .. "

I giggled : " heheh entay ghala6! Sekeeh! "

Nouf : " I can't! ana elli shabkatkom .. etha sakaitah eb yensad menkoum too! "

Shoug : "uh! So khalich .. cus he wont pick it up! "

I said hal 7ache oo ana adre enna he's on line ..
I wanted to him to know enna it's not easy to let my cousin hear me oo ana a3tether ..
Bas .. 3alshan 5a6rah .. I'll do anything ..

Faris : " khalas shoug 6af .. "

Nouf : "Yeah! That's what men says 3alshan et5alis elsalfa .."

Me and Faris start laughing ..
She's crazyyy!

Faris : " entay radio?? Sektaay shwaaaaaaaaaaaay! "

Shoug : " heheheh ambaaaih etyaneneen noufo! Kilma asawey something wrong shebkeenah hehehehe! "

Faris : " khalas shoug .. that's okay .. but please ..
can I ask you for a favor? "

Shoug : " Sure 7abebe .. anything! "

Nouf : " kiss me? "

I blushed and Start laughing ..

Faris : " heheheh la 7ooooooooooooooollllellaaaah! "

Nouf : " Sorry guys bas walla ma7eb laima eser chethe! .. you belong to each other ediots ! "

Shoug : " heheheh I knoooooooooowwww! Hehehehe "

Faris : " Shoug 7abebti .. please delete faisal from your msn list .. okay? "

Shoug : " mmm .. but .. "

Faris : " no buts .. please? "

I mumbled : " mmm .. well, khalas ok .. enshalla "

Faris : " promise? "

Shoug : " yeah .. inshalla .. "

Faris : " great .. "

He whispered ..

Faris : " Now you should give me a kiss .. "

I giggled : " heheh faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaariiiiissss .. "

Nouf : " hahahahah 3aaaaady 3adyyyyyyyyy kiss him I'm okay with that! Heheheheh "

awaL ma wesalt our home ..
7asait fee loya ..

Shoug : " guys shwayya oo adeglikom .. tawne dasha ilbait .. oo ga3da asma3 loya! .. akhaf something efootne eheheheh .. "

Faris : " heheheh .. yalla ok honey .. "

Nouf : " byeeeee! "

I entered the living room ..
Where my mom was talking nervously to Nada!

My mom : " istaghferallah! Oo a7ad esawwey hal sowat eb hal shahar ilfotheel? 3amat 3ainaaaaaaaaaah!! .. qalel el adaaaaab! "

I opened my mouth in a shock ..
How? What? When?

I whispered : " shisalfa? "

Nada smiled : " nothing honey .. rou7ay darich! Rou7ay rou7ay .. "

I couldn't walk to my room ..
Galbe naghazne ..
Oo 7asait something big just happened!

Shoug : " yuma shfekooooooom?? "

My mom : " nothing shoug! Rou7ay darich yomma .. "

I nodded .. and walked slowly to me room ..

I heard my mom whispering : " oo al7een shbesawon? Gharbal allah eblisa!! Walla ma yeste7ee! "

Nada : " madre mama! .. bas shenu eb eed'hum? He's not awal wela akhir wa7ed .. "

I stopped in the middle of our tall mamar ..
And tried hard to listen 7ag 7acheehum ..

My mom : " al7een atesel feha wela shasawey? "

Nada : " yuma shetgoleeeeen?? Waladkom married someone ghasbin 3alaikom? Oo kil ilkuwait tet7acha feekom? .. no! yuma khalas sektay channich ma tadren it's better .. ebrou7 uhma maqhoreen now .. etzedenhm? "

My mom : " walla Om Khalid ma testahel! .. "

Nada : " walla allah e3een faisal! .. kanaw close! .. ma tadren al7een wain ewaddy wayha mn ilnas etha hathe suwat okhooh .."

I closed my eyes ..

Ok ok .. faisal's big brother called Khalid..
He's about 29 years old ..
I don't remember him that much ilsara7a ..
At age 17 he traveled to Canada for studying ..
oo bas mathkira ilsara7a ..

did he married someone oo ahalah mu rathen?
Ok why? When? Menu ehya?

19 } ~ A.

omg! I don't know what's wrong with me in this Ramadan! .. I have million things to do .. yet I'm not doing anything! Loooooool .

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOUUUU ALL ;********** ,,


My heart starts beating ..
I hate hal msgs!
Type " ga3da? " .. " fatheya? " ..
A7is something bad will happen etha garait chethe ..!

To: Faris
" kane ga3da anam .. what's wrong? "

After 5 mines.

From: Faris
" nothing wrong! .. laish? "

To: Faris
" uuh! Madre! .. I 7asait .. "

From: Faris
" la bas kent as'al 3anich .. 7asaitch metthayga today .. "

To: Faris
" I hate talking about stuff eb msgs! .. and you know that ..
Oo I'm not metthayga at all .. "

I couldn't sleep ..
So I joined msn from my mobile ..

To: 858
" M shoug-alx ilovefaris "

I received a welcome msg ..
And another msg ..

From: 858123
" faisal.dr ;
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa? "

I start giggling..
Mu sa7eee!

I saved him F
3alashan mali khulq a7feth il number mal his email eb my mobile ..

To: 858123
" ha? Heheheh .. mu gadra anam! ;/ huuuf! "

From : F
" faisal. dr:
Ta3awethay mn eblis oo 3eday laima il 1000 oo etnamen .. "


To: F
" huff! Ga3da a7aaaweeeeL ;( .. "

We kept talking oo suwalif oo the7ek ..
While faris mashalla 3alaih 7aqir ..
I though he fell a sleep oo nesane ..

From: F
" faisal. dr:
You're just so sweet shougo! .. ensedamt ennich e7laiwa! .. kanat fekrete 3anich ghaaaaaair! .. "

To: F
" heheheh really? Ashwa ;p .. laish shenu kanat fekretik? "

From: F
" faisal . dr :
I don't know .. awal shay I thought enich baby! Cus bainah cham? 9 years? .. and then shoofa shwayya ;p .. bas akhir shay ashwa dashaitay galbe oo bala3tich .. "

I kept laughing ..
He just glow my days ..
I really loved him ..

To : Faris
" looooooooool! ;p 6a3 ilwaaaayh ;p .. me too .. I thought ennik wayid shayeb! ;p .. bas tara lil7een ma getli shenu sarat ilfekra! ;p .. ghair enny so sweet (a)! heheheh .. "

From: F
" faisal. dr:
Wainch? Alooooo? Looooool e7er laima yousloon
100 msg bil degega! Heheheh "

Haw!
I sent him a msg tawa! .. shfeeh hatha!

I entered my sent items ..

Ooh! No no no!
I sent the msg to FARIS! By mistake!
Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!

To: Faris

Ok ok … what should I say?
Shagoulaah?

After few seconds ..

From : Faris
" huh? "

I took a deep breath ..
And pressed his number ..

Ma eriiiiiid..!

I kept calling ..
And calling ..!
And .. CALLING!

Ma erid ..

He just ignored my calls ..

From: F
" faisal . dr:
Shougoooo? Wain e5tefaitay? Heheh ;p "

Uuh! Go to hell!

I sign out ..
And text faris ..

To : Faris
" Please pick it up! .. you should listen to me!! .. ana shabka eb msn from my mobile .. and I was chatting with faisal alx ..! it's nothing! You shouldn't think that way about me faris! .. 3aib 3alaik! "

After few mines.

From : Faris
" 3aib 3alay? Huh! 6a3 menu e3alemni .. agool agool shoug! .. adding faisal in your msn allah ye3lam mn meta behind my back .. and texting him hal 7azza in this level of meyana! .. and acting today channe ana emgasir eb 7agich .. and after all of that .. etgolele 3aib 3alaik! .. 3almay nafsich! "

My eyes winded ..
Men meta faris yetkallam that way?

To : Faris
" ok answer me .. please .. I hate msgs! "

From : Faris
" I hate lying too.! "

To : Faris
" you don't wanna listen to me? .. to what I have to say? "

From : Faris
" Elli ma e3edny ras mal ya shoug .. ma a3edah faida ; ) "

What that suppose to mean??

To: Faris
" omg! Tara 7adik ga3ed etbaligh faris.. that's too much! .. he's our cousin! Shda3wa em3assib chethe? .. he's akbar menny eb like 9-10 years! .. omg! He's like a big brother walla! "

5 am ..
5: 15 am ..
5: 26 am ..
6 : 00 am ..
6:40 am ..

And I waited tell 8:00 am!
Without getting any respond from faris ..

I hate it .
I just ..

Hate it!

18 } ~

Ramadan kareem to all of you! ;*

First of all, Sorry for not posting bas kint sick ;( .. still lay3a chabdi ;( bas a7san eb wayid ;* ..
2nd .. I don't wanna talk about ilcomments .. it just too much ! : )
And yeah I don't use bad language .. in (re-love him ) Shaikha's caricature chethe .. bas me as a person I don't curse ella naderan! : ) .. and by the way .. I hate judging others!

Love you all ;**********
.
.

Faris smiled while opening the door for me ..

Faris : "7ayach .. "

I blushed: " e7ayyik .. "

He opened the radio ..

I closed me ears ..

Shoug : "noooo! Mabi! .. I don't wanna listen to music eb Ramadan! "

He starts laughing...

Faris: " uf uf! Shda3wa sadaitay athonch! Khalas yuba ka sakainaah! "

I giggled ..

Shoug : " fashalt rou7ee mo sa7? bas walla sarle 2 weeks wana ma asma3 hehehe "

He gave me a half smile : " no 3adee .. bil3aks I'm proud of you .. "

I smiled ..
Few mines. Passed like hours!
I hate it laima eser chethe baina ..
Close .. But far away!

I whispered : " faris .. "

He mumbled : " mmm ? "

Shoug : " what happened? "

he took a deep breath : " I told my mother! "

my eyes popped out!
And I just put my hand on my mouth ..

Shoug : " oh .. my .. ! why? How? When ?"

He was going to tell me everything ..
When I yelled ..

Shoug : " SHGALAAAAAT??? "

He starts playing with his gofel ..
While his eyes on the road ..
But his mind kan somewhere else!

Faris : " shoug .. ana .. "

Shoug : " yes? "

Faris : " shoug I wanna ask you one question ..
and I need the answer right now .. ok? "

I nodded .. : " sure .. what? "

Faris : " do you know how sick I am ? "

My eyes winded : " she said no? 3alshan you're sick? .. " I start playing with my hair nervously : " WHY? .. why everyone treating me like I'm going to kill you? .. I love you! .. that should refresh ur heart! Not killing you! .. uuh! "

Faris : " shoug .. answer me! .. do you know? "

Shoug : " yes faris! Yes! I know! I know! "

Faris : " shoug I can't handle breathing sometimes .. they think that I can't handle a house .. I can't handle .. you ! "

Shoug : " can you? "

Faris whispered : " what do you think? "

Shoug : " uuh dear god! .. faris tell me .. what happened between you and your mom? Let me understand! "

Faris : " nothing shoug .. just like yours! .. sawatle film oo tabche oo enta ehtam eb rou7ik oo derastik al7een oo enta mareth oo ta3ban oo laish etmashkil rou7ik oo etthaye3 ilbent! Min hal 7ache .. "

I whispered : " I hate them! Wayid mo shwayya! .. why they can't get it! .. mu fahma shloon chethe mu ga3den yefhemonah! .. I can't .. walla .. akrahhum! "

Faris : " give me your hand .. "

I gave him my hands .. both of them .. while tearing up ..
Kena wagfen eb the ishara elli bil second ring road elli enlif side the forth ring road going to the airport road where alyarmouk is ..

I was playing with my thumb nervously ..
He just hugged my small hands with his soft warm hands ..

Faris : " shoug don't cry .. kilshay will be ok .. "

Shoug : " promise? "

Faris : " yes 7abebti .. promise .. "

* BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEBBBBB! *

Faris : " hahah! Uuh! Shabbat il eshara? "

I giggled ..

Shoug : "mo sa7ee hehehehe "

I went back home ..
Chit-chatted with my mom and Nada ..
Then went to my room ..

awaL ma dashait wela alga my laptop on the bed ..
with the msn mafto7 ..
faj'a nesait enny emkhaleetah oo 6al3a! heheheh ..

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Hello Sweetie.. embarak 3alaich elshahar ..

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Hello??

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Wainch ga3da etqarqe3een?

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Alooooooooo?


I start laughing so hard 3ala ( etqarqe3en) loooool! Shakhbare!

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Hahahahaaaaaa! Omggggg! Shakhbaaaare going to qerqai3an!!

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Sorry kent atfa6ar barra ;D .. ahleen .. 3alaina oo 3alaik! Ma3anah ma buqa ella 13 days! ;p

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Halla! Zain radaitay! Sarle nus sa3a mn kalamtich ! .. eeh entay tashbeken 3alashan abareklich bil shahar? Makoo me5tafya!

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Heheheh yeah 7addi me5tafya ;p that’s my new strategy to make you missing me (a)

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Heheheh la walla? .. la walla mokanich bayan 3ad ..

I felt like " aawh sweeeeeet! "

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Heheheh ashwa! ;p .. so? How are you?

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Good ; ) .. entay wain re7tay tefa6artay?

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Chillies with my cousins .. nouf oo fa6oma oo a7med oo jassim oo faris ..

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Yaa7elookum! Entaw lel7een close?

I smiled while typing ..

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
More than ever! ;p

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Mashalla! .. allah ya7fethkom oo e5alikom 7ag b3ath ..

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Thankyou .

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
you're welcome ;)

marraw 5 mines maybe ma gelna shay ..
So I changed my clothes ..
Washed my face ..
And got back to the laptop ..


Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Shoug bas'elich souaL ..

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Aloooooo?? Khalas yuba hawannah!!

I giggled ..

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Back sorry! .. amir?

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Welcome .. entay chethe m3a kil ilnas wela bas ana?

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Chethe what? .. what do you mean?

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Rasmeya .. Nervous and sometimes rude?

Uh? Omg! .. was that a bunch on my face??

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Me?

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
yes! You! .. wayid rasmeya .. oo tetkalemain chenny a6er mench ilkalma .. kil sa3a takteben joumla! Oo nafsetik eb 5ashmeich! .. like you're doing me a favor or something!

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Omg! Men sejich? .. Im sorry etha 7asastik like that!!! Bas im not rude or anything walla! .. im just .. mmm .. madre ya3ni there's no meyana between us .. that's it!

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
La walla? Yala 3ayaL we'll keep talking laima et6ee7 ilmeyana ;p

I giggled ..

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Heheheh! Okkkkkk! Yalla! ;p .. I'll show you shkether im "not" rude! ;p

We kept talking about everything ..
Kilshay kilshay bil denya ..
Ramadan series , food , tarawee7 , 7ashaina shwayya ;p
He talked to me about his word oo ilnas elli emoroon 3alaih ..

He was so sweet and funny .. oo 7adddaaaa kind ..

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Omg!!!!! Baqe nes sa3a 3ala ilsu7oor!! .. e7na ga3den naqreq mn cham? 4 hours?

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Loooooool! Taqreban! ;p .. walla 6ala3tay hathra shougoooo! ;p

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Ahahahah .. I told youuuuuuuu! ;p .. yalla goom tesa7ar oo don't forget to drink water .. and ed3eeli bil salat ;p

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Inshalla ;* .. yalla goodnight ..

I closed the msn with a smile on my face ..







* beep* * beep*





From : Faris;*
" ga3da baba? "

17 } ~

Great! ..
And that's what I was waiting for!!
Hatha elli nagesnii mu sa7 .. !

I pressed silent ..
And shrieked in my bed ..
And start crying like a little kid ..

It hurts me how much I missed him ..
I miss his face .. his smile .. his voice .. his touch .. his charming ba7a .. his jokes .. his care .. his smell .. I just MISS HIM SO BAAAAAAD!

My mobile kept ringing ..
The light didn't turned off! 6ool illait eshb ..
Every time I opened my eyes .. I'll find it eshb! ..

At 5:28am I opened my eyes ..
Take my dress off ( yeah I slept in my dress .. )
And get back to sleep ..
I check on my mobile ..
There's was 35 Missed call ..

" Faris " Is calling ..

My eyes winded ..
And my nose turned red ..

I mumbled ; " ooh god! Shooug stop it! "

I whispered : " alooh? "

Faris whispered back : " 7abebtiiii .. "

The tears start falling ..

Shoug : " what do you want faris? "

Faris : " I want you 7abebe .. "

I start crying with sniffing ..
I felt like screaming!

Shoug : " after what? .. you let me down faaa… "

Faris : " uuush .. take a breath .. "

Shoug : " faris! "

Faris : " Take a breath ..Now! "

I smiled and took a breath ..

Shoug : " haaa... I took .. "

Faris : " Now kiss me .. "

I giggled : " heheheh fairs! .. why did you called? "

Faris : " I missed you .. when I saw you .. I felt insane enny hadaitech chethe .. I let you down I know .. but I was .. I'm still afraid! .. afraid 3alaich mn ahalich oo omch! .. mabech ta5seren shay for me .. I don't want you doing anything stupid Now to regret it later .. "

Shoug : " will I ever regret fighting with my mom over you? "

Faris : " I don't want you to fight with your mom shouga .. "

Shoug : " well , I did .. "

Faris : " afa!! Laaaaish? "

I whispered while choking with my tears : " et7ebne faris ? "

He whispered back : " is that even a question? .. Entay 7ayate oo ras malii .. entay 7abebtii .. shloon ma a7ebch? .. I love you so much shoug .. "

I start crying and told him what happened with my mom ..

Faris : " uuush .. khalas 7abebti .. khalas la tabchen .. tomorrow the first thing to do ennch etratheenha .. "

Shoug : " and you? .. you will despair again?? mu saaaaa7?"

Faris : " shouga .. ana amot fech .. and I'll come back to you walla .. I promise .. "

Shoug : " no faris! No!! .. don't leave me .. "

I start crying like a child ..

Shoug : " I can't breath without you .. I can't move on without you .. I can't .. ana bedoonik wela shay .. "

He whispered : " aaakh ya galbeee .. "

We both giggled ..

I whispered : " Faris khalas .. we'll continue pretending ena there's nothing between us .. but in real we'll be together! "

Faris : " are you sure? "

I nodded : " yes yes .. I'm! "

Faris : " if that whets you want shougii .. khalas that's fine .. elli tabeenah eser .. all I want ennich happy and save .. "

I giggled : " well I'm happy but not save .. "

Faris : " 7abebti .. you're save damna together .. nobody can ever harm you while I'm alive .. ok? "

I blow him a kiss : " mwah .. ok "

Faris : " raaaaa7 ilsyam! "

We both laughed ..

We kept talking till 11 am ..

He said in a sleepy voice : " yalla 7oobi let's sleep .. "

I whispered : " yalla .. "

I felt his smile ..

Shoug : " don't smile .. heheheh "

He laughed : " heheheh shdaraach enny smiling? "

Shoug : " heheh madreeee I felt it! "

Fairs : " I wanna see you .. "

Shoug : " me too .. I Missed your eyes .. "

Faris : " I missed you more .. khanrou7 netfa6ar barra today .. "

I giggled : " heheh tabe ommi tazne6ne? .. "

Faris : " kelman eye! Me oo jassom oo a7mdo oo fa6oma oo you oo nouf! "

Shoug : " ahh! .. I wanna see you bas enta heheheh that's what on my mind .. bas ok I'll see .. "

Faris : " yala galbe goodnight .. "

Shoug : " gn galbe .. "

I closed my eyes ..
I couldn't sleep ..
I felt so gilty ..


Mama : " yes bring me my black laffa! "

I heard my mom's voice ..
That's when I felt ib weakness on my knees ..
Uuh god ..

I opened my room's door ..

She turned her eyes ..
And gave me a cold look ..

Shoug : " good morning .. "

Mama : " hala .. "

She said and walked away ..

I followed her : " mama .. I'm .. so .. sorry! .. I didn't mean anything men eli geltah .. "

Mama : " no shoug you did! They said .. whatever you said when you're angry that's what's really in your heart! "

Shoug :" mom .. it's over khalas! .. okay I'm mad .. but I'll move on .. 7etan tawa I closed the line from nouf .. kelena benrou7 netfa66ar together .. khalas .. he's my cousin again .. "

Shit shit shit!! ..
How could I lie in Ramadan's day?

She kept staring at me ..

I kissed her head and whispered : " sorry .. "

She smiled : " that's ok .. khalas .. will move on and forget about the whole thing .. ok? "

I smiled : " ok .. thankyou .. "

I went to my room ..
Took a nap ..
And set my alarm to wake me up at 3:30 pm
Kan e'athen around 5:00 ..
So I took a quick shower .. with a huge smile on my face ..

I'm back with faris and good with my mom! Huh ..
What a great life ?

Straight my hair and wore a black hair band ..
With floral sateen elastic waist dress ..
And silver flats ..

I saw my watch ..
Shit it was 4:53!
I ran to the car calling for our driver ..

Shoug : " chilies ebsir3a! now now .. "

I texted the guys ..
From: Shoug
" wainkom? .. I'm On my way ;) ..
faris you told them ina chilies mo? ;p "

From : fa6a6a
" me oo jasom oo a7medo oo faris there! .. you oo noufo? "

I called nouf ..

Shoug : " heeeeey .. "

Nouf : " hey babe .. uugh! The streets 7ad'hum crowded! "

Shoug : " yeah .. heheheh "

Nouf : " why you're laughing? "

I giggled while singing : " back back back baaaaaaaaaaack! "

Nouf : " ooooh shut up! That's greaaaaaaat! Howwwww? When? "

I told her what happened ..

Nouf : " ooooooh babe! That's so sweeeeet! Thanks god! .. "

I start blushing : " yaaa .. heheheh .. yalla I arrived .. "

Nouf : " ok .. give me 5 mines! .. bye "

I entered chilies ..
And they were on the first table ..
so I didn't need to call anyone!

Shoug : " salaam .. "

Jassom , a7med : " wa3laiakom elsalam .. "

Fa6om hugged me : " heeeeeeey .. shlounch? "

Shoug : " good .. bas hungry heheheh .. "

Faris was writing a msg ..
he knew how to act like a "cousin" heheheh ..

I smiled : " Hey faris …"

He raised his big stunning eyes ..
Oh god! ..
Did he gave me a half smile?

Faris : " hala hala .. "

I sat next to him ..
And ordered country fried chicken and water ..

Faris suddenly said : " where's my mobile?? Mu lageeh!! "

I searched around me ..

Shoug : " haw maku shay!! "

Nouf : " I'll call .. wait .. "

She was searching for hers! Heheheh ..

Shoug : " waay! Khalas noufo I'll call! "

I pressed his name ..

** (( enty methel manty 3ala kither ma mar .. aghla ilbashar oo ma7ad yeswach 3endi .. ghalach ma akhfeeh oo agolaha jaher .. ya 7elmi ilawal oo gable oo ba3dii .. )) **

My heart start beating so fast ..
Awwwwww!
Isn't that the cutest ringtone ever??

He fond it under the table ..

Faris : " kahu kahu! "

I closed the line ..
And spotted Noufo ..
She winked ..
I giggled ..

Fa6om : " 3ishtaaaw! Ente methel manteee!! .. what's my ring??? "

She called him ..

* Nokia tone *

We all break a big laugh ..

While fa6oom's mumbling : " shm3na! shm3na! why she's different than meee? Haa? "

Faris winked : " la et7e6en rasich eb ras'ha .. "

I blushed ..

Jassom : " ayyyyyywa! "

Noufo : " hahahah jassomm please 7e6li any ringtone! 7asesni bil 7ub pls la an7eref .. "

We all break a laugh ..

Shoug : " shut up yalla 3ad .. I'll put you whatever you want fa6oo6a .. don't get upset .. "

I blow her a fly kiss ..
She blushed ..

Shoug : " awwwww! Haaaay are you sick!! I'm a girl! Don't get it wrong! "

It was just hilarious ..
We had a great time ..
Till around 8 pm ..

We said our goodbyes ..

Nouf whispered : " menu beridch? "

Shoug : " I don't know .. anyone .. you? "

She pushed me faris's side : " no! go ask him! "

I blushed ..
She's crazy!

I whispered to faris : " etwadene? "

He smiled : " yah .. bas?? .. itha ma shaletich ilsayara a7e6ich be3youni .. "

I blushed : " thankyou .. "

16 } ~

I moved my eyes away ..
Looking for the small kids walking throw the street ..
Dalal waved to me .. I smiled and blow her a fly kiss ..
She smiled and starts running to follow the other kids ..

I heard his voice saying : " hala nouf .. shlonch? .. "

Nouf : " ahleeeeen .. gooood .. "

I kept looking away ..
Ashuf il kids all over the street ..

Faris : " Shoug shlonch? "

I whispered : " fine. " without even looking to him ..

I felt enna he forze on his place ..

He walked away and sat next to Jassim ..
It was : jassim .. a7med .. fa6oma .. Nouf and me ..
Ga3den chethe yam ba3ath ..

I tried hard to keep my self busy ..
I didn't want to see his face or even heard his voice ..

Jassim : " Shougggooo! Shfeeeech mnafsa! "

I smiled while raising my eyes : " nothing .. sleepy 7ady .. "

They kept talking and laughing while I'm all silent and thinking in my own world ..

My mom kept checking on me every little in a while!
Uuugh! Ba6aaat chabdi ..

I texted her : " STOP IT!!!! "

Dalal entered the back yard ..

Screaming dalal : " auntiiiiiiiiii shoooooooooooooooooooouuuuuugggg .. "

I screamed while opening my hand to give her a bear hug : " daaaaalaaaliiii .. "

She hugged me and starts talking about the qerqai3an and the sweets she got ..

Dalal : " sheftay the white big house elli minak? Yam ilsuper market? "

I smiled : " yes? "

Dalal : " they gave us one kd. Each! "

I fake a surprised face : "WUHOOO! Mashallaaa! Geltay thank you?? "

She nodded while opening kitkat with her small teethes : " eemm eem gilt gilt .. "

I saw a masculine hand touching her hair ..
She raised hair eyes and gave him the biggest smile ..

Dalal : " faaaaariiiiiissss .. "

She opened her hand and moved her body to him 3alshan esheelha ..

He picked her up and kissed her cheek : " shlooonch? "

She opened her small baby pink qerqe3an bag : " zaina .. " she took a small lollipop and gave it to him : " this is for you .. "

I giggled ..
She's lovely walla!
he kissed her cheek saying : " thaankyouuu 7abebtii .. "

after seconds of silent ..

Faris : " daloola entay za3lana? "

Her eyes were confused she pointed on her chest : " me? "

Faris : " yes .. you were playing with your mobile mn awal ma ga3adna .. and your adorable eyes emghorghen mn dashait .. "

My eyes start etching me ..
A7is wedy abche from my heart .. bas my I couldn't ..

Dalal : " ana ma3endy mobile faris! " she starts opening his hand .. : " barooo7 hedny hedny .. "

Faris put her on the floor and smiled : " hehehe 3alabalha mo sa7y! "

I giggled : " hehe yeah! "

Nada ( my sister) : " Shouuug 3afya bring dalol to the dinner! La et7oos barra .. "

I nodded : " Okay! "

Kilman went inside to eat dinner ..
I thought to my self : oh god! I didn't even notice enna all of them went inside! .. why when I'm with him I can't constraint .. and all I could see is .. him!

I walked away while yelling : " dalaaaaaaal come here! "

I felt a strong hand holding me from my shoulder ..

Faris : " don't go! "

My lips froze .. and my eyes winded : " mhmh .. I .. "

" miiiiiiisssssssssseeeeeedddd youuuuuuu! " I whispered to my heart

Faris : " I'll bring her .. "

THAT'S IT??

I went inside .. sat on the table ..
With drops of tears on my white plate ..

Nouf whispered : " Shougo! Stop crying! It has been 2 weeks! Wentay lel7een chethe? .. stop it! "

I took a deep breath ..
And nodded : " you're right .. "

After the dinner we all went back out side to the backyard for drinking tea ..

" baba;* " is calling ..

Shoug : " alo hala yuba .. "

My father : " hala wainkom? "

Shoug : " mama 6aiba's house "

My father : " tell your mom yallah! It's 1am! "

Shoug : " okay enshalla I will .. "

I went to my mom : " yuma .. oboy called and he's saying yalla it's 1 am! "

She said while laughing 3ala salfa : " heheheh .. wee wee .. yala yala .. "

We said our goodbyes ..

And went to my mom's gold Bmw ..

We sat all silent ..
There was a big distance between us ..
I didn't want to speak to her ..
Our even stay in the same room with her ..
I was so upset and angry ..

My mom whispered : " what happened today? "

I was staring at the cars out side .. : " what? "

My mom : " what happened with him around today? Is everything okay? "

I shrugged : " huh mom stop it! .. move on please! "

My mom : " how could I move on while seeing you like this? You're miserable .. "

Shoug : " thanks to you! "

I remember that day so clear .. I was so rude with my mom! .. I remember being a total bitch with her!! .. uuhh I was angry for losing the one I love because of her ..

My mom : " qalelat adab!! Don't speak to me like this .. I'm your mom! And I have the right to raise you! Law inshalla 3omrich alf! .. "

I whispered while drops of tears start running on my cheeks : " yuma please! I know you love me! Bas enough!! He broke up with me okay? It have been two weeks since I heard about him! And yeah he didn't call or sms .. and today when I saw him .. guess what? He didn't talk to me! Or even tried to! .. and .. and .. "

I took a deep breath and broke down ..

Shoug : " what can I do with my heart yuma? What can I do?? .. I thought you would understand! .. but .. " .. I moved my hair away .. and opened the car door : " you didn't! "

My mom froze in her place .. and her eyes were full of tears ..
I knew at this second that I totally ruined her life ..
And I officially broke her heart ..

I sat on the corner of my bed ..
And start crying so hard ..

** (( ilma7aba naraha nar oo dwaha duwa .. wenta fe gourbik sa3ada oo fe bo3dik 3athab .. weddi ennik m3ay et3eesh oo En metna suwa .. ma teghayerna elliyale wela 6ool ilgheyab… )) **

Awhhh .. I felt electricity all over my body ..
That's faris's ringtone ..
I missed his voice ..

I turned my face toward the mobile ..
Omg!
I'm not dreaming! ..

" Faris " is Calling ..

al jahra fire tragedy! .. * Sorry for your lost! * ;'(

Alsalam 3alaikom all ;*

Yesterday I was in a total shock after opening alwatan TV. To watch the jahra tragedy!
I thought it's a small fire oo salamtkom!
And I was even more shocked when Kuna sent me a msg saying : ( A woman confessed yesterday to setting a wedding tent on fire in Jahra late on Saturday that killed 41 women and children and injured dozens others, some with critical burns. )

My heart stopped beating when they said ena one of the victims were an old woman with her 9 daughters! And the bride mother's & sister were killed too! BURNED if I can say ..!
Alshaikh Sabah alahmed alsabah made his heartfelt condolenced to the victim's families and announced that he'll not accept getting on Shahar Ramadhan in solidarity with the victims and their families . add that Mr. Jassim alkharafi cut his vacation and come back to Kuwait to be there in what the observers said it's the worst tragedy in Kuwait's modern history.

Meanwhile, I received dozen of bbm's joking and laughing about the tragedy! And saying jokes about the women who set the fire! Ana about the 2nd marriage!
COMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEONNNNNNN PPL!!!!!

Ma etha7ik!

My shock was when I woke up in the morning with the women's picture in my bbm!
Saying; "learn from her girls! And set men on fire! ;p"

It's not funny! Walla!
Okay some of the jokes – I admit- kanaw funny!
Bas 3aib guys walla ..
Don't laugh over someone's pain!

Tara they lost their whole families! 7aram ..
And the women born in 1986!! She's only 22-23 years old!
And will spend her life on jail now!

Allah yer7amhum eb ra7meta ..
Oo esabbir ahalhum ..
Oo ma eshammeeeet fena khalqa!

15 } ~

I sat on our coach...
Staring at the air!
Watching the emptiness...
I felt like my heart just stopped beating..
And all my feelings were frozen..!
I felt .. Numbness ..

Our house phone rang ..
I jumped from the couch ..

Shoug : " alo? "

…. : " haaa? "

Shoug : " menu entay? "

Nouf : " are you stupid? I'm Nouf!! "

Shoug : " Nouf! .. he .. he .. left me Nouf! .. for my mom's sake .. he just left me! .. "

Nouf : " whaaaaaaaaaaaat? "

Shoug : " Is he insane?? Who told him that he should leave me? .. I don't need my mom's approval 3ala everything!! .. omg nouf!! omg!! "

Nouf : " calm down! .. don’t' shout! .. maybe he was on shock .. oo he got scared ..
Let him have his own space and time .. and he'll be back .. if he really loves you .. he'll come back .. he'll propose shoougo etha he loves you! "

My eyes winded ..
Here when the ugly truth crashed into me ..
All my angry feelings turned into sadness ..

I whispered while tearing up : " he let me down .. he left me chethe wana metwahqa with my mom .. "

Nouf cut me off : " calm down shougo .. and don't cry .. if he belongs to you .. he'll be back .. "

I whispered : " he said the same .. if we belong together .. we'll find our ways out of this shit .. "

Nouf : " See! .. calm down now .. and try to fix things with your mom .. ok 7abebtii? "

Shoug : " ok .. bye "

I closed the line ..
And went to my room ..
Changed into black training with white " I <3 color="#ff6600">Shoug : " no! "

She closed the door and went to her room!
She just knew that I'm down .. men eldvd o oil sweets elm7athefeen ..

I was really bored .. and not in the mood for anything ..
So I started another movie ..
And it was .. davidas ..

I cried over every romantic scene ..
I hate this movie! Until today ..
It brought me bad memories ..

After the movie's done ..
I laid my head down ..
And a hot tear drop fond her way on my cheeks ..

I went to the bathroom and washed my face with a cold freshing water ..
It was around 7 pm ..
So I decided to join msn ..
I pressed sign in …

Dr. Faisal … do you know? Says:
Guwa ya 7elwa : )

Oh god! .. I wasn't in the mood for his malaqa oo theqalat 6enaaaaah!

Shougan .. la la etkhaleeni .. wela la7tha!! Says:
Ahleen faisal .. way hal face cham marra agoolek ennah EBO6 ILCHAAAAAABD!!

Dr. Faisal … do you know? Says:
Hehehehe shfeech em3asba!! Khalas youba .. mara7 a7e66a ever again! :D:D <- chethe ok?
Shougan .. la la etkhaleeni .. wela la7tha!! Says:
Hehe yeah good! :D

Dr. Faisal … do you know? Says:
Shloonch? Shakhbarich?

Shougan .. la la etkhaleeni .. wela la7tha!! Says:
Wallaaaah .. good! .. uu?

Dr. Faisal … do you know? Says:
I'm good damich good : )

Dr.Faisal .. do you know? Says:
Sorry Sorry!!!! * :D

I giggled .. 3abe6?

* deeding *

- Faris .. kalemooha , khaberooha, waselou SHOUGI laha , 6amenoha , 3alemoha Enna galbi 3endaha .. Says:
pumpkin :*

My eyes winded ..
And my fingers froze ..
I stared at his nickname ..
It just killed me softly ..

I opened faisal's conversation ..

Shougan .. la la etkhaleeni .. wela la7tha!! Says:
Sorry have to go ;) see you .. and say hello to Hissa ;)

I pressed sign out ..
Without closing the conversations mn iltedoodeh ..

I rolled in my bed ..
And tried hard to sleep ..
I couldn't stop my tears ..
I whispered : " God , I'm scared! "

In the middle of the night ..
I felt someone entering my room ..
My mom shook my shoulder gently ..

She whispered : " Shouga .. wake up drink water .. b3ad shway be'athen .. "

I opened one of my eyes ..

My mom handled me class of water ..

My mom : " do want toast? "

I whispered with my sleepy voice : " no! "

I drank my water silently ..
And gave the class back to her ..
I was half a sleep so I wasn't aware 100%!

* In Ramadan we had this big gathering for women only in the first three days of Ramadan for women elli yabon ebarkon ilshahar for mama 6aiba ..
And Our family (men and women) netyamma3 after 2 weeks of Ramadan for the qirqe3an .. neg3ad together in the backyard with all kinds of tea and 7ab ooo the small kids elli eyoon eqarqe3oon kelna enkoon ga3den neth7ak 3alaihum ;p heheheh ..

So ,

Two weeks passed ..
And I heard NOTHING about faris ..
I didn't call him and he didn't leave me law email

On the way back from tarawee7 my mom told me that She'll give me my mobile back .. and she'll test me for few months until she could trust me all over again! .. and she said things like don't let me down again! And if I fond anything " ya wailch ya suwad lailech..! "

I was scared that I'll see faris and got my mobile on the same day!
It was all new for me ..
I didn't knew how to react or what to do ..!

I went to my room and took a shower ..
Waved my hair ..
And libast a cute off-the shoulder peachy dress with brown flat and mixed bright bangle set ..

On the road to mama 6aiba's house ..
It was all silent between me and my mom ..
Ma3anna the things between us are getting back to normal ..
But I don't know why both of us didn't talk kelish!
She gave me my mobile ..
And we walked in the backyard ..

We kissed everyone ..
And start chatting and eating cupcakes and mini qirqe3an sweets ..
My heart was beating so fast ..

I whispered to Nouf : " do think that he'll show up? "

She nodded : " daah! I'm sure! "

Faris : " alsalam 3alaikom .. "

He said while entering the big silver gate of the backyard ..
I moved my eyes away ..
To find my mom staring at me!