5 } ~

Dedicated to the one I saw today ..
Dedicated to .. Faris! :')







I froze in my place ..
I just loved the sound of his warm mab7ou7 voice ..

Shoug : " hala? "

Faris : " mmmm .. Well, I just wanted to ask you a question .. Did you received my msg yesterday? "

I nodded : " yes .. But 6awalt 3alay so I slept .. "

He smiled while his eyes became soft and charming .. : " im sorry ha .. "

Shoug : " that's okay faris .. mn sejik! It's nothing .. "

Faris : " good .. wain ray7a? "

Shoug : " taking money from my mom for jassim's birthday ga6eyya .. "

Faris : " khalas ana 3azmch .. "

I giggled while blushing men il fashla : " nooo! Shakuu! .. "

Faris : " it's the way of saying sorry to you .. ok? "

Shoug : " no kellish malah da3e faris .. I'll pay .. please! "

Faris : " shrayich ta5then mn your mom 30 oo ana a3zemch .. oo etseren mu daf3a oo 3endich 30 kd? "

I laughed : " hahhaha eviiiiiiiil! .. bas it's a great idea by the way! "

Faris : " yalla go .. "

I went to my mother and took 30 kd. From her .. oo faris paid for me ..

After the lunch and everything ..
Fatima , Jassim , Nouf , faris and a7mad went out side to swim oo tan ..
I just hate tanning ..
Ma7eb yethgayyir looni oo aslan the tanned color mu 7elu 3alay..!
Yeah there was no big swimming pool or anything!
They just share the kids small blue swimming pool! et3arfoona? ;p Heheheh
Anyways ,

I layed on the couch while watching "my big fat greek wedding " ..
Eb akhir 10 mins mn ilmovie .. all the guys dashaw ..
Ma3ada fatma oo faris ..
He was holding her things cus eshkither'hum ..
I told you! He was there for everyone!
Jassim stood jidam il TV.

Jassim : " haa a7mdo .. Shfeeek channa mo 3ajbik enny wegaft "

Shoug : " waaaaaaaaaaaaaakhir! "

A7med start laughing so hard: " wakhir 3anny la abcheee .. Im watching the movie while dreaming about my wedding .. "

Refa3t my eyes : " chub chub enta .. " I kept moving my head 3asa ashuf shay!
" jaaaaaaaaaaaassssssssssssiiiiiiiiimmm! Moveeeeee awayyy ya sakhef!! "

Jassim kept playing with his mobile ..

Shoug : " ya maliq! Walla sakhef sakheeeeeef!! "

Faris opend the out door of the living room ..
uhwa il door mal il living room 3ala il7oosh ..

Faris : " shfech etsarkhen! "

I pointed 3ala jassim while making – I'll cry now!- expression .. :
" HATHAAAAA! "

Faris : " shfeh!"

Shoug : " uuugh! Wakhir ya ebn il naaaaaaaaaas..! "

Jassim and a7med oo 7etan noufo kept talking oo yamshun jedam il tv.!
Sana3t ga3dety bedal il laying down ..

Shoug : " huuuuf .."

Faris sat next to me in the comfy IKEA navy coach ..
Refa3 his foot ..
And ga3id e7uus feha ..

The smell of the sun, tan and colure on his chest .. unforgettable ..


after few mins. wana embawza oo at7al6am ..
he did his "famous" move ..
where he moves his head closer to you ..,

Faris : " khalas la tez3eleen .. fajoora my sister 3endaha eyah .. bas enrid elbait I'll send it to you oo buy her another one .. ok ? "

I smiled : " that's okay .. 6af .. "

Faris said while messaging the button of his foot : " aaakh! "

Shoug : " shfeek et7us eb your foot? "

Faris spoke like a little kid : " et3awernii Madre shenu dayis .. "

I smiled : " Smellah 3alaik .. "

Jassim : " gomaw gomaw .. yallaaa truth or dare .. "

We all sat in the middle of the living room ..
And there's a 7up bottle in the centre ..
Jassim moved it ..

Jassim : " Nooooooouf .. ask .. Fatima .. "

Nouf : " mmmmmm .. well , would you ever fall for your cousin? "

Immediately I spotted Faris .. who just turned his face to see my expression ..
I moved my eyes away ebsir3a ..

Fatima : " mmm no! noway! .. wai3! They like brothers to me .. "

I nodded ..

Jassim moved the bottle again ..

A7med : " yalla! .. Faris ask shoug .. "

We stared at each other ..
My heart just .. sank

He smiled ..

Faris : " the same Question..! "

Fatima yelled : " ma esssssssser! Malaqa! "

Jassim : " la 3ady 3ady..! it's a game after all .. "

I smiled : " the same answer I guess .. "

His eyes winded ..
And his smile was taken far away from his lips ..

Noufa moved the buttole ..
While Faris was staring harldy on me!


** (( ya soora rasemha fe kha6eri oo bale e7sasi tarjamha ennik 7abeb ghali ..
wain oo meta algak? Walli be3ed ehnak? Ya sayyedii gulli ay soob 3anawenik?? )) **


My phone rang ..
Ashart ib my hand ..

Shoug : " shway 3an ethenkom .. "
I stood up .. : " hala lulu .. "
She was a friend from school ..
kenna eb neteffeq 3ala 6al3a with all the girls Next week ..

I heard Jassim's voice : " a7medoo es'aL faarros .. "

Faris : " ba6alna .. malait! "

And he walked away .......

4 } ~

I was totally in shock!
Shda3wa 3alaaaaaih..!

I texted Nouf ; " msn now now now ;'( "
After 10 mins she joined msn ..
awaL ma dashat ..

shougan :
ommmmg! I can't believe it!!

N :
Whaaat?? Tara 5ara3tene!!

I sent her the chat log

N:
Huh! .. shfeeh hatha? Shda3wa!

I choked with my own tears ..

Shouga :
I don't know nofooo! .. did I really offence him in nino??

N:
No! .. it was random! Mu awwal Mara enyeb 6ari enah mareth ..it's a fact shogo .. mu masabba!

Shouga :
I don't know ..

N :
Telgaina he's stressed men iltafker eb ilsufar oo Now il summer holiday oo entay zedteeha 3alaih ..

Shoug :
Yeah maybe .. :'(

N:
Khara3eten! … yalla I'll go back to sleep .. oo you gomay namay ..
ilsalfa ma tiswa tara! he'll calm down bachir akeed ..

I thought : " yeah .. She's right .. "

I closed the laptop ..
And washed my face mn ilcucomber face mask ..
And layed down in my bed ..
I have this habit when I couldn't sleep ,,
I opens all the files in my mobile oo ag3ad ashuf oo delete elli mabehum ..
While I was reading my last birthday msgs ..

I received a new msg .. I stared at the time ..
It was 2:30am!

From: faris
" hey all .. Bacher bring to elyam3a 30kd... Jassim's birthday is next week ;)
so we'll buy him something nice ;) sweet dreams.. Goodnight"

I pressed ( move to .. ) folder (F) ..
140 msg.
I stared at the number of msgs that faris had sent it to me ..
Laish ga3da asayevhum?
Some of the msgs were just "ok .. " or " we'll meet you there! "
ya3ni ashya ma tiswa eny asayevha ..

God I don't know why laima faris ekon around a7is eb kahraba all over my body..
I love him so much .. But not as a brother .. not yet as a lover ..
I feel like I just wana be around him ..
I just wana make sure that he's fine and happy ..

To : faris
2:35 am
" I can't sleep faris .. "

From : faris
2:37am
" why? "

To: faris
2:39am
" because of you :( .. "

He ignored my msg for like 10 mins ..
So I fell a sleep ..

The next morning ..
When I woke up I found 2 msgs from him ..

From: faris
3:10 am
" really? .. "

From: faris
3:35 am
" shoug im sorry .. I was angry about few things oo thayagne enich 3amalteny eb nino like a little child infront of Nouf and Jassim , anyway that don't give me the right to cross the lines .. so Im sorry shouga;* .. "

I smiled ..
Get up and washed my face ..
Used my strawberry morning scrub from the bodyshop
And left my hair in a slik ponytail ..
Libast my dark skinny jeans with cotton large " I ROCK" tee .

Dakhalna bait my grandmother,.
I kissed all my aunts oo my grandparents ..
Went to the other living room where all the guys should be..
Awal ma I entered the room ..

Nouf : "where's the money? "
I giggled: "ohh I forgot ... wait degeega ... I'll take from my mom ..."
As I was turning side il door when faris were entering the room...
So I latterly crashed into him..
I just shrinked ..
He was tall mashalla ..
I was like 155 and he's around 180 ..
So I was nothing comparing to him mashalla ..

Shoug : " aaaaaaaaawccch .. !! "
Faris hold my shoulder : " ta3awartay? "
I shook my head while moving few steps away from him : " no .. no .. "
I just blushed like hell ..
Shoug : " sorry ana elli dashait fek eheheh .. "
Faris : " I know .. bas 7asaitch ta3awartay! Tawny ala7eth how small are you! "

Nouf and a7mad laughed so hard mn awal ma da3amna ba3ath bas m3a ga66at ena tawa faris ella7eth "how small I am! " hastaraw the7ik ..

Shoug : " hehe .. maliq! .. I said enna Im sorry "

Faris : " la oo maktob 3ala ur shirt " I Rock" .. you Rock what babe wintay hal nitef? Nobody's in the out world will notice you 3alshan you rock there worlds "

Shoug : " hahahahahaha! Chub chub .. move away bas yalla! I wanna go to my mom! "

Faris : " why? You're gonna rock her head eb 7anitch? "

I really couldn't control my laugh : " heheheh .. I hate you maleq .. "

I was walking toward the "adults" living room ..
While saying to my self ..
Chathaba! You'll never hate him!

I was just gonna enter the living room ..

Faris from my back :

" Shoug …."

3 } ~

After 2 hours the meeting khallas ..
We decided to head to Nino alba7ar to eat dinner .. It was around 7:45pm
I'm only allowed to stay out side till 10pm! So I don't have much time to hang out ..
We sat down there .. While ordering our main dishes immediately ..

** While we were waiting .. **

Jassim : " ha farrroos .. shrayik eb 7acheehum? "
Faris smiled.. he always had been the example of tanaqoth! .. he's weak and tuff .. naughty but innocent .. his eyes had this soft touch while his sharp nose show his manly side .. he's silent and quit but at the same time he's always there to support others .. he's understanding but protective .. he's just so .. unique!
Faris : " she'3ul 3adil .."
I swallowed my sadness: " but .. "
Faris : " but what shooguu? "

He had a sexy move and he always do it for others -Male or females- et3arfoon when you call someone .. egarreb his face oo his eyes talkes to you?? .. LITTERLY talks to you?? .. I always felt his emotions throw his big eyes .. it's warm and so alive..!

Shoug : " farooos .. I'll miss you guys .. "
Nouf : " ee wallaaaaah! .. tara it's malaqa without you walla .. "
Shoug : " stay here .. go to KU .. 3afyaaaaaa .. "
Jassim : " NO WAY! "

The waiter came with our food ..
I kept moving the fork over and over around my polo Nona plate ..
Faris moved my plate closer to me : " eat .. " .. he whispered : " please .. ! "
It just took my heart out ..
I was so down because I knew it! ..
The minute they go to USA .. we'll not be close chethe anymore!

I forgot to mention something .. that Nouf , Jassim , Fatima and faris kelhum the same age 17-18 .. but Me and a7med were younger ib 2 years taqreban ..

Nouf : " enzain laish ma all the three of us go to handasa here in Kuwait? "
Jassim : " I don't want Engineering mn elasas! .. and I do wanna go to usa! .. I have been waiting for this opportunity since forever! "
Shoug : " and .. me! .. e7na .. shloon etkhallonaaaah? "
Faris : " shoug it's 2002! .. there's internet and mobiles .. la et7ateen .. we'll keep in touch .. we'll still be a family mahma safarna oo ba3adna .. "
A tear rolled on my cheek .. mesa7t'ha ibser3a ..
I was so weak when the things contain my loved ones ..
Shoug : " bas .. you faris .. "
Faris : " shfene .. ? "
Shoug : " you're not in a good health .. etrou7 there tahmel rou7ik oo
mafe anyone can take care of you .. "
He cut me off : " shut up shoug! I'm not a child to need anyone to take care of me! .. im big enough to watch over my self! "
Shoug : " I know .. but .. "
Faris : " no buts!! .. don’t dare mention it ever again! "
my voice start shaking : " s..sorry .. "

" 5-6 years back" .. I remember the day that I knew that something were wrong with Faris and why he was so special in my grandmother place ( even though he was the first grandson ) there was another secret to keep it deep in my heart ..
my mom and khalti Ghada ( Faris mom) kanaw yetkalemoon 3annah oo it makes sense to me 7azat'ha fahamt laish khalti Ghada oo her husband 3ami 3abdilra7man always kanaw esafroon with Faris ! mn oo e7na little kids kanaw kil summer esafron .. and I remember feeh 2 years when we were around 10-9 years old .. ekhtifaw for what seemed like 2 years ..
Faris had born with CHF or as they call it bil 3ameya terms "heart failure" condition it's not like he's gonna die any second! .. but it means that his heart can't pump enough blood throughout his body the way it should .. it can lead to serious side effects such as CAD, heart attack , high blood pressure and diabetes .
So yes .. he was really sick .. but he didn't let the sickness let him down .. he was powerful person with such a great personality .. 3moman the heart failure ma ekhalli il wa7ed emot or living bil hospital all the time no .. it just cause tiredness and shortness of breathe.


I went home... take my clothes off and sat with my father...
Around 12am I went to my room...
Opened my Toshiba laptop and wear a comfy PJ oo taraba3t 3ala il bed..
Wrote my email address on the tab and clicked ( sign in .. )
Then went to the bathroom to put a cucumber face mask 3ala ma edish il msn ..


*deeding* ..
The famous msn sound called me ..
( fayaya) ..
I opened the conversation ..
There was fayaya ( Fatima) .. Ahmed .. and Jassim ..
We kept talking about random things .. while me and ahmed kept whining oo en7in enna naby enrou7 iljam3a hehehe ..
The baby blue box popped out ..
( Faris .. )
I don't know menu invited him .. bas mu Ana ..

Fayaya :
7ayaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllaaaaaaaaaah faaaaaarrrrroooossss ;)

I watched him typing ..
I don't know why my heart started beating so fast ..

Faris :
Hallaaaaa bil7uuuub ;*

Fayaya :
hala walla ya ba3ad galbe ..

Hahaha .. they used to act like lovers sometimes late at night! It was funny sometimes .. not only fa6ooma and faris .. all of us .. even girl-girl love affairs was okay with us taly illail ;p hehehe ..

Ahmed :
Ana aghar chetheee! Fa6oom tawwa hal em'3azal lee!

Shougan :
Loool .. a7medane malik '3aire ;$

Fayaya :
Huh! Like I care (h)

Faris :
Eeeee walla dam m3ach il gumar malich oo maal a7mdo! :P

We start talking oo teasing each other ..
While faris kept IGNORING me!
Channy mu mawjooda bil invite ..
Till ..

Shougan:
Faris ..

After 5 mins maybe ..
While fa6om oo a7med sakten waiting for his answer!

Faris :
Brb

awch!
It was a snap on my face..
What the hell?
Why he's treating me like this?

I opened my main page bil msn ..
Oo clicked on his nickname ..

Shougan :
Take your time .. but when you're back we need to talk : )

In less than 10 seconds ..

Faris :
khair?

I took a deep breath ..

Shougan :
What's wrong with you? Shfeek 7aqerni bil invite?
Like I don't exist! Did I do anything wrong to you??

Faris :
Hmm .. No! ;)

Shougan :
Don't lie faris .. I know so well..! what's wrong?

Faris :
If you did anything wrong .. ilmafrouth by your own et3arfen!
I don't need to tell you ;)

Shougan :
No I didn't do anything wrong!!!

Faris :
So? Why you're asking 3ayal?

Shougan :
BECAUSE! .. you're acting like I did something wrong .. but I don't remember doing anything bad to you faris! .. so im asking ..

Faris :
Uh!

Shougan :
Im sorry okay? .. whatever it was .. ana mothakra ..
so for sure I didn't mean it !

Faris :
Shoug .. I wanna give you a piece of advice to your life .. ok?

I nodded ..
Ooh it's msn!

Shougan :
Sure..?

Faris :
Don't talk about someone's pain like it's urs! ;) ok honey?

I opened my mouth ..
And my eyes winded ..
Men meta kan his pain not mine?
Ay pain yaqsid asasan!

I was writing something like : la etgool chethe oo e7na wa7id oo bla bla bla ..

But he went offline ..
Without a simple word..

2 } ~

Good morning girls ..
I wanna tell you something mohem ..
Yes .. it is my story ;* ..
Sorry nesait agooL heheh ..
Enjoy , ;*

.
.

Kura : "shoug mama gooL come lunch.. "
I nodded..
Faris : " I'm 6ar6oor out here or what? "
I raised my eyebrows while getting up ..
Shoug : " you? .. Why? "
Faris : " ur maid .. She suppose to talk to me .. I'm the man! "
I smiled : " yeah I know .. Bas she's just a maid ma et3arf hal suwalif .. "

Faris was so strike when it comes to " sana3 oo osoul" he was the kind of persons elli when you say his name infront of anyone .. the first word they will say it about him is " RAYYYYYAAAAAAAL wennnnni3m.."

We sat on the tall table for lunch ..
Where jassim , Nouf and Fatima were setting ..
Jassim : " farroos did someone names Muhammed called you? "
Faris : " No .. why? "
Jassim : " they called me mn shway telling me that there's an important meeting for the freshmen's elli berou7oon usa! .. "
Faris : " aaaaha! .. I thought ennik tetkallam 3an shay thane ..
ana kalamni wa7id Esma Khalid .. bas galle nafs ilshay ya3ne .. "
Nouf : " Jassom enta mn meta betrou7 usa? "
Faris gave her a half evil smile ..
She screamed : " ommmmmmg! Entaaa emshaishaaaaaa!! Mu sa77777? "
They both break an evil laugh ..
Fatima : " Allah yastir menkom entaw lay teyama3taw! .. "
Shoug : " 7aram 3alaich .. I trust them "
Faris raised his eyes from his machboos : " 3ala rassi bu shaawwaag .. "
They all laughed 3ala il name il ghabi ..
Shoug : " oh god! Cham marra agoolik don't call me hal name .. I swear it a curse walla! .. "
Nouf : " hahahha .. I wanna come to this freshmen's meeting! "
Jassim :" shako shako! No ..! "
Shoug : " yaa me too .. "
Jassim : " No! .. Enthabraw here bas yalla .. "
Shoug : " Faris .. "
Faris was busy with his machboos hehehe ..
Shoug : " Faaaaaaaaaris .. "
Faris : " mm mm ? "
Shoug : " take us to the meeting weyyak please.. "
We both gave him a puppy eyes look ..
He smiled : " bu 7amood khaL nakheth fehom ajir! "
Jassim laughed : " heheheh 3alashan hal ga66a enwadeeeehom laish la! "

After few days ..
Jassim texted me ..
- Jassim : " Nouf and Shoug .. 4 pm entaw ready please .. "
I replied: " uhwa meta il meeting aslant? "
- Jassim : " @ 5:30 "
It was already 3:30pm! .. so I took a shower ..
And went to the living room to tell my mother about il meeting ..
She was like : " wentaw shaaaku? Laish razzen ilwayh! "
Shoug : " mama it's Jassim and faris! .. ya3ni you know what kind of relationships we have mu? "
My mom nodded : " luw ma uhma 7isbat ekhwanich ma rethaitlech .. "
I kissed her cheek : " thank you .. mama 6al3eeli what to wear? "
She came to my closet..
Mama : " mmmm .. Entay rou7ay saway sha3rich la et3a6lenhum...
wana a7e6lich shay 3ala Ur bed... "
I went to the bathroom where my hair dryer would always be; p ..
Nashaft sha3ri with hot air only ..
And then waved it ..
I love waving my hair without la asaweh sishwar 3adiL .. cus eser feeh more volume and madri ekoon alive!
I went back to my room .. wella mom 7a66a Christian Lacroix silk print dress on the bed .. With small pearl earrings... I was like: isn't that too much?
I searched for her in the living room, her room, the kitchen... makan Fe a7ad...
So I called...
(mama ;*)
Shoug : " alooo mama .. isn't the dress wayid over? "
Mama : " no honey .. because it's like a classic gathering kilman ekoon labis zain feeha .. it's like the graduation parties .. "
I got the idea ..
Shoug : " ahh .. ok great .. thankyou .. "
We closed the line and I just put blusher on my cheeks ..
I was 15 going to 16 .. but it wasn't okay with my parents to wear on makeup that age
Libast juicy small gold watch with kind of braces around it ..
And a flat metallic shoes ..
I received a msg from Nouf ..
- Nouf : " please please if jassim called you .. golilah ennich still ma khalastay ;p"
I giggled...

( Faris )
is calling...

Faris : " shogoooo oo ba3dain! Meta et5alson!! "
Shoug : " ammm ammm ammm .. now now enshalla .. "
Faris : " entay shkither boqalich?"
Shoug : " I'm ready aslan! Bas im waiting for Noufa"
Faris : " yalla yalla I'm coming to pick you okay? ..
kanna ana oo Jassim 6al3en mn ilkhaldeya .. 5 mins e7na 3endich .. "
Shoug : " oookk .. Agoolek.. "
6ob! He closed the line! Heheheh there was no *goodbyes* in his dictionary..

The picked me up from our house in alyarmouk .. and we picked Nouf from her house in alyarmouk too ..
On the way to shiraton hoteL where the gathering will be ..
Shoug : " so .. shenu eb tadrison bil thab6 in USA? "
Faris : "I want international business in George Washington university .."
Nouf : " where is that bil thab6? "
Faris : " Columbia .. "
I smiled : " Allah! Meshtahya ice cream Columbia..! "
I and Nouf start laughing about nothing! ..
While Jassim and faris kept staring at us in a – blonde girls!- look!


When we arrived shiraton ..
Faris was nervous more than jassim ..
He cheeks were red .. And kept playing with his dishdasha ..
I pulled his hand : " bas bas! Bet3affis il deshdasha ..! calm down .. you look gorgeous .. "
He smiled and his big eyes glowed ..
Somehow we looked like each other .. many people laima eshufoonnah egoloon : " eserlich? " .. it's the blood thing I guess ..
Because we share our family signature big eyes .. but he had a cheek bones and his lips not full as mine ..

Jassim : " yalla faros .. qawwey galbik .. and let's start our lives .. "
Faris whispered in a sarcastic way : " aqawwe galbi yougaf walla! "
And they both share a quick laugh gabeL la endish ..

The organizers said that it's okay to set girls yam boys ..
So we sat in the 5th line ..
Jassim .. faris .. Me .. Nouf .. next to her friend Jana elli sadafnaha there ..

Faris whispered: " shfech ga3da em6anqera .. Join nouf oo her friend ..."
Shoug : " la etmaliq .. you know me .. I don't speak with strangers! "
Faris smiled : " but she's noufa's friend .. mu completely stranger .. "
Shoug : " I don't want .. aste7y .. "
Faris : " wazeena il del3a .. "
We both giggled
Shoug : " hehehe chub maliq …"
I took a breath ..
Shoug : " Faris .. abe agoolik shay .. "
Faris garrab his ear menni ..
I could smell his manly fragrance ..
Faris : " amrayy? "
And here when I said something else ghair eli eb galbe..!
Shoug : " mmm .. mm .. don't joke about your sickness .. it's not funny! "
He nodded : " enshalla .. "
He was gonna say something ..

But some guy said publicly :
" alsalam 3alaikom .. thanks for coming today for ………."
so we shut our mouths up ..

1 } ~

2002

" .. shoug! Aren't you coming to the chalet? " my mom yelled at me from her room ... while I was watching maid in manhaten for jennifer lopez ...
I nodded while eating my cheeseburger; " embala .. I'm coming! "

How would I stay home while all my cousins there? ..
All my childhood and teenage years I didn't had a really close friend ella my cousins ..
My mother was very protective and wouldn't let me visit any unknown friend's house! .. and she never let me go out with a random friend with out her mother .. so I didn't had close friends since I was 15 years old and never went to soug sharq alone!

On the way to the chalet I texted Nouf , Fatima , Jassim , a7med and Faris ..
" anyone wants something from the supermarket?? "
My mom used to pass by Sultan center – Shuwaik to buy things for chalet ..
So of course I'll use her ya3ni ;p ..
- Nouf ; " no thanks .. just come yalla! "
- a7med : " are you going to the chalet? .. Ana nayim eb bait erfejy mara7 aye! "
- Jassim : " Pepsi please! ;) "
- Fatima : " yeeeeeeees please! .. kitko kitko kitko .. time out .. nerds and cocktail juice please ;* love you .. "
… and yeah! .. those were my friends ..
I kept staring at my mobile screen .. why Faris didn't replied? ..
He was always the closed one in the group .. because of his heart problems .. since we were small kids he was special in my family .. he's the first grandson .. we were the biggest generation in my grandparents' house .. but faris was the younger bainah ..
He was like 17 years old ..

We arrived alkhiran where our chalet was ..
I saw all my cousins ma 3adah a7med ..
I kissed all my aunts oo grandparents ..
And went to my cousins/friends ..
Shoug : " hiiiii all .. "
They were laying on the sun ..
Yeah they call it tanning! ..
Nouf mumbled : " heey .. "
Fatima cut her off : " where's my time out? "
Jassim : " and my Pepsi .. ? "

Faris were sitting on a white chair staring at them ..
Faris : " why you didn't bring anything for me? "

I raised my hand : " wait wait! .. first .. " I throw the plastic bag Jassim and Fatima's side .. " .. and second .. " I walked to the white chair : " enta ma gelt enik tabe shay! .. you didn’t replay 3ala my msg! "
Faris nodded : " makan 3endy rased! "
I smiled : " anyway .. I brought you Sunkist orange juice and chunky kitkat! "
He smiled : " thank you shoug .. "
I nodded while closing one my eyes : " you're more than welcome .. "

I stood up ; " uff! It's hot! .. I can't stand it .. I'll go inside ..

etha khalastaw tanning tara im waiting .. "
Faris stood up too ; " yeah me too! Akhaf 3ala bashreti .. "
They all break a laugh ..
I bushed his shoulder softly ; " oh maaaaaliq! .. it's not about my skin .. I just hate tanning .. plus I love my color..! "

I was white .. not so freaky white .. I love my color ..
A lot of people told me that I do look like Ashley Olsen..
Hahah I remember one of my cousin friend told me in a stupid way – but she was serious!- : " omg! I wanted to tell that mn ziman .. bas tara you look like Ashley Olsen .. not Mary Kate! .. Ashley! " ..
I was like .. what the difference?
I know that I'm petite and have big eyes .. I'm not beautiful .. but I know how to make myself up .. like they say : " et3arf 7ag 3omirha.."
About the personality I'm quite .. never shows my emotions .. and very mature for my age ..

Anyway,
We went inside ..
Watching something like jar7 ilzeman or darat il ayam! .. I really don't remember ..!
Faris said while he was laying on the couch ..
And I was sitting jidam lazga bil TV ..
Faris : " shougoo .. "
I mumbled: " hmm? "
Faris : " do you know someone called maha? "
Shoug : " mmmmmmm .. the tall one with black wavy hair? "
Faris ; " yes I think .. "
Shoug : " shfeha? "
Faris : " she knows a friend of me .. "

I nodded .. I really never cared about hal suwalif ..
for fact, I never thought that One day I'll fall for someone or even believe in love before marriage ..

Faris : " shfech ma 3alaqtay? "
Shoug: " I hate hal suwalif .. She's a girl don't talk about her farroosss! "
I felt his smile ..
Faris : " tadren I'll go to USA next year? "
Shoug : " I know ! It's your dream since forever..! "
Faris : " yeah .. "
My aunt Ghada went in : " faris khathait your pills? "
I nodded : " yes khalti .. "
She start laughing : " intaw freaks walla! "

56- [ Re-Love Him;*!] *THE END*

[ il3omur mashyy .. ]

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.

Salman opened his eyes around 12 pm ..

Salman : " mmmm .. Shga3id etsawen? "

I smiled .. : " hhhhhhey! good morningggg .. Im packing! "

Salman : " ha? "

Shaikha : " Im packin 7abebe .. because the dr. told

me enna Im leaving today .. "

Salman while searching for his mobile : " ilyoom cham iltarekhh? "

Shaikha : " 17 .. "

he nodded : " ahha .. "

Shaikha : " shfeek mu happy? "

Salman :" I'm .. bas lel7eeni nayem! "

I giggled .. he looked cute awaL ma egoom mn il noom ..

we went back home ..

awaL ma he opened il door ..

I took a deep breath ..

Shaikha : " mmmmmmm .. Homeeee .. Sweet hooome .. "

he hugged me from the back : " welcome home 7abebti .. "

I layed down on the bed ..

I was still weak oo ta3bana ..

I took a nap ..

* beep * * beep *

from : heba

" LAISH ANA AKHIR WA7DA ADRE?????! .. CALL ME ASAP! "

I chicked the Missed calls ..

there was 5 ..

3 Heba

1 Salmani

1 Unknown number

I recalled Heba ..

Heba : " aloooooooo! "

I start giggling .. Laish hal bnayya she6a?

Heba : " shuuuut up! it's not funny! at all! "

Shaikha : " 7abebtiiiiiiii heba .. Im sorry .. it's like only 2 days! ..

omg! walla it's nothing aslan .. I was gonna call you today to hang out or something .. "

Heba : " don't lie Shaikha .. shfech?? .. I freaked out! .. "

Shaikha : " walla heba nothing .. I swear it's nothing ..

la7tha .. shdarach entayy? menu galich? "

Heba : " salma .. "

my heart stopped beating : " ay salma?? "

Heba : " mmm .. salma .. salma ma ghairha! "

Shaikha : " WTF! .. abbaih shaaaako! .. Salma??

Mishary's Salmaaaa?? "

Heba : " eeh eeh salma! .. cham salma en3arif e7na! "

Shaikha : " omg! .. shtaaabi hathe?? "

Heba : " I donn .. "

I cut her off : " aslaaaaaan shdaraha!! "

Heba : " walla I don't know! .. She called me before few days asking about the girls oo menhm entay .. galatli : how is Shaikha now? .. getlaha great walla .. chan etgooli e6la3at from the hospitaL! .. I was like WHATTTTT! .. chan etgoole ennich dakhaltay il hospitaL .. "

my blood pressure reached the top ..!

ding ding ding !!

Shaikha : " maskena! .. She's sick .. I swear! .. anyway .. ghayray il mawtho3

I don't wanna throw up! .. come over .. I miss you .. "

Heba : " I wish .. but my husband besafir tomorrow .. magdar! .. "

Shaikha :" uh! .. "

Heba : " well uhwa berou7 yet3asha bil dwaneya ..

let's go out side for dinner .. "

I pressed my mobile it was 4 pm ..

Shaikha : " i'll see oo call you back .. "

I called salman oo sa'alta if I can go out side for dinner with Heba ..

he was like : " entay ta3bana .. la tet'akhiran .. 10 entay at home! okay? "

I told you .. he's a typicaL father sometimes! ;p

I texted Heba ..

To : Heba

" 7 intay jahza :P "

She texted me back ..

From : Heba

" I start changing my clothes ;* hahaha "

i was giggling while reading her msg ..

* CALLING *

the Unknown number ..

I took a deep breath ..

madri laish but I had a bad feeling about it ..!

1 Missed call

* CALLING *

I picked it up ..

Shaikha : " aloo .. "

no answer..!

Shaikha :" aloooooooooooo?? "

..... : " ............... " !

Shaikha : " alooh!!? "

no one answered!

I closed the line ..

after 5 seconds ..

they called again ..

Shaikha : " ALO! "

no answer ..

Shaikha : " it's stupid! "

I shut the phone and put it silent ..

oo re7t abaddiL ..

libast a tall white dress ..

with colored cardigan and big ChanneL necklace ..

with double face laffa .. and thick eye-liner with lip gloss ..

I called heba ..

Shaikha : " ha wainch? .. "

Heba : " Im comming .. give me 10 mins okay? "

*BEEP* *BEEP* ..

2nd line ..

Shaikha : " uuuuuf! .. there's an unknown number kept calling

me oo yasketon! shakhbari hal suwalif!! .. wai3! "

She giggled : " hehehe .. wai3! .. yalla Im out side .. "

I went out side hugged her .. and we went to Nino the avenues ..

we sat out side wain jiddam chocolate bar ..

kan fathe .. it was weekdays oo ba3dain ilsa3a 7 .. so mafe a7ad ..

we kept talking about random things ..

and catching up ..

when suddenly Mishary and his whore showed up!

out of NO WHERE!

I whispered to Heba : " mafe ghair nino? "

Heba : " ha? "

Shaikha : " ooh god! .. Mishary and il mes3eeda! ..

I can't .. wai3! .. "

She giggled : " hehehe .. way 5aL ewalon .. "

Shaikha : " ra7 etsalem ? "

Heba : " intay seday! "

I start playing with my mobile ..

I opened a new msg ..

and start writting ..

" shit shit shit shit .. "

Heba : " shaaaaikho! heday ur mobile! .. talk to me !! huff! "

I smiled while putting my mobile away : " yala yala .. "

they went inside for few mins then e6la3aw again ..

I felt like : " ffffew! thanks god inhum leaving .. "

the waiter pointed 3ala il table elli yamna .. lazga fena!

my eyes winded .. I was absolutely in shock!!

they sat down .. while she gave us her back ..

and he sat jidame! I could hear his voice ..!

I stood up .. and changed my place ..

I gave him my back ..

while I was changing places ..

I felt his eyes watching me/ my baby!

7asait enna he'll eat us any second soon ..

he was .. overwellmed with the fact that ana weyah

not together any more ..

and the idea of me getting over him that easy ..!

well , hatha elli uhwa tewaqa3a yemkin! ..

Heba kept talking about random things ..

oo my ear kanaw eb Mishary's table ..

I wanted to know shlon 3aishen?

e7ebha?

I closed my eyes ..

Shaikha! .. stop it ..! grow up and move on..!

sima3t'ha saying ..

Salma : " Mishary goom enghayir our table ..

it's cold .. khandiish! "

Mishary : " no! .. bag3ad ehne! "

OH GOD!

how humilaiting was that??

abbaih! .. have some dignity girl!!

I smiled ..

and wrote a msg for heba telling her shenu sema3t ..

we start laughing oo talking about OTHER things ..

well , important things :)

around 8:30 ..

gumna from nino ..

while I swear to god enna mishary ma shaaL 3ainah 3annah!

I felt like he's gonna follow us ! walla! lay hal daraja he was

cheap and khafef! .. and didn't gave a damn

respect to the "woman" next to him!!

.

.

Raddait el bait ..

badalt my cothes ..

and I felt like I wanna so something nice to Salman ..

tarast il banio with warm water ..

and put some peach colored rosses ..

and left my hair up ..

oo have a relaxing time there ..

I was closing my eyes while thinking how lucky I'm ..

oo enna Salman respect me .. oo wela 3omra eyeb 6ary wa7da jidame ..

even when he cheated on me .. he didn't dated her

jidame or anything e7asisiny enny wothless!

Suddenly ,

BOOM!

istaw3abt enna 6ooL ilmoda I was comparing Salman to Mishary ..

oo hatha elli khalla kil il mashakeL etserli ..

I was such a child ..

Salman : " heeeeeey 7ube .. "

he enterd the bathroom ..

I opened my eyes while smiling : " heeeeey babe .. Come on .. "

he smiled .. : " degayeg .. oo aye ... "

I nodded ..

after fe mins ..

ha came with a black toweL around his waist ..

I was touching my belly while smiling at him ..

Shaikha : " aaaww .. "

I felt something ghareb .

Something madri .. it's like something moving 3ala my hips ..

I put my hand ..

Shaikha : " aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw! bloodd! .. Salman ..

blood!! .. blood! "

I panicked ..

Salman ran to me ..

Salman : " huush .. hussh .. calm down .. ha? .. what to do?

what to do? .. shit shit .. WHAT TO DO! .. "

there was blood everywhere bil banio ..

and where I stopped while he was wondring " what to do"!

it start hurting me so much ..

So i start crying ..

Shaikha :" abi .. abi .. *Sneef* .. abi oomy! "

Salman : " ok ok .. ne6ray .. what? .. ok ok .. ha? .. ok! "

Shaikha : " saaalman wain raye7? .. * sneef* "

he was walking to .. No where!

bas yamshe mn il tedoodeh ma yadre wain erou7!

Salman : " bayeeblich shay talbesenah .. we're going to

the hospitaL! "

I nodded ..

in less than 10 mins. we were in the hospitaL ..

when I just saw my mother ..

I start crying so hard ..

I was afraid ..

and it really HURTS!

I felt enna my bones tefachechaw !

I swear to god a7es enna ga3ed yet7arekon ..!

the dr. came out yelling : " yala yala .. she's gonna deliver now! "

I stared at salman : " no no! salman no! ..

bagi shahar oo shwaya! no! "

Salman said to the dr. : " shfeeha? laish? .. bagi one month!

shofha tabche! "

hehehe .. he's so sweet wala!

Now it's all funny and sweet ..

bas 7azat'ha it was full of pain and scared feelings ..

I closed my eyes .. while watching dozen

of peoples walking around me ..

mathkir shenu sar killlesh! ..

I just opened my eyes after few hours ..

A MOM!

the dr. whispering : " mabrok .. you had a boy .. "

I nooded .. I was tired ..

and all the things 7ooli white ..

I couldn't understand 3adiL ..

I felt enny in a dream or something ..

after cham sa3a .. maybe 2 ..

they took me to a big room ..

it was amazing ..

bas ana kint sleepy 7ady ..

a7is enny under drug or something walla..!

Salman : " 7aaaaaaaaaaaaayatttte..! "

I closed my eyes ...

his voice moz3ej!! ..

he kissed my forhead ..

smell my hair ..

Shaikha : " ooh .. "

Salman put his finger 3ala my cheek ..

Salman : " Esmillah 3alaich .. "

a tear enzalat mn e3yooni ..

I felt like a lost my baby ..

Shaikha : " wain baby? "

he smiled : " baby ta7at .. "

Shaikha : " shefta? "

he nodded : " mn eb3ed .. "

I smiled : " laish you didn't carry him? "

Salman gave me a stupid look!

Salman : " ha? "

I smiled : " laish ma shelta 7abebe? "

Salman : " wayid esgher and they took it to a small box madre shesma ..

3alshan he's only 7 monthes old .. "

I smiled : " 7elu? "

Salman eye's glowed up : " uf! mazyoon! "

I giggled while closing my eyes oo a7aweL anam ..

a7is eny 6ay7a mn foog jabaL! waalla! ..

Shaikha : " aaaawwh .. "

Salman sat on the chair .. : " Shaikha lazm ensameeh tara .. "

I smiled : " I know .. "

Salman : " still On mishary? "

why he's so sweet to me ledarajat a7is eny akrah nafse??

why i didn't move on?

I took a deep breath .. : " yes! "

he smiled .. : " okay Om mishary .. "

I smiled : " come hug me .. "

.

.

I felt like naming my baby boy mishary ..

that's a sign that Im over him ,.

and that he means nothing to me!

I know he was the one who called me oo sekat!

and I know that I'll be always there in his heart ..

because I know my self .. and I know that he'll never meet a girl like me ..

it's his lost :)

and my gain .. to find a real man like Salman ..

and RE-LOVE Mishary "the name" .. with Salman as a man ..

there's nothing called " One true love"!

you can always ..

Re-Love

the right ones ;)

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Now ,

First : IM SORRY for all the drama elli sarat ..

oo closing my blog eb hal way without telling you guys ..

and I'll explain that by details Inshalla ..

So , when Do you want me Start my own Story? :")

55- [Re-Love .. Him!;*]

[ Family Comes first .. !]

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Fahad stared at my father ..

while saying : " faman ellah! .. Im going to a friend .. "

my mom followed him ..

while Im smilling at my father ; " 7ayak .. yuba .. 7ayaaak.."

my father : " channhum tethayeqaw mn yayeti? "

LA WALLA??

I fake a smile : " no! no! no! .. you're welcomed in

our family anytime! "

my father : " really? "

Shaikha ; " hehe .. I don't know .. but you're welcomed in

my small family anytime .. "

he kissed my hand while giving me a small invelope ..

I smiled while moving my hand away : " thankyou yuba ..

bas I don't need anything from you .. I don't need money ..

you can't buy my! .. you .. "

I took a deep breath ..

why do I ruin every good moment in my life?

why Im so stupid dear god!?

my father : " shaikha Im not buying you ..

I just wanna make sure that you're fine .. and happy .. "

I nodded : " Im fine and happy .. I have a wonderful husband

and a healthy baby boy inside of me .. "

he start laughing : " a boooooy? "

I giggled and blushed : " yeah .. "

my father : " shenu betsamona inshalla? "

Mishary??

Shaikha : " I don't know .. yet! "

my father stood up while putting the invelope next to my head ..

Shaikha : " yuba please! .. take it .. please .. I don't want it .. please! "

he kissed my head while saying his goodbye : " oo etredenne?? ..

m3a ilsalama yuba .. "

my eyes winded ..

it broke me deeep deep inside ..

I loved him ..

he's sweet to me ..

but he's so weak jidam his wife!

why?

my father while opening the door ; " hala hala yuba .. hala .. "

Salman dash il room while smiling at me ..

Shaikha : " waaain kent!! "

he ignored me .. and went out side the room again ..

with domino's pizza boxes oo a small black bag for me ..

he put the pizza on my lap

and start talking about shenu sawwah mn 6ala3

mn ilhospitaL laima rad again ..

I was listening to him talking about searching for a comfortable panties

for me, and going to the supermarket to buy me my fav. garnier nutrisse shampoo ..

he seem like he really cares about me ..

I whispered in the middle of his salfa ..

Shaikha : " do you love me Salman? "

his eyes glowed .. and a tinny sexy smile find her place

on his cute fully lips ..

Salman : " I love you shaikha .. wayid! "

I blushed ..

its an amazing feeling to

love and be loved back ..

Shaikha : " fahad asked me itha feena shay ana weyak .. "

Salman : " really? shdarah? "

Shaikha : " he knows me very well , it very obveious that there's

something wrong with me .. "

Salman nodded : " aha.."

I smiled : " there WAS something wrong with me ..

bas we're done m3a hal "something" .. mu? "

he kissed my cheek : " Sure .. "

he took all the boxes oo ga6'hum bil bathroom trash ..

and 6ala3li my PJ's..

while I was mummbling like a little kid enna mali khelq abaddeL ..

Shaikha : " maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaali khelq! ..

I'll sleep eb hatha .. ta3bana .. mali kheeeelq! "

Salman : " give me ur hand yalla! .. it's so cold here ..

oo you'll be sick I know it! .. yalla give me ur hand .. "

I gave him my hands .. and start moving slowley 3alashan anziL mn ilbed ..

awaL ma wakhart il cover 3anne .. my belly showed up ..

he paused ..

I put my hand 3ala my belly ..

Shaikha : " what?? .. what's wrong? "

Salman: " tawni ala7eth how big your belly got! "

Shaikha : " heeeeeey! .. Im not fat! "

Salman : " no! .. you're not!! .. it's sexy for fact .. "

I giggled : " heyy! not here .. not now! "

he hugged me softly while i was

sitting on the corner of the bed ..

Salman : " I know .. it just so .. so .."

I whispered : " so what? "

Salman whispered ; " damn sexy "

I giggled so hard while blushing like hell ..

oh god! .. don't turn me on man! please!

I kissed his cheek while putting my foot on the cold floor ..

Shaikha : " shenu ensameh? "

Salman : " mmmm fahad? "

Shaikha : " no no .. mabi .. "

Salman : " mmmmmm .. khalid? "

I nodded : " mmm yeah it's nice .. bas madre .. "

Salman : " we'll think about it later .. Now lebsay shay .. it's cold ..

oo ra7 tamretheen shaikha .. "

I smiled : " ok ok mr. Sexy! "

he laughed while taking off his deshdasha and searching for his

boxer of whatever to wear it for the bed ..

we both changed our clothes ..

I layed down on the bed ..

and Salmani layed on the Coach because he's afraid enna at night

he'll kick me or something! looooooooool ..

he was like : " what if I kicked you or our baby while im sleeping?

no no i'll sleep on the coach till that little

prince come out! "

we closed the lights ..

and watched the tv. for a little while ..

Salman closed the tv. and decided that we should sleep Now! looooool ..

Salman : " yala yala .. mako tv. yalla il nom! "

I start giggling : " hehehhe why why! .. open it! .. im watching! "

Salman : " no! yalla ilnoom .. I have work tomorrow .. yalla sleep .. "

I smiled ..

he acts like a typical father sometimes ..

I whispered : " salmani .. "

Salman whispered back : " galbe? "

I giggled : " salmaaaaaaaaani .. "

he start laughing : " gaaaaaaaaaalbe? "

Shaikha : " saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalmmmmmmmm .."

he cut me off ... : " walla agoomlich .. "

we both laughed so hard ..

Shaikha : " hahaha .. i just wanted to tell you how

great father you'll be ..

7addik amazing .. "

Salman : " 7abebti .. you too .. 7adich perfect mother .. "

I nodded while cloosing my eyes : " I know .. "

Salman laughed : " hehehe maskeena walla .. tara mojamala! "

I whispered : " shenu lazm ensameeh? .. poor un-named baby! "

he laughed : " shfech drama? .. we'll name him ay esm ..

I don't give the names wayid attention .. I think it's just a name! "

I nodded : " yeah .. madri .. no .. I just want a good name .. "

Salman : " like what? "

Shaikha : " I don't know walla ..

bas I want a name that I really like ..

it's my first son name! ..

I want it something speciaL! "

Salman : " we can name it mishary for my father's seak! .. ok? "

my heart sinke ..

and my blood start running so fast throw my face ..

I felt ennah 7ar! .. it's hot out here? isn't it?

I whispered : " wai3!.. no .. "

Salman : " it means nothing to me ..

and there's no hard feelings etha

samait weldi meshary .. "

Shaikha : " i know that .. but oh no!! .. I don't want .. "

Salman : " eser khair .. eser khair .. "

I closed my eyes ..

thinking about naming my baby mishary ..

NO WAY ..

I can't ..

I don't have the courage to call him " Mishary" with out thinking of

the reaL one ..

NO NO NOOOOOOOOO ..

that's cheap!

inshalla every time I called my son ..

I'll be thinking of someone else??

NO NO NO ..!!

that will take me back to the point zero ..

So , HELL NO!