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Good morning girls ..
I wanna tell you something mohem ..
Yes .. it is my story ;* ..
Sorry nesait agooL heheh ..
Enjoy , ;*

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Kura : "shoug mama gooL come lunch.. "
I nodded..
Faris : " I'm 6ar6oor out here or what? "
I raised my eyebrows while getting up ..
Shoug : " you? .. Why? "
Faris : " ur maid .. She suppose to talk to me .. I'm the man! "
I smiled : " yeah I know .. Bas she's just a maid ma et3arf hal suwalif .. "

Faris was so strike when it comes to " sana3 oo osoul" he was the kind of persons elli when you say his name infront of anyone .. the first word they will say it about him is " RAYYYYYAAAAAAAL wennnnni3m.."

We sat on the tall table for lunch ..
Where jassim , Nouf and Fatima were setting ..
Jassim : " farroos did someone names Muhammed called you? "
Faris : " No .. why? "
Jassim : " they called me mn shway telling me that there's an important meeting for the freshmen's elli berou7oon usa! .. "
Faris : " aaaaha! .. I thought ennik tetkallam 3an shay thane ..
ana kalamni wa7id Esma Khalid .. bas galle nafs ilshay ya3ne .. "
Nouf : " Jassom enta mn meta betrou7 usa? "
Faris gave her a half evil smile ..
She screamed : " ommmmmmg! Entaaa emshaishaaaaaa!! Mu sa77777? "
They both break an evil laugh ..
Fatima : " Allah yastir menkom entaw lay teyama3taw! .. "
Shoug : " 7aram 3alaich .. I trust them "
Faris raised his eyes from his machboos : " 3ala rassi bu shaawwaag .. "
They all laughed 3ala il name il ghabi ..
Shoug : " oh god! Cham marra agoolik don't call me hal name .. I swear it a curse walla! .. "
Nouf : " hahahha .. I wanna come to this freshmen's meeting! "
Jassim :" shako shako! No ..! "
Shoug : " yaa me too .. "
Jassim : " No! .. Enthabraw here bas yalla .. "
Shoug : " Faris .. "
Faris was busy with his machboos hehehe ..
Shoug : " Faaaaaaaaaris .. "
Faris : " mm mm ? "
Shoug : " take us to the meeting weyyak please.. "
We both gave him a puppy eyes look ..
He smiled : " bu 7amood khaL nakheth fehom ajir! "
Jassim laughed : " heheheh 3alashan hal ga66a enwadeeeehom laish la! "

After few days ..
Jassim texted me ..
- Jassim : " Nouf and Shoug .. 4 pm entaw ready please .. "
I replied: " uhwa meta il meeting aslant? "
- Jassim : " @ 5:30 "
It was already 3:30pm! .. so I took a shower ..
And went to the living room to tell my mother about il meeting ..
She was like : " wentaw shaaaku? Laish razzen ilwayh! "
Shoug : " mama it's Jassim and faris! .. ya3ni you know what kind of relationships we have mu? "
My mom nodded : " luw ma uhma 7isbat ekhwanich ma rethaitlech .. "
I kissed her cheek : " thank you .. mama 6al3eeli what to wear? "
She came to my closet..
Mama : " mmmm .. Entay rou7ay saway sha3rich la et3a6lenhum...
wana a7e6lich shay 3ala Ur bed... "
I went to the bathroom where my hair dryer would always be; p ..
Nashaft sha3ri with hot air only ..
And then waved it ..
I love waving my hair without la asaweh sishwar 3adiL .. cus eser feeh more volume and madri ekoon alive!
I went back to my room .. wella mom 7a66a Christian Lacroix silk print dress on the bed .. With small pearl earrings... I was like: isn't that too much?
I searched for her in the living room, her room, the kitchen... makan Fe a7ad...
So I called...
(mama ;*)
Shoug : " alooo mama .. isn't the dress wayid over? "
Mama : " no honey .. because it's like a classic gathering kilman ekoon labis zain feeha .. it's like the graduation parties .. "
I got the idea ..
Shoug : " ahh .. ok great .. thankyou .. "
We closed the line and I just put blusher on my cheeks ..
I was 15 going to 16 .. but it wasn't okay with my parents to wear on makeup that age
Libast juicy small gold watch with kind of braces around it ..
And a flat metallic shoes ..
I received a msg from Nouf ..
- Nouf : " please please if jassim called you .. golilah ennich still ma khalastay ;p"
I giggled...

( Faris )
is calling...

Faris : " shogoooo oo ba3dain! Meta et5alson!! "
Shoug : " ammm ammm ammm .. now now enshalla .. "
Faris : " entay shkither boqalich?"
Shoug : " I'm ready aslan! Bas im waiting for Noufa"
Faris : " yalla yalla I'm coming to pick you okay? ..
kanna ana oo Jassim 6al3en mn ilkhaldeya .. 5 mins e7na 3endich .. "
Shoug : " oookk .. Agoolek.. "
6ob! He closed the line! Heheheh there was no *goodbyes* in his dictionary..

The picked me up from our house in alyarmouk .. and we picked Nouf from her house in alyarmouk too ..
On the way to shiraton hoteL where the gathering will be ..
Shoug : " so .. shenu eb tadrison bil thab6 in USA? "
Faris : "I want international business in George Washington university .."
Nouf : " where is that bil thab6? "
Faris : " Columbia .. "
I smiled : " Allah! Meshtahya ice cream Columbia..! "
I and Nouf start laughing about nothing! ..
While Jassim and faris kept staring at us in a – blonde girls!- look!


When we arrived shiraton ..
Faris was nervous more than jassim ..
He cheeks were red .. And kept playing with his dishdasha ..
I pulled his hand : " bas bas! Bet3affis il deshdasha ..! calm down .. you look gorgeous .. "
He smiled and his big eyes glowed ..
Somehow we looked like each other .. many people laima eshufoonnah egoloon : " eserlich? " .. it's the blood thing I guess ..
Because we share our family signature big eyes .. but he had a cheek bones and his lips not full as mine ..

Jassim : " yalla faros .. qawwey galbik .. and let's start our lives .. "
Faris whispered in a sarcastic way : " aqawwe galbi yougaf walla! "
And they both share a quick laugh gabeL la endish ..

The organizers said that it's okay to set girls yam boys ..
So we sat in the 5th line ..
Jassim .. faris .. Me .. Nouf .. next to her friend Jana elli sadafnaha there ..

Faris whispered: " shfech ga3da em6anqera .. Join nouf oo her friend ..."
Shoug : " la etmaliq .. you know me .. I don't speak with strangers! "
Faris smiled : " but she's noufa's friend .. mu completely stranger .. "
Shoug : " I don't want .. aste7y .. "
Faris : " wazeena il del3a .. "
We both giggled
Shoug : " hehehe chub maliq …"
I took a breath ..
Shoug : " Faris .. abe agoolik shay .. "
Faris garrab his ear menni ..
I could smell his manly fragrance ..
Faris : " amrayy? "
And here when I said something else ghair eli eb galbe..!
Shoug : " mmm .. mm .. don't joke about your sickness .. it's not funny! "
He nodded : " enshalla .. "
He was gonna say something ..

But some guy said publicly :
" alsalam 3alaikom .. thanks for coming today for ………."
so we shut our mouths up ..

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2002

" .. shoug! Aren't you coming to the chalet? " my mom yelled at me from her room ... while I was watching maid in manhaten for jennifer lopez ...
I nodded while eating my cheeseburger; " embala .. I'm coming! "

How would I stay home while all my cousins there? ..
All my childhood and teenage years I didn't had a really close friend ella my cousins ..
My mother was very protective and wouldn't let me visit any unknown friend's house! .. and she never let me go out with a random friend with out her mother .. so I didn't had close friends since I was 15 years old and never went to soug sharq alone!

On the way to the chalet I texted Nouf , Fatima , Jassim , a7med and Faris ..
" anyone wants something from the supermarket?? "
My mom used to pass by Sultan center – Shuwaik to buy things for chalet ..
So of course I'll use her ya3ni ;p ..
- Nouf ; " no thanks .. just come yalla! "
- a7med : " are you going to the chalet? .. Ana nayim eb bait erfejy mara7 aye! "
- Jassim : " Pepsi please! ;) "
- Fatima : " yeeeeeeees please! .. kitko kitko kitko .. time out .. nerds and cocktail juice please ;* love you .. "
… and yeah! .. those were my friends ..
I kept staring at my mobile screen .. why Faris didn't replied? ..
He was always the closed one in the group .. because of his heart problems .. since we were small kids he was special in my family .. he's the first grandson .. we were the biggest generation in my grandparents' house .. but faris was the younger bainah ..
He was like 17 years old ..

We arrived alkhiran where our chalet was ..
I saw all my cousins ma 3adah a7med ..
I kissed all my aunts oo grandparents ..
And went to my cousins/friends ..
Shoug : " hiiiii all .. "
They were laying on the sun ..
Yeah they call it tanning! ..
Nouf mumbled : " heey .. "
Fatima cut her off : " where's my time out? "
Jassim : " and my Pepsi .. ? "

Faris were sitting on a white chair staring at them ..
Faris : " why you didn't bring anything for me? "

I raised my hand : " wait wait! .. first .. " I throw the plastic bag Jassim and Fatima's side .. " .. and second .. " I walked to the white chair : " enta ma gelt enik tabe shay! .. you didn’t replay 3ala my msg! "
Faris nodded : " makan 3endy rased! "
I smiled : " anyway .. I brought you Sunkist orange juice and chunky kitkat! "
He smiled : " thank you shoug .. "
I nodded while closing one my eyes : " you're more than welcome .. "

I stood up ; " uff! It's hot! .. I can't stand it .. I'll go inside ..

etha khalastaw tanning tara im waiting .. "
Faris stood up too ; " yeah me too! Akhaf 3ala bashreti .. "
They all break a laugh ..
I bushed his shoulder softly ; " oh maaaaaliq! .. it's not about my skin .. I just hate tanning .. plus I love my color..! "

I was white .. not so freaky white .. I love my color ..
A lot of people told me that I do look like Ashley Olsen..
Hahah I remember one of my cousin friend told me in a stupid way – but she was serious!- : " omg! I wanted to tell that mn ziman .. bas tara you look like Ashley Olsen .. not Mary Kate! .. Ashley! " ..
I was like .. what the difference?
I know that I'm petite and have big eyes .. I'm not beautiful .. but I know how to make myself up .. like they say : " et3arf 7ag 3omirha.."
About the personality I'm quite .. never shows my emotions .. and very mature for my age ..

Anyway,
We went inside ..
Watching something like jar7 ilzeman or darat il ayam! .. I really don't remember ..!
Faris said while he was laying on the couch ..
And I was sitting jidam lazga bil TV ..
Faris : " shougoo .. "
I mumbled: " hmm? "
Faris : " do you know someone called maha? "
Shoug : " mmmmmmm .. the tall one with black wavy hair? "
Faris ; " yes I think .. "
Shoug : " shfeha? "
Faris : " she knows a friend of me .. "

I nodded .. I really never cared about hal suwalif ..
for fact, I never thought that One day I'll fall for someone or even believe in love before marriage ..

Faris : " shfech ma 3alaqtay? "
Shoug: " I hate hal suwalif .. She's a girl don't talk about her farroosss! "
I felt his smile ..
Faris : " tadren I'll go to USA next year? "
Shoug : " I know ! It's your dream since forever..! "
Faris : " yeah .. "
My aunt Ghada went in : " faris khathait your pills? "
I nodded : " yes khalti .. "
She start laughing : " intaw freaks walla! "

56- [ Re-Love Him;*!] *THE END*

[ il3omur mashyy .. ]

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Salman opened his eyes around 12 pm ..

Salman : " mmmm .. Shga3id etsawen? "

I smiled .. : " hhhhhhey! good morningggg .. Im packing! "

Salman : " ha? "

Shaikha : " Im packin 7abebe .. because the dr. told

me enna Im leaving today .. "

Salman while searching for his mobile : " ilyoom cham iltarekhh? "

Shaikha : " 17 .. "

he nodded : " ahha .. "

Shaikha : " shfeek mu happy? "

Salman :" I'm .. bas lel7eeni nayem! "

I giggled .. he looked cute awaL ma egoom mn il noom ..

we went back home ..

awaL ma he opened il door ..

I took a deep breath ..

Shaikha : " mmmmmmm .. Homeeee .. Sweet hooome .. "

he hugged me from the back : " welcome home 7abebti .. "

I layed down on the bed ..

I was still weak oo ta3bana ..

I took a nap ..

* beep * * beep *

from : heba

" LAISH ANA AKHIR WA7DA ADRE?????! .. CALL ME ASAP! "

I chicked the Missed calls ..

there was 5 ..

3 Heba

1 Salmani

1 Unknown number

I recalled Heba ..

Heba : " aloooooooo! "

I start giggling .. Laish hal bnayya she6a?

Heba : " shuuuut up! it's not funny! at all! "

Shaikha : " 7abebtiiiiiiii heba .. Im sorry .. it's like only 2 days! ..

omg! walla it's nothing aslan .. I was gonna call you today to hang out or something .. "

Heba : " don't lie Shaikha .. shfech?? .. I freaked out! .. "

Shaikha : " walla heba nothing .. I swear it's nothing ..

la7tha .. shdarach entayy? menu galich? "

Heba : " salma .. "

my heart stopped beating : " ay salma?? "

Heba : " mmm .. salma .. salma ma ghairha! "

Shaikha : " WTF! .. abbaih shaaaako! .. Salma??

Mishary's Salmaaaa?? "

Heba : " eeh eeh salma! .. cham salma en3arif e7na! "

Shaikha : " omg! .. shtaaabi hathe?? "

Heba : " I donn .. "

I cut her off : " aslaaaaaan shdaraha!! "

Heba : " walla I don't know! .. She called me before few days asking about the girls oo menhm entay .. galatli : how is Shaikha now? .. getlaha great walla .. chan etgooli e6la3at from the hospitaL! .. I was like WHATTTTT! .. chan etgoole ennich dakhaltay il hospitaL .. "

my blood pressure reached the top ..!

ding ding ding !!

Shaikha : " maskena! .. She's sick .. I swear! .. anyway .. ghayray il mawtho3

I don't wanna throw up! .. come over .. I miss you .. "

Heba : " I wish .. but my husband besafir tomorrow .. magdar! .. "

Shaikha :" uh! .. "

Heba : " well uhwa berou7 yet3asha bil dwaneya ..

let's go out side for dinner .. "

I pressed my mobile it was 4 pm ..

Shaikha : " i'll see oo call you back .. "

I called salman oo sa'alta if I can go out side for dinner with Heba ..

he was like : " entay ta3bana .. la tet'akhiran .. 10 entay at home! okay? "

I told you .. he's a typicaL father sometimes! ;p

I texted Heba ..

To : Heba

" 7 intay jahza :P "

She texted me back ..

From : Heba

" I start changing my clothes ;* hahaha "

i was giggling while reading her msg ..

* CALLING *

the Unknown number ..

I took a deep breath ..

madri laish but I had a bad feeling about it ..!

1 Missed call

* CALLING *

I picked it up ..

Shaikha : " aloo .. "

no answer..!

Shaikha :" aloooooooooooo?? "

..... : " ............... " !

Shaikha : " alooh!!? "

no one answered!

I closed the line ..

after 5 seconds ..

they called again ..

Shaikha : " ALO! "

no answer ..

Shaikha : " it's stupid! "

I shut the phone and put it silent ..

oo re7t abaddiL ..

libast a tall white dress ..

with colored cardigan and big ChanneL necklace ..

with double face laffa .. and thick eye-liner with lip gloss ..

I called heba ..

Shaikha : " ha wainch? .. "

Heba : " Im comming .. give me 10 mins okay? "

*BEEP* *BEEP* ..

2nd line ..

Shaikha : " uuuuuf! .. there's an unknown number kept calling

me oo yasketon! shakhbari hal suwalif!! .. wai3! "

She giggled : " hehehe .. wai3! .. yalla Im out side .. "

I went out side hugged her .. and we went to Nino the avenues ..

we sat out side wain jiddam chocolate bar ..

kan fathe .. it was weekdays oo ba3dain ilsa3a 7 .. so mafe a7ad ..

we kept talking about random things ..

and catching up ..

when suddenly Mishary and his whore showed up!

out of NO WHERE!

I whispered to Heba : " mafe ghair nino? "

Heba : " ha? "

Shaikha : " ooh god! .. Mishary and il mes3eeda! ..

I can't .. wai3! .. "

She giggled : " hehehe .. way 5aL ewalon .. "

Shaikha : " ra7 etsalem ? "

Heba : " intay seday! "

I start playing with my mobile ..

I opened a new msg ..

and start writting ..

" shit shit shit shit .. "

Heba : " shaaaaikho! heday ur mobile! .. talk to me !! huff! "

I smiled while putting my mobile away : " yala yala .. "

they went inside for few mins then e6la3aw again ..

I felt like : " ffffew! thanks god inhum leaving .. "

the waiter pointed 3ala il table elli yamna .. lazga fena!

my eyes winded .. I was absolutely in shock!!

they sat down .. while she gave us her back ..

and he sat jidame! I could hear his voice ..!

I stood up .. and changed my place ..

I gave him my back ..

while I was changing places ..

I felt his eyes watching me/ my baby!

7asait enna he'll eat us any second soon ..

he was .. overwellmed with the fact that ana weyah

not together any more ..

and the idea of me getting over him that easy ..!

well , hatha elli uhwa tewaqa3a yemkin! ..

Heba kept talking about random things ..

oo my ear kanaw eb Mishary's table ..

I wanted to know shlon 3aishen?

e7ebha?

I closed my eyes ..

Shaikha! .. stop it ..! grow up and move on..!

sima3t'ha saying ..

Salma : " Mishary goom enghayir our table ..

it's cold .. khandiish! "

Mishary : " no! .. bag3ad ehne! "

OH GOD!

how humilaiting was that??

abbaih! .. have some dignity girl!!

I smiled ..

and wrote a msg for heba telling her shenu sema3t ..

we start laughing oo talking about OTHER things ..

well , important things :)

around 8:30 ..

gumna from nino ..

while I swear to god enna mishary ma shaaL 3ainah 3annah!

I felt like he's gonna follow us ! walla! lay hal daraja he was

cheap and khafef! .. and didn't gave a damn

respect to the "woman" next to him!!

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Raddait el bait ..

badalt my cothes ..

and I felt like I wanna so something nice to Salman ..

tarast il banio with warm water ..

and put some peach colored rosses ..

and left my hair up ..

oo have a relaxing time there ..

I was closing my eyes while thinking how lucky I'm ..

oo enna Salman respect me .. oo wela 3omra eyeb 6ary wa7da jidame ..

even when he cheated on me .. he didn't dated her

jidame or anything e7asisiny enny wothless!

Suddenly ,

BOOM!

istaw3abt enna 6ooL ilmoda I was comparing Salman to Mishary ..

oo hatha elli khalla kil il mashakeL etserli ..

I was such a child ..

Salman : " heeeeeey 7ube .. "

he enterd the bathroom ..

I opened my eyes while smiling : " heeeeey babe .. Come on .. "

he smiled .. : " degayeg .. oo aye ... "

I nodded ..

after fe mins ..

ha came with a black toweL around his waist ..

I was touching my belly while smiling at him ..

Shaikha : " aaaww .. "

I felt something ghareb .

Something madri .. it's like something moving 3ala my hips ..

I put my hand ..

Shaikha : " aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw! bloodd! .. Salman ..

blood!! .. blood! "

I panicked ..

Salman ran to me ..

Salman : " huush .. hussh .. calm down .. ha? .. what to do?

what to do? .. shit shit .. WHAT TO DO! .. "

there was blood everywhere bil banio ..

and where I stopped while he was wondring " what to do"!

it start hurting me so much ..

So i start crying ..

Shaikha :" abi .. abi .. *Sneef* .. abi oomy! "

Salman : " ok ok .. ne6ray .. what? .. ok ok .. ha? .. ok! "

Shaikha : " saaalman wain raye7? .. * sneef* "

he was walking to .. No where!

bas yamshe mn il tedoodeh ma yadre wain erou7!

Salman : " bayeeblich shay talbesenah .. we're going to

the hospitaL! "

I nodded ..

in less than 10 mins. we were in the hospitaL ..

when I just saw my mother ..

I start crying so hard ..

I was afraid ..

and it really HURTS!

I felt enna my bones tefachechaw !

I swear to god a7es enna ga3ed yet7arekon ..!

the dr. came out yelling : " yala yala .. she's gonna deliver now! "

I stared at salman : " no no! salman no! ..

bagi shahar oo shwaya! no! "

Salman said to the dr. : " shfeeha? laish? .. bagi one month!

shofha tabche! "

hehehe .. he's so sweet wala!

Now it's all funny and sweet ..

bas 7azat'ha it was full of pain and scared feelings ..

I closed my eyes .. while watching dozen

of peoples walking around me ..

mathkir shenu sar killlesh! ..

I just opened my eyes after few hours ..

A MOM!

the dr. whispering : " mabrok .. you had a boy .. "

I nooded .. I was tired ..

and all the things 7ooli white ..

I couldn't understand 3adiL ..

I felt enny in a dream or something ..

after cham sa3a .. maybe 2 ..

they took me to a big room ..

it was amazing ..

bas ana kint sleepy 7ady ..

a7is enny under drug or something walla..!

Salman : " 7aaaaaaaaaaaaayatttte..! "

I closed my eyes ...

his voice moz3ej!! ..

he kissed my forhead ..

smell my hair ..

Shaikha : " ooh .. "

Salman put his finger 3ala my cheek ..

Salman : " Esmillah 3alaich .. "

a tear enzalat mn e3yooni ..

I felt like a lost my baby ..

Shaikha : " wain baby? "

he smiled : " baby ta7at .. "

Shaikha : " shefta? "

he nodded : " mn eb3ed .. "

I smiled : " laish you didn't carry him? "

Salman gave me a stupid look!

Salman : " ha? "

I smiled : " laish ma shelta 7abebe? "

Salman : " wayid esgher and they took it to a small box madre shesma ..

3alshan he's only 7 monthes old .. "

I smiled : " 7elu? "

Salman eye's glowed up : " uf! mazyoon! "

I giggled while closing my eyes oo a7aweL anam ..

a7is eny 6ay7a mn foog jabaL! waalla! ..

Shaikha : " aaaawwh .. "

Salman sat on the chair .. : " Shaikha lazm ensameeh tara .. "

I smiled : " I know .. "

Salman : " still On mishary? "

why he's so sweet to me ledarajat a7is eny akrah nafse??

why i didn't move on?

I took a deep breath .. : " yes! "

he smiled .. : " okay Om mishary .. "

I smiled : " come hug me .. "

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I felt like naming my baby boy mishary ..

that's a sign that Im over him ,.

and that he means nothing to me!

I know he was the one who called me oo sekat!

and I know that I'll be always there in his heart ..

because I know my self .. and I know that he'll never meet a girl like me ..

it's his lost :)

and my gain .. to find a real man like Salman ..

and RE-LOVE Mishary "the name" .. with Salman as a man ..

there's nothing called " One true love"!

you can always ..

Re-Love

the right ones ;)

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Now ,

First : IM SORRY for all the drama elli sarat ..

oo closing my blog eb hal way without telling you guys ..

and I'll explain that by details Inshalla ..

So , when Do you want me Start my own Story? :")

55- [Re-Love .. Him!;*]

[ Family Comes first .. !]

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Fahad stared at my father ..

while saying : " faman ellah! .. Im going to a friend .. "

my mom followed him ..

while Im smilling at my father ; " 7ayak .. yuba .. 7ayaaak.."

my father : " channhum tethayeqaw mn yayeti? "

LA WALLA??

I fake a smile : " no! no! no! .. you're welcomed in

our family anytime! "

my father : " really? "

Shaikha ; " hehe .. I don't know .. but you're welcomed in

my small family anytime .. "

he kissed my hand while giving me a small invelope ..

I smiled while moving my hand away : " thankyou yuba ..

bas I don't need anything from you .. I don't need money ..

you can't buy my! .. you .. "

I took a deep breath ..

why do I ruin every good moment in my life?

why Im so stupid dear god!?

my father : " shaikha Im not buying you ..

I just wanna make sure that you're fine .. and happy .. "

I nodded : " Im fine and happy .. I have a wonderful husband

and a healthy baby boy inside of me .. "

he start laughing : " a boooooy? "

I giggled and blushed : " yeah .. "

my father : " shenu betsamona inshalla? "

Mishary??

Shaikha : " I don't know .. yet! "

my father stood up while putting the invelope next to my head ..

Shaikha : " yuba please! .. take it .. please .. I don't want it .. please! "

he kissed my head while saying his goodbye : " oo etredenne?? ..

m3a ilsalama yuba .. "

my eyes winded ..

it broke me deeep deep inside ..

I loved him ..

he's sweet to me ..

but he's so weak jidam his wife!

why?

my father while opening the door ; " hala hala yuba .. hala .. "

Salman dash il room while smiling at me ..

Shaikha : " waaain kent!! "

he ignored me .. and went out side the room again ..

with domino's pizza boxes oo a small black bag for me ..

he put the pizza on my lap

and start talking about shenu sawwah mn 6ala3

mn ilhospitaL laima rad again ..

I was listening to him talking about searching for a comfortable panties

for me, and going to the supermarket to buy me my fav. garnier nutrisse shampoo ..

he seem like he really cares about me ..

I whispered in the middle of his salfa ..

Shaikha : " do you love me Salman? "

his eyes glowed .. and a tinny sexy smile find her place

on his cute fully lips ..

Salman : " I love you shaikha .. wayid! "

I blushed ..

its an amazing feeling to

love and be loved back ..

Shaikha : " fahad asked me itha feena shay ana weyak .. "

Salman : " really? shdarah? "

Shaikha : " he knows me very well , it very obveious that there's

something wrong with me .. "

Salman nodded : " aha.."

I smiled : " there WAS something wrong with me ..

bas we're done m3a hal "something" .. mu? "

he kissed my cheek : " Sure .. "

he took all the boxes oo ga6'hum bil bathroom trash ..

and 6ala3li my PJ's..

while I was mummbling like a little kid enna mali khelq abaddeL ..

Shaikha : " maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaali khelq! ..

I'll sleep eb hatha .. ta3bana .. mali kheeeelq! "

Salman : " give me ur hand yalla! .. it's so cold here ..

oo you'll be sick I know it! .. yalla give me ur hand .. "

I gave him my hands .. and start moving slowley 3alashan anziL mn ilbed ..

awaL ma wakhart il cover 3anne .. my belly showed up ..

he paused ..

I put my hand 3ala my belly ..

Shaikha : " what?? .. what's wrong? "

Salman: " tawni ala7eth how big your belly got! "

Shaikha : " heeeeeey! .. Im not fat! "

Salman : " no! .. you're not!! .. it's sexy for fact .. "

I giggled : " heyy! not here .. not now! "

he hugged me softly while i was

sitting on the corner of the bed ..

Salman : " I know .. it just so .. so .."

I whispered : " so what? "

Salman whispered ; " damn sexy "

I giggled so hard while blushing like hell ..

oh god! .. don't turn me on man! please!

I kissed his cheek while putting my foot on the cold floor ..

Shaikha : " shenu ensameh? "

Salman : " mmmm fahad? "

Shaikha : " no no .. mabi .. "

Salman : " mmmmmm .. khalid? "

I nodded : " mmm yeah it's nice .. bas madre .. "

Salman : " we'll think about it later .. Now lebsay shay .. it's cold ..

oo ra7 tamretheen shaikha .. "

I smiled : " ok ok mr. Sexy! "

he laughed while taking off his deshdasha and searching for his

boxer of whatever to wear it for the bed ..

we both changed our clothes ..

I layed down on the bed ..

and Salmani layed on the Coach because he's afraid enna at night

he'll kick me or something! looooooooool ..

he was like : " what if I kicked you or our baby while im sleeping?

no no i'll sleep on the coach till that little

prince come out! "

we closed the lights ..

and watched the tv. for a little while ..

Salman closed the tv. and decided that we should sleep Now! looooool ..

Salman : " yala yala .. mako tv. yalla il nom! "

I start giggling : " hehehhe why why! .. open it! .. im watching! "

Salman : " no! yalla ilnoom .. I have work tomorrow .. yalla sleep .. "

I smiled ..

he acts like a typical father sometimes ..

I whispered : " salmani .. "

Salman whispered back : " galbe? "

I giggled : " salmaaaaaaaaani .. "

he start laughing : " gaaaaaaaaaalbe? "

Shaikha : " saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalmmmmmmmm .."

he cut me off ... : " walla agoomlich .. "

we both laughed so hard ..

Shaikha : " hahaha .. i just wanted to tell you how

great father you'll be ..

7addik amazing .. "

Salman : " 7abebti .. you too .. 7adich perfect mother .. "

I nodded while cloosing my eyes : " I know .. "

Salman laughed : " hehehe maskeena walla .. tara mojamala! "

I whispered : " shenu lazm ensameeh? .. poor un-named baby! "

he laughed : " shfech drama? .. we'll name him ay esm ..

I don't give the names wayid attention .. I think it's just a name! "

I nodded : " yeah .. madri .. no .. I just want a good name .. "

Salman : " like what? "

Shaikha : " I don't know walla ..

bas I want a name that I really like ..

it's my first son name! ..

I want it something speciaL! "

Salman : " we can name it mishary for my father's seak! .. ok? "

my heart sinke ..

and my blood start running so fast throw my face ..

I felt ennah 7ar! .. it's hot out here? isn't it?

I whispered : " wai3!.. no .. "

Salman : " it means nothing to me ..

and there's no hard feelings etha

samait weldi meshary .. "

Shaikha : " i know that .. but oh no!! .. I don't want .. "

Salman : " eser khair .. eser khair .. "

I closed my eyes ..

thinking about naming my baby mishary ..

NO WAY ..

I can't ..

I don't have the courage to call him " Mishary" with out thinking of

the reaL one ..

NO NO NOOOOOOOOO ..

that's cheap!

inshalla every time I called my son ..

I'll be thinking of someone else??

NO NO NO ..!!

that will take me back to the point zero ..

So , HELL NO!

54- [ Re-Love.. Him;*!]

[ Temanna oo walla la7liflik ..

la5alle il amani ya shougi tarketh lik;*]

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I stared as his mobile ..

I don't wanna open it ..

wela abi ashouf shay ..

khalas .. salamtah amre as they said ..

gumt atlaffat .. where's my mobile?

indian woman with the tray dashat my room ..

the woman ; " salam alaikom mama .. "

I smiled .. shut put il tray yamme ..

I start giggling .. mn ilfar7a a7is mako shay really funny

bas ay shay etha7ekni!

Shaikha : " can you give me ur mobile please? "

we both lafaina 3ala ildoor ..

kan fe '9eeL a7ad ..

I heard i laugh a3refha .. MOMAYAZA!

Fahad ; " guuuuuwa! "

I jumped mn mokane ; " aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ..

faaaaaaahooooood! .."

the indian woman start laughing 3alaina ..

a7is tgooL mu sa7en hathola wela shenu?

Shaikha : " thank you mama .. khalas i don't want your mobile .. "

she said something bil hendi oo meshat ..

Fahood kissed my head ..

Shaikha : " wainhom? "

Fahad at the same time : " salamat.. "

we both paused thuwane 3alshan nestaw3eb ..

I replied ; " allah esalmik .. "

he said ib the same time : " kahum yayen! "

we both start laughing so hard ..

Shaikha ; " waaaaay khalne at7acha

awaaaaL! ana ilmaretha! "

he smiled while looking deep into my eyes : " we need to talk .. "

I fake a smile : " really? why? "

fahad : " you should tell me why!! .. "

my heart start beating so fast ..

khift ..

7asait enna he'll bring mishary up ..

Shaikha : " what? "

Fahad ; " Shaikha I talked with the doctor .. galii ena you throwed up ..

yeah oo galli enna BLOOD! ..

shaikha i know you so well! .. shfech? shelli sayer

wana madre .. ?? "

my eyes winded .. sara7t bil window elli warah ..

I nodded : " nothing fahod .."

thagha6 3ala my hand : " are you sure? .. Shaikha ..

throwing blood wentay

7amiL shay kha6er .. oo tara kella 7alah nafseya!

entay mafech shay physically ..

kil elli fech nafse .. "

I smiled : " adre fahad .. I know .. "

Fahad whispered : " shfech? "

a tear eflitat menni .. makint abi abche ..

I wanna let it go ..

fahad raised his voice : " mad edaah 3alaich? "

I said ebsir3a : " NOOO! 7araaaaaaaam! "

fahad : " shelli sayer 3ayaL? "

Shaikha : " fahod magdar agolik .. "

Fahad: " ma tegderen wela ma tabeen?? "

I raised my eyebrows : " nafs ilshay! "

fahad : " entay emsaweya shay?

i put my hand 3ala wayhi :

" baaaaas fahad! ta7qeq? .. khalas please ..

adri ennek khayif 3alay walla .. oo adre enna whenever

a7tajik i'll find you there .. next to me ..

adre walla .. bas il mawtho3 khalas .. walla .. "

fahad took a deep breath : " laish a7isech etchathbeen?? "

I smiled : " walla la! .. mekhalif ensik il mawtho3 ..

oo etha sheftny still mu zaina after shahar enrid netkallam? .. "

fahad : " sim3ene .. ba36ech shahar .. walla ya shaikha

etha wath3ich still chethe ..

mara7 ag3ad oo atkallam! ghasbin 3alaich betgolili .. "

I giggled : " wayy yuma! 7allal mashakiL oo ezif ba3ad! "

fahad : " gelbay wayhich .. "

I start laughing : " mashallaaaa ya3ni zayerni etwanesny m3a ilwayh? "

*knock..*

mama : " ilsalam 3alaikoooom .. weeeeeee yuma! * sneef* "

fahad wegaf while laughing : " masra3 5araitay edmo3ch! "

my mom 6ageta 3ala chatfa : " ya kerhik! "

I giggled 3alaihum ..

ga3adna ensoolif ..

for about sa3a ..

mama : " wain salman? ma ta'akhar? "

ra3ast 3ala his mobile ashouf il sa3a ..

Shaikha : " ee walla ..

sarla foog ilsa3a oo nus! .. "

I called il bait min his mobile ..

Shaikha : " yuma ma7ad erid! "

fahad : " hatha mobile mno? "

Shaikha : " mobilah! "

fahad stared at me ..

7assaita faham hints ..

aw rakkab salfa ..

Shaikha : " uhwa .. uhwa .. nisah .. ehni .. "

fahad gave me a - i know ennich chathaba- smile!

fahad ; " ahha.! "

my mom : " ma et3arfen raqam a7ad mn rab3a? "

Shaikha : " wana sh3araffffne! .. "

my heart start beating ..

khuft ekon sayerlah shay ..

Shaikha : " fahad .. roo7 shufah .. wainah? "

fahad : " mobilah eb edich! shenu ma et3arfen arqam rab3ah! "

I let a nervous laugh out :

" hhehe .. abaih! madri m3a menu uhwa! "

my mom : " ma galich! "

I nodded : " embala .. bas nesit .. "

fahad : " akhaf ma yadre enich bil mostashfa! "

I stared at him : " chab fahad! "

my mom stared at fahad too ..

he's rude! maliq!

my mom : " la inshalla kahu yay aked bil 6erej .. "

I noded ; " eeh inshalla .. oo ba3dain he told me

ena ray7 il bait eyeb aghrath

oo eyebli food .. "

*knock* *knock* ..

my father ; " darb darb .. "

fahas whispered : " ekmalat! "

53- [ Re-Love .. Him;*!]

I took a shower ..

opened my laptop ..

and smiled ..,

my heart is beating so fast ..

Im so happy enny radait ..

yet , Im so lost deep deep inside .,

bas still .. H A P P Y ;*

.

.

Shaikha and Salman ..

I missed them so much ..

Shaikha's pregnancy , powerful soul , attractive

personality and her drama...!

I missed Salman's manly behavior ..

.

.

[ Lay meta oo ilwaqt thaye3

bain ams oo bain baker?

lay meta oo e7na metheL ma e7na ..

min awwaL youm .. fakir?? ]

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I half- passed out .. they layed me down

3ala one of the hospitaL beds ..

oo sert nus nayma nes ga3da .. elli so sleepy

and tired mu 7assa wayid billy 7oole ..

sema3t ildr. yelling 3ala salman ..

the dr. : " moooooove away!! .. please!! "

Salman voie start shaking :

" no .. no .. I can't .. She's .. She's my ..

my .. "

the dr. : " I know .. I know she's your wife .. but please! ..

move away..! let us do our work .. please mr. salman! "

Salman ; " NO! .. She's my everything! ..

I can't let her go chethe eb hal suhoola! "

I don't remember ayshay after the word " suhoola.."

i just remember some kind of rainbows! ..

small gray rabbet and um 3ali! ..

yeah! I saw few crazy things ..

for 10 mins yemkin .. as I though ..

.

.

I opened my eyes ..

oo 7assa ena rasy yethba7ne ..

i looked around ..

it seems like im in a hospitaL bed ..

Salman faz mn 3ala il chair ..

Salman whispering : " shaa..shaikha .. "

abi agolah anything .. mu gadra ..

a7es ilkalam ga3da agolah to my mind 3alashan

ye6la3 from my mouth ..

bas mako sot!! ..

he start tearing up .. ; " shaikha .. shaikha ana asef ..

ana madre shenu sarle .. ana .. I wanna start over .. oqsem bellah enna

makan qasde .. I was under a pressure .. kent mu gadir .."

i moved my hand toward his mouth ; " uush .. "

his eyes winded ..

it just broke my heart ..

I love him walla ..

I swear to god enny 7abaitah oo dakhaL galbi ..

for a moment ib my life ..

shefta as the man of my dreams ..

nesait about mishary and asma ..

nisait about everything ..

I just wanted to move on ..

abi a3esh .. ta3abt oo ana chethe ..

not living me life .. and not reaching my dreams!

Salman ; " shaikha .. ana meste3ed asawelich eli tabenah ..

walla if you wanna end it .. khalas walla asawe elli tabenah ..

bas walla .. I want you to know one thing .. Im sorry ..

walla il3athem Im .. "

I smiled ..

the dr. dashat il room ..

the dr. ; " ilsalam 3alaikom .. "

we both replied : " wa3alaikom ilsalam .. "

the dr. : " how are you now? "

I smiled ; " good .. sick shway .. bas im good .. "

se smiled while watching the screen next to me ..

the dr. ; " your baby is in a good health thanks god .."

Salman : " 7amdellaaah.! "

the dr. smiled ; " he's a baby boy .. "

i put my hand 3ala my belly ..

wazenah my baby boy ehni..?

the dr. : " shaikha you should take a good care of

your health the next few days ..

and your finale date after 3 weeks inshalla .. "

I smiled ; " inshalla .. "

Salman : " can you keep her ehni? "

I giggled ; " heheh .. laaa! maby .. "

they both giggled ..

the dr. : " she'll stay her for 3 or 4 days ..

and inshalla meta ma yah maw3ed ilwelada etyee tolad ..

bas you should take care of her .. "

Salman ; " shaikha be3yoooooni .. "

I blushed ..

sha5baryy salman egooli something nice ..

I forgot how it feels to be in love ..

I just "lived" with him ..

bil 7 monthes elli fataw we were

nothing close to couples!

ildr. e6la3at ..

Salman mesha waraha wasalha lay ilbab ..

then sakkah warah ..

ana 3addalt ga3deti shwayya ..,

Salman ga3ad 3ala 6araf ilbed yammi ..

while touching my hand softly ..

he whispered ; " khuft 3alaich .. "

enqamat galbe .. sij sij he hurt me wayid ..

bas still .. he's the father of my child ..

a7iss deep inside mu gadra asawey shay ..

mu gadra akrahha ..

actually .. I love him!

my eyes ghureqaw ..

refa3 his eyes ..

his cute small eyes ..

7asait men e3yoonah ena he really cares!

Salman : " ush .. la tabchen .. please .. "

I smiled while a tear enzalat mn 3aine ..

he kissed my cheek where the tear was ..

I moved my hands .. and hugged him ..

he hugged me back so softley ..

7asaitah broken .. as well as me ..

I hugged him so tight ..

and whispered : " I'm Sorry .. "

he replied while touching my shoulder ..

Salman ; " mo kethri .. "

Shaikha : " i did alot of wrong things ..

bada3t! .. you too right? .. khalas salman .. ta3abt ..

im done weya hal suwalif .. "

Salman : " let's start over .. shrayich? "

I smiled : " how? "

Salman : " ninsa .. mn hal degega ..

insawey delete 7ag kilshay sar .. oo we start over ..

let's start our family oo e7na happy .. it's our lives ..

mu homework we have to do bas 3alashan il mojtama3 ma egooL

3annah shay! .. shaikha we should forget to live .. khalas ..

3alashan elli bainah .. "

I nodded : " sa7 .. kalamik kellah right .. khalas .. "

6alla3 his mobile from his mokhbat ..

and gave it to me ..

I raised my eyebrowes : " shnu? laish? "

Salman : " keep it with you .. i'll go home ..

akhethli shower oo ayeblich ehdoom oo food ..

oo aye .. "

I closed my hand ; " no no .. salman .. laish? .. fashla!

take it weyak .. "

he smiled : " I wanna start over oo ana sure 100% ena

mako eb galbich shay 3alay .. wela eb yoom

mn ilayam edoor eb ur mind walaw shak enna

there's something eb 7ayati ghairech .. "

I blushed ; " 7abebe .. "

he kissed my cheek : " ubooy il 7abebe .. "

I giggled : " heheheh bas 3aaaaad .. "

he start laughing 3ala wayhe oo ana mesta7ya ..

aaaah ..

Im happy ..

do you hate me guys??

ilsalam 3alaikom ..

how are you guys?

i missed it out there wayid ..

Im sorry for closing my blog

bedoon ay kelma likom ..

allah ye3lam belli sarle ..

im so broken ..

it took me 2 monthes to be myself again ..

huh, mu myself wayid! bas well , 3adi ..

ana ta3bana guys ..