Dance like nobody's watching ..} ~

hi?

2011-02-28T22:33:00.001+03:00

hey..
they say bloggers have each others back.
sej hal kalam wela la?

48 }~

2010-09-06T07:14:00.002+03:00

I hesitated for seconds before saying: “Who’s this? “
….. : “ shfech kheftay? “
Shoug: “ Shako akhaf! For the last time .. Who’s this? “
…… : “ it’s me .. “
Shoug: “ and you are? “
…….. : “ shoug.. “
Shoug: “ tara law I’m now sure 100% ena you know me , chan ana saddeta mn ziman! .. and it’s rude to talk to someone with introducing ur self to him! “
Faisal: “ yuba ana Faisal .. “
I bite my lips nervously : “ ahlen! .. khair? “
Faisal: “ khair eb wayhich .. I told you .. “
Shoug: “ told me about what?! “
I waved for Nouf .. and went to the small garden out side ..
Bait mama taiba wayid looya oo ez3aj .. I couldn’t focus with him!

Faisal : “ eeh chethy a7san! Wain re7tay? Sar silent shway! Ilwa7id yegdar eratib afkara! “
My heart starts beating so fast ..
Shoug: “ What’s wrong with you? What do you want from me? “
Faisal: “ shoug shfeech allah ehadach etkalmene eb hal 6areqa? .. I told you .. I felt ena this is the right time to tell you about my feelings .. Shoug I told my mom enha etdawerli , oo kilmara agool ena I want to put you on my list .. I really like you .. bas gilt bel awwal enna I wanna talk to you .. ashof maytich .. ma aby a7rej omy oo a7rej nafse .. “
His words were heavy on me ..
It felt awkward because for seconds the idea of marrying Faisal “right now” .. was better than waiting for Faris to marry me after “ 9 years”!

Shoug: “ etshof mayte? “
Faisal: “ ee! Hatha elly kent bagoolah lich .. ana asef etha etesaly az3ejich aw thayegich .. bas I just wanted to make things clear for you .. aby akheth rayich gabel la akh6y ay kha6wa .. “
Shoug: “ Faisal enta tadry shkobry oo shkobrik? Ana shahar 6 hatha atkharaj mn ethanaweya .. enta 29! “
Faisal: “ bas I never felt ena there’s a Gap between us .. bel3aks shoug .. “
Shoug: “ e3therny Faisal .. bas you have been my brother since forever , wela 3omry eb 7ayate sheftik ghair hal perspective .. oo matwaga3 enny now ra7 aghayra .. “
Faisal: “ I understand that , oo already kent 7asib e7sab hal rad .. bas laish ma ta36eenna foursa? Laish ma nakhethlina laima tetkharejain .. about 6-7 months to know each other .. oo etha 7assaitay ena ma yesla7 .. ensik il mawthou3 oo kil wa7ed erou7 eb 6ereja .. “
Shoug: “ la shako! You are my cousin Faisal .. asfa .. mashof hal suwalif laha da3y .. e3therny ma wedy agoolik kelma baikha aw ajre7ik .. bas it’s not gonna work! “
Faisal : “ bas shoug .. ana fursa .. la etthay3enha mn edich .. hatha mu ghuror .. its logic Shoug .. think about it .. “
Shoug: “ I don’t wanna think about it .. “
I was going to tell him about Faris .. or at least ena I’m in love with someone!
Shoug: “ oo ba3dain bagoolik shaghla .. “
Faisal : “ amray? “

A Man put his hand on my shoulder and whispered into my ear : “ who’s this guy? “
I turned slowly while feeling dizzy, and losing my breaths from fear ..
I saw Jassim’s face staring furiously at me ..
I replied : “ it’s .. it’s .. a long story .. “
Faisal closed the line ..
Jassim: “ huh! Bema enna wild omah sad il kha6! Now tegderen etgolili el long story kelaha! “
Shoug: “ abaih jassim! don't get it wrong!! ya3ne mathalan I would cheat on Faris? “
Jassim: “ I would break ur face! “
I gasped!
Jassim: “ ee ee 7abebty! Mo etgolili cousins ma cousins .. uhwa abda 3alay menich eb million marra .. oo en kesartay galba walla la akser wayhich .. “
I smiled: “ 7adik amazing friend! Lucky Faris.. “
Jassim: “ Shoug yuba tara ana mo ga3id atghashmar weyach! I’m asking you 3alashan etjawbene mo 3alshan etthay3en il salfa! “
Shoug: “ shagolik? Getlik! It’s a long story .. aw eb ma3na thany .. it’s not worth telling! “
Jassim pulled a cigarette from his Red Marlboro cigarettes box and mumbled while lighting it : “ ta7achay! “

We sat on the bench , both a bit scared ..
Shoug: “ hatha Faisal Alx .. tathkera Faisal? He’s a Dr. Now .. Kober Nada my sis? Ekhta Hessa elly awal kent enta oo a7medo et6eqoonha? “
His face softened shway ..
Jassim: “ eeh? Shfeh? “
Shoug: “ kent mareetha before fatra 6oowela .. maybe 2 years .. uhwa kan el 6abeb oo he added me eb msn .. then I knew faris so I deleted him cause uhwa already 7annah! .. oo madry 3anah sarli looong time around a year now! .. dag egooli enah my mom eb takh6ebly oo aby ashoof etha entay etwafqen aw la .. 3alshan maby a7rej ahalna m3a ba3ath .. bas! “
Jassim: “ oo shako yetjarra’ oo yerfa3 ilsama3a 3alaich? Ella etha entay ma36eetah wayh! “
Shoug: “ agoolik ma adry 3anah min sena! “
Jassim: “ 7eta law! Shako yerfa3 il sama3a 3alaich ella uhwa em’ammen enich eb ta36enah wayh or at least mantay gayla 7ag a7ad oo eb tasketen enna ta7arsh feech! Sou’al entay mestansa 3al wath3 oo gazra 3alaih? “
I smiled: “ yanait jassom? 6ab3an La’! “
Jassim: “ 3a6eney his number! “
Shoug: “ shaaaaaaaku! Min sejik? E7qeera zain! “
Jassim: “ Shoug 3a6ene raqma la a6al3a ebrou7y! bas ana maby afthu7a oo asa’el 3annah bain ahalna! “
Shoug: “ jassom uhwa ma ta7arsh feeny! Uhwa bas sa’alny etha artha atzaweja aw la! Bas! 7aram il rayyal ma sawali shay 3alshan tetesel feeh! “
Jassim : “ Shoug! I was there mn laima geltay What’s wrong with you? What do you want from me! Oo sema3tch yoom geltay betshof mayte! “ ..

jassim’s voice start getting louder and louder ..

Jassim : “ SHESHOOOF MAYTECH? LAISH E7NA MO REYAYEEL 7OULICH? SHAYFECH SAHLA 3ALASHAN TAGZIR 3ALAICH? MO TARSEN 3AINA E7NA! “

Shoug: “ uuush jassim la etsarekh! Tokfa la teftha7na! “

Jassim: “ TARA ANA MIN YOOM NA6 3ALAINA EB FUDS WANA WEDDY ALETTA KAF! BAS SEKAT GILT YUMKIN ANA THALMAN! .. BAS E6LA3AT TAWAQOU3ATY SAAAAAAA7! BEGAZZERHA 3ALA AFA BANAT IL 3AILAAAAA IL AKH! “

Shoug: “ tekfa jassom la etsarekh! .. enta shako feeh? Khaal ewalli .. la et7er nafsek .. khalas al7een uhwa eb yetzawaj oo yensanee! “

Faris: “ menu elly eb yetzawaj oo yensach? “
… his voice came weak and shocked from behind ..
Jassim looked at him and called him to join us : “ come here yal 3a’9eed! “

Faris’s shocked and sad expressions slipped into our silence ..
Faris : “ reday 3alayyyy shoug! Meno hatha ely eb yetzawaj oo yensach? “
As soon as he sat next to me on the bench ..

I whispered : “ Faisal .. “
Faris: “ a6rebeeny .. “ he demanded.
Jassim said: “ ent mn sejik et3arf elsalfa mn elbedaya oo sakit lah? “
Faris : “ ee le’ana il 7abeeba 3a6eta wayh men il awal! Ma3any gilt laha tara eb yefhemch ghala6! Oo she lied to me oo thallat his friend madry 3alashan shenu! Madry shlagya feeh! Oo al7en yoom enha tewaheqat tabeny ma askit lah? .. ehya il ghal6ana! “
I asked in shocked way : “ ANA GHAL6ANA? “
Faris: “ aked enty il ghala6ana shoug! I told you alf marra ena la etkalmeena wentay ghasib betseren e7laiwa! Tara sa3at ilwa7ed yefham ench naïve! Oo hatha ely sar 3end ebn illathena faisal! “

Jassim said while scratching his eye browses : “ wala enk metfahem! Luw ana mokanik ya had’ha ya thabe7ha! “

Faris: “ e7saby ma3aha taly .. “

his voice faded as he asked me for Faisal’s number ..
Faris: “ cham raqma shoug? “
I started at him feeling numb and icy cold ..
Shoug: “ mmm .. 9xxx “
Faris: “ good! .. dishay dakhel yallah .. “

My nose turned red and my eyes start etching me so hard ..
I whispered : “ la tez3al 3alay .. “

He moved his head closer to my mouth ..
Faris: “ masma3 shetgolin? “

I kept whispering while struggling to get the words out of my mouth : “ la tez3al 7abebe .. ana mo qasdi .. “

Faris: “ dishay dakhel babe .. bard 3alaich ehne .. “
Shoug: “ give me ur loving smile awwal .. “
Faris: “ Shoug!!! Deshay .. Dakhel!!!! Now!!! “

I swallowed my tears and nodded ..
Shoug: “ inshallah .. “

47 }~

2010-09-04T23:47:00.003+03:00

Nouf eyes winded: “ abaih! Shfeek etsarekh!! “ ... She threw her cards and stood in front of Faris..
Nouf: “ shfek chethy em3asib? What’s wrong with you! “

Faris said while pointing at me : “ HATHY HATHY! “

Nouf calmed him down: “ had a3sabik! .. malik sheghel feeha .. ta3awath mn eblis .. set down .. “ .. she handed him her Pepsi : “ taby Pepsi? “

Faris said with his angry cute face : “ la ma7iba! A7ib coca cola! “

Nouf giggled while saying : “ hehe! faragha! .. what’s wrong with you guys? “ ..

Jassim turned my side: “ entay side bil hoosha oo ga3da 3al qanafa wetshofen il tv? “

I nodded : “ ee! I love grey’s anatomy! “

Faris : “ sheft sheft! Et7oooor! 3alaiha burooood yethba7 ilwa7ed! Ana akallemha ta7qerny oo tamshy 3alashan etshoof hal mosalsal il bayekh! “

I ignored his note .. and kept my head straight ..

A7med came out of the bathroom : “ shfekom? Shal esrakh? “

I mumbled: “ hathy hathy! E7qaratny oo meshat 3anny! “

Nouf : “ hush entay! “

I faced faris and said calmly: “ gabel la etgoolihoum enny meshait 3annk! Gollihum the reason! Mo et6alle3ny bil shaina! “

Faris: “ the reason enna I wana do my masters! Oo eny abeelina il zain oo ena I don’t wanna marry you wana lel7en ma 3endy masdar dakhel khas feeny! Ya3ni barou7 atsalaf men ahaly mathalan? Wela tabene awadeech ma3ay USA oo teg3eden bil sheqa mjabla il 6waf? Ana 7etta ilsheqa saken m3a jassom! “

Shoug: “ enta mataby! Luw enta taby chan legaitlek alf 7al .. “

Faris: “ shenu ma aby? Kahu jassom ga3id oo yeshhad 3ala kalamy! E7na endawim bil jam3a laima il 7 ilmagharb enrid malna khelq en6ali3 b3ath! Enam lay il fayer wela enrou7 7ag rabe3na across the street .. ya3ne luw bawadeech weyay America betjableen il 6waf mara7 ajablich ana! Oo ba3dain I don’t have my own source of money shoug! Shloon ya3ne? aboog? “

I wasn’t sure how to deal with this yet ..
Do I wanna wait for him? Or I wanna let him go le’ana I don’t wanna wait?

All my cousins remain silent and was blown away with his mature words ..
I felt tinny and selfish ..
so i started defining my self...

Shoug: “ Faris, it have been 2 years … shloon tabene asber izyada 7 years? .. I didn’t say enna I wanna go with you al7een! Bas kil il fight kan 3ala salfat il masters! Oo salfat choosing the elections over me! “

Faris: “ ana laish bakammel my masters? Ma etgolili 7ag menu? “

Shoug: “ 7ag nafsek! “

Faris: “ hell no! .. fe wa7id yestanis ena yadris ezyada 2 years? .. I wanna be something important .. and to have wealth .. a3ayshech methel ma entay now eb bait ahalich .. Shoug ana many ma5thich oo embahthelich! Aby akoon awayh! I don’t want you to take care of ur self oo kil wa7ed yeshteghel oo edabber nafsa! I wanna marry you to take care of you and to give you the life you have always wanted .. “

Nouf said while tearing up: “ awwwwwww! 7abebeeeeeeee! “

I gave her a death stare: “ A7ad kalemach? “

A7med said: “ shogo awal marra ashofch chethy sharaneya! 6ool 3oumrich e7alaiwa oo sam7a! shfech? “

I whispered: “ faris .. can you come out side? “

Fa6ma yelled: “ LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAISH? “

Nouf added: “ EB NESMA3!!! “

Jassim: “ ekhss 3alaik ya faros! 6ala3t etsaffif 7achy wana madry! “

I blushed : “ melaqeeeeeeeef! “

We got out of the tinny living room .. and headed to the big guest hall ..
The hall was big with a large wooden door ..
Faris looked so sad to me ,

I touched his soft hairy hand while whispering : “ what are thinking about 7abebe? “

He said while staring direct to the door : “ I don’t know how to deal with this Shoug .. I really love you .. akthar mn ay shay bil denya .. bas I don’t want to do anything I know ena I will regret doing it later .. “

Shoug: “ like what 7ayate? “

Faris: “ you left me with no choice! I have to marry you now wela break up with you! And I don’t want wela wa7ed men hal 2 options! “

Shoug: “ menu gal ena I want you to marry me now? .. ana getlik laima safart ena I will wait for you .. bas ma etefaqna 3ala masters Faris! Ma etefaqna enna il 5 years aseroon 7 .. ma etefaqna 3ala il elections .. I’m only asking you to stick to your promise! Enta getly betkhalis jam3a oo netzawaj! Khalas! Laish etghayyer rayik now? “

Faris: “ I don’t know how to explain it in a way that you would understand Shoug! Wala a7issch mo ga3da tesme3eeny! .. ana abeelina il zain .. I don’t wanna settle for good! I’m searching for perfection! “

My soul smiled ..
Shoug: “ I love you. “
Faris: “ I love you more .. khalas? “
I whispered: “ masters? No! “
Faris pulled me closer to him, to the point that our noses almost touched..
My eyes winded .. any my knees starts shivering ..
He looked direct into my eyes .. : “ I know you will be ok .. “
Shoug: “ you apparently would never change your mind! “
Faris laughed in a gorgeous way .. that sent weird feelings to my stomach ..

Faris: “ I will think about it .. bas for now? No I will not change my mind .. “

I closed my eyes for seconds .. and whispered: “fine, kaifek .. “

Nouf knocked on the door : “ ya ilrabe3! Tara khalaty kilhoum yaw! 6el3aw malna kholq fethaye7 oo suwalif! “

I smiled: “ yalah! Emshaw enrou7lihom .. “

Faris: “ ana barou7 duwaneyat wa7id mn ilrabe3! Ehny bil mansoreya .. “

I nodded .. : “ ok! Have fun .. “

The second we disappeared behind the big wooden door ..
Nouf whispered : “ abaih! Shfeeh wayhich chethy makh6oof? “

I whispered back: “ I let my dreams away nouf .. I just did .. “

Nouf was about to say something when my mobile rang with a strange number ..

Shoug: “ meno hal raqam? Et3arfeena? 9xxx? “

Nouf: “ no! “

I picked it up .. : “ alo? “

A man voice came from the other side ..
…………. : “ I know that I let you down and disappeared .. but , it’s the right time to tell you ..”
Shoug: “ to tell me what? Who’s this aslan! “
……..: “ I love you. “

46 }~

2010-09-03T07:07:00.007+03:00

I entered The House .. wela my mother eb wayhe ..

my mom: " yetay? "

I took few steps to the back : " besmelah! masheftich! "

my mom: " Garrat 3ainch! "

I gave her a half smile: " eb wayh nebeyich .. I guess .. "

my mom : " Shoug .. can you set down please! "

I nodded : " Sure! "

I sat on our dark navy coach .. waiting for my mother to say whatever she wants ..

my mom: " Shoug ya yuma .. ana ma anam ellail mn kither em7ataty 3alaich! enty shga3id etswen? shely edoor eb rasich? .. Shoug we used to be friends .. al7en i set next to you wela adry shely eb kha6rich wela shetfakreen feeh! ana salfat weld khaltich hathy kelaha mu yayzatli .. walla eny ad3ey lail nahar enna allah yaster mn ely betsawounah! Shoug ana many mesti3eda akhser ekhty 3alaikom! mo laima eser 3omry 45 years etyeen entay oo bazir thany ma ta3adaitaw il 20 etfarqon bainy oo bain akhayte! "

tears started rolling on her cheeks...

I said while playing with my fingers ..
Shoug: " yuma! laish ma etgooleen ena we will bring you guys even closer? laish etshofen il bad side? .. etha ana oo faris get married mara7 etseren closer to khalty ghada? .. if I were in your place shay 6abe3e ra7 a7aty benti oo a7aty ekhti oo a7aty wild ekhti .. bas still mom! I would never break my daughter's heart bil 6areqa elly you sawaiteha feny .. mara7 agis feeha il7abel oo akhaleeha etwally the way you did!! "

mom: " ana?? .. Shoug entay 7azzat'ha makintay eb wa3yech! low gayyelich emshay netzawaj Now oo asafer adris kentay betwafqen!! "

Tears started rolling on my cheeks too ..
this Conversation re-called every bad memory back to my head..

Shoug: " la! kil elly kent abeh mench ena etgolili go ahead! aw 3ala ilaqal etsawen rou7ch ma tadren! like the rest of mothers! ya3ne now kel elly e7ebon ba3ath ahalhoum ma yadron? laaa 50% il mother tadry oo etsawey rou7ha mo fahma! for the seak of her daughters emotions mom! "

mom: " entay maynona?? tabene adry oo askit oo akel eb nafsy oo an6erich ta3fesen ildenya eb kaifech? "
She Shook my shoulders gently ..
mom : " WAKE UP SHOUG!! THIS IS KUWAIT!! "

Shoug: " I know youmma!! for that .... "

it took me seconds to choose beautiful lies rather than the ugly truth ..

Shoug: " mama I told you before ena I left him for ur sake .. and nothing gonna change that! khalas! we are cousins all over again .. oo aslan going to the US. ghayyerta wayid! .. shakhbari ana ib his life? .. it was a crush oo entaha .. aslan we will gather kelena eb bait mama Taiba at night oo Today bil Airport kelman kan yay! .. so .. cousins! nothing more or less! just the way you want things to be .. "

she looked direct into my sharp eyes : " AKED? "

I nodded and kissed her head : " akeed .. I promise! "

I walked to my room ..
and faced things by .. sleeping!

I opened my eye around 8:30pm
without any msg or call from Faris!

I called him ..

Shoug: " aloo! "

Faris with his heavy sleepy voice : " hmmm? "

Shoug: " are u sleeping? "

Faris: " emmm .. "

Shoug: " it's 8:30! betrou7 bait mama Taiba? yalla wake up! "

Faris: " 8:30 PM wella AM? "

I giggled: " hehe 7abebe magloob rasek! .. la PM! mo gelna we will have dinner there? "

he yawned while saying: " aaaaaa! eeeee sa7! yala yala ok .. al7een agoom akhethli shower oo ayekom! "

I smiled while syaing: " yalla good! me too .. "

I texted bajy il cousins saying ena we will meet at 9pm at mama Taiba's.

I took A Shower ..
wore my favorite DG navy dress with big gold buttons..
dried my hair with less than 10 mins..
applied eyeliner to define my eyes,

I took a peek at my mobile screen!
and mummbled while dyling Nouf's Number ..
" uuuuugh! shit! as always! .. "

her greets cut my thoughts ..

Nouf: " Hallaaaaa .. where are yooooou! "

Shoug: " Geez! madry laish I'm always late!! "

Nouf: " that's Ok! it's 9:30! mo wayd ta'akhartay as usual! "

Shoug: " haha! funny! .. is everyone here? "

Nouf : " yup! yala yala come! we're playing Kout .. have to go! a7is ga3id egheshon! bye! "

I headed to mama Taiba's house ..
and Found All my Cousins cars out side ..
I dialled Faris's Number ..
madry laish yali shu3oor ina he got back to sleep!

I said while entering the House's big black gate ..
" PERFECT!! "

The Minute I said that ..
I Spotted a tall man Shadow between the palm trees ..

I whispered : " Raju? is that you? "

The man moved his hand slowly ..
and his hand pulled me between the big tall palms trees..

I grapped his shoulder , As I gasped with fear ..

Faris: " buuuuuh! "

I whispered : " Oh My God! " while holding his shoulders so tight .. : " khoft! .. galby bagha yougaf! "

Faris start laughing : " heheh! 7araaam! 6a3 wayhich! enkha6af lounech! "

Shoug: " maytha7ik .. you scared me! "

he Smiled while hugging me close to his heart..
the way he loved me .. just filled my body with confidence,intemacy and secure from bottom to top ..

I whispered while hugging him back ..
Shoug : " I missed you so much! "

he pulled me closer : " I missed you akthar! "

Shoug: " don't go back .. "

Faris: " bil 3aks .. 3ala il 6ary , I wanna talk to you about something .. "

I pulled my body back .. and rubbed my forehead.
the way he's looking at me!

Shoug: "It was going to be a long night? "

he kept his flirting Smile on his face while saying: " I wanna do my masters before getting married shougi .. I wanna be something important laima atqadamlich .. I .. "

i cut him off : " wait a second! are you saying that it's gonna be 6 years instead of 4 ? "

Faris: " Actually its 7 instead of 5! "

I frowned while saying: " you are not serious faris! "

Faris: " Imbala I'm! .. Shoug I wanna be perfect laima ayelich .. ma abdy 7ayate with you! I wanna build everything then etzawejich ekoon everything is perfect 100%! "

Shoug: " It's our life! not yours only! I wanna build our nest with you! .. laish ag3ad an6er extra 2 years 3ala mako salfa? 3ala masters! Common! .. fe nas may7eboon ba3ath wila shay oo yetzawajha wesafer ekammel his masters! "

Faris: " I know that Shoug .. bas listen to me .. "

Shoug: " La! you listen to me! .. I just lied to my mom! oo if I tell her the truth she'll kill me! mo 3alshan etyeeli etgooli wait for extra 2 years 3alashan etkammel ur masters! "

I took a deep breath while wondering : " men wain e6la3at salfat il Masters asasan!! "

Faris: " well, I don't wanna give up! I have big dreams for me ebrou7y oo dreams for us .. and I'm not going to throw that away bas 3alshan you don't wanna wait for two years zyada! .. Shoug I want the best for us .. " he shrugged .. : " 7awlay tefhemeene .. "

Shoug: " maby 7etan a7awel!! Faris! it have been 2 years since we are together! oo tabene an6er ba3ad 7 years? .. I will be .. " I start counting in my head ..

Faris: " 24 years old! "

Shoug : " that's too much faris .. "

Faris: " I'm getting into elections 7abebeti .. And that may effect my grades .. etha mayebt the grade I want oo ely ekhalene akammel Masters .. khalas .. I wont .. "

Shoug : " ya3ni al7een you will easily cancel your Masters oo dreams 3ala gooltik 3alshan il elections , oo yoom kanat rada 3alay kint betkammel ur masters? ya3ni il elections aham meny? "

Faris: " La! ana ma gilt chethy! bas my GPA mo ana eb kaifi akhtarah .. etha nezal .. shay aked mara7 agdar akammel! "

Shoug: " So ma3natah getting your Masters is no that important to you! "

Faris: " Embala it is! "

Shoug: " bas you would let it go 3alashan kha6ir el elections? "

Faris: " mo 3alashan kha6ir il elections! .. 3alashan etha la sama7 allah nezal mo3adeli fa aked mara7 yaqbeloone! "

I gave him a cold look while saying : " I was imagining this moment for months Faris .. atkhayyal laima etrid il Kuwait .. laima ashofik oo ag3ad weyak .. I gave you two years from my life , I just cant give anymore! I need this to be perfect or at least serious! .. mo etkhalli elections tet7akkam feena! asasan mn meta you vote 3alshan teshtegheel bel elections! "

Faris: " Someone have to lead our relationship .. "

Shoug: " ok? .. tathker bait mama Taiba gabel la etsafer eb one day? .. I Cried while asking you to marry me gabel la etsafer oo enrou7 together! .. Now, a7is sa7 kalamik 7azzat'ha ena we were kids .. bas after 5 years! I will turn 22 and you'll be 25! ya3ni mo yahal wela 7etan esghar faris! .. be the leader of our relationship .. bas now you are not! .. our leader is your stupid election! "

I said that while walking toward the main door to get inside the House ..

Faris: " come back Shoug!! "

Shoug: " Forget about this! il sharha 3alay wagfa oo sam3etik! "

I entered the Small living room while saying : " Hey all! "

A7med said: " kil hatha bil 6erej! il sa3a 11!! "

Faris entered and he immediately start yelling at me : " ANA LAMA AKALMICH MA TA7QERENI OO TAMSHEN! "

45}~

2010-08-25T05:17:00.006+03:00

I woke up at 10am with the biggest smile on my face!
i would laugh loudly without a reason!
I'm just Happy .. Over the clouds .. thrilled ..

I Called Nouf ..

Shoug: " shrayich etyebele breakfast 3ala ma I take a Shower?"

Nouf: " saba7aaaaaaaaak waaaaaard oo yasmeeeeeeeen ya 3areeeeees! heheheheeeee! .. abaaih mn ziman ma tha7akt hal kither! "

Shoug: "shetha7ik? al7een ur not laughing!"

Nouf: " hehe la I'm giggling Now .. bas adry bath7ak wayid ilyoom! "

Shoug: " waaaaay Noufuu la et6afrene!! yebeeli breakfast oo ta3alay ensoolif shwaya .. ewseltich Msg a7medo? "

Nouf: " ee adry adry eb yousloon at 2 pm .. cham ilsa3a now?

I clicked on my mobile 3alashan eshib oo ashof ilsa3a ..
Shoug: " 10:27am .."

Nouf: " of of! we are late! heheheheh! "

Shoug: " walaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaain! Noufoooooooooooo! "

Nouf: " hahahaaa! wayyyyy .. na63a na63a a7ibch .. yalla take a bath tefarrekay eb thamer ma awaseech hehehe .. "

Shoug: " hehehehe gelbay wayhich .. bye! "

I went to the bathroom ..
and took a deep- long bath ..
The smell of the fresh strawberry scrub on my skin
makes me miss him even more .. makes me want the time to move faster and faster ..

Nouf Knocked on the door gently ..

Nouf: " yallah ya jameeeeeeeeeel! "

I was busy with singing and drawing hearts on the bathroom misty mirror ..

Shoug: " eskiiiiiiiiiin be3aaaaainy oo shoooooooof weshkobraha denyaaaaaaaaaaaak! "

Nouf yelled: " la etghaaaaaaanin bel 7amam! tara edish feech yenneeeeee! "

i giggled : " lat7ateen fe yenni eb dary ma yat 3ala il bathroom .."

Nouf: " etnakteen weya wayhich? yala open the door! khalastay ur bath! "

I got out of the bathroom and layed on the bed next to her ..

Shoug: " what Should I wear ? "

Nouf: " hmmmmm .. dont dress up too much ely eser shaklich ghala6! tara ana barou7 chethy .. bas ba7e6 make-up mench .. "

I took a look at her clothes .. it was a tight Zara white body oo foga leather and slim black silhouette finished with a tidy belt that fits perfectly with her dark skinny jeans and her slik ponytail ..

Shoug: " shaklich casual 3ala elegant 3ala shay latheth .. "

She smiled: " latheth ha? .. gomay gomay la takleeny al7een .. kahu our breakfast .. "

there was a small mcdonalds bag filled with hash brown potatoes , panckaes and Orange juices..

Shoug: "aaaaaaw!!! I'm starving!! "
I pulled the bag and but it on my lab ..
and starts eating ..

Nouf while drinking her orage juice : " yalah fakray shtalbeseeen!! "

Shoug: " I dunno! Should I wear make- up Noufo? wela akhaf egool hathy safart ehny ehya yannat ehnak! .. Should I wear something cute wella something attractive? .. Shasawey eb my hair? .. uuugh! "

Nouf: " balashnaaa Faris .. low mo rad mo a7san? "

Shoug: " hehehe la mo a7san! "

Nouf: " 7abebe jassom laish naseen enna he will be back too .. "

I rolled my eyes : " khaywalle zain! ana shalbis now? "

Nouf giggled : " heheh maskeen! masraaaaa3 ma rakhaaaas! masraaaaa3 elly lega a7baba nesaa his cousins shoougoooo! "

Shoug: " hehehe! la la 7aram I miss him so much .. bas shyab lay yab! "

I threw the little paper bag .. and ran to my closet ..

Shoug: " SHALLLLLLLLLLLLBIS??????? ilbadla il7elwa etyee jedam please! "

Nouf: " heheheheeeeeee! 7elwaaaaaaaaaaa! I guess the Blue One jaddemat shway? "

Shoug: " hehehe! waaaay! shfeeeene? a7is wela dress wela jeans wela shay 7eloo 3alay! kilshay hooola! "

Nouf pulled a Dropped, Ruffle in one side dress with tinny white, navy and baby blue Flowers and butterflies .. it was a flirty silk dress that fits me like a glove!

Shoug: " ee hatha a7iba .. enzain oo shasawey eb sha3re? "

Nouf: " wavy .. oo pull one side to the back oo 7e6ay hathoola .. "
She handed me my cream swarovski pearl hair tinny accessori..

Shoug: " channa shakli beser mn il 6o's? "

Nouf: " which is elegant .. nice .. and breath taking! "

Shoug: " Noufo! I should hire you as my stylist! "

Nouf: " heheheh! 3adyy a3arf shu3oor laima tabeen shaklich 7elo oo etkhafeen etshedden 7ailch fa you missed up! .. yala yala lebsay oo make up oo make your hair! tara it's 12:30!!! "

I panicked and starts running all over the room : " yalah yalah!! "

after One hour I was Done with my hair and make up ..
I applied light brown eye shadow with a thin Liquid eye-liner oo alot of mascara , with light dirty pink lipstick... grabbed my white classic chanel bag and wore silver heels ..

Shoug: " abaih abaih! shakli khabba il mekhtabba? "

Nouf giggled while pushing me to the door : " hehehe laaa shako! shaklich cutie .. mn ziman ma sheftch chethy dressed up .. "

Shoug: " a7is enha masabba bas ba6awefha lich .. "

Nouf: " shway mad7a .. shway massaba! heheh .. yallaaaaaah let's go! tara ilsa3a 1:45!! "

I texted fatema And A7med on the way to Kuwait Airport ..

To: Tooma,Ahmed
" Me oo Nouf heading to The Airport .. betyoon , Right? "

From: Ahmed
" Im in Starbucks .. an6erkom! ;) "

From: Toome
" SHIT! TAWNY EMBA6LA E3YOOOOONE!! YAMDEEEEEE? "

I smiled : " waaaaay fa66ooma tawha ga3da mn ilnoom! dayman hal bint barda? "

Nouf giggled : " Ice box! "

To: Tooma
" matwagga3 yamdech!;* .. come to bait mama Taiba at Night .. I guess benteyama3 there .. ashof shneteffg 3alaih o agolich! ;* "

From: Tooma
" Ok .. garat 3ainch Love! ;) hahaha! Im so happy for you guys! *HUGS!* "

I smiled ..
It touched me how everyone is happy for us ..

To: Tooma
" I LOVE YOU! xx "

Nouf: " yala sabboo7a wesalna! "

I Smiled nervously : " akrah when you call me names! sabboo7a .. fattoosha .. na3no3a .. ma6yoooraa! shal halaqa? "

She hugged me from the side : " adryy enna galbch wegaf ella shwayya! fa gilt I should use you and call you my halaqa names cause adry mafeech etreden 3alay .. sa777 zaghlooola? "

I giggled : " waaaaaaaaaaaayy! gezeeyya walla! "

we went to A7med in Starbucks ..
he was setting next the window ..

A7med : " yaaaa ahleeeeeen! "

Nouf: " hala .. "

Shoug: " a7medo! embayen mn e3younik bete6enaz! say it yala tefathal ethgha6ne! "

A7med: " hahhaaaaaay! wathe7 wayid? .. shda3wa chethy sakba?"

I said wile pulling the chair to set down .. : " ana sakba? 7ady la! 3ady! its a dress from Topshop yal 7abeb! "

A7med: " yal 7abeb ha? heheh mashyyyyy! .. shakelkoom mn be3eed! entay oo ur tight dress oo hathy oo her leather jacket chankoom Booya oo her lady! heheheheh! "

Nouf gasped : " ANA BOOOOOOOOOYAAAAAA YA 7MAR? "

I start laughing so loud: " heheheheeeee! I'm Ok with being her Lady! "

Nouf: " wallaaaaaaah enkk qalel adaaaaaaaab! they call this Leather jacket elly 6aye7 mn 3aink .. FASHION!! oo ba3dain ana labsa ta7ta tight body oo ba3dain my jeans skinny oo im wearing heels yal 3amayyyyyy oo aslan aslan matshoof il make up ib my face?? oo matshoof my ponytail 6ool wayhik???? qaleeeeeeel adaaaaaaaaaaaaab! "

A7med felt emparresed : " of of of ! shda3wa? ga3ed etghashmar! asef yuba 7aggich 3alay! shaklich 3ajeeb! e6ayyer il3aqel .. bas la et3asbeen! .. yalah yala sheno tabeen drink? ana 3azmch! "

Nouf mummbled while looking to the gate : " maby menk shay! "

A7med pushed her shoulder : " yala 3ad Noufa .. getlich asef! shda3wa! ooooooooooh 3ad al7een ilbanat degeega yez3elon oo sena kamla 3ala ma yerthoon! "

Nouf : " eskit a7medo! ur rude! and its not funny! "

A7med: " sa7 kalamch! I'm rude oo ma aste7y 3ala wayhi .. aslan bainy oo bainch ana yoom sheftkom yayeen 3ala baly entay yaya ebrou7ch .. "

Nouf gave him a look : " laish ya3ne? Shoug kanat yame! ba3aaaaaaaad gool ana amtan menha? "

A7med giggled : " hehe laaaa! bas sakka 3alaiah 3adel! elly eshofkom together ma ela7eth enha mawjouda! .. " he winks to her with the sweetest smile on his face ..

Shoug: "7ARAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM!! "

Nouf smiled : " heheh that was nice .. yallahh gooum yeebli caramel moca frap .. "

A7med: " gamay zain .. 3ayzan! "

his mobile rang ..

A7med : " HALAAAAAAAAAAA BIL 7ABEEEEEEEEEEEEBBBBBB .. "

his voice was clear from A7med's loud phone ..

Faris : " Halaaaaaaa oo Ghalaaaaaaaa .. "

A7med: " 7amdellah 3ala ilsalamaaaaaa .. ha wainkom? "

Faris : " allah esalmik .. kannah nan6er il bags .. bas khoft ennk nesaitna gilt adeg athakrik ta5ethna .. khobrik ana oo hally yamme ahalna emsafreen! malna waaaly"

A7med: " La afa 3alaik! ana na6erkoom mn zeman eb Starbucks .. la oo yayeb m3ay Banat ba3ad! "

Fairs let a pure laugh out : " heheh! la la mashkoor sheba3na banat eb america! .. yalah bo shehab .. 3a6na 10 mins oo ne6la3 .. "

I whispered to Nouf : " sheba3na banat? wala mo kafo a7ad eyeelna oo yekshakhlaaa hatha!! "

Nouf giggled : "7achy fathy! malich shoghol feeh! .. aslan 7aram! ma sa'al 7atta who's the girls are! ma 3a6ah il mawtho3 ahameya! "

A7med: " shetesasarooon? entaw ilbanat kella 7ash? "

Shoug: " Nothing!! yallah meta eb ye6le3yoon? malaina! it's 2:39!! "

A7med: " gally mins oo 6al3en! ga3ed ya5thoon ilbags .. "

I felt so excited ..
I felt my heart dancing ..
It have been almost 6 monthes since the last time I saw him ..

Nouf yelled: " KAAAAAAAAAAHUM!!!!! "

I closed my eyes for Seconds ..
and took a deep breath ..

Shoug: " where? "

I met his wide light borwn eyes ..
the Minute I turned me face ..
he smiled gently and waved to us ..
he looked breath taking with a white and gray t-shirt and navy training pant, that fits his cute yellow crocs..
we got up and headed to them ..
my hips were numb ..
my stomach e6alle3 weird sounds ..
i felt weak .. yet happy! very happy ..

we went to the front door of the Airport ..

A7med hugged them so tight while saying : " welcomeeee bacccck shabaaaab .. " , " halaaaa bo 7ammoddddddd .. "

Nouf Shook their hands : " Hala jassom .. welcome back .. matnaaaaaaan yal khayiiiisssss .. miss yoooou so much! ", " faaaaaaaaris!!!! ahlaaaaaan ahlaaaaaan! the Gofel!! looks so cute on your face! missssed you guys! "

I shook Jassim's Hand while saying: " 7amdellah 3al salamah .. welcome back .. "
Jassim: " allah esalmcccch! wallllhaanen 3alaiiiiiiiikom! walah likom wa7sha .. "
I let jassim's Hand ..

And shook faris's Hand ..
The minute he touched mine ..
i felt like my heart on his hands ..
it brought chills and goose bumps all over my body..

I whispered ..
Shoug : " Missed you! "

Faris : " Missed you More .. "
he pulled me closer to him ..

Faris : " ta3alay ta3alay here .. next to me .. "

I was blushing so hard ..
I wish it was okay to hug him tight infront of them ..

Nouf kept talking with A7med& Jassim ..
to give me some privacy ..
they start walking infront of us ..
while we were following 3ala burood oo tetenni7 ..
hand by hand ..

he pulled my hand and smelled it while kissing it : " walaaaaaaht 3alaaaaich! "

I blushed even harder: " I can barely walk .. "

he giggled: " hehe whyyyy? "

I whispered : " I dunno! "

Faris: " you're blushing! .. teste7een menny mathalan? "

i looked at the floor: " shway .. I forgot how good it feels having you around .. "

Faris pulled his hand and bite it: " akhaaaaaaaaaih law agdar akhme6ech al7een bil airport! "

i giggled : " heheheh .. I dont believe it .. its you! finally here .. next to me .. "

Faris Smiled : " out of sight but never out of mind! mo ghelna chethy? "

I smiled back : " right .. oh god!! tara I hardly recognised you! .. The gofel! wayhik ghair! "

he gave me a look : " you hardly recognised me?? intay sheftay your eyes shloon talama3aw yoom sheftene? "

I giggled: " hehehe Thiiiiiiiiga! "

he gave me a dazzling look : " talama3aw wela ma talama3aw? "

I nodded : " talama3aw .. "

Nouf came out of no where ..
Nouf : " Love birds .. emshay entay weyay .. oo enta ethlif with il guys yallah! .. later on shofaw ba3ath .. "

I mummbled : " uffffffff! etyeen intay eb awqat malha da3yyyy! "

Faris gave her a look : " kellah bil waqt il thaye3 hathy! "

Nouf pulled me from my hand : " yala 7abebty ashouf emshay .. oo enta 7abebe ethany rou7 7ag a7medo oo jassim yallah .. oo bainkom phone etafqaw meta betshofon ba3ath .. "

I said while Nouf pulling me to her car: " bait mama 6aiba at 10pm? "

Faris nodded : " mama 6aiba it is .. ''

I waved to him ..

Faris waved back while saying " I love you" in the air ..

i giggled ..

Nouf: " shethaaaaa7ek? "

I whispered : " I love you .. "

Nouf: " Ladies and Gentlemen, The Bride and The Groom "

I pulled my hand while laughing : " heheheh waaaaaaaay bas heddeeeeeniiii! wesalna ur caaaaaar!! 3awartay eedi! "

Nouf: " entaaaaay! shefteeeh tesabahtaaaaaaaaay! look at that big wacky goofy smile on your face!"

I opened the car mirror ..
it was exactly the way she described it ..

I mummbled : " yeah! it's the happy goofy smile time babe! he will be here for 1 month only! and I wanna enjoy it to the max. "

Nouf turn on the radio ..

" 6ayir mn 3eyooni il nooom .. 3ala tha il 7al ana kil yoom .. samma3ny 7abebe ilsout .. oo sayyerni 3ala kaifeek .. sayyerniii 3ala kaifek .. "

I yelled : " we7shaaaaaaaaaatny suwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalifkkkkkkk! "

*BEEP*

From: Faris;*
" Back To my Kuwaiti Number! :D .. 103.7 asaaaaaap!;* "

I smiled ..

To: Faris;*
" Welcome Home 7abebe;* .. Im listening! ;* .. kil laila ma3a 6aifek 7abebe il rou7 ana at7assar!;( we7ashaaaaaaaaaaatny suwalifkkkk;'******** "

44}~

2010-08-21T04:07:00.005+03:00

Mad about Saher El lail!! <3

**NOUF**

my body starts shivering so hard ...

Nouf: " abbaih fajoor ba6ny gam e3awerny mn il akel!! "

Fajer: " faj'a Noufo? ma kalaitay 7etan nus ur sandwich! haaa etsaween diet oo gassa 3alay etwakleene ebrou7yyy? hehehe"

Nouf : " i have to go to the Bathroom Fajor .. aw il6abeb! i dont know .. "
I maneged to say that while walking toward the bathroom ..
I sat shocked 3ala il toilet seat ..

" omg! they said cheating can be devastating on many levels!!! .. wait Nouf , who cheated on who? bader! he's the Cheator!! .. am I the Other woman? oh my god! I'm! I'm the Other cheap Home wrecker!! .. Im so afraid! abaih wain barou7 men her Karma? i was going to break her house down .. who is she asasan? .. atwagga3 enha jaikara! low 7elwa chan ma 6ala3 banat thanen .. shit Nouf! stop thinking about her .. fakray eb nafsech .. fakray belly sawaiteeh .. bas i didnt know ena he's married! Louw kint adry ma 3oumry 7abaitah wela ne6arta ekha6ebny .. Louw Kint adry ma 7alamt eb e3yalna lail nahar .. ma ga3adt day dreaming about our honeymoon kil hal modda .. what should i do? .. ya rabi .. what should I do? "

Fajer knocking on the door : " NOUFFFFF!!!! 7ABEBTYYYYY! SHFEEECH? "

the emotional ramifications was extra tough on me! i couldn't cry ..
because i couldn't understand what just happend to me!!

Nouf : " hala fajer! " i opened the bathroom door .. : " la etkhafen! mafene shay! bas ba6ny agoolich e3awerny ethahher kalait ebsir3a .. "

fajer : "Noufa!!!!! wayhich asfaaaaar makh6ouf ekharre3!!! .. reday ilbait ray7ay oo netrayyag yoom thany .. "

I nodded : " eee walla fajoor .. sorry .. bas ekoun a7san .. "

she kissed my cheeks and walked away .. leaving me with my thoughts about Bader and my one side -i guess- love story ..

all the way back home .. i was tearing silently .. bedoon wela kelma .. my head was full with a white flash .. not a signle idea aw thought .. sar7ana bil share3 .. bil nas .. bil byoot .. sar7ana eb nafsy oo 7aly .. sar7ana ..

5 days passed .

with me having a bad flu ..
et3arfoon laima egoloon (e6la3at 3alaiha il7arra?)
i was so broken from deep inside .. me7tarra oo menqahra ..
bas i couldn't sleep .. because i felt guilty le'ana I'm the other woman!
yet, i felt betraid!
i just felt so cheap , unfaithful and stupid!
oo I couldn't tell anyone .. even Shoug .. i couldn't tell my bestfriend about what happend to me ..

I called him .. I had to shut things down .. lazim asek ilsalfa ..
i felt enna the Karma wouldn't let me live my life!
a7iiss 7obat morta mara7 tet3addany!
oo ba3dain he wasnt gonna marry me anyway!
ana tagzoora ya3ne?
it was a waste of time and emotions?

Nouf : " alohh! " my voice came heavy and executed ..

Bader : " zaaain you called! wainch mn 7a6aitlech il A labsatny!! "

and here .. when i heard his voice ..
I broke down ..
Tears start rolling on my cheeks ..

Nouf : " Bader!! "

Bader : " 7ABEBTYYYYYY! SHFEEEEEEEECH? "

Nouf : " Bader .. why you cheated on me? eshsawaitlkk ana? "

Bader: " cheated on you?? Nouf! shal 7achy!! I love you! 3an hal kharabeee6! cheated on you with meno? meno hathee ellyy teswach 7abebty entay! "

Nouf : " your wife maybe? "

seconds of shock Mixed with silence passed ..

Nouf : " la etraqe3lee .. wela etfahemni .. you didn't Cheated on me asasan .. you Cheated your wife with me!! I'm the freaking other woman Bader! ana 3omry ma kent other woman eb 7ayat ay single man .. 3alshan ayye oo aser other woman eb 7ayat wa7id metzawej! .. Bader you are my first Love! I never felt the way I felt about you! laish sawait fene chethe? laish sawait eb mourtik chethy? "

Bader kept listening to me .. bedoun laygoul wela kelma ..

Nouf : " ana ilghal6ana Bader eny ma3araft qader nafsy oo nesait eny bint nas oo metrabya .. bas sheft a handsome man waving with hopes re7tlik raktha! i was so stupid ena sadagtik eb kil elly geltah le .. shloon mastaw3abt ena e3yalik yeshbehonk? shlon mastaw3abt ena Maha wasn't your sister! "

Bader: " Nouf .. la etgolin chethy .. Im sorry .. walla il3athem .. Im not having a good life with my wife oooo .. "

I cut him off ..

Nouf : " adry adry! you were forced to marry her oo I'm the true love of your life? sa7? .. bader la etgo6 il ghala6 eb ras bint ilnas! you're the sick one! ehya mara7t khanetik methel ma enta sawait feeha .. Bader you kissed me last week .. wenta 3endik mara oo e3yal! "

Bader : " Nouf malah shoghol! 3oumra makan ilmara oo il3yal ohma il 7ajez elly baina .. i was going to tell you anyway .. bas kint an6er il la7tha ilmonasba! "

Nouf: "mashala! .. shrayik 3ayal Instead of trying to handle these wild emotions myself, oo enny adkhal ilmostashfa oo amreth .. laish ma I take action? oo i call your wife? oo akhrib baitek?"

Bader: " ta3awethay mn eblis Nouf!! "

Nouf : " goodbye bader! "

Bader: " are you gonna call my wife Nouf? "

i whispered : " goodbye my love.. "

** SHOUG **

i found my self eating my nails furiously as soon as she finished telling me the story ..

Shoug : " ibnnnnnnn elatheeeeeeeeena!! COWARD!! WHAT'S NEXT? OH MY GOD!! "

Nouf Said with her broken voice : " i don't know Shoug .. "

Shoug : " meta you will call his wife? "

Nouf : " men gallch i will call his wife? eshyaftane? .. i wont low myself to his level 7abebty .. mara7 asawey shay .. i don't know shbasawy 3alshan tabrid 7arrete .. bas 6ab3an i would never call his wife! "

Shoug: " Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaish? "

Nouf : " mn sejich entay!! aslan low ana agool enna i wanna call his wife , lazim et3aqlene oo etrakdene wetgolele don't do it!! .. Shougo louw faris ye6la3 metzawej you will call his wife? "

I gasped : " Esmillah 3alaih!! "

Nouf : " you would Never imagine the way i feel shoug .. mahma osaflich the shock .. you would never feel the way i feel .. "

Shoug : " noufii 7abebe 7ayate .. tell me .. i will always be there for you .. "

Nouf : " shoug .. it feels unreal! ma a7is enna this is my life! i don't believe in i was used as a ..... "

Shoug : " la etkamleen!! wela 3oumry ra7 artha ena etgoolin 3an nafsech kelma methel elly you'll say it now!! hatah kafoo tousfeen rou7ch eb hal shay 3alshana? .. Nouf chab chab!! keep ur head up and keep ur self busy .. Im Shocked nouf ma agis 3alaich .. bas you can beat this Noufa .. i know ennch Strong .. oo I know enna allah khashlich wa7id a7san mennah eb Alf maraa! "

Nouf: " Stop telling me that .. its The worst thing that will ever happen to me Shoug!! la etgolili i deserve much better oo hal kharabe6 elly ma etwady wela etyeb .. "

Shoug: " it's so hard to find words to comfort you Nouf .. le'ana Im so Shocked oo Mad .. i would call his wife .. aw go to his House .. a7is enny 7ail em3asba .. "

Nouf: " Don't worry Shoug .. I can't comfort myself! fa I'm not expecting ena you can help me with this .. I should find my own way to deal with this .. life goes on .. right? "

Shoug: " hell ya!! .. etyeelee? "

Nouf let a sweet weak giggle : " hehe la mali khelqich! "

Shoug : " ouch! heheheh! etmoooooonin! .. "

Nouf : " yalla I wanna sleep Now , khallas wagtch .. "

Shoug : " entay bet6awleen ib salfat il tedegger hathy? bas to be in the picture .. azahheb nafsete! "

Nouf : " hehe! maybe shway .. "

Shoug: " hehehe yalla babe .. sleep well .. i love you .. "

Nouf : " you will always do .."

Shoug: " OO BA3DAIN! "

Nouf: " haha! ma 3endy ella ilyoom atemaila7 3alaich .. bacher 7abeb ilalb erid oo taksheteen feneee! "

Shoug: " aaaaakh ya galbyyyy! I can't believe enna bachir erid Faris .. "

Nouf : " bil salama enshalla .. I missed his voice .. "

Shoug: " sej walla? didn't you miss the way he hugs you ba3ad? wella the way his eyes glows everytime you say i love you? "

Nouf: " Besmellah!! La La .. I just miss his voice! hehe "

Shoug: " mo tawa khallas wagte? yala yala Gnite! "

Nouf : " Gnite babe! "

Shoug : " me too .. I'm Off to bed .. "

Nouf: " akeed! 3alshan eye bachir asra3! hehehe "

Shoug: " BYE!"

Nouf: " heheh! bye bye .. "

43 }~

2010-08-16T00:23:00.002+03:00

Shoug : " alooo! ha entay barra? "

Nouf : " yes yes .. 3edday laima il 10 oo 6el3ay! "

Shoug: " tara lawa3tay chabde! kel marra lazm a3ed lay 10!! "

Nouf giggled while saying : " uff! wentay kela tet7al6emain laima oosal? yala yala 6el3ay! "

we headed to Bait fa6ooma our cousin .. kanat emsaweya Dj party for her birthday ..

i was dancing with my mobile in my hand .. incase Faris dazle shay aw dag ..

*BEEP*

From: F (USA)
" alooooo! "

I smiled while listening to Rashid AlMajed and twisting my waist slowly ..
" lemennyyyy fe ma7jar e3younik 7abebe oo khalenny .. khaleny ashouf nafse fe 3eyounik oo a6ma'en ..... "

To: F (USA)
" HALAAAAAAAAAAAA! ;* "

From : F (USA)
" Missed you! ;* "

To : F (USA)
" I Miss you more! ;* "

re7t ga3adt eb kirsy bil zawya .. oo ga6ait rasy bil mobile ..

From: F (USA)
" Wainch? "

To: F (USA)
" getlik ams! ;p .. Fa6oom emsaweya DJ party 7ag her birthday! ;* "

From : F (USA)
" oooooo!! kal 3ada!! nesait agoolaha happy birthday! :) "

To: F (USA)
" yaaaaaa kirh hal nesyan feek!! send her a msg Now!! oo goulaha dazlch men ziman bas tawa yousal! :P ahaha "

From : F (USA)
" hehe ashkara! :D .. enzain bas yallaaa ta3alaaaaaay! "

I smiled ..

To : F (USA)
" Wain ayee? "

From : F (USA)
" 3endii! ;* "

my Heart Skipped a beat ..

To : F (USA)
" 7ayaaaaaaate! wala weddy! ;* "

From : F (USA)
" sheno lebastay 7ag il7afla? "

To : F (USA)
" Dress mat3arfa! ;p .. shakhbary Faris heheh! kil ehdoomy Now ma et3arefhoum! "

From : F (USA)
" hehehe .. shu3oor khayis tara! .. yalla hanat .. ma bouqa shay oo arid oo ashouf kil ehdoomich ;p "

Nouf pushed my shoulder so hard while saying : " SHOUGOOOOOOO! ESTA7 3ALA WAYHICH!! MJABLA EL MOBILE SARLICH SEEEEEEENA!! MA SARAAAAAAAAAAT FARISSSSSS!! BAS BAS! BAQEELAH TWO WEEKS WERID OO ETFOKOOONAA! BAAAAAAAAAS! HEDAY YOUR MOBILEEEEE!! "

i blushed : " enzain la etzefeen!! bas ba kaa bahedda!! "

To : F (USA)

" brb! ;S .. ga3id ezfoooooony! ;x "

Around 12am .. radaina Back Home ..

Nouf mummbled : " abaih! Shougoooooo! 7addyyy khaifa! Bacher Grades Bader! madry shfene mekhtabsa!! "

Shoug : " Shekharre3? 7a6eta eb mokhbatch! hehehe "

Nouf : " heey! latgouleen 3anna chethy! walla he's so sweet to me Shougo! aslan entay last week temde7eena ! "

Shoug : " akeed bamda7a! ma36eech Hadeeya Armani watch bedoon monasaba! aked ba7issa ya7lelah! "

Nouf touched her baby blue armani watch with a smile on her face : " eeeeeeeee .. 7abebe! "

Shoug : " you should be happy! le'ana be5a6bech! wanassa! we will have a wedding! hehehe .. "

Nouf : " wayy sektaaay! hatha shay thany emkhare3ne .. "

Shoug : " la la shako! .. 7adda be happy! enshalla il umoor tamshy oo tetsahhal! abyyy afra7 feeeech yal khaisa! "

her smile faded : " wayy! 7ady khaifa walla! .. "

i kissed her cheeks while saying : " inshalla kilshay yamshe tamam "

I tucked my self into bed .. and texted Faris ..

To: F (USA)
" aaakh! my baaaack! my leeeeeegs! fene ilnoooooooom! "

from : F (USA)
" tara afham naghzatch ana :P la etnaghzeen ya3ni aby message! "

i giggled ..

To : F (USA)
" heheheh! i wanna sleeeeeep! "

From : F (USA)
" I wanna Cuddle you .. "

my heart sank ..

to : F (USA)
" I wanna rub your hands while cuddling me .. "

From: F (USA)
" hmmm .. well , i want you to feel my breath on your neck babe .. "

To: F (USA)
" awwww! pull me closer .. "

From: F (USA)
" shougiiiiiiiiii! i wanna kiss your shoulder so bad! ;( "

I felt so dizzy while touching my shoulder with my finger ..

To: F (USA)
" i want you to kiss my shoulder so bad! :( "

From: F (USA)
" mo etgolili 3aib ma 3aib! bas arid ra7 aboosech! "

I giggled ..

To : F (USA)
" hatha ely nawey 3ala shar gabel la erid ;p "

From: F (USA)
" hehehe kaifiiiii kharaboooooo! ;p .. yala sugar pie entay namay wana lazim arou7 3endy alf shaghla asaweeha .. "

To : F (USA)
" ukh! ;( .. ma sheba3t mennk!! "

From: F (USA)
" barid enshalla oo betmeleen meny! :* "

To : F (USA)
" yalah babe! ;( gnite .. "

** NOUF **

i put my hair up in a ponytail ..
7ady mali kheeelq! bas barou7 ashof il grade oo arid il bait ..

i called fajer my class-mate : " *yawning* aaaaah! alo? "

Fajer : " halla Noufa .. "

Nouf : " hala fajjoor .. ha bashray? cham ur grade? "

Fajer : " zain I got B+ .. oo gelt 7ag ildr. aby ur grade 3alshan la tet3anain .. bas ma retha! egooli elly yabe his grade eyee lay 3endy! "

Nouf : " ya kerha .. yallah kany ana yaya bil 6erej .. "

Fajer : " khalas khoosh .. i will wait you 3alshan netrayag together .. shrayich? "

Nouf : " khalas ok .. see you .. "

wesalt il jam3a around 10:30Am .. Bader gayelina ena his office hours men 10-12 bas! oo mara7 e3alliq ilgardes .. elly yabe eye eshof his grade gabel la tanzel bil system .. shal da3ala?

i knocked on the door ..

Nouf : " dr? "

Bader : " 7ayach .. and close the door behind you .. "

i whispered while closing the door : " shel 6ary? "

Bader : " le'ana i should get a prize for the A! haha! " he said that while poiting at his lab .. " come here Noufa! "

i froze in my place .. : " wain! no! "

he pulled me strongly from my hand while saying : " i gave you an A 7abebtyy! "

i got terrified .. : " bader! laa! "

he sat in the conder of his disk .. while holding my waist so tight ..

Nouf : " Bader! Heeednyy!! "

my eyes starts tearing up!

Bader : " ola ola! laish tabcheen Nouf? "

Nouf : " Because .. " .. I whispered while crying : " dont rape me! "

Bader laugehd so loud : " hahahhaha! shda3wa Nouf! wain ga3deen? i wont rape you!!! "

i felt relief yet it was so awkward ..

Nouf : " ok hedny .. shakelna efashel!! law a7ad edish!! "

he pulled me from my neck and printed a soft gentle kiss on my lips ..

I shivered while taking few steps to the back ..

Nouf : " i feel weak .. "

Bader : " let's get a room Noufa .. "

Nouf : " ay room!! mn sejik! .. Bader we will get married soon .. you will have me bil7alal .. "

Bader said while rubbing his eyebrows nervosly : " mekhalif! many gader asber .. "

A girl knocked on the Door ..
i walked toward the door ebser3a ..

Nouf : " yalla bye! "

i found fajoor out side waiting for me ..

Fajer : " etshooooofena sak ilbab!! shda3wa!! ana dashait wella etekny i3larag! hehehe "

i giggled nervosly : " hehe! ee abaih! "

Fajer : " ha cham bashray? "

Nouf : " thanks god .. 3a6any A .. "

Fajer : " oooh ya ba5tch! ohwa ma ya36e Grade ella 7ag elly edeshoon mazaja! heheh ashwa ana B mo C!! ma3ana walla makintay ta36eenah wayh! "

I got confused ..

Nouf : " shenu ya3ne? mafahamt! "

Fajer : "sheno mafahamtay? uhwa il dr. ma3roof enna ma ya36e grade ella 7ag il banat elly yetmaila7oon 3alaih oo yetdale3oon .. bas madry sh6ary 3alaih 3a6ach A .. "

Nouf: " la shako! 7aram 3alaich! ana ma kint asoolif weyah wela shay oo kan e7laiw oo mo7taram ma3ay!! oo 3a6any A le'ana ana darast 3adel 7ag ilfinale oo our group sawaina shay bil project .. "

Fajer : " welly esalmech bas! uhwa eserlina mn be3ed .. min side his wife .. "

my brain couldn't understand a word ..

Nouf : " wife? "

Fajer: " eeeh haw!! matadreen? uhwa ma5eth bint 3ammah! oo 3endah 2 boys! "

Nouf: " shlouuuuuun ya3ne? "

Fajer: " Noufoo shfech! .. He's Married! "

girls! :*

2010-08-12T00:50:00.002+03:00

hey girls! a7ibkom 7ail .. ana ma the3t tara! looool :P
bas ramadhan oo hal loya lahhatny 3al ilblog shway ..
bas i promise to post very soon ..

1- embarak 3alaikom ilshahar .. ramadhan kareem oo allah akram .. ask God for whatever you want oo allah gereb oo ra7 yestejeb likoom .. allah yarzekom elly tetmanonah gabel la ekhalis ermothan .. oo allah efare7kom kether ma etfar7oony! :*

2- allahhhh yer7am ghaneema Alfalah .. i really dont know her in person .. bas mashalla thekerha il6ayyeb 3ala kil lesan .. allah eghafer laha eb hal shahar ilfetheel oo yadkhelha fasee7 janatah .. girls , deer balkoom! sougaw shway shway oo la tenshaghlon bil blackberry! la7qen 3alaih! nabeeekom!! deer balkom 3ala nafskom!

LOVE TO YOUR SOULS! <3

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2010-08-07T22:41:00.006+03:00

** Nouf **

Three weeks passed by .. and Bader split us into groups to work on our presentation .. ya7lelah he stick to his promise to me enna e3awethna 3an il exam eb presentation , yet! He didn’t spoke to me for the last three weeks ..

That Sunday, I was sitting next to my New group-mate Fajer. 3alaqatna only in the class oo phones for the presentation.. nothing less or more ..
Fajer : “ ana getlich my brother esawey designs 7ag il power point.. shrayich akalma today oo aredlich khabar? “
I nodded ..

Bader spotted me ..
Bader : “ what? “
I whispered to Fajer : “ golelah ena we’re talking about the presentation! “
Fajer said loudly : “ Sorry dr. kent agoolaha shay about our presentation .. “
Bader: “ aha! Although the Question kan muwajjah 7aggich Nouf! “
I mumbled : “shagolik? “
Bader : “ ma asma3! “
Nouf : “ nothing Dr.!! “
Bader : “ you mumbled something! Sema3tch! “
Nouf : “ ma gelt shay! I said enna shagolik? Ena I wasn't talking asasan .. fajer kanat etgooli about the power point!! “
Bader : “ and the paper on ur hand? “
Nouf : “ It's a paper for the Notes elly engoolhoum eb our group meetings .. 3alshan ma ansa .. things to do! “
He came to my disk : “ give it to me! Oo come take it after the class .. “

I texted shoug ..
To : Shoug
“ chab bader! I hate you! Way mal kaaaffffff! “

Bader threw the papers on his disk .. and yelled loudly : “ NOUF!!!!! “
I shivered : “ yes? “
Bader : “ ana cham marra gayelllich mako mobile bil class? “ he scanned the class while saying : “ cham marra I told you girls NO MOBILE? “
I said quietly : “ sorry! “
He stormed out .. and left us bil class .. all the girls start gossiping :
“ abaih shda3wa 3alaih? “
"ashkara feeeh shay el dr.!! "
“ shfeeh chethy 3assab 3ala mobile? “
“ Nouf! Whats wrong with the dr. ? “

I followed him in big steps ..
Nouf : “ Bader! “
He pulled me from my hand inside his office : “ OSH! Fetha7teena! “
I pulled my hand : “ shfeek enta!!! “
Bader : “ shfeek enta? .. hatha esloub! “
Nouf : “ Bader! Whats the hell? Sarlik 3 weeks adeglik ma etrid 3alay! Although inta ilghal6an asasan from my point of view! Tara ana ma sawait shay! Ya3ni I was in a wedding with my family! Shloon arid at 11? .. oo now sarlik 3 weeks ignoring me? Oo treating me like shit? “
Bader moved slowly to his disk .. while saying : “ mmmmmm .. and? “
Nouf : “ it has been 3 months wela 4? .. and tell now you didn’t say anything straight forward to me! Ma gelt ley I love you! .. ur just playing around Bader .. and that’s not fair! “
Bader : “ shelly not fair? “ he said while lighting his cigarettes ..
Nouf : “ me! Falling so hard for you .. oo loving you this much .. wenta madry 3anek! Et7ebny wela la! .. madry etha ur taking me seriously wela la .. madry etha this is a relationship wela la!! “
Bader : “ Nouf! Tewaga3tch tadren .. “
Nouf : “ adre shenu bader? Adre sheno! “
Bader : “ Nouf .. I’m not a player kellish! Oo maybe hatha elly ekhalene ma3arf a3aber 3an masha3ry oo et7eseny jamid oo dafsh weyach .. I have never been in love before .. bas kilyoom 3an yoom .. at’akkad ena you are the One nouf .. “
I blushed : “ mmm .. “
Bader : “ yes, I love you so much! If that’s what matters for you .. bas ana makan weddy eser ashkara oo in puplic gabel la a56ebech .. “
My eyes smiled : “ takh6ebne? “
Bader : “ ee Nouf! Akeed akh6ebech .. bas let this course pass wenshalla akh6ebch .. ana ma aby netzawaj oo entay my student .. “ he giggled while saying : “ enshala mo maskhara ya3ne! “
Nouf : “ laish za3alt 3alay? “
Bader : “cause ana kent nawey hal yoomain akallem ahaly ena e5a6bonch .. cause the finals kahoum on the door .. bas entay yoom solaftay with Maha kharabtay my plan! I don’t want her to recognize you! Ma aby laima etshoofech etgool eeh athker enna emsolfa weyay aw metlazga fene .. Nouf! Etha entay terthainha 3ala nafsech ana ma arthaha 3ala my wife! “
I said shyly : “ Im sorry .. “
Bader : “ khalas .. that’s ok .. bas I hope enna you understood my point .. “
Nouf : “ ee ee I did .. khalas mara7 akallem a7ad mn ahalik anymore! .. mo lazem hehehe .. “
Bader laughed : “ ehehehe! A7san ba3ad .. la7ga .. eb teshbe3een menhoum .. “
I stood up : “ yala 3ayal ana lazim arou7 .. we have a meeting .. karaftna allah ehadak! “
He smiled to me : “ etha taben ay help im here for you! Bas mo etsawen nafs il exam! “
I nodded : “ enshalla .. I will fix things up .. “
Bader : “ I trust you .. “
Nouf : “ bye bye … “
Bader : “ matabeen your paper? “
I giggled : “ hehe embala! Tedodaht! “

I took a blue pin and wrote on the footer of my paper ..
“ enty ajmal ma khalaq raby fe hal koun il weseee3 .. GD'LUCK! :* “

The minute he handed me my paper .. I promised myself to never let him down .. NEVER!

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2010-08-05T14:13:00.003+03:00

Happybirthday BG.;************

Happy birthday to you from the animals in the zoo :P looooooool la la mara7 akammel :P enshalla ma a6aye7 ilmeyana wayid :P tara ana ma an3a6a wayh! Hehehe ..
May all ur dreams come true this year! ;*LOVE’U! <3

** NOUF **

I followed Maha to The bathroom .. I couldn’t take my eyes of her .. madry shfene! I just wanted to know their family .. I just wanted to make any kind of relationship with Maha.

I stood next to her while fixing my make-up ..
and whispered nervously : “ omg! What’s wrong with me!! “
Maha : “ excuse me? Etkalmene? “
I shivered from the bottom of my stomach : “ ha? La! I was talking to my make up! “
Stupid stupid stupid Nouf!!!!!
I giggled while saying : “ hehehe! la ya3ne akallem nafsy ena madry shfene mo 3arfa a3addil my makeup “
She smiled sweetly to me : “ hehe ee 3ady kela chethey eser .. when ur at home oo tel3eben bil make up shaklich eser eyanin .. oo when you are in a wedding ma ya3jebch! “
Nouf : “ ooooof! La7athtay!! “
Maha : “ tara wala ma ga3da ajamlich .. bas you look gorgeous mashalla! “
I blushed : “ awwh! 7abebty be3younch! “
Maha said oo ehya metradida : “ 3ayal ma 3araftch? Menu m3ay? “
Nouf : “ eeh sa7! Hehe .. I’m Nouf AlFlani .. “
Maha face lightened : “ mashalla! Wene3m!! .. la etgoolili Bushra e5tch? .. “
I felt so relieve inna e3jebat’ha 3aylete oo ahali ..
Nouf : “ hehe la bint 3amme! “
Maha : “eeh sa7 shfene ana! Hehe she so big to be ur sister! Ehya mn 6aqqete .. “
I nodded : “ ee sa7 taqreban kobrch .. she have 3 girls now mashala! “
Maha : “sej? Mashalla! .. salmay 3alaiha wayid .. gulilha Maha AlFlani etsalem 3alaich .. “

Should I ask her sheserlaha Dr.Bader? bema enna both nafs il3ayla?
Bas they don’t look alike .. ya3ni ashkara bet7iss enny adry enha his sister!
Nouf : “ wene3m .. khalas yousal enshalla .. “
Maha excused her Self oo raddat dakhel il 3ers ..
I kept staring the mirror ..
not understanding what just happened to me!

I dialed Bader’s immediately ..
Nouf : “ OMG! BADDDDDDDER! “
Bader : “ hala hala .. amdach etreden mn ilwedding? “
Nouf : “ la la I’m still there .. bas your sister! “
Bader : “ shfeha? “
Nouf : “ETSHAWIG! She so adorable mashalla .. “
Bader : “ ee adry 6al3a 3ala her brother! Hehe .. shefteha? “
Nouf : “ I talked to her tawa! Ga3adna ensoolif bil bathroom for 10 mins taqreban! She’s so cuuuuuute! Oo e6la3at et3arf bint 3amme .. “

Bader quite relaxing tone turned into yelling ..
Bader : “ LA7THA LA7THA! ENTAY GA3ADTAY SOLAFTAY WEYA MAHA? “
I got scared : “ la la ma solaft! Ya3ne bas ena ebtisamna eb wayh ba3ath .. “
Bader : “ NOUF DON’T LIE! TAWCH ETGOLELE ET3ARF BINT 3AMCH! “
Nouf : “ bader shfeek em3asib? Laish faj’a etsarekh? La etsarekh!! .. we just talked for minutes! “
Bader : “ OOOOOOOOO SHAKUUUUUUUU!!!!!!! “
Nouf : “ ana kent akallem nafsy oo ehya 3abalha eny akalemha fa solafna shway! Bas that’s it!! “
Bader : “ TABEEN TEFHAMHA ENNA GA3ED TETLAZEQAIN FEHA? “
Nouf : “ laish etsarekh! Shatlazzaq feh? “
Bader : “ MA GA3ED ESAREKH! “
Nouf : “ bader! La etsarekh .. embala enta ga3ed etsarekh! .. ana ma solaft weyaha ehya elly kalematny oo ba3dain shatlazzaq feeh? Ehya matadry 3an shay oo ma yebt laha 6areyek wela 7etan getlaha enny eb Gust 3alshan wala yenyab 6areyyik! “
Bader : “ AHA! YA3NE MA TEKALAMTAW 3ANNY? “
Nouf : “ takhayyal bas asoolif 3annek 7ag ekhtik! Shenu shayefne?? “
Bader : “ 3abali ba3ad .. tara ana ma a7ib chethy oo wela ahaly e7ebon! Ma en7ib suwalif enna naqreq with strangers! “
Nouf : “ ehya elly kalematny bader mo ana elly kalamt’ha! .. anyways , ilmafrooth enna hatha shay ewanisny bas enta 6ala3ta mn kha6ry! Khalas ilsharha 3alay ana elly daga enna far7ana eny solaft weya ekhtik! Next time when she talks to me I will turn my back oo an7ash! Ok? Erta7t? “
Bader : “ ee ee a7san!! “
Nouf : “ yala Bye! “
Bader : “ NOUF! “
My eyes start etching : “ mmm? “
Bader : “ yala reday el bait! “
Nouf : “ sheredny ilbait? Its 11 am! Lel7en ma dash il me3ris aslan! “
Bader : “ana ma a7ib ena tet’akherain foog il 11! Khalas sheftay il wedding oo sheftay ilnas oo il kousha oo il3aroos! Bas ghasob etshoofen ilme3ris? Yala reday! Lech nes sa3a oo edegenli mn baitkom! Ok? “
My heart start beating so hard : “ abaih mn sejik? I can’t! Ana yaya ma3a omy oo khalaty oo my cousins! Shered’houm kellohum? “
Bader : “ ya3ne ma e6e3een kalamy? “
Nouf : “ Kahy your sister lel7een bel wedding! “
Bader : “ LA ETYEBEEN 6ARY MY SISTER!! SHAKO ETQARNEN?? “
Nouf : “ ma sabait’ha ana! Bas its normal enna elnas teg3ad bil weddings lain 2-3 am! “
Bader : “ mashalla!! Sarya mn Samra il ekhet? “
Nouf : “ what to do now? “
Bader : “ etha you love me sij .. you will find a way to get back home! “
Nouf : “ bas?”
he closed the line on me ..
Nouf : “alo!! “

I went back to the wedding ..
Shoug : “shfeeh wayhich masfooq! Eshsawatlich Maha? Hehehe “
Nouf : “ shoug maytha7ek! “
Shoug : “ abaih noufo! Shfeech? “
Tears start falling .. mo gadra awagef ..
I just kept my head down chenny a6alle3 shay men my clutch ..
Nouf : “ JERK! Shougo he’s a jerk! “
Shoug : “ meno ohwa? Shesalfa! “
Nouf : “ I talked with Maha for few mins. Oo dagait 3ala Bader agoolah ena ya7lelha .. chan esarekh 3alay cheny emsaweya shay keber! Oo he told me to get back home now! Oo ena khelal nes sa3a lazm adegla from our house phone! Wela eb yez3al! “
Shoug said calmly : “abaih! Mn sejah? Calm down entay .. rou7ay il 7amam ghaslay wayhich .. oo malich sheghel feeh! Don’t get back oo estansay oo ba3dain laima etshofena bil jam3a tefahemaw .. maybe he’s mad 3ala something else .. maybe khaf enna Maha tanqed 3alaich .. ma tadren shenu his point of view Noufa .. “
Nouf : “ takhayelay egoooli e7na ma en7eb ensoolif with strangers!! “
Shoug : “ee sheftay! Khayef Maha tanqed 3alaich! “
Nouf : “ khatwalyy! Ehya elly kalematny bil bathroom aslan! Oo e6la3at et3arf Busha my cousin! “
Shoug : “ khalas 3ayal malich sheghel feeh .. Now 7e6ay ur mobile Silent wela switch it off oo lets have fun .. oo lay sar bacher.. e7elha alf 7allal .. “

From: Bader
“ ha wainch? Radaitay? “

I threw my mobile 3ala Shoug ..
Nouf : “ ha ekhthay! Maynon walla maynon!! “

Shoug text him back..

To: Bader
“ still bel wedding .. I can’t get back home! Sorry! :* we will talk about it later .. “
My mobile start ringing ..

“Bader” is calling ..
1 missed call ..
2 missed call ..
3 missed call ..
4 missed call ..

Shoug : “ SHFEEH HATHA? 3ALLAQ!! “

Nouf : “ I don’t know! “

“ Bader” is calling ..
5 missed call ..

From : Bader
“!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????????????? “

To: Bader
“ I’m in the wedding I can’t answer! What’s wrong? “

From: Bader
“ REDAY EL BAIT! “

To: Bader
“ I can’t! I told you alf marra! Magdar! Magdar! Ma agdarrrrrrrrr! “

From : Bader
“ mashy! “

I threw my mobile on my lap. While mumbling ..
Nouf : “ I wanna get back home Now! uff kharrab moody oo 3assarneee .. “
Shoug : “ mo eb kaifa! You will have fun oo bacher you will fix things up! Aslant bacher lazem et6al3en 7aretch! Hathy mo tasaroofat! Shenu yahel? “
Nouf : “ yeah! I will make everything clear tomorrow .. “

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2010-08-04T20:52:00.002+03:00

LONG..LONG .. LONG.. LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG! Post! :*

Tears felled my eyes... abaih! Faris taghayyr wayed! Kobar!! I miss his face so much! And the sound of his giggles.. I miss the smell of his cigarettes on my clothes .. I miss the way he looks at his mobile screen every time it rings! I miss the way he cuddle me from the side while rubbing on my shoulder gently .. I miss the way he gets mad at me! … I miss him. Period!

To: F ( USA)
“ omg faris! You changed!! Kobart!! The gofel? And the GLASSES? .. omg! 7ail taghayart 3alayyy F! ;( .. I miss your face so freakin much! :* “

From : F (USA)
“ taghayart? Ma amdanee! Kelaha cham shahar ;p .. hatha 3iiz America elthaher :P hehe .. 7abebtyy! I miss you much more! :* raje3lich qereeeeeeeeb! :* “

To : F (USA)
“ gool enshalla! :* .. aakh I have a wedding today .. 7addy 3aizanaaaa! ;( “

From : F (USA)
“ ooh wedding? I will get to see something nice tonight! (a) “

I giggled .. mo sa7yy walla ..

To : F (USA)
“ Luckyyyyyy you! ;p .. yalah khal agoom akhshakhlik! ;p “

From : F (USA)
“ good .. cause I have to consternate on my lecture la il dr. e7athefny bara : ) take ur time! :* “

I got into shower .. while thinking about my wedding day .. ya3ni now il brides shesawoon hal 7azza? Ya3ne if I was the bride .. shenu bakon asawwey now? .. I giggled while imagining myself as a bride .. that was a funny ticklish idea at the age of 17 .. I got out of the bathroom with 1 msg in my mobile ..

From : Nouf
“ Me and fa6ooma ray7en il saloon .. coming to the wedding wela lel7en 3aizana? COME COME COME! ;( “

I texted her back
To: Nouf
“ la embala I’m coming .. pick me up! ;* “

We went to Lashes Saloon at AlYarmouk Area .. I was going to wear a strapless Shorty short printed dress From Juicy couture .. So I’ll keep it stylish and elegant .. with a Medium Wavy Ponytail because I already have a straight thick fringe. And I was going to wear my mom’s diamond earrings which end with soft papybink pearls.

Noufa was going to wear a silky black dress that matches with her retro hairstyle and her breath taking cherry red lipstick.

I mumbled while lying on the makeup chair : “ fa66om .. I wanna color my hair! Wayyy I have this urge to color it! “

Fatima: “ Sh6ary 3alaich! Faj’a? you have always loves ur hair color! Oo aslant its nice! “

Shoug : “ adryy ina its nice oo I like it this way .. bas madryy ya rabbe! Weddy asbaghaa!! “

Fatima : “ 3ad they say enna when you get this urge to change something in your life , ma3nata ena you miss something fa ga3ed et3awthen .. “

Nouf giggled from the back : “ haha AWCH! “

I gave her a half look : “ get a life noufooo! “

Fatima : “ shenu shenu? What’s happening? Laish a7es enna 6ayefny shay? “

Shoug : “ la mo 6ayfech shay! “

Fatima whispered : “ is it about you and Faris? “

My eyes popped out : “ ay faris? Shenu? Shdarach!! Who told you!! God!! “

Nouf came quickly from the back while covering her mouth : “ omg!! Entay men gallch? .. “ she turned my side : “Shougo tara mo ana!! Wala mo ana!! “

Fatima Said calmly : “a7medu told me! Bas men zeman! Gabel 3-4 months maybe .. “

I yelled : “A7MEDO? “

Nouf : “ wait wait!! Which a7medo? Our cousin? Aslan shdarrah!!! “

Fatima said in her innocent way of thinking : “ I don’t know! Omg Shougooo! Tara walla sorry sorry sorry ana mo qasde atlaigaf .. bas I thought it’s something normal .. cause a7medo ma gally ena it’s a secret! “

Shoug : “ la that’s ok! .. shgayyelich a7med? “

Fatima : “ Nothing .. ana dakhalt il living room eb bait mama 6aiba wela uhwa oo jassim yetkallemon .. fa sema3t 6araf salfa enna Shoug galat oo Shoug sawwat .. I asked them ma jaweboony , then jassim went to his friends .. oo buqa a7medo ebrou7a chan atiwa77ad feh oo ag3ad a7in oo a3asseb 3alaih laima gally ena Faris and Shoug loved each other bas they broke up! Bas! “

Shoug : “ ya khaissaa! Ya3ni now geltely enna I miss someone 3alashan aby asbagh sha3re bas 3alshan agoolich? “

Nouf and fa6ooma start laughing at me!
Fatima : “ heheh la la walla la!! That’s true! Walla gareeta eb magazine! Wallah maga3da a’allif! “

Nouf : “ hehehe Shougoo! Fethe7tich eb bait mama 6aiba 3ala afa men yesheel! “

Shoug : “chabaw! There’s something wrong! Mo ma3qool ya3ne! .. ma etha7ek don’t laugh .. “

I headed to the car while dialing A7med’s number ..
Shoug : “ a7medo! “
A7med: “ hala shoogu? “
Shoug : “ who told you about me and Faris being together? “
A7med got shocked from my direct question!
A7med : “ ha? “
Shoug : “ A7medo! Tara fa6om galatly ena you told her .. oo enna enta oo jassem kintaw tetkallemon 3anny .. so khallesny! Shesalfa? Laish kilman yadre ella ana? “
A7med: “ well , nothing .. when you broke up guys Faris kan yabe a7ad edeer balah 3alaich , he didn’t want to leave you alone in Kuwait oo esafer oo wela a7ad yadre 3anich, Okay Nouf knows about everything .. bas she’s a girl after all .. so Faris told Jassim enna he doesn’t wanna go to the US. Oo khalas hawwan yabe yeg3ad bil deera 3alashanich .. ena at least he can take care of you even etha entay not together anymore .. bas jassom ma rethalah .. galah bil 3aks rou7 oo safer oo wakher 3anha 3alshan et7is belly efgedtah oo khal a7med eder balah 3alaiha .. after all a7med okhooha oo ra7 e5af 3alaiha kethrik .. so they told me .. oo ana asef enna I told fa6om bas wallah dashat eb khashmeeeee! .. “

I was setting in Nouf’s car .. and Tears just starts falling on my lap. .. tear after tear .. I couldn’t stop crying ..
A7med : “ Shougg 7abebty la tabchen! Im you brother oo sej enny ma taqabalt il fekra awal shay .. bas tais elfereej wela il tais il ghareeb! “ he said in a funny way ..
I giggled while crying in the same time .. : “ hehe! *Snef* .. ya3ni ana skhala? Heheh! “
A7med : “ hehehe la bas atha7kech shwaya .. shougo tara 7etan law jassom oo faros ma galooly .. it was obvious! “
Shoug : “agool! La tetfalsaf 3alay! .. sarlina sena o nus wela a7ad la7ath! La etserli thakee al7en! “
A7med : “ ilsharha 3alay dayer baly 3alaich kil hal modda? “
Shoug : “ wayhik ana agool! “
A7med : “ wala mo kafo! “
Shoug : “ hehehe! yala yala ana lazim arou7 3endy wedding .. “
A7med : “ Enjoy! Yala bye .. “

I closed the line with joy and happiness all over my heart ..
On the way home I told the girl shesalfa .. they went all “ awwwwwww”! hehehe ..
Awal ma wesalt my room .. I got into my dress , fixed my dirty pink lipstick .. and text faris , oo went with Mom and my sister to the wedding.

To: F ( USA)
“ heading to Sheraton. “

From : F (USA)
“ Blow their minds babe! :* “

I giggled ..
To : F ( USA)
“ Farrosi .. bagoolik shay .. “ I stopped typing .. ukh! Should I tell him enny darait? Aw should I wait him to tell me? I deleted the msg .. and sent him a kiss instead .
I sat with Nouf and Fa6ooma 6ab3an ..

“ ley sa7ebin khathny bezaina .. 3an kil mazyoom oo ra3boub .. rou7y ghadat lamrah reheena .. oo ilgalb mn nathrata ethoub .. “

Nouf and fa6ooma stood up : “ yala yala .. “
We starts dancing properly le’ana it’s a wedding .. wela e7na hedoona eb DJ’s hehe ..

I whispered : “ girls! Should I tell faris ena I know? “
Fatima : “ YES! “
Nouf : “ NO! “

We start laughing and dancing .. forgetting about Faris oo ena everyone ones! I sat on my chair .. and pulled my Mobile from my clutch ..

To: F (USA)
“ galbyyyyy ma3ah rabby e3eena! 3alaih saber sabr ayob! :’( “

From : F (USA)
“ ollah! Kil hatha ana!! :’( “

To : F (USA)
“ ehehehe .. la la atghashmar!! ;p “

From : F (USA)
“ tara I didn’t get anything nice ;( tonight is not my night! ;( “

I blushed while handing Nouf my Mobile : “ sawreeny! “
Nouf took couple of shots for me .. marra while im standing .. marra while im pausing .. marra smiling ..
I asked : “ ayhi a7la wa7da? “
Nouf pointed on the 3rd picture .. were I was standing and The background were the Silver and White Kousha which brings my dress out , I was giving the camera my prolife and smiling while putting my hand on my waist in a girly way.

To: F (USA)
“ and the picture goes to … drums please! ;p “

From : F (USA)
“ KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK! Yalla dezeeeeely! Tara thalaitenyy ;@ wala ma adezlich soorty again :P “

I giggled .. and send the picture to him ..
After few mins. I received ..

From : F (USA)
“ I got a mini heart attack! SHENU HATHA? :* “

I blushed ..

To: F (USA)
“ hatha ana ;$ “

From : F (USA)
“ JAMEEEEEEEEEEL ENTA! :* egray 3ala nafsech! .. “

To : F ( USA)
“ awwh! Enshalla I will! :* “

Noufo pushed me from my shoulder ..
Shoug : “ OUCH! Shtabeeeeen!! “
Nouf : “ shofay om green!! “
Shoug : “ il blonde? “
Nouf : “ee ee! Elly now ga3id targis! “
Shoug : “ eeee? “
Nouf : “ that’s Maha! .. Bader’s Sister .. “
I kept staring at Maha ..
Shoug : “ chathaba!! How did you know? .. she don’t look like him! KELLISH! She white oo blonde oo uhwa tanned .. abaih uhwa a7la menha eb million marra! “
Nouf : “ yaa! Maskeena! Haha .. she looks like her mom oo he looks like his dad! Bas! 3alshan chethy they don’t look alike! .. “
Shoug : “aaah! .. wentay shdarrach? “
Nouf : “ uhwa mwareny her pic .. oo he told me! .. getlah barou7 wedding ilFlany wela egolli ena Maha his sister betkon ehny oo enna uhwa ely bawadeeha oo beyebha .. “
Shoug : “ ya7leeeeela! He seems like a good brother! “
Nouf : “ ooh! She’s going to the bathroom .. let’s follow her! “
Shoug : “ laish betraqmeenha la sama7 allah? “
Nouf : “ SHOUGO! shut up! Lets got oo create a conversation with her! Pls pls pls .. “
Shoug : “ NO WAY! IM NOT GOINGG!! 3AIB 3AIB! NO!! “
Nouf : “ plsssss shougo! pls plssss ! “
Shoug : “ Sorry Noufo! Ensay .. I can’t do it .. aslant ebayen 3ala wayhi .. I can’t .. “
Nouf : “ screw you! I will go alone! “
And she headed to the Bathroom to create a coincident with Maha ..

39 }~

2010-08-03T03:00:00.002+03:00

** NOUF **

Bader stormed into the Class .. oo uhwa 7ada em3aseb .. he threw the papers on his hand 3ala il disk while yelling at us : “ DO YOU CALL THIS SHIT GRADES? THERE’S NO A’S IN THE CLASS! NO A’S!! “

The girls start blaming him : “ ee ee dr. el emte7an kan wayed sa3ob .. dr. il kameya wayd .. “

He said in a loud voice : “ I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING! MAKO SHAY YAA BIL EXAM ENTAW MA 3ARFEENA!! YOU DIDN’T STUDY GIRLS!! “

I said calmly : “ sej tara lemte7an kan sa3eb! “

He paused for seconds .. and gave me the scariest look ever!

Bader : “ sej walla? 3ad entay akher wa7da tetkalemain! Le’anna you Faild! You got 8/30! “

My heart skipped a beat : “ ullah! “

Bader : “ yeah! “

The class turned silent .. kelmn sakit oo masdoom .. oo kilmen ya36ene nathrat enna –poor girl- ..The class ended early that day ..

bas 6ala3t my il class I called him ..
Nouf : “ alo! “
Bader : “ yes? “
Nouf : “ abaih! Are you serious bader? Did I really fail? “
Bader : “ ath7ak weyach ana? Yes you failed!! You got 8/30! Ana ma naqaltich il exam? How the hell did you dot 8!! Only 8 Nouf!! “
Nouf : “ I told you! I didn’t study that weekend because kint an6erik edg! Its ur falt! “
Bader : “ YA SALAM! “
Nouf : “ ee wallah! “
Bader : “ Do whatever you want Nouf! I really gave my best oo sa3adtich! Etha entay ma5tha il denya le3eb fa hathy ghal6etch! “
Nouf : “ you will Fail me Bader? “
Bader : “ You failed Nouf.! “
Nouf : “ MEN SEJIK!!!!! NOOOOOOO! “
Bader : “ you can’t take advanage enna I like you .. magdar anaj7ch oo athlem ilbajeen! “
Nouf : “Common! “
Bader : “ shtabeen! “
Nouf : “ la etkalemny chetheee! “

Tears start rolling in my cheeks ..
Nouf : “ omg! Ana saq6a? I don’t want to take it all over again! “
Bader : “ la tabcheen!! Mala da3y tabcheen! “
Nouf : “ I’m crying in front of you as a friend .. mo as my dr. elly bakser kha6rah!! I don’t wanna pass etha hatha tafkeerik ena enta tathlem il other students! “
Bader : “ Khalas Nouf .. I will cancel il Exam oo akhalekom etsawoon presentation .. okay? “
Nouf : “ ya3ne ana Now mu F .. ? “
Bader : “ La mo F .. bas la tabcheen! “
I smiled .. : “ hehe! Khalas Okay .. and I promise enna I will do my best .. “
Bader : “ good for you .. “

**Shoug **

I opened my eyes at 2pm and took my mobile from his place under my pillow , I immediately smiled ..

From: F (USA)
“ Sabaaaaaaaaa7 Ma7bobetyyyyyy! … ya far7ete ma7bobeeeeety! Nasannyy gourbich ghorbeety ya far7eteee! :* “

To : F ( USA)
“ weddyyy alagyy e3younaha oo abda ma3ha bil kalam! :* .. morning 7abebe! :***** “

From : F (USA)
“ Ensssay fe la7tha ilsa7ab oo ilkhouf mn nathrat 3etab! Eb3ainaha agra sou’al oo 3araft ana eb 3ainy il jawaaaaaaaab! .. “

To : F (USA)
“ 7abebe eb tagzer 103.7? :D “

From : F (USA)
“ KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK!! Ana gayyeeeeeeel khaffa 6eeentich eb shakel khayaaale! :P .. eeee lena allah .. nas tawha etgoom men ilnoom! Oo nas cha7ta bil jam3a men il 8AM! ;( “

To : F (USA)
“ eee wallah! Ena allah … nas labseen kotat oo yeshreboon Hot chocolate .. oo nas darajat il 7arara 47 ;/ “

From : F (USA)
“ allah e3een! ;S .. yallah hanta ma boqa shay oo areed 7ag hal kheesa! Wala a7la kheeeesa! :’( walaht 3ala il Kuwait shougoo! Walaht 3ala machboos mama 6aiba! Walaht 3ala ilshuware3 oo 3ala frashe oo dary oo rab3e .. “

To : F (USA)
“ ma walaht 3ala Alma khadamatkom ba3ad? .. boqa shay ma walaht 3alaih? Sa66art il awely o 7aqatrny! :’) “

From : F (USA)
“ entay ma walaht 3alaich! Entay saknaa be3youni :P “

To : F (USA)
“ adry enha mojamala .. bas 7abebe! :* ana walaht 3alaik wayd! :*oo ilkuwait oo ilshuware3 oo machboos mama 6aiba oo 7eta Alma! Mayeswooun shay bedonek! ;’** “

From : F (USA)
“ ya ba3aaaaaaad kelliii kelli! :* .. tara ams ma wesalny wela mms!! (a) “

I smiled .. while exiting the inbox oo going to il pictures folder searching for nice photo to send to Faris ..
I found a pic of me in Chalet .. in was after ma safar eb 1 month and 2 weeks .. the middle of November .. I was wearing a XXXXL Navy pullover with a golden writing I <3 Muhammed Abdu! .. with black leggings and Fousheya Rain boot .. I was moving my hair wara athony .. while it was in big messy waves .. my smile was natural and pure .. the background was the angry see with his furious waves ..
I clicked on Send.

After few minutes ..

From : F (USA)
“GOMMMMMMMMMMMMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :* fe ajmal? Fe a7la? Ya jema3a redoooooooooony il kuwaiiiiiiiiiiiiit! Aby ared lahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! “

I giggled while typing …

To : F (USA)
“ metant oo 6elt sa7? ;p “

From : F (USA)
“ me7lawa!! that’s all .. me7lawa! :* “

I blushed ..

To : F (USA)
“ 7abebe! :* .. I wanna see you! :* “

From : F (USA)
“ Shougo wala ma 3endy wela pic!! Wala soortich awal pic bil mobile! Tawny shareehh .. “

I got disappointed ..

To : F (USA)
“ yalah 3aaaaad! Take a pic NOW! ;( 3alashaneeeeeeeee! “

After 10 mins taqreban .. I received MMS ..
My heart was pushing me so hard to open the pic .. while my hands were shivering oo sweating so hard ..
I clicked on the MMS..
He were on the college .. standing next to a big Rock maktoob 3alaiha his University name while holding a red File and a Blue note .. he was in his favorite grey training oo white qames fooga navy and yellow polo heavy pullover .. of course he was wearing his favorite DG orange cap oo there’s a dark gofel across his beautiful face … he was wearing frameless glasses!! GLASSES?

As the pic revealed .. I covered my mouth in shock while saying : “OMG!!! Taghayyyyyaaaaarrrrrr wayid!!!!!! “

38 }~

2010-08-01T23:29:00.005+03:00

watch Alwatan tv. every day at 7:40pm for the Next 7 months!
a documentary about The Iraqi invasion 3ala al Kuwait..
YOU HAVE TO SEE IT!

ana Kuwaiti ..
ana il7oreya oo ilta3ber ..
ana el ebda3 oo ilta7rer ..
BELADYY GHAIR! oo ana ghair ..
wesal kil ilbashar seety!

2-8-1990 ..
WO DON'T WANNA FORGET!

Now, Enjoy the EXTRA LONG post! :*
.
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Faris took seconds to recognize my voice..
I felt his hesitation : “ emmm .. alo? “
Shoug : “ Faris! “
Faris : “ Hala? “
Shoug : “ Faris! “
Faris : “ Hala? “
Shoug : “ Faris! “ I just missed calling your name ..
He giggled 3ala el tetenni7 elly 7ashna!
Faris : “ hehe! Hala yuba Hala shoug! “
I didn’t want the drama of tears to start!
I kept taking small breaths .. slowly to hold my tears back ..
Shoug : “ I missed you so much Faris! You didn’t give me the chance to explain anything! You just walked away .. “

I heard the voice of his steps on the floor .. heading to the door .. 3alshan ye6la3 men el apartment oo yegdar ekalemni 3ala ra7tah without jassim next to him ..
Faris : “ mmm .. “
Shoug : “ do you remember our last day together? Bait mama 6aiba? Me lying on ur chest? I missed that day .. I missed being with you .. I just missed when something really good happens enna aye agooolek! I missed .. I missed myself without you! “
Faris : “ I’m speechless .. “
Shoug : “ don’t be .. I have been making this conversation in my mind every single day Faris! .. ma aloomek etkoon speechless! I called you out of no where .. bas im not speechless! 3endy wayid 7achy eb galby .. fene walah oo fene za3al oo fene sharha 3alaik .. “
Faris : “ of of ! laish kil hatha laish? “
I waved to Nouf while heading to our garden bara ilbait ..
ga3adt adoor feeha while talking on the phone ..
Shoug : “ shenu laish Faris? .. you went to the US. without saying a thing to me! Oo re7t wenta za3lan 3alay! Oo ma fahamt meny ilsalfa! I didn’t make the choice! I didn’t left you! Faris she’s my mom! Oo you didn’t listen 7ag kalamha elly e3awer ilgalb about raising me oo ena ma testahel asawelaha chethy! She broke my heart Faris! “
Faris : “ I understood that mn geltely … 3alashan chethe I didn’t push you to do anything ethayegch or ethayeg kha6er omch! After all tara ur mom khalty! Ya3ni methel ma entay ehemch kha6erha .. me too! “
Shoug : “ 3ayal laish you disappeared? Laish you didn’t call men safart? Laish a7issek za3lan oo shayel eb kha6rek 3alay? “
Faris : “ Shoug .. “

My heart left me alone in me room , and went to him in the US.!
Shoug : “ hmm? “
Faris : “ bagoolich shaghla .. abech ma tensainha! Kelish! “
Shoug : “ elly ehya? “
Fairs : “ Maybe you were out of sight but never out of my mind .. NEVER! “

Tears start rolling on my cheeks silently ..
Shoug : “ enta sheno? “
Faris : “ I really got disappointed mn kalamch oo mn mawqif ur mom , bas she’s a Mother after all .. oo ba3dain ana gilt khalas you made ur mind oo maby athgha6 3alaich cause entay already kentay mathgho6a oo metwahqa .. laish ana adesh 3ala ilkha6 oo awahqech zyada? .. bas I was never going to let you go! Mo eb kaifech aheedch! “
Shoug: “ laish et7ebne? “ I said in a girly way ..
Faris : “ ghasbin 3alaich a7ebch! “
I giggled : “ hehehe 7obbek 3anef! “
Faris : “ eeh hatha ana! Re7tay oo radaitay 3ala 7a6at edich .. ma aghashmer hehehehe! “
Shoug : “ you printed the widest smile on my face eb hal mokalama .. “
Faris : “ ee bas inshalla ma tagzer 3ala mobile il rayyal! “
Shoug : “ enta sharait mobile yal mabyooooooog! Hehehe”
Faris : “ ooh! Masra3 ewselich el7achy!! Kuna mo jassom! “
Shoug : “ hehehehe! Maskeeeeen! Tawa gally tara .. 3asa ma ta3awart? “
Faris : “ men sejich! LAAAAAAAAAAAAA! “
Shoug : “ goooo hero! “
Faris : “ wala ench makhdoo3a fene! .. ana bas gally hal mosaak gimmeee ur money yeeew! uhwa yabe bas my money? Chan a36eeh il wallet eb koberha o il mobile foog’ha! “

I let a deep hysterical laugh from the bottom of my heart ..
Shoug : “ hahahahahaaaaa! Abaaaaaaaaaaaaih! Hehehehe CHATHAAAAAAAAAAB!!!!! Heheheeeeeeee! Ashoooooff jassommm egool 3anek film! Heheheheheeee! “
Faris replied laughing : “ heheheeee! Sheftay ana sh6ooly? Etgoolin chenna entay oo ana! Wala ma ayyee nusa! “
Shoug : “ heheheh agool agool! La tagleb ilmawtho3 e6naza 3alay! Aslan ana men safart enta 7addy 6elt! Hehehe “
Faris : “ eeee khair! Hehehe “
Shoug : “ hehe walla 6elt! Oo metant shway .. kobart hehehee! “
Faris : “ I Missed your smile! Oo the way you look .. walaht 3ala wayhich Shougo! “
I blushed : “ ana walaht 3alaik kellik .. “
Faris : “ 7abebeti entay! .. khalas al7een adezlich msg from my mobile .. oo engazzerha mms .. shrayech ? “
I blushed even more : “ enzain .. “
Faris : “ yala babe .. tamren 3ala shay? “
Shoug : “ eee .. “
Faris : “ what? “
Shoug : “ la etsedda .. “

I felt his smile ..
Shoug : “ la tetboosam! “
Faris : “ hehehe! ma taghayartaaaaay! Enshala I will call you as soon as I can ok? “
Shoug : “ ya3ne mo every day? “
Faris : “ ma athmen lich .. cause ehny looya shoug .. bas enshalla I will try my best … bas I promise you ena ma ag6a3 msgs ok? “
Shoug : “ khalas ok .. take care .. “
Faris : “ you too .. deer balich 3ala nafsech .. “
Shoug : “ khalas enshalla .. yala bye bye .. “
Faris : “ bye … “

I said quickly : “agoolik Faris! “
Fairs : “ hala? “
Shoug : “ shesma .. shlon iljaw 3endekom? Egolon bard! “
Faris : “ aha! Bekhsos ennch bedaitay et’alfeen mawathe3 bas 3alshan ma ensidda? “
I giggled : “ heheh .. shway! “
Faris : “ let me call you min my mobile 3ayal .. cause shefekny mn lsan hatha ! “
Shoug : “ khalas ok .. “

He closed the line .. and call after few minutes ..
I threw myself on the bed while saying : “ ahlaaaaan .. “
Faris : “ walaht 3alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaich! “
Shoug : “ ana ba3aaaaaaaaaaaaaaad! “
Faris : “ la etqalden the way im talking! “
Shoug : “ hehehe! khalas asfa ma a3eed’ha! “
Faris : “ hehehe ana hadaitch 3ajel! Channa khaffa 6entich shway? “
Shoug : “ hehehe egolooooon! “
Faris : “ hahahaaaaay! La la jad I love my old one .. “
Shoug : “ enta waink? Soot share3 yammek! “
Faris : “ eeh 6ali3 atmasha 7awaleena .. 3alshan agdar akalmch .. “
Shoug : “ la la red dakhel laybooqoonk mara thanya! “
Faris : “ hahahaaaay! Ya salam 3alaaaaaaaich! Ana elly ma 3endy salfa a7oos eb hal bard 3alshan akalmch .. yala yala bye ! “
Shoug : “ hehehe! khalas atob atob! Wala akher ga66a maleqa .. khalas wala arid the old one .. “
Faris : “ hehe .. ee kafo! “
Shoug : “ so .. how’s life? “
Faris : “ mmm .. good .. kilshay 7amdellah mashy zain .. after 2 months I will get back enshalla .. akher 12 .. a7is ilwaqt ga3ed yamshe sare3 .. 7amdellah our university feeha shway kuwaiteyyen .. oo gezar 3alaina ilwaqt entikhabat oo looya oo cham trip weya ilshabab oo midterms .. ya3ne 6ayef ilwaqt .. oo ashwa ana ma3ay jassom ensally ba3athna .. “
Shoug : “ yalah al7amdellah .. “
Faris : “ entay shlonch? Shloon il Kuwait? “
Shoug : “ kilshay zain al7amdellah .. im good .. “
Faris : “ shenu good? Sher7eely! Sarly shahrain madry 3ainch! What happened in your life in the last two months? “
Shoug “ well , the day you took off .. my life paused.. oo Now radait 7a6ait play .. “
Faris : “ hehehehe .. ya ba3ada’hooom .. “
Shoug : “ F .. “
Faris : “ yes babe? “
Shoug : “ tara I love you . “
Fairs : “ I love you too .. “

37 } ~

2010-08-01T13:56:00.002+03:00

** SHOUG**

Daydreaming has been my friends since Faris left to the US. And I broke his heart .. why some people rate daydreaming as a waste of time and emotion? Can’t they see the positive side of it? Its keeps me alive .. keeps me moving .. without daydreaming about Faris –mostly- I would totally get depressed! .. I love daydreaming about you Faris, specially the happy and pleasant thoughts of us being together ..

“ men yegool enny le ghairek? Ana lek manyyy leghairek! Ana met3alliq meseryy, ya 7ebebe fe meserak! ….. “
My mobile ringing cut my thoughts .. as I saw nouf’s number on the screen ..

Shoug: “ yes?”
Nouf: “ ha? “
Shoug : “ shtaben? Hehe! “
Nouf : “ let’s have lunch barra! I miss you! Emshay enrou7 ana weyach
oo fa6oom oo a7medo! “
Shoug : “ *coughing* eghbaaaaaar! “
Nouf : “way way! Shouguu a7ad gallech mn gabel ench baykha? “
I giggled while saying : “ hehehe! Kaifi kaifi! Maly ghairch astamleq 3alaih! “
Nouf : “ yala enrou7 netghada? “
Shoug : “ yala okay .. I will call a7medu oo entay call fa6ooma .. “
We closed the line , and I dialed a7medo’s number immediately ..

Shoug : “ heeelloo! “
A7med: “ hala hala! 3ash men sema3 hal sout!! “
Shoug : “ 3ash ghaliiiik! Wainkk enta ma tes’al wela edawwer? “
A7med : “ mawjoud walla! bas kil wa7ed lahy eb his own world! “
Shoug : “ eeh that’s right , agoolik .. emsh netghada bara ana weyak oo fa6om oo nouf .. “
A7med : “ wala shogu magdar! Emwa3ed rab3y 3endena li3eb koora at 4 oo al7en 3 ! ma yamdene .. “
Shoug : “ wee!! yallaaaaa 3ad wala I miss you!!! “
A7med : “ low gaylen abchar! 7asafa .. yalla elyayat akthar .. “
Shoug : “ ee inshala , agoolek .. did you talked to jassim and Faris men saferaw? “
A7med : “ mn sejich? Laish you didn’t talk to them? “
I felt awkward : “ mm .. la! Takhayyaal! Mobile mekhtereb kilmn edezli msgs ma yousloon! “
A7med : “ khalas .. I will send you their numbers now .. ok? “
Shoug : “ khalas ok! .. “
A7med : “ mo etgoolen mobilech ma yestaqbel msgs? “
Shoug : “ hehehe! A7medo chab! Dezhoum for nouf ok! “
A7med : “ hahahaaaay! Adre feech tefashaltay chan etchathbeen!
Khalas al7en yousloon lich! “
Shoug : “ hehehe! Chaknyy .. yala Noufo the other line .. bye! “

i pressed Swapp ..

Nouf : “ Shwaig! Fa6oom ma tegdar 3endaha wedding ! “
Shoug : “ a7medo ba3ad 3enda li3eb kora! “
Nouf : “ yala ana 6al3a mn iljam3a amorich .. ok?”
Shoug : “ hmm .. enzain yalah .. “

Libast a tight dirty pink dress oo let my hair down in a natural way , put on some make-up and head to the living room to tell my mom enny ba6la3 with Nouf.

We headed to water lemon – Marina mall.

Shoug : “ oo ba3dain? Mantay hada ur mobile? “
Nouf while smiling oo still ga6a ras’ha bil mobile : “ embala! Wait a minute! “
Shoug : “ baaaaas! Hedeeh!! Tara sej malait! “
Nouf : “ look at this!! “

She handed me her mobile .. wella a picture of well-built body that were perfectly tanned! Holding two small kids .. 3 and 4 years ashkalhoum ..

Shoug : “ WAY!! SHENUUUU HAL MAKHLOOOOQAT? “
Nouf : “ eeeh! That’s bader holding his nephews! Sale7 and Yousif! “
Shoug : “ wait a minute! .. hatha Dr.bader? “
Nouf nodded ..
Shoug : “ cuuuuute! Abaih hatha elly labis navy COPY mennah! “
Nouf giggled : “ yeah? I told him! 7ail yeshbahha! Although the One elly labis yellow il abyathany 3ala omah! Ya3ni bader oo his sister mayetshabahoon .. “
Shoug : “ sej lay galaw thelthain el walad 3ala khalah! .. eeh 3ady! Maybe bader abyath asasan bas he got tanned mn ilba7ar oo chethy .. aslant he’s perfectly tanned! Ashkara mo men allah! Loonah mo ma3qool 6abe3e! “
Nouf ekhme6at her mobile : “ GOUL A3OUTH BE RAB ILFALAAAAAQ! “
Shoug : “ hehehehe! Shda3wa! I won’t steal him Tara.. maybe aboog bo navy!
Wayyyyy cute! Hehehe “

We talked about everything ..
khalasna lunch oo re7na 7alaina in Chocolate bar ..
On the way back home ..

Shoug : “ agoolich .. I told a7medo enna abe number Faris and jassim menah .. because ma 3endy eyahom .. bas il akh ra7 yel3ab kora oo nesanyy! “
Nouf : “ wentay laish ma 3endch number jassom? Uhwa daz msg gabel shahar maybe ! “
Shoug : “ really? Ma wesalny shay!! “
Nouf : “ weird! .. hach take it .. “
I dialed his number ..
Shoug : “ way ma et7ebeen il rana ildowaleya? Etshaweqni! “
Noufo giggled .. : “ maynona? “

Jassim picked the line : “ alo? “
Shoug : “ JASSSSSSOM! “
Jassim : “ who’s this? “
Shoug : “ ANA? ANA! “
Jassim : “ menu entay entay? “
I giggled : “ hehe! JASSSSSSSOM! Ana akthar wa7da et7ebik bil Kuwait! “
Jassim : “ hehe! Wayed elly e7ebony khalsene menu? “
Shoug : “ heheheheeeee! Waaaay etheeeeeeqaaa! Ana Shougggg! “
Jassim : “ SHOUGO! laish tawch edegeeeen? Ana mo dazlekom msg mn shahar oo nos? “
Shoug : “ tawa noof etgoole! I didn’t receive your msg wala!! Ma wesally shay!! “
Jassim : “ I don’t know wala .. sorry ma 3araftch bas emghayer my mobile oo ma3a fat7 il kha6 mastaw3abt ilraqam … “
Shoug : “ that’s ok! .. enta shloonk? Maby a6awel 3alaik! “
Jassim : “ 7abebti wala! Ana zain el7amdellah .. wanasa ehnyy walla! sej enna thay3een! Bas tawna emkhalsen ente5abat il ete7ad oo ta3arafna 3ala wayd shabab oo ilwath3 mashy a7sn men elly haqaita! “
Shoug : “ yalah ashwa 7amdellah .. Faris shloona? Did he sent a msg ba3ad? Ma wesally shay? “
Jassim : “ faros? Kaaaaaaaaak film hal ensan walla! “
I smiled : “ laish laish? “
Jassim : “ wesalna sheqatna wela ib etefalshaf wegool barou7 achayek 3ala ilman6aqa 7oolna .. chan eboqoona! Hahaha takhayelay shougo bagaw booka oo his mobile! Ma 3enda la be6aqa madaneya wela bank cards oo his SIM dakhel ilbook ba3ad! Hehehe tebaaaaaaahthal! hehehehe “
Shoug : “ 7ARAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM!! Maytha7eeeeeek!! “
Jassim : “ wala emawt the7ek! Damik mu qad’ha shako ray7 etefalsaf? .. 3ad yallah 5athala shahar yemkin 3ala ma sanan3 awtha3a .. ra7 algha kil il bank cards oo re7na ilsafara oo loya loya 6oweela 3areetha hatha zyada ena asasan tawna waslen fa already thay3een! “
Shoug : “ hehehe yala mekhalif! Aham shay now entaw zainen? “
Jassim : “ la 7amdellah! Eb a7san 7aal .. wait kahu kahu yaaa .. “

I heard Faris from the back : “ menu hatha? “

Jassim : “ haaaaak nas 7elwen mn ilkuwait daqeen eghazlona! Hehehe! “

I whispered to Noufo : “ NO NO NO!! JASSOM EB YA36ENE FARIS!!!!!!!! “
Noufu whispered back : “ sekeh sekeh ! saway rou7ch eng6a3 ilkha6!! “

I took a breath ..
I was about to press the red bottom ..

Faris : “ hmm.. alo? “

Shoug : “ I missed your voice …..“

36 }~

2010-07-30T01:16:00.002+03:00

Hours passed by .. and I was still holding my Mobile so close to my heart waiting for Dr. Bader to call me .. tell 3 .. I let me mobile down and fell a sleep ..

The weekend passed slowly .. while me still hopelessly waiting for him to call! I didn’t touch the midterm material! Ma ba6alt il ketab! I wasn’t in mood to study .. makan lie kholq afakker feeh
oo eb madetah ..

Sunday morning ..

I tucked into my favorite dark blue jeans with a colorful long sleeves loose shirt .. let my hair down in a big waved –the way he likes it!- and get into my car ..
I entered the class without looking at him .. took the papers from the secretary ely kanat etraqebna ..
I wrote my name while thinking : “ khalisaw el secretaries eyeb hathy ely et7eba? Laish ga3ed esaweli chethy? “
I managed to write few things down .. after 15 mins I gave him the paper ..

Dr. Bader said with a grin on his face : “ khalastay? That was fast mashala! “

I gave him a look while whispering : “ if a passed this course , I’ll be glad! “

His smile faded : “ of! Why? “

I walked away without saying a world to him ..
I dialed shoug’s ..

Nouf : “ omg! Shoguuuu! “

Shoug : “ whaaat? “

Nouf : “ Dr. Bader = jerk! “

Shoug : “ wupsiiii! Whyyyy? “

Nouf : “ bas! “

Shoug : “ faj’a? “

My voice starts shivering : “ god .. men..qah..ra!! Im .. so .. mad! “

Shoug : “ Nouff!! 7abebty! Shfech? Shenu sar!! “

I told her what happened ena dazaitlah email oo ena he sent me his number oo he didn’t call!

Shoug : “ mmmmm! Enzain I wouldn’t judge you even though I don’t want you to call him le’any a7is you should know him better then fall for him , bas after all kaifech that’s ur life .. anyways , maybe kan yen6erich you edegen? Or maybe kan 3enda sheghel .. “

Nouf : “ Shouguuuu! Elyoom yetsarraf chana mafy shay sayer!! Takhayelay!! Luw ohwa mo kashet oo yan6erny adeg chan sa’alne!! Chan bayan 3alaih ena madqooor !! “

Shoug : “ well , I dunno Noufo .. ne6ray you’ll find out hal yoomain laish ma dag .. “

I saw him walking toward me .. So, I just kept talking on the phone with Shoug and didn’t bother myself to look at him .."

Nouf : “ ee aked! Enshaalla sure I wil show up! “

Shoug : “ ok! Someone lezag feech! Haha! “

I giggled : “ heheh! Yeeesss! Exactly! “

Dr. Bader : “ Talk to me .. “

His manly Armani Perfume washed my lungs .. I just couldn’t help my self .. I took a deep breath .. while saying good bye to Shoug ..

Nouf : “ Shougii .. I will call you later ok ? yala bye bye .. “

Shoug yawned while saying : “ aaaaah … okkk babes! .. bye bye .. “

I closed the line while saying calmly to him : “ Yes? “

Dr. Bader : “ why are you mad ? “

Nouf : “ Im not mad! “

Dr. Bader : “ 3ayal? What do you call this frowned eye browses? “

My heart smiled on his remark ..

Nouf : “ I’m Not mad .. I’m just disappointed .. you said you will call me later on night , oo I waited for 3 days and you didn’t call!! What that suppose to mean? “

Dr. Bader : “ I got busy Nouf .. wala il3athem I got so busy ma amdane .. makent aby adeglich bu 10 mins oo aseda .. kent aby asoolif weyach ellail eb 6oolah .. bas I got busy with midterms oo grades oo homework .. “

I cut him off : “ I wanna get FA! “

The shock tight his tongue .. : “ Nouf? WHY! “

Nouf : “ Because I don’t wanna attend you classes anymore! I don’t wanna See you! “

I took 2 steps to the back .. while my small nose start turning into cherry red ..

Nouf : “ ma aby ashoofik anymore .. men il bedaya kilshay ghala6! Men il badaya! “

He touched my fingers gently and said tenderly : “ Noufa .. I didn’t mean it .. “

I felt so weak from inside ..

Nouf : “I don’t know you! I just don’t! ma3arf 3anek shay! That’s mess! “

Bader : “ come with me .. yalla lets go to my office oo I’ll tell you everything about me .. ok? “

Nouf : “ why you didn’t call Bader? “

It felt weird .. calling him Bader .. without Dr. aw any sign of respect ..

He smiled : “ my name sounds nice mennich .. “

I smiled back : “ answer me? “

Bader : “ can you let this go? 3alashane? “

I nodded while walking with him to his office ..

We sat down .. ordered coffe .. and starts talking about our lives ..
hours passed by chenha degeega ..

Bader : “ shagoolech ba3ad? “

I giggled : “ ba3ad ba3ad .. I didn’t get enough from you! “

Bader : “ bas wala nouf .. I told you everything about me .. 2 boys me and my bigger brother Ahmed , I have one sister Maha o 3endaha 2 Kids Yousif And Saleh she’s divorced fa sakna weyana ehya oo e3yalha .. 3ady I have normal dad and mom , I work here bil jam3a .. I drive Black Cayenne .. I hate fast food! I don’t drink soft drinks .. I smoke .. Im quite akrah lez3aj 3aks ahaly elly kilwa7ed fanan bil 7ana oo ilez3aj oo el khbaaal .. “

His mobile ringing cut our conversation ..

“ Maha.”

He said while smiling : “ kaaahom ahalyy bedaitay etshofeen 7anat’houm oo ez3ajhoum! “

I giggled ..

Dr.Bader : “ Hala Maha .. eeh bel jam3a .. elyoom? La magdar! Rou7aw ebrou7kom! La laish? .. aha ok .. I will see! Faman allah .. “

He closed the line while saying : “ oooooooh! Nesait ena ilyoom il a7ad .. our family gathering .. 3aizaaaaaaaaaaaaan! “

Nouf : “ bil3aks! I love family gathering .. I used to gather everyday taqreban with my cousins elly geltlik 3anhoum .. bas min safaraw athneena menhoum .. a7is we are not the old ones 7asafa .. “

He said loudly: “ akkkkkkkkkkkkrah il family gathering! “

I giggled : “ set next to someone you love oo gazzerha suwalif laima etkhallis elyam3a .. “

Bader : “ hehe eee shakli chethy .. “

Nouf : “ and who’s the lucky beloved one? “

He said softly : “ You. “

I blushed : “ hehe! Shewadene yam3atkom! “

Bader : “ la I will text you all the time , laima etkhalis elyam3a .. akhalich tet7asefain laish you gave me your number! “

I giggled while saying : “ luckyyy me! 3ady mara7 at7assaf! You more than welcome .. “

Bader: “ khalas 3ayal .. I will go to my gathering oo you go 7ag your classes .. oo bainah texts .. ok? “

I nodded : “ ok .. “

Bader : “ yala baba let’s go .. “

And he opened the office door gently for me ..

35 } ~

2010-07-29T15:48:00.002+03:00

Extra Long post for your souls! ;*

** NOUF **

I start running in the hall way,
resisting the urge to get back to his office and … and … I don’t know!
I can’t define shenu bil thab6 .. I like him so much , yet I don’t a tinny little thing about his life!!

I headed To Shoug’s House .. I miss her so much! Maly shoghel feeha! I don’t care , I will always be her side no matter what , 7eta law mal’ha kholqe .. I will be there for her ..

I knocked on her door .. It was so quite .. Everything seemed missed up! .. il dar 3afsa oo thalma ..
I lifted her cover gently while kissing her head ..
Nouf : “ babe .. “ Tears starts running coldly on her cheeks ..
She broke my heart …. Latterly! BROKE .. MY .. HEART … I just hugged her tight .. while whispering : “ uuuuush! That’s ok .. that’s ok .. I’m here for you shoug .. ta3awethay mn eblis .. “

We went outside the house , abee etghayyer jaw .. re7na temashaina .. hatharna .. she seemed lost bas Strong ashwa ..
I start blabbing about Dr.Bader ..

Nouf : “ agoooolich he flirted 3ala my yellow dress! Shfech entay! He likes me!! “

Shoug : “ hatha proper comment ballah 3alaich? “

I stormed : “ EEEEH!! SHFEEH YA3NIIIII?? 7aram 3alaich magal shayyyy!! It depends 3ala tafkerich! “

She said calmly : “ noufo deer balich! Shakla kellish mo hayyen! Plus I didn’t accept the idea of loving your professor! “

WHAT!!! 3ADAL!!

Nouf : “ agooooool 3adal! Loving your cousin arqa3 ya3ne? “

She giggled : “ malat 3alaina! Ma arda men ilmarbou6 ella el meftelet! “

We start laughing about normally stupid things .. a7is enna we’re back .. the old friends ..
Sharaina Mcdonalds and headed back to her house ..
Gabel la tanzel .. I whispered : “ Shougg .. “
She replied while eating her crispy golden fries : “ hmmmm? “

Nouf : “ Dr… bader .. gave me .. shesma .. “

Shoug yelled : “ A KISSSSSSSSSSSSSSS? “

Nouf : “ besmellah! Masra3!! Laaaaa! Wain ga3den!! Shesalfa! Hahahaha! “

She choked : “ haha! 3abalyyyyyy! Wala athbe7ich! Et7ebly eyah mn esbo3ain oo she gets a kiss .. oo ana a67as mn sentain 3ala shenu? Hehehehe “

We start laughing so hard ..

Nouf : “ hahah .. laaaaa! He gave me ,.. hahaha .. Sunday’s Exam! Hehehe .. “

Shoug eyes winded : “ WHAT? “

She put her coca cola down while saying : “ 3eday 3eday! He gave you Sunday’s exam? Ya3ne 3a6ach emte7ankom ely eb ta5thona after few days? Ya3ni .. ghasheshech!! “

I nodded with fear on my eyes .. : “ eemm .. “

She covered her mouth .. shocked! As I expected for sure!
Shoug : “OH MY GOD!!!!! YOU ARE SO LYING!!!!!!! “

Nouf : “ wallah il3atheem!! I swear!! I went to his office as’ela 3an shaghla , wela egooli questions el exam!! Walah!! I didn’t ask him to do that! Uhwa ebrou7a gal besa3edny because he likes me!! “

Shoug : “ ABAAAAAAIH! HE’S SO CUTTTTE! “

Nouf : “ abaih bas shougo that’s so wrong muu? “

Shoug : “ I guess , bas shako ya3ne he gave it you .. you didn’t do anything wrong ya3ne .. uhwa elly ghal6an not you! Even if anyone found out! .. uhwa elly 3a6ach .. you didn’t steal it ya3ne .. did you? “

Nouf : “ hehehe! LAAAAA! No way!! “

Shoug said while getting out of my car : “ hehehe dirsay 3adel mo etfashleena! Ham emghasheshech ham stupid! “

I giggled : “ huh, yala yala nezlay ebser3a I wanna go fast home 3alshan araje3! Hahaha! “

I clicked on the “RADIO” sign ..While heading back home ..
Ilmothe3: 3oumrik fakart eb a7ad oo matadry shel sebab? Eb kil mawqef .. eb kil 7azza .. telga nafsek sar7an feeh .. laish ya tara? Es’al nafsek hal so’al .. laish ga3ed etfakker feeh? ..
I smiled ..
“ a7ibak laih ana madry? Oo laih ahwak ana , madre? .. oo lay marat 3alay thekrak? Efiiizzz enabth fe sadreey .. “

I whispered : “ I miss you .. I really missed your voice dr. bader .. I don’t know what’s happening to me .. I really don’t know .. “

I got back home , dawart eb my file .. found the syllabus paper with his E-mail on it ..

To: Dr.Bader@Gust.Kw
Title: hi
Hello Dr. Bader , Shlounek?? .. I just wanted to thank you 3ala ur help today .. it wasn’t necessary walah .. thanks so much .. and I will study hard inshala : )
NOUF.

I clicked send ..

And went to take a shower .. a7is etha jabalt il laptop ra7 astekhef .. khal alahy rou7y shwayya .. 3ala ma erid .. I turned after 10 mins to the laptop ..
The Inbox was … 0 messages
I felt disappointed ..

*dideng*
I smiled : “ yeeeeeeey! New Email! “

To: Nouf
Title: Hey!
Ahleen Nouf .. you’re most welcome. Good luck : )

I stared at the laptop screen .. ok? That’s it? That’s all what I get for thanking you? I’m hitting on you!! Ya3ne efham!! Omg!

To: Dr.Bader@Gust.kw
Title: Hey!
What’s wrong with you? Laish emnaffis 3alay!

My fingers were shivering so hard when I pressed send to this email ..
I was scared and mad .. shfeeh emnafis 3alay?

After few mins ..

To: Nouf
Title: Hey!
Emnafis? .. nothing! I’m upset about something ..

7abebeeeeeeeee! ;’*

To: Dr.Bader@Gust.Kw
Title: Hey!
Ely uhwa? .. tell me .. I will be glad to help you out ..

To: Nouf
Title: Hey!
I have leave the Laptop for now , call me after 2 hours .. 3ala il 12 .. and I will have time to explain everything .. ok? Its 99***** ..

I got horrified by this idea! .. I can’t call him! .. I can’t do this .. abaih! Akhaf! Akhaf!

To: Dr.Bader@Gust.Kw
Title: Hey!
What? No no .. I can’t call you Dr. Bader , I’m sorry .. I will talk to you later on this week .. but I just can’t call you ..

After mins of gaspomps ..

To: Nouf
Title: Hey!
oh Sorry!! I thought I was special! .. as you want Nouf, don’t call me .. don’t stand by my side when I really need you..

DAMN! Why why why!! He have his magical way of making me feel really guilty!!

To: Dr.Bader@Gust.Kw
Title: Hey!

Khalas .. la tez3al! I’m sorry .. call me meta ma khalast your work .. I don’t wana disturb you .. 9*** .. : )

To: Nouf
Title: Hey!
Xoxo!

My eyes smiled ..

his “xoxo” lightened my life ..

34} ~

2010-07-28T16:16:00.002+03:00

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH GIRLS!! :*

** NOUF **

Few weeks passed by ..
And my love for Dr. Bader starts growing bigger and bigger in my heart..

Dr.Bader : “ so girls , Sunday ra7 ekoon the first midterm ..
Study hard and get good grades for me .. ok ? “

I was collecting my books oo mobile oo a7e6’houm eb my big Gucci bag.
I went to his disk eb awal il class ..

Nouf : “ excuse me Dr. .. bas’elik about this one .. “
Pointing 3ala question number 3 bil exercise akher il chapter ..

“ give me .. ashoof! “ he reached for my book while touching my tips gently .. I shivered ..
I let a quite giggle ,I felt flirted .. so flirted .. he gave me a half smile with a dazzling look ..

“ etha7ik? “ he whispered .. I nodded while saying : “ shway! .. “

The girls were crowds around us .. but still he managed to make me feel special! 7assait henna we were in a bubble .. mako 7olna wela a7ad! Only me .. and him ..

Dr.Bader : “ hatha em6awwel shar7a! come to me after the class in my office hours .. “

I nodded while taking my book from his hands : “ mm .. khalas okay dr. thank you! “

I walked to the bathroom .. fixed my makeup , took a quick shower with my perfume! And head to his office ..

I whispered deep in my heart : “ GOD! I’m doing something wrong sa7? .. I can’t resist him! Emshaweqnyyy!! I just can’t back off! 7ail 3ajebni .. what would harm me to take steps forward? Ya3ni he’s so cuuuute! Oo dr. oo 3oumra zain oo everything perfect! Laish ma a7iba? Laish I feel so guilty about it? .. yeah! Maybe 3alashan I didn’t talk about it with anyone! .. I will head today for shougo oo I’ll chit chat about my crazy crush! Oo akeed it will make me feel better about this .. “

I knocked on his door ..
Nouf : “ hello? “

Dr.Bader : “ come Inn .. “

I entered his tiny office .. and his face just glow up when he spotted me ..

Dr . Bader: “ NOUF!! “

I smiled : “eeeh! Hehehe! “

Dr. Bader : “ come! 7ayach .. “

I blushed : “ allah e7ayik .. I just wanted to ask about Question three! Getli enna 6oweela il answer so lazm aye to ur office? “

I love to play that naïve kid jedamah! I knew it enna mu emnadeny to his disk 3alashan ejaweb sou’al! .. bas makent aby abayenlhaa enna ana fahma .. egoloon it’s smart to play dumb sometimes?

Dr. Bader : “ yeah! Right .. give me your email , and I’ll send you the exam! “

My heart skipped a beat : “ Wh..wha .. what? The exam? “

He laughed 3ala my face : “ hehe! Shfeech chethy masdooma? Yes! The exam! “

Nouf : “ no! abaih 3aib! No no .. abaih! No ! fashla! La mo hatha qasde!! .. which exam? Sunday’s exam! Oh my god!!!!! “

Dr. Bader : “ Nouf! Shfech? Calm down!! .. khalas .. I wouldn’t send it to you! .. sem3ay .. where’s your book? .. 7e6ay .. page 200 Question 8 .. page 170 Question 29 .. page 120 Question 3 .. “

I start pointing 3ala il ashya elly ga3ed egoolha .. afta7 il page oo a7e6 check yam elly egoola .. while my heart was etching me so hard!

Dr. Bader : “ khalas? “

Nouf : “ omg! That was scaryyyyyyy! “

Dr. Bader : “ haha! Laish? “

Nouf : “ cause omg! Wala il3athem I just came to ask you about question number 3 .. mo to get il exam eb kobrah!! Awal mara eserly shay chethy eb my life!! .. okay ana sam3a ena drs iljam3a e7laiwen .. bas mo chethyyyyyyy! “

Dr. Bader : “ la mn gallch e7laiwen? They are not e7laiwen! Bas ma3a ely edeshon mazajhoum eseron ghair .. “

He said that while picking sama3at il phone oo dialing a number!
I didn’t know what to replay .. “ edeshoon mazajhoum”? ana dasha mazaja ya3ne? .. what that suppose to mean aslan!!
He ignored my questioning eyes ..
oo sawa rou7a lahy eb papers jedamah while talking with his secretary I guess!
A7iissa bas bege6 3alay ilkelma oo e5alene agoolebha eb rasy ..
he don’t want me to answer ..

“ Nouf .. “

He brought me back to reality .. : “ hala? “

Dr. Bader: “ bashawrich eb shaghla .. “

Nouf : “ sure? “

Dr. Bader : “ there is a secretary here .. ely laima tedkhelen etkon 3ala yemenich .. she always set bil disk ell y yamme 3end dr. Yousif oo tetkalam eb loud voice .. I hate loud voices .. akrah il az3aj! .. kilyoom kilyoom teg3ad 3endah oo taqreq .. I can’t concentrate menha! .. tell yesterday I shouted on her! Getlaha az3ajteeeeeena!! Bas sektay! .. I felt ina I hurt her feelings .. bas ehya allah ehadaha 24 sa3a tetmasha jedame oo etsarekh oo taz3ejne! I hate this! Bas ham ma a7b asarekh .. I hate being rude to someone .. “

Nouf : “ 7araaaaam! .. okay goulaha sorry! .. ya3ni e3tether menha .. goulaha inna I was under stress oo ga3d a7e6 il exams oo entay la5ba6teeny fa I shouted on you! “

Dr. Bader : “ I would never apologize for anyone! No way!! Ensay! .. ehya moz3eja sej! “

I giggled :” heheh .. she likes you! Sorry ya3ni .. bas she likes you! She wants you attention! Ga3ed tetmasha jedamik oo etsarekh bil disk elly yamek oo etzefha oo still ma taghayerat 3alaik .. she likes you! “

Dr. Bader : “ how did you knew that eb degega wa7da? “

Nouf : “ common! Ya3ni fe ashya wath7a! ma te7taj tafker … elly enta ga3ed etgoolah .. ashkara she likes you! “

Dr . Bader : “ it took my 1 year to notice that! Oo entay eb one minute chakaiteeha? “

I felt proud of myself enna I’m smart!
Meanwhile , I felt so jealous! Abaih shaaaaaako she likes him!

Nouf : “ hehe! Madry .. girls know each other maybe! “

Dr. Bader : “ so? Shrayich? “

Nouf : “ etha she likes you fa 7aram la tadqerha oo taksir galb’ha .. say sorry aw be nice to her .. make it up for her .. “
I said that while a7tereg mn dakheeeeeel ..
I wanted to bunch her in the face! He’s mine!!

Dr. Bader : “ ahh .. I guess so .. “

Nouf : “ yalah I have to go to my class , thank you for the help .. “

Dr. Bader : “ Nouf ..... did anyone told you before? “

Nouf : “ about? “

Dr. Bader : “ how this yellow flow dress brings your figure out? “

I took a step to the back , while blushing so hard : “ hehe! Th..ank .. you! “

Dr. Bader : “ la wala jad! I’m so damn serious! .. that dress mafrooth ahalich maykhalonch
te6le3en feeh! “

I felt a little offended by that! : “ why! Shfeh? It’s tall and flow! “

Dr. Bader : “ and breath taking! “

Oh my god! I can’t handle this ..
I want to fall hardly for you! Magdar chethy ..
a7ibek bas ma a7ibek ..

Nouf : “ hehe! Well .. mashkoor! Be3yonek! “

Dr. Bader : “ Nouf .. that’s so wrong! “

Nouf : “ sheno ? “ I felt my hands shivering and my cheeks burning ..

Dr. Bader : “ falling for you! Mayser .. I’m your professor .. I can’t be so obsessive with your sharp wide brown eyes .. I can’t let my heart chase yours .. Nouf! I can’t imagine myself smelling your dazzling big waves .. mayser! “

He covered his face nervously .. while taking a big breath ..

Nouf : “ gosh! That’s too much to take! .. I don’t know what to say! I don’t know anything about you dr. bader .. “

He let a sweet giggled out : “ lel7een etnadeny dr. bader? Bas! “

I blushed : “ what? Shanadeek ya3ne! “

Dr. Bader : “ rou7ay classich ya bnaya! “

I giggled while walking away : “ hehe yeah! Atwaga3 a7san! “

33 } ~

2010-07-26T15:53:00.003+03:00

Months start passing by ..
While I was still stuck eb nafs ilmokan ..
Lel7en olah 3ala Faris everyday .. every minute ..
I would fake a laugh to avoid the question “what’s wrong? “ which came so attached to me ..
Kilma a7ad esalem 3alay or eshofny 3ala 6ooool yes’alni what’s wrong ..
So I just tried to fake the perfect image which everyone wants from me!

I cut msn from my life .. sirt ma a7eb adesha .. cus ta3abt oo ana andeger ..
I used to stay online for 24/7 with no sign for Faris ..
Even though I’m the one who broke up with him , it wasn’t easy because 3oumrah makan hal break up shay ana ekhtarta! It was something enfarath 3alay ghasoob! So I didn’t find the right way to deal with this .. Faris za3lan 3alay .. mom pushing me so hard .. Nouf falling in love with her dr.!

Going to Nouf .. I’ll steal few posts from my story , to talk about her story from her perspective .. it would be better , write?
So,

*** NOUF ***

It started the Day elly 7a6 reela 3ala e3tebat il bab!
His tanned skin , His muscular shoulders .. the way he laughs .. the way his dazzling eyes glow whenever mayser bainnah eye contact ..
I wasn’t dreaming ..
I kept staring at my Note .. sketching dresses .. smiles .. flowers .. B ..
B .. B .. B .. I just kept writing B’s in a messy way .. I wrote the number 29 in the middle ..
I love men elly 3oumerhoum akher il 20’s .. a7is eshba3aw men ildenya oo they are real men .. mu boys! MEN! .. men to fall in love with .. to marry ..

He said : “ YOU! THE ONY WITH YELLOW FLOW DRESS!! “

The girl next to me whispered : “ eklmach il dr.!!! “

I raised my head : “ ye? Yes?? Ana? “

Dr. Bader : “ LA ANA!! .. sarlich sena shtakteben? Ana gilt shay yenketb? “

Damn! I suppose to hate the way ur talking to me .. right?
You’re so cuuuuuuute! I’m sorry don’t be maddd! ..

I whispered : “ sorry.. “

Dr.Bader : “ tadren enna awraq el syllabus wagfa 3endch mn sa3a!!! “

I nodded while taking one oo passes it to the girl next to me .. : “ asfa .. “

He kept talking about things us wil be covering this course oo meta il exams oo blah blahh …

I walked barra slowly .. I felt heavy .. a7is eny lost ..
I scanned the place with my eyes .. GOD! I miss jassim so much , kan gayelly bedish Gust with me ..

……. “ Shway ba3ad ethnich! “

I jumped .. : “ besmelah! “

Dr. Bader said in a sarcastic way : “ entay kela chethy lost in ur own world? “

I smiled sweetly to him : “ hehe! Sorry! “

Dr. Bader : “ Freshmen ha? “

I nodded : “ so obvious? “

Dr. Bader : “ offff! .. give me .. give me ur schedule .. “
fahamny kil class waina , oo gally brief 3an kil dr. makhtha 3enda .. he was sweet ..

Nouf : “ mashkor wayid dr. ma gassart! “

Dr. Bader : “ you’re welcome Nouf .. next time entabhay weyay bil class , I dunt ike to shout 3ala someone on public .. ma a7b a7rej .. “

I nodded : “ yes inshala! Goodbye .. “

I walked away .. with my heart beating so fast ..
I called Shoug , but she didn’t picked up ..
I was mad at her aked .. bas for sure, bas on the same time kasra kha6ry ..
I want her to take her time grieving 3ala faris oo kilshay sar bainhoum ..
I wish I can help.

he came from the other side men il mamar ..

Dr. Bader : “ bassseeeech sara7an! “

I turned his side : “ hehe! Mu sar7ana! Ga3da afakkir! “

He gave me a sexy half smile : “ la walla? Oo shel farg? “

Nouf : “ I dunno , ghair! A7is laima tesra7 you’re thinking of nothing! Balek fathy .. bas ga3da afakker enna eb baly things oo ga3da afakker fehoum .. “

Dr. Bader : “ mmmm .. things? Such as? “

I felt weird .. I wasn’t ready yet to open up with him .. plus he’s my dr. oo ezyada 3ala hatha enna I’m not this type of girls ..

Nouf : “ things .. anyways , I have to go .. “

Dr. Bader : “ wain wain? Ur next class after one hour .. “

Nouf : “ I dunno barou7 ashof wain il class! “

Dr. Bader : “ sa3a kamla etshofen wain il class? You’re so weird 3ala fekra! “

Nouf : “ No I’m not weird .. bas I feel awkward right now , this is so not me! “

Dr. Bader : “ and "this is ".. goes to ? enna wagfa etkalmen ur dr.? “
GOD! Why did he put it this way!

Nouf : “ I dunno dr. they way ell yenta etgool’ha a7is that’s ok .. bas madry a7is mo 7elwa ogaf asoolef .. fashla .. ur my doctor .. “

He giggled 3ala my innocent way of thinking : “ fashla? Yazeench! “

I blushed .. YA ZEENIK ENTA WALA! ..

Nouf : “ yala goodbye dr. I have to go now .. “

Dr. Bader : “ as you like .. bas remember , I’m not only your dr. I can be your friend too .. “

I nodded : “ hehehehe .. I will always remember that .. thank you Dr. .. “

And from that moment,
I started adoring you so much bader .. I started adoring you.

32 }~

2010-07-14T23:40:00.004+03:00

Mathkir shenu libast .. elly eb wayhi sa7abt’ha oo lebasta ..

Nouf start mumbling : “ First with the stinky oily hair oo now hal halaga! Matgolele oo ba3dain? Tara athaiteeeeny! Met oo ana asanne3 feeeeech! “

She really made me laugh : “ heheh chub noufoo tara wala sij male khelq malaqtich .. “

Nouf : “ khalas khalas imshay I will take you to somewhere mafeeh a7ad .. fashla eshofoonch enas chethy! Heheh “

I giggled while pushing her shoulder ..
On the road ..
I was scanning the road with my sharp wide eyes ..
I missed his smell .. 7ail ..

I whispered : “ Noufa .. shasawey? “

She touched my cold fingers gently : “ about Faris? “

I nodded ..

she said calmly : “ shenu beedich shoug? .. it’s a matter of time atwagga3 .. le’ana laima yetkharaj he will come back to you .. oo your mom mara7 etridda .. so kil ilsalfa wagt .. sebray .. oo allah mara7 ethaye3 sabrich .. just calm down .. live your life .. oo everything will gonna be ok .. I promise .. “

Shoug : “ bas I miss him nouf .. I miss him so much! “

Nouf : “ Shay 6abe3e Shougu .. ilsalfa tawa sayra oo eb 7ararat’ha .. calm now .. fake a smile .. oo ba3ad ilwagt sej you’ll be okay oo your smile will genuine mo tamtheel … “
Her words make sense to me .. ya3ni ana shenu eb eedy asaweh?

Shoug : “ enzain should I call him? Text him? “

Nouf : “ mmm .. I dunno sara7a! I depend on you guys .. bas for now? Ma3teqed ena you’re ready wela uhwa .. take your time shougo .. it’s a love story you should enjoy it .. mu ghasob 6eeb .. ya3ni luw ilthoroof now mo emsa3datkom .. let it go for a while .. oo everything will turns to be ok later .. bas low now thagha6tay 3ala roo7ch oo thagha6tay 3alaih .. maybe it will be worse! “

Shoug : “ you’re absolutely right .. bas godddd! i miss his face so much noufooooo!! .. bas walla I will try my best .. specially enna I didn’t do anything wrong .. ya3ni kil ilmoshkela mafeha wallah cheating wella shay elly eza3elny … 3la qooltch it’s a matter of time ..”

She kissed my hand : “ 7abebty takseren ilkha6er .. “

I giggled : “ heheh maliqaaaa! .. soooo, watts up? Shlonch entay? “

Nouf : “ im good .. im so falling for this cutie pieeeee shougoo! Mu gadra ! “

I rolled my eyes : “ ayyy cutie pie? “

Nouf : “ kil marra athakrich? DR.BADER!! for the million time agolich!! “

Shoug : “ abaih mo gadra astaw3eb enna men sejich! .. are you serious about him? “

Nouf : “ HELL YAAAAAAA!! 3ayal laish bashta6? “

Shoug : “ I dunno! Shloon ilwath3 sayer? “

Nouf : “ first of all , you should never .. and I mean NEVER! Forget that he’s extra handsome ..
he’s a mixture of Mexican style tanned skin, dimples , and shoulders all the way .. oo Kuwaiti style eb khof il6eena oo eslooba eshaweq plus he’s so caring shougo!! Abaih e3amelny ghair 3anhoum .. he has feelings toward me I guess ya3ni .. “

She got my full attention now!…
Shoug : “ shloooooooon? “

Nouf : “ he looks at me all the time laima yeshra7 .. and he keeps calling me to his office 3ala salfa oo bedoon salfa! Marat aroo7la bas esoolif! Ya3ni maygoolle shay 3an il lecture .. and he comments about my outfit sa3at .. bas In a proper way ya3ni! .. et3arfeen my yellow flow dress? “

I nodded : “ eehh? “

Nouf : “ e7eeeeeba! He told me enna it looks so cute on me .. oo it brings my figure out .. “

Shoug : “ hatha proper comment ballah 3alaich? “

She stormed : “ EEEEH!! SHFEEH YA3NIIIII?? 7aram 3alaich magal shayyyy!! It depends 3ala tafkerich! “

I said calmly : “ noufo deer balich! Shakla kellish mo hayyen! Plus I didn’t accept the idea of loving your professor! “

Nouf : “ agooooool 3adal! Loving your cousin arqa3 ya3ne? “

I giggled : “ malat 3alaina! Ma arda men ilmarbou6 ella el meftelet! “

We both start laughing 3ala our luck! Shal bakhat? Why we didn’t crushed into random guys in the street oo started a cute love story? Laish en7eb il love ilstories elly start in a complicated ground?

Nouf : “ etsadgeen abaih shougo all the girls mayteen 3alaih! Bas he’s so straight! Noo3ah edaaaqer! 7etan ana .. ma ya36eene wayh wayed .. elly e7laiw ok .. bas mo khafef .. “

I smiled : “ ya7leelah! I wanna see him .. “

Nouf : “ enshalla you will .. “

Shoug : “really .. when? “

Nouf : “ eb our wedding! Hehehe! “

Shoug : “ heheh ma6yoooooooora! egoloon iltheqeeeeel san3a! “

Nouf: " ya 3ammeteeeeee! wana agool il theqel ba3daaain! hehehehe! "

we start laughing so hard about simple things ..
i guess .. ga3da arid 6abe3eya shway ..
ga3da astaw3eb elly ga3id eserly oo trying so hard to deal with it bedal il sleeping 24/7 ..

31} ~

2010-07-12T01:54:00.002+03:00

VIVA LA SPAIN FARIS! :*

My voice just ditched me!
I wanted to say anything .. just replay his greets ..
Nothing is coming out of my mouth ..

Faris : “ aloo? Shoug? “

Shoug : “ h-hala w-waal-lla .. “

Fairs : “ 7abebty! Shfech? “

My voice was shivering .. and my heart was beating so fast ..

Shoug : “ don’t call me 7abebty faris .. don’t .. call .. “

Faris : “ Shougiiii! What’s wrong with you? Shfeech? Lat5ar3eeny 3alaich! “

I whispered : “ 7abebe don’t make it harder on me .. “

Faris : “ ya shoug cham marra agoolich its gonna be okay! Don’t worry .. I will always be on your side .. no matter what .. no matter where .. you’ll be always in my heart shoug .. “

Shoug : “ ana adry adry!! You have been always so good to be true! I knew it!! “

I start crying for the first time infront of faris ..
I would have little tears jedammah or at3abbar .. bas it’s the first time where I start crying
honestly from the depth of my lungs ..

Faris : ” SHOUUUUUUUUG!! LA ETSE7EEEEN! WALLA OO GHALATICH MA AROU77777! WALA MA AROU7!! STOP CRYING 7ABEBETYYYY ENTAYY! KELLISH WELA EDMOU3CH! MA AROU7 KHALAS .. WALLA PROMISE MA AROU77! WALA AS7AB AWRAQE BACHER OO AG3AD BIL DEERA BAS LA TABCHEEEEEEEN! “

I start yelling : “ STOP BEING SO KIND TO ME! YOU’RE MAKING THIS HARDER FARIS! STOP LOVING ME! KHALAAAAAAAAAASSSSSS! “

Seconds of weird silent passed by ..

He said in a shock : “ shgasdich? “

I said with a mixture of sadness and letting go emotions : “ Mom Faris , Mom! .. she forced me to choose between you and her … galatly etha I kept talking to you she’ll be mad at me forever! Which I can’t stand Faris .. I love you .. and I will forever .. bas I’m letting you go for the sake of my mother .. “

I heard him says in weakness : “ shno shno? “

I kept talking : “ if we were meant to be .. we’ll find our way back .. but for now, you should concentrate on ur study and making me proud of you faris .. and I will try hard to change my mom’s mind .. bas tell that happens .. we will be apart faris .. “

Faris : “ is this your way shoug of saying goodbye to me?"

Shoug : “ I believe that our love will beat this .. “

Faris : “ what this? You letting me go shoug? You walking away? You ditching me? “

Shoug : “ no faris no .. I just .. “

Faris : “ ga6aiteny 3ala sakhar! “

Shoug : “ faris latgool chethy .. you know I would never do that to you! I love you! Wenta adra ilnas feny oo eb 7ubby lek .. you know I love you so much faris .. bas shenu eb eedy? “

Faris : “ I need some air .. many gader afham elly ga3id eserlina .. “

Shoug : “ be strong and take care of yourself ok? Oo everything will turn to be okay .. and this will make our love stronger .. just stay faithful to me faris .. “

Faris : “ entay meqtan3a eb hal 5arabee6 elly ga3id etgoolenha? Entay sa7ya? Mn kil 3aqlich .. “

Shoug : “ la mo meqtan3a .. but I have to choose .. I have to faris .. “

Faris : “ faman allah shoug! “

Shoug : “ fa.. “

and he hang up the phone ..
I couldn’t breathe or cry ..
I just couldn’t do anything for the next couple of days ..
My mom would come to my room , and I would definitely fake a sleep to avoid talking to her ..
I couldn’t stand anything .. even Nouf .. I didn’t have the courage to tell her about us ..
Bas feeha ilkhair 7abebty ..
After two weeks .. she kept calling and calling me ..
Oo ana kella 7aqra ..
Some days I just left my mobile switched off to avoid any connection with the world …
I just wanted faris .. that’s all .. ghairah? Mo mohim ..

She lifted my cover gently while kissing my head ..
Nouf : “ babe .. “
Tears start running coldly on my cheeks ..
She hugged me tight .. while whispering : “ uuuuush! That’s ok .. that’s ok .. I’m here for you shoug .. ta3awethay mn eblis .. “

I was so weak without him .. I didn’t have the strength yet the hope to face anything ..

Shoug : “ N.. “

She said while brushing my messy oily hair : “ hala 7abebty? “

Shoug : “ shakli loo3a? “

She giggled : “shwayy .. luw ma sha3rich lemdahhen etkonen zwaina! Hehe “

I smiled .. for the first time from weeks .. I talked to someone .. and smiled!
Shoug : “ khaisa .. “

She kissed my cheek : “ yalla wake up .. isa3a 5 ilmagharb .. take a bath oo lets go out .. your room stinks ge6ee3a! 7asha ga6wa mo ademeyya! “
I giggled while walking to the bathroom .. to take a long healing bath ..

30}~

2010-07-11T17:04:00.002+03:00

I posted before two days! But I don’t know where the post suddenly disappeared! ;/
2 posts for today! ;* or maybe 3 ? (a)
ENJOY.

I whispered to him .. : “ betrou7 khalas? “

He nodded gently : “ ee barou7 khalas .. “

I swelled my sadness with my heavy breathes and smiled to him : “ ra7 afgedik wayid .. “

He touched the corner of my eyes : “ I will miss you too .. “

I said while brushing my hair nervously : “ aby arou7 baitna , maby ashofik zyada .. the more I see you the more I will miss you .. “

He giggled : “ hehe! Chana shako? “
I giggled back : “ heh! Adre .. bas that’s true! “
Faris : “ Shoug la et7ateen .. everything is gonna be okay , I promise! Walah! I swear! “
Shoug : “ adry! I trust you .. bas .. bas .. “
Faris : “ bas sheno? “
Shoug : “ take a good care of yourself ok? And come back safe to me as soon as possible! Ok? “
He smiled and pointed on his cute sharp nose : “ 3ala hal khashim .. “

“ malik shebeeh .. ya aghla ilnas kellouhum .. “
I took my mobile from my miumiu bag. : “ alo? “
Mama: “ wainch shoug? “
Shoug : “ ana eb bait mama 6aiba , I texted you gabel sa3a! “
Mama : “ shetsaween there? “
Shoug : “ haw youma! Nothing! 3ady ga3deen .. “
Mama: “ ga3deen stands for what? “
Shoug : “ I didn’t get it mom. It means ena ga3deen doing nothing, 3ady .. why? “
Mama : “ because ana kany rada mn tasyoora m3a omch 6aiba! Kannah barra! .. yala nizlay .. “

And she closed the line ..
I gave Faris a confused scared look ..
He nodded : “ adry adry sima3t .. il volume 3ali .. sema3t! “
I said while pushing his shoulder from the back : “ go and move ur car! So I don’t get into troubles with mom”

Faris said calmly : “ first, I don’t have time ana oo reely 3alshan asbeq omch wehya barra .. second even though 7arrakt sayarte matgolele shetsawen ebrou7ch ehny? Ya3ni it’s not logical .. fa te6le3en ghal6ana a7san men la te6le3een mu sa7ya .. I guess! “
I giggled : “ hehe! Yeah I guess! .. yalah bye .. I should go .. “
Faris : “ yala lets go .. “
Shoug : “ la please! Walla she’s gonna kill me! .. en6er here for 10 mins then rou7 .. “
He nodded : “ elly eray7ich .. “
I blow him a kiss and went to the main door to face mom and mama 6aiba walking toward the door ..

I kissed mama 6aiba’s head and my mom’s too .. while she gave me the coldest look ever ..
Wasalt mama 6aiba the living room , and went to the car where mom is .
Rekabt ilsayara acting innocent ..
Shoug : “ ilsalam .. “
Mom : “ wa3alaikoum isalam. “
Shoug : “ shlon ilyam3a? “
Mom gave me a look .. : “ yam3ete wela yam3etch? “
I felt so guilty : “ la yours.. “

Mom : “ good .. shoug ? “
I mumbled : “ mmmm? “

I was really scared .. 7asait mom for the first time ra7 e6eqni ..
Mom : “ shoug e7na shgelna?”
My heart start etching so hard : “ shgelna mom? Khalas .. I just went there to say goodbye .. its over .. he’s traveling after tomorrow .. “
Mom: “ la safreta shay ooh ally etsawoona shay thany! Shoug you will never find an understanding mom methyl! I’m so open minded oo sema3tch oo fahamt mench .. bas you promised! Sa7 wela la? “
I start playing with my fingers nervously ..
Mom : “ sa7 wela la!! “
I nodded while tears start rolling in my cheeks ..
Mom knew that I don’t cry that much ..
She knew that when I cry over something? It must be really big ..

Shoug : “ mom I couldn’t keep my promise although I tried .. wala il3atheem jarabt aheeda oo jarabt to end it all bas 3alshan 5a6rich .. but I couldn’t resist him .. it’s a matter of 3 years and he will marry me .. you know me mom .. you know that I don’t play around .. and I will never do something will make you a shame of me .. “
I took a deep breath while saying ..
Shoug : “ you know mom I’ll do anything for your sake .. you know that if I had to choose between you and the world .. I wouldn’t think twice! I will always take ur side .. mom don’t do this to me .. you know me .. you know us .. and walah il3atheem we are not doing anything wrong walah! .. bas neg3ad wensoolif as any normal cousins .. mom you know faris! You know him akthar men chethy .. you should trust us .. “
Mom gave me a serious look while saying : “ etha tabeen erthay? Leave him .. erthay oo ez3aly hally ga3ed eseer .. I swear shoug enny mo rathya 3alaich 6ool ma enty ga3ed etsaween chethy .. “
She parked in our garage .. but we were still dakhel ilsayara net7acha ..
Shoug : “ mom you raised mo so well , and I know right from wrong! I know what I’m doing .. don’t force me to do something I dunt wanna do! .. youma allah ekhalich! La et5ayreene bain shayyain magdar 3alaihoum! Leave faris or you being angry at me? Shlon akhtaar? Magdar afakir! Mom , you were a girl and you absolutely know the way I feel .. imagine ur self in my shoes .. “
She cut me off .. a7is galb’ha beeda e7in 3ala kalmay fa makant taby et’hawwen .. : “ SHOUG! Hatha akher kalame .. ez3aly oo erthay faris .. “

I stormed out of her Bmw .. and went to my room ..
I locked the door behind me .. and slept , slept like there’s no tomorrow to face .
Around 12pm I opened my eyes .. I was facing a horrible headache oo my eyes 7ad’houm puffy ..
You know when you sleep 12 hours but you still feel exhausted?
I stared at my creamy roof while thinking about mom and faris ..
I have to choose ..
I have to pick one side ..
A hot tear on my pillow made the choice ..
Mom , will always take the lead of my heart ..

I pressed his number to tell him that it’s over..
I picked mom over his love ..
I will let him go for my mom’s sake ..

His deep passionate face lightens my morning : “ saba7 ilward babe .. “

29 }~

2010-07-01T18:28:00.002+03:00

Nouf clicked her fingers, I suddenly jumped...

Shoug : “ besmellah!! “

Nouf : “ wain er7tay?? Yabaw ilfatoora oo 6ala3t my wallet oo defa3t! wentay etkhezzeen nafs il direction oo e3yoonch tetloma3! What’s wrong with you shwaig? “

I smiled : “ nothing! .. “ I joked while picking my bag up : “ atna7ash maby adfa3 efloos! Hehehe “

She giggled .. while walking to the car 3alshan enrou7 bait mama 6aiba ,

Shoug : “ entay eb tanzeleen bait mama 6aiba? Wela betrou7en baitkom? “

Nouf : “ I dunno , bas atwagga3 I wanna go home cause hathy 6al3ete mn ilseb7 .. “

I nodded .. while texting Faris ..

To : Faris;*
“ 5 mins wakoon there , where are you? :* “

From: Faris;*
“ 3a6eny rube3 sa3a oo aye ;* “

Nizalt bait mama 6aiba , called my mom getlaha enny there ..
Ga3adt a7os bil bait mako a7ad!! I called the maid oo galatly
enna mako a7ad oo mama 6aiba emsayra 3ala bint 3amha!

I called faris ..

Shoug : “ ha wainek ? “

Faris : “ kany barra .. “

Shoug : “ mafy a7ad!! 7ada khirmss! “

Faris : “ emshay tabeen ne6la3? Wela neg3ad eb bait mama 6aiba? “

Shoug : “ la neg3ad here a7san I think .. “

Faris : “ yalah kany nazzelich .. “

I sat on the coach waiting for him to come ,
He entered the living room wearing a navy t-shirt oo beige shorts with yellow cap and farad wa7da yellow crocs , oo his left leg malfoofa lay ta7at erkabba eb cham sebe3 oo 7a6een 3alaiha nafs blue cover,
I walked to him with big steps ..

Shoug : “ 7ABEBEEEEEEEE! Shaklik e3awer ilgaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalb! “

He smiled while ga3ed e3ary , he looks funny ilsara7a ..
Faris said while walking : “ ay .. ay .. “

I giggled : “ 3an ildalaaaaa3 lat5arre3nyy! “

Faris : “ laaa! Ay ildress mu ryooliii .. “

I blushed while pushing his shoulder : “ 3ayyaarrr .. “

He sat on the corner of the comfy coach .. : “ 3ady ta36eny il buff ma3alaich amor? Aby amed eryooli .. “

I giggled while going toward the buff in the other corner of the living room : “ abaih shayyabt ebsir3aa! “

7a6ait 3enda il buff oo ga3adt yamah on the coach ..
while turning my face to him ..

Shoug : “ mmmmm ? “

He cupped my face : “ ra7 olah 3ala hal wayh .. “

I gave him a sad smile : “Unfortunately, real life isn’t always such a Disney movie … ha? “

He replied in a calm voice : “ don’t say that! Its gonna work Shoug , oo kilshay will be just perfect .. I’ll finish 3 years .. arid akhthich .. then akamel my last year .. “

I layed my head back on the comfy couch : “ oo ana? Dirasty? Jam3ety? “

Faris : “ we will find a way shoug .. “

Shoug : “ yalla guli? Shenu il way? After 3 years I’ll be in my 2nd year biljam3a .. shlon? Awaqef derasty oo arou7 sena oo ard? .. netzawaj enta etrou7 wana ag3ad here? Nen5e6eb bas oo after hal year netzawaj? “

Faris : “ See! Fee a lot of solutions! Bas 6awlay balich oo everything is gonna be okay .. “

Shoug : “ ga3da ate6annaz faris! I’m not serious .. hatha mu 7eloul man6eqeyya .. hathoola emotional kellihoum wela ra7 yathbe6oon 7azat ilsejeyya! “

Faris : “ Shoug , life comes with no guaranties! Take it or leave it .. mako shay eyeelich 100% perfect .. enshalla after 3 years we will set down .. oo enshouflina 7al .. anshouf lina fekra .. 3asa allah ye7yeena .. “

I whispered with a tear on my eye : “ 7abebe .. “

He mumbled while rubbing my back : “ mmmm? “

Shoug : “ I’m struggling to find a reason to get out of bed in the morning , I don’t wanna face the reality than you’re gonna travel 3oqob bacher! I feel lost already .. “

Faris : “ me too , entay maskatny m needy elly et3awerni .. mu gader arou7 .. I don’t feel excited anymore! A7is eb pain akthar mn joy .. I will get back after 6-5 months .. tara mu ta7sebeen eny barou7 aghe6ly 3-4 years! I will come kil fatra oo kil 3e6la ra7 arid akeed .. “

I nodded ..
I couldn’t talk .. le’anna if I said a word I will go into tears ..

Faris : “ Shougii .. no matter whats facing us .. we’re gonna survive .. we’re gonna marry each other oo we’re gonna make it 7abebty .. I promise .. “

Shoug : “ I’m trying to sort my head to deal with this .. bas ma7is enny msadga , faris I can’t get it clearly wallah!! A7is enna it’s a nightmare oo bekhallis aked .. ma7is enna it didn’t start yet! “

Faris : “ don’t make it a big deal shougu .. tara kahy America .. kelaha 12 hour .. walla eb yoom wa7ed aredlich! I swear to god , etha tabeeny aridlech ay 7azza walah wa3ad I will ! wallah il3athem I WILL! “

I put my head on his shoulder : “ I know that faros .. I know .. “

We sat on silence for few minutes ..
Tell I whispered ..

Shoug : “ I blocked and deleted Faisal gabel shahar maybe .. “

I felt his smile : “ laish? “

Shoug : “ bas le’ana n3aya .. “

He laughed : “ haha! N3aya? Shakhbary hal masabba! “
I giggled ..

Shoug : “ Farros .. etha safart tetwaqqa3 I can talk with you about random things? “

Faris : “ akeed! 3ayal 3an shenu bet7achene? “

Shoug : “ madry! A7is etha enta dag mokalama mara7 asoolif about my day shenu sawait oo shenu kalait! .. “

Faris : “aslan ana bashtery kha6 oo mobile there 3alshan 5a6rich! “

I blushed : “ 7abebe enta .. “

Faris said calmly : “ Shoug lat7ateen wallah , the relationship stands 3ala il nas mu 3ala il distance elly bainhoum .. yama nas metzawjeen oo ga3den eb nafs il bait oo nafs ildar oo ildistance bainhoum kebera , oo yama nas kilwa7ed eb sharq oo gharb oo they’re amazingly in love … 3omra ilmasafa mara7 etfarreg bainah damich loyal 7aggy oo et7ebeeni oo nafs ilshay ana , etha ma 7a6ait 3ala nafsy oo tried hard to work this out .. aked mara7 yamshe … fa be sure enna il masafa 3omerha mara7 etgarrib wela etba3ed a7ad .. it depends on us! And I trust you shoug .. I’m sure 100% enna you’ll try your best to make me happy sawa’ kent bil deera wela barra , sa7 wela la? “

Tears start running on my cheeks ..

Shoug : “ akeed faris akeed! Bas I’m afraid wallah! Ma3annah I’m sure enna we will try our best to defy the distance oo to talk to each other 3ala ilaqal once a day … faris adry ennah hathy fatra wet3ady oo ina things will get better inshalla .. “

Faris tried to make me laugh : “ unless I loved an American girl wela shay .. “

I rolled my eyes : “ haha! Bayekh! “

He opened his arms : “ come here .. “

I hugged him so tight .. aby ashba3 mennah ..
I smelled his perfume so deep .. aby tenteris my lung min re7ta ..
Aby laima olah 3alaih later athkir this hug oo ate6amman ..
Aby asayyev emotions oo feelings for the bad days ..
He smelled my hair gently while whispering in my ear : “ I have been always addicted to ur smell Cherry .. “

28}~

2010-06-30T23:51:00.002+03:00

I said in a furious way: “ALO!”

Faris said while laughing with someone beside him : “ hahaha waaaakher zaaaaaaain! .. al7een yayeekom! Bas 10 degayeg! .. “

After few mins ..

Faris : “ aloooooooooh! “
Shoug : “ kany kany! Laish etsarekh? Enta elly zare3ny! “
Faris : “ hala 7abebe .. “
Shoug : “ Hala .. “
Faris : “ ullah yal naaaaafs! Ashooooooooof .. “

I couldn’t help but to smile ..

Shoug : “ mmmmmmm .. “
Faris : “ shfeech em3asba? “
Shoug : “ mafeny shay! “
Faris : “ kil hal nafs wetgoolen mafeney shay? Shogoo al7en bag3ad sena agolich shfech wetgolele mafene shay .. oo bacher tenfajrain eb wayhe! Golili men al7een shfeech! “
Shoug : “ hehe .. abaih! 7addek et3arefny .. “ .. I calmed down shwayya .. and said sadly : “ enta! 5ara3tnee! .. galoole 6a7 3alaina! 3abaly feek shay chayed akher shay menkasra reelik oo al7een madry waink ga3ed te’97ak weya rab3ek! Oo adg adg matrid oo adz msgs matrid! Shda3wa? Ana ma geltlik deg 3alay wella aby azoorik bil hospital! Bas 3ala il aqal dezzly msgg! 6ammeni! .. zainlek chethy ya3ni khara3tny oo fazazt galby 3alaik? “
Faris : “ 7abebtyyyyyy entay! Wala 7aggich 3alay! Aslan madry laish jassom il athwal gallikoum! Ana makint abech tadreen le’anna mafene shay aslant wala shogo ana oo 2 mn ilshabab te3awarna .. “

I mumbled : “ mosara3a wella le3eb kora?? “
Faris : “ hehe .. wallah il3atheem! Kil wa7ed essayed 3ala ilthanyy oo sa3at tenqeleb jad! “
Shoug : “ etbo6on ilchabd wala!! Laish ma etseroon nafs ilbanat? Ge3daw eb sana3 oo soulfaw! Laish lazm tekeffe5 oo sab? Wai3 wala et7uroooooooon! “
Faris : “ khalas wela ehemmch! Mara7 arou7 al3ab again ok? “
I blushed : “ ok .. “
Faris : “ yala boseeny .. “
I giggled : “ maaa abyyy! “
Faris : “ yala shogoooo! Boseeeeny .. “
Shoug : “ maby maby .. heheheh “
Faris : “ shogo yala yala ilshabab yayelliii .. yala barou7 bosene ..
ebser3a .. yalaahh lazm aseda ..”
Shoug : “ latgeeeeeeeees 3alaaaaaaaay! “
Faris : “ yalah .. 1 … 2 …”
I cut him off : “ la la! Mwaahhh .. “ I gave him quick kiss ..
Faris laughed : “ heheheheheh! Waaaaaaaaaaaalla enich 7aaaayaaaaaatttttte! .. yallah bye”
I smiled : “ bye .. “

I closed my eyes , and Have a good night sleep.

* After few weeks Noufa start her first Course at Gust, and Faris&Jassim were counting the days to take off to US. To get their diploma.

Nouf Called me at 3:00pm: “ ALOOOOOOOOO! SHOUGOOOOOOO! “

I mumbled with my sleepy voice : “ ha? Hmmm? “

Nouf : “ goumay! I miss you 7aaail .. emshay enrou7 ay mokan, to have lunch and taaaaalk! Walhana 3ala sootich walahh .. “

Shoug: “ ka kalmene malyy khulq aqoom mn frashyyyy! “

Nouf : “ haha! Fuunnyyy! Yallah! Gammay! .. tara 20 mins wana barra! Wala etha le6a3teeny barra ya wailch menny! .. BYE! “

I giggled while texting faris ..
“ ana barou7 atghada with Nouf.”

From : Faris
“ oh! 3ad kent aby ashoofch el yooom .. yalah have fun;* “

To: Faris
“ after il lunch enrou7 7ag grandma? “

From: Faris
“ grandma it is! ;* laima etrou7en text or call 3alshan aye .. “

Libast tight Black dress , sawait slik ponytail oo waved it ..
Small pearls earrings .. dirty pink lipgloss ..

Awal ma khalast wana a7e6 il gloss .. wela Noufo edge etgooli yala I’m out side ..
6ala3t laha ebsir3a maby teftha7ny ehehe ..

Awal ma I opened her cars door ..

Nouf : “ HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII! “

I jumped over her : “ Ahlaaaaaaaaaan! Missssss uuuuuuu! “

Nouf : “ way way me too wallah! 7aillllllll .. “

We went to Nino Alba7ar ,
And start talking about random things ,

Shoug : “ ta3alayyyy! Golili shlon awal esbou3 jam3a!! “

Nouf : “ emm .. madry shougoo! .. it’s weird .. lel7een ma7iss eny met3awda 3ala ilwath3 oo il nas .. oo I don’t have friends close , ya3ni kella ely kanaw weyay bilthanaweya bas my close nafskoom .. ma3arf shensoolif! Madry malaqa .. “

Shoug : “ eeh 3ady daima chethy .. you will have friends later oo kilshay beseer okay .. I promise .. “

She smiled .. and suddenly screamed : “ WAAAY! ELLY EMHAWEN ILWATH3 KELLA DR. BADER! NAAAAAAAAAAAAA6E3! ZOOOOOOOOOUQA! EMSHAAAAWEEEQNY SHOUGOOOOOO! “

Shoug : “ hahahaaaaaa! Waaaaaaay! Nesaaaaaait 3annaaaah! Shlooona his classes? “

Nouf : “ men sejich? 7ad’ha good .. oo aslan he’s so sweet to meeee! Abaih ya3ni wayed esoolif weyay oo ya36ene wayh .. takhayelay enna he remember me men yoom il tasjeel! Yoom gally aye his class! “

Shoug : “ awwwwww! CUUUUUUUTE! “

Nouf : “ ee uff! .. shougu he’s so attractive , the way he stares at his laptop , the way he gives us a sexy half-smile laima a7ad yes’al shay ghabe , the way he treats ur so well! Abaih eyaaaanin! Kel il girls zayqeen 3alaih oo nou3hoom e5faf weyyah oo etemaila7oun .. “

Shoug : “ Noufuuu deer balch! La etseren e7laiwa weyah bacher yefham ennch mn rabe3houm! “

She stormed : “ MEN SEJICH! NO WAYYYYY! Sej ennah cute oo emshaweqny , bas ewally ya3ni aseer haileqeya oo arou7la il maktab oo aseer khafefa! Abaih wain ga3den! “

Shoug : “ Ee deer balich , marat etsawen shay 3ala 6eeb neyah , bas khoofch uhwa yefham ghala6 specially ena elbanat zayqen 3alaih .. “

Nouf : “ la lat7ateeny , you know me .. akeed ra7 adeer bali .. “

I nodded while reading a text msg from Faris ..

From: Faris
“ I have million of things to tell you gabel ma amshy! :* a7is enny mo msaddeg ena ra7 asafer adris barrah , ma sheba3t mench lel7een :’( . “

E3ouni ghuroqaw ..

To: Faris
“ lat7aty , its gonna work! ;* “

I was lying ,
I wasn’t sure if its gonna work aw la!
I was Terrified and un secured ..
Bas I had to act tuff 3alshan 5a6ra ..
I had to act tuff 3alashan ma ehawin oo yeg3ad ..
I had to act tuff 3alshan ma athayeg khulqa oo uhwa emsafer 3oqob youmain ..
I just had to pretend ina everything is fine , while I was falling apart.

27 }~

2010-06-30T18:43:00.003+03:00

I went home ..
And Text Faris ..

To: Faris
“ tara enta etbuuuuu6 ilchaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabd! “

I take off my clothes .. take a quick shower .. and sign in msn ..
I didn’t felt like sleeping ..
Dashait msn .. wela khermiiis ..
Ga3adt aghayyer my nickname...
Ashoof nicknames ilnas ..
There wasn’t anybody on my list (aqsed mn my cousins oo faisal 6ab3an! )
I put my pic in my cousin’s wedding ..
With green revealing dress .. oo my hair in a big waves ,
red lip stick and thick eye-liner ..
I looked hot ..
I didn’t show this pic 7ag even faris .. the dress was so revealing ..
kil my back 6ali3 & my pause in the pic were on the side .. so it was obvious ..
I went to the kitchen searching for any junk ..
7ist bil bait ..
I was really bored ..
I went back to my room .. to get my mobile ..
I took a peek at my laptop screen ..
The little orange msn box was flashing ..

Dr.Faisal .. says :
Hellooooo! ;D

Dr. Faisal .. says:
Whaaaaaaaaat the hell is this? HOTTIEEEE!

Dr. Faisal .. says:
Hello? Where are you gorgeous?

OMG! I was totally shocked! Kellish ma haqaita edish hal 7azza!
Oo ba3dain he shouldn’t stare!! 3aaib! Ugh!
I changed the dp into daloola’s pic.

Shougan .. says:
OMG!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!! .. I’m so sorry!! .. ilmafrouth ennik matshofha!! ;( .. ma sheft enik online oo it’s not ur time ya3ne ma edish hal 7azza ..

Dr. Faisal .. says :
LAISH GHAYARTEEEEEEHA!! Reday reday 7e6eeha ..

Shougan .. says:
La shako!! Itfashel il pic!! Aslan kelish malha da3eyy!
Ana ilghal6ana enny 7a6at’ha aslan ..

Dr. Faisal .. says :
You look so sexy shoooooog!!

Shougan .. says:
It was by mistake faisal! : )

Dr. Faisal .. says:
Huh, are you sure?

Shougan .. says:
WHAT THE HELL?

Shougan .. says:
Akeed im sure! I don’t wanna get what are saying!

Dr.Faisal .. says:
All im saying ena mu ma3qoola bil ghala6! For sure you wanna show it to someone! ..
hatha elly ga3ed agoolah ..

Shougan .. says:
NO IM NOT! That first .. and 2nd it’s none of ur business!!

Dr.Faisal .. says:
Laish 3asabtay? .. they said: may3asseb oo lose his tempura ella elly sej ghal6an oo yadre eb hal shay!

Shougan .. says:
OMG! Enta fe a7ad mn gabel gallek ennik 7aaaaaail masken?? .. it’s by mistake .. betsaddeg ahlan oo sahlan! Manta emsaddeg .. moshkeltik!! Oo I lost my tempura because of you! Oo 6areqtik il baikha!! You’re accusing me enna ana 7a6a this display pic 3alashan enta etshofny? Aw ay random guy eshofny? For your info’s 7abebe , tara ur the only “stranger” in my msn list!!! Oo ana ilghl6ana elly 7a6eetik! My cousins told me before enna mala da3ey alaggy wayh 7ag strangers .. bas ana elly mafahamt qasd’houm!

Dr. Faisal .. says:
Ooooooob ooooooob! What’s wrong with you? Kent atghashmar?

Shougan .. says:
Haha! Laima tewahhaqt sert teth7ak? Funny ..

Dr. Faisal .. says:
Khalas .. im sorry , 3ethreny for my words ..

Shougan .. says:
Bel6agag .. that’s ok ..!

5 mins of awkward silence ..
Out of no where ..

Dr. Faisal .. says:
Shoug ..

Shougan .. says :
Yes?

Dr. Faisal .. says:
You really looked hot .. reday 7e6eeha 5anshouf ;)

Shougan .. says:
I’m so gonna block and delete you sweetheart! : )

And that what I did ..
Just block and delete him ..

“ Faris;*”
Is calling ..
I looked to the clock , it was 12:39 AM.

26}~

2010-06-27T22:31:00.002+03:00

My smile faded and I gave her a confuse look ..

Shoug: “ menu? “

She looked at her mobile screen : “ sadda eb wayhe!! “

Shoug: “ menu elly 6a7 3alaihum!!!!! “

Nouf : “ mmm .. “
She hesitated ..

Shoug : “ NOUF!! .. Faris mo sa7? FARIS RIGHT???? .. WALAH 7ASAIT! WALA GALBY
KAN NAGHEZNIIIIII!! “
I couldn’t cry! .. it felt so emotionless ..
I just felt a big white flash inside my head ..

and emptiness inside my chest ..

Nouf : “ 7abebtyyyyy .. “

I cut her off .. : “ call jassim shofay eb ay hospital .. “

Nouf mumbled : “ benrou7 mathalan? “

I yelled : “ AKED! WELA SHRAYICH? “

She said while calling jassim : “ I dunno! .. I just .. don’t .. know! “

After 5 mins ..

Nouf : “ shoog maga3ed erid jassim! 3ayazt adeg .. laima he switched his mobile because of 7annety!! Emshay enrid elbait .,..ooo taalyy .. “

Shoug : “ 3A6ENE YOUR MOBILE BAS!! .. “ I said while taking her mobile from her hand : “ MA MENNCH FAIDA!!! “

I dialed a7med’s number ..
After few seconds ..

A7med : “ hala noufuu .. “

Shoug : “ ana Shoog .. waink?”

A7med : “shfech? Ana 6ale3 .. “

Shoug : “ mustashfa? 3end faris? “

A7med : “ shdarakom? “

Shoug : “ which mostashfa? “

A7med : “ haa! Laish tes’eleen? “

Shoug : “ WHICH HOSPITAL????? “

A7med: “ mara7 teyoon shooog! Malkom lazma kellish!! “

I start crying .. : “ ay mostashfa a7med? Ay mostashfa? Please tell me!!!! “

A7med: “ laish tabcheeeeeeeeen? Shda3wa!! Mu awal wa7ed e6ee3 weta3awwar!! “

Shoug : “ I wanna talk to him! Waina? Waina? *Sneef* .. which hospital? “

A7med: “ ha!! Shfeech entay? Maynona? .. laish wayed meshta66a?? entay jad mn sejich? Wela ga3da testa3bee6ain? “

Shoug : “ A7MED!! ASTA3BE6 OO ILRAYYAL 6AYE7 3ALAIKOM BIL HOSPITAL?? WHATS WRONG WITH HIS HEART? SHFEEEEEEEH!! WAINA???? “

A7med: “ la7tha la7tha!! .. ay heart? .. entay ashkara matadren shesalfa!! Meshta6a 3ala ilfathey!!!! .. 6aye7 metkawwed metkarfis!! Oo now e7na bil razzy!! Jabbesaw reela .. 7eta ma7taj baraghe wela shay! Bas kaser 3ady .. 7a6eenla jebs .. “

I took a breath with –ashwa- look at my face ..

Shoug: “ AH! Ashwa!!!!!!! .. I thought there’s something wrong with his heart!! Enzain laish his mobile switched off? “

A7med: “ madre walah!! .. la7tha .. FARROOOOOOOOOOS! “

I heard his voice from the back .. : “ haa? “

A7med: “ Shoug etgoolik laish mobile switched off? “

Faris : “ hmm .. le’anna mafeh battery? “ he said while laughing 3ala so’ali ilghabe..

A7med : “ sema3teeh miss drama queen? Allah e3en raylich wallah shogo!! Ana elli weyahom bil mostashfa 5ara3teeny hahahaha! “

Shoug : “ chab a7medu hehehe .. waaaaaaay! Khara3toooony! Kheft 3alaikom!! “

A7med : “ menu 3alaina? Ma7ad 6aye7 ella faros! Haaaaaa haaaaaaa! Etkhafeeeeeeeeen
3alaaaaaaaih .. FARROOOOOOOOS TA3AAAL ESMAAAAAAAA3!! “

I giggled : “ heheh maynon walah! .. yala take your time .. bye hubby! “

A7med : “ obooooooooooooy il hubby kaaaaaaaaak! “

And we closed the line ..

Nouf : “ haaaaaaaaaaaa? La la ilwayh rad loonaaaa! “

I giggled while giving her mobil’ha .. : “ abaih! Takhayelay 6aye7 oo maksoora relah oo his mobile
6afy cus the battery run off! Abaih! Mal kaf! .. “

Nouf : “ waaaaaay! 7ada!! Eqeth! “
I nodded while playing Aljasmi record ..

Shayyen ghareb .. Shayyen ghareeb ..
lamma te7iss ennik 7abeb ..
oo ennik men ilfar7a gereb ..
laken yejeek saham oo yeseeb ..
saham oo yeseb, Galbak oo te7yabah ghareeb..

Out of no where Nouf gasserat il Fm ..

Nouf : “ Shougu .. I wanna tell you something .. “
Shoug : “ hathyyyyy il7ayaaaat 7ath oo neseeeeeeb! marraaa teseeeeeeeb oo marra tekheeeeb ya noufuuuuuuu!! hehe .. HAA? Shtabeen?“

Nouf : “ la khalas .. khalas .. forget it .. “

Shoug : “ noufo! Lat5ar3eeny! What’s going on? “

Nouf : “ you know ena sajalt jadweeli iljam3a? im going to Gust? English-literature? “

Shoug : “ yes? “

Nouf : “ bil tasjeel .. I saw a handsome Dr. abbaih shogoooooo! He’s so cute! .. ana kent mkhalsa jadweele bas he have to conform it .. wella egooli laish matsajleen 3endy? Getlah ay madda? Wela egooli introduction to literature! .. getlah I already put it in my schedule 3end Dr. bassam .. gally No! I’ll take you to my class .. uhwa nafs il time .. “

Shoug : “ emmm .. then? “

Nouf : “ bas! Chan yas7abli eyaha oo e7e6ny eb hiss class .. ma3anna its not allowed! .. waaaaaaaaay shogooo! He’s so cuuuuute! His name is Bader .. and believe me! Esim 3ala mosammmmmaaaa! Bader walla baddddddddder! .. “

I gave her a look : “ abaih noufo! Shfeech wayd zaygha 3alaih? I didn’t see him yet oo 7assaita madry shlon mo moree7! “

Nouf : “ laaaaa 7aram!! He’s in his last twenties .. chethy 28-29 .. 7ada mamlooo7 .. tanned .. big eyes .. messy hair .. style qamees Abercrombie! Eshawweq! Aslant awal shay 3alabaly he’s student mo dr.! “

Shoug : “ ya7lellllllllaaaaaah! .. 7addy I’ll attend class weyach! Hahaha .. “

Nouf : “ uffff mn sejich!!!! Aslaan bas ekhallis il course I’ll take a photo with him! 7ady aby adaweeem bashoooooooofaaaaaa wayyyyyd! “

I laughed : “hahahaaaaa al7een menuuu ilmenthawla eb wa7d oo elly wayd khafeefa ? “

She made a funny expiration while saying : “ kaifi kaifi kaifi .. “

25}~ B.

2010-06-27T00:30:00.002+03:00

Nouf whispered: “ wee 7asafa! Mara7 yeg3ad weyana? “

I whispered back : “ abaih maliqa! Emshay bas emshay .. allah yaster men legaftaaah! “

We went to the guys ..
Fa6ooma oo a7med ma36eena wayehum , while jassim oo Faris ma36eena their back ..
I passed mn wara faris .. the way he smell , the shape of his shoulders , the messy smooth waves under his Navy cap.

Nouf : “ HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII all .. “
All : “ hey .. “

Faris turned with his eyes only .. I gave him a half smile ..

Shoug: “ hey there .. “

Faris : “ hala oboy … “

I giggled while mumbling : “ oboy .. “

Hey knew that flirting eb hal 6areeqa makes me laugh ..

We sat down oo kalaina oo suwalif ..
You know the feeling when you’re with ur beloved ones?
Elly tensoon kelshay bil denya oo bas you enjoy the moment?

Noufu suddenly said: “ abaih ta5ayelaww se saw Faisal AlX 3end ilbab .. ya7leeeeelah he waved! Lol ma chennah dr. a7essa yahel .. although he turned to be a Hottieeeee! “

Fa6oom replied while eating her cheese burger: “ 7elfaaaaaaay! Waina? Waina? “

A7medo said in a loud tone : “ WAI3 sekay 7aljech! “

Jassim: “ kaaaaaaaak! Dafsha! “

Fa6ooma gave them “talk to the hand” while eating ..

Faris : “ wentaw sh3arafkom feeh 3alashan esawelkom wave? “

I cut him off : “ haw shfeek! He saw me bel3eed eb bait yadeeta! Nesait? “

He nodded oo kellish mu 3ajba! ..

Faris: “ aha! So he basically waved 7aggich .. mu 7ag kom both! “

Nouf: “ MASKEEEEEEEEEEN 7ADEK! Shako? He waved for me too! Aslant I talked to him shwaya! Suwlafna 3end ilbab! He’s my 2nd 2nd cousin! Walah kaifi maby asawey ilwath3 awkward like ma shogo ga3da etsawey! “

Jassim dash 3arth : “ shogo? Shlon ya3ne? ana mashoof feha shay 3aib enkom etsalmon aw etsolfon! Aw 7eta enna eye yeg3ad weyana .. after all he’s a cousin! “

Nouf gave me –mu getlich 7ebbeh?- look ..

Shoug: “ la ana ma7eb a36eeh wayh aw asallem 3alaih , malah da3ey kellish .. “

Faris gave me a sexy half-smile ..

I giggled : “ heheh shtaaaaby? “

He said while taking his keys oo mobile mn 3ala il6awla ..
Faris : “ nothiiiiiing .. yala ana mashy 3endy li3eb kora .. taboon shay? “

My smile faded ..

Shoug : “ wain? Latrou7 .. “

Faris : “ magdar . mwa3ed’houm men modda .. yala salam. “

All : “ BYE! “
I whispered: “ salam.”

After 5 mins I received a msg
*BEEPS*

From: Faris
“ take care .. enjoy .. oo la et6awlen! :* “

I smiled while typing : “ yeah .. inshala ;* “

I raised my head 3ala his voice ..

Faisal : “ AlSalam Shabaaaaaab “

I put my hand 3ala my chest : “ OH GOD! “

Noufu : “ what? “

Faisal : “ asif! Khara3tch? “

It was like –OH GOD ashwa enna Faris mesha!-

I smiled : “ hehe! La bas faja’tny! .. ahlen .. “

He kissed jassim and A7medu ..
Jassim : “ 7ayyak! Tefathal weyana .. “
Fa6ooma : “ eee wallah!! 7ayak! Ilmokan mokanek .. “
I whispered : “eeeh le’anna hottie! Law jeker chan 6aradteeh! “
Fa6oom whispered back : “ back off shougo! “
We both giggled ..

Faisal : “ la wala mashkoren matgasroon! .. ana mashy bas marait asaleem .. “
Nouf : “ mashkor wala feek ilkhair , say hii to 7issa please .. “
Faisal : “ eeh inshala yousal .. “

He looked my side ..
Faisal : “ shlonch? “
I said awkwardly : “ zaina? “
He smiled : “ 3asa! .. “

Oh god! That was weird! ..
Faisal : “ 3ayal chankom nagsen? Wela hatha entaw? “
Fa6oma : “ la nagsen faris .. ray7 yel3ab kora weya rab3a .. “
I said nervously : “ enshala matgoolen gesat 7ayata! “
Noufu 7awelat etragge3 : “ haha! Baskom emnajar! “
Faisal : “ sej? Yalah 3ayal salmaw 3alaih , ma3a ilsalama .. “
ALL : “ allah esalmek .. sallem 3ala il ahal .. bye bye .. “

** On the way back home .. **

Shoug: “ WAAAAAAAAAAAY! E7URNYYYYY! LA TES’ELENE LAISH!!!!! “

Noufu said while laughing : “ hehehe! Abaih 7aram 3alaaaaich! Uhwa sej enna eqeth shwaya .. bas wala 7aram 3alaich! 7aaaaaail 6ayeb! Walla! 7aram! .. farrros layshayeshech 3alaihh! “

Shoug : “ eeh ta3alay 3ala il6ary! 5andegla .. “

Noufu : “ masra3 walahtay .. “

Shoug : “ wayyyhich! .. “

Dialing his number ..
No answer ..

Shoug: “ waaaaay! Akrah laima eser ma3a rab3ah!! Yes7eroona!! Mayreeeeeeeeed! Akrahhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuum .. “

Nouf : “ a7san eftakkay menah shwaya tawch shayfetaa . “

Shoug: “ walain .. agoolch call jassom se’leeh 3ady ya36ene his laptop cus mine me5tereb oo I need to print something .. “

Nouf : “ enzain you call him! “

Shoug : “ mobile 6affee! . aslan ana msaweya movie maker oo 6ab3a ashya already eb his laptop theek ilmarra .. fa 3alashan chethy aby his laptop .. mali khulq arid asanne3 oo a3addel eb yours .. “

She said while calling jassim : “ shda3wa ba36eech male!! 7abebty ana tawny shareeta ma sarli esbo3ain! oo entaw mashalla dalola kellish ma edawwis 3ala kilshay! “

I smiled while saying : “ WAZEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENHA! “

Nouf : “ haaaaa jassom! .. agoolik ..
shougu tabu ur laptop cus ehya already 6ab3a feeh ashya ooo …..... ALO? SHENU? “

She lost her words ..
Took a deep breath ..
Looked at me while saying ..

“ shloon 6a7 3alaihoum? “

Catch up ..

2010-06-25T15:00:00.003+03:00

My last post was in November?
Common! Like .. NOVEMBER?? Shahar 11?
Uhh! Sub7an allah! Time pass so faaaaast ..
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So , it’s me ..
Shoug, the 17 years girl .. who loves her gang so much .. Nouf , Jassim , fa6ooma , a7med and Faris were my cousins , friends , beloved ones .. they were my everything .. latterly EVERYTHING in my life.

For fact, Faris have been the main part of the “everything” .. I choose him to be my man for life , he was my quite manly cousin , who barley laugh .. he’s shy , jaadii as we say ..
He had this heart issue which leads to a big argue with my mom and his mom too , they didn’t believe in us .. 3alabalhum li3eb yahal or it just a crush .. they were afraid of losing him because of me .. khayfen enna I didn’t loved him .. enna kaser kha6ry .. khayfeen enna its sympathy akthar menha love .. which wasn’t true at all ..? I really loved him .. From the bottom of my heart...

Faisal? My 2nd 2nd 2nd 2nd cousin.. Who insist to be close with me .. ma3anny mu lay manna weenies or something! LOL ;p .. I admit it .. im closed! Ya3ni mo noo3y awaniis oo asoolef m3a kelmn .. and im so moody .. mu kilmn edish mazajy oo aseer e7laiwa weyah .. well , im typical Kuwaiti girl! (a)

Faris and jassim will take off very soon to study in the US. lucky USA. ;*

I cut my story in the day I met faisal in Fuds ..
I really did “meet” him .. uhwa ghasoob yay with his friends ya3ni yengallikom meshtehy yakel FUDS!

I was there with my cousins .. oo uhwa with his friends ..
We sat down .. while he wrote his name in the waiting list ..
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Faisal kan ekhezna ethahir mn dashaina il parking..
Did he saw me kissing my mobile screen? I smiled to him from masafa eshkoburha ..
Well , that good .. bas chethe khalasna? Aah ashwa! .. I thought besir something big .. Did he wave? Aakh! Stupidddddd ya faisal .. I waved back in a shy way .. And start walking big fast steps while bushing noufo mn thaharha ..

Shoug : " emshay asra3 noufo .. if you can run .. well , lets run now! .. yala yala .."

Nouf : " haw haw! Shfeeech? .. waaay waziin his wave walla! .. ya zeeeeeeennna shougo .. walla 7ada mamlou7! Shofeh shofeh .. "

I kept bushing her ..

Shoug : " chab chab .. emshay .. wala faris be6eqni .. wala bestir salfa .. emshay emshay noufo .. walla akhaffff! "

Nouf : " enzain yala yala! Uuff! "

7amdellah ena kelhum kanaw wasleen .. so kan fe table 7agna .. Oo faisal oo his friends sajalaw bil waiting list ..

Kisses to ur souls! xoxo<3

ilsalam..

2010-06-25T14:35:00.003+03:00

Hello all ..
I know , you have all the right to be mad on me ..
bas allah ye3lam shenu sar looya oo events the last months in my life ..
i dropped my course wallah oo Now im taking a summer course bas 3alshan a3awith shwaya ..
it have been 2 days oo ana a7awel logging in!
takhayelaw nesait my email spilling! :)
yes! not the password!
the EMAIL it self!! :) LOL! tara its funny! ;x

anyways,
Im Sorry .. 7ail .. mu shwaya ..
oo I'll start posting soon ..
oo I promise enna i'll never do it again ..
mahma kanat thoroofy ..

I love you all ..
oo Missed you 7ail ..

SORRY.

I'll post soon athakerkom eb my story ..
3alashan ma etridoon tegroon all the posts ..
ok?

LOVE to ur souls xoxo

25 } ~ A.

2009-11-16T21:48:00.002+03:00

I woke up the next day with a smile on my face ..
Kent 7addy happy because I missed faris so much ..
I missed the way he looks at me ..
The way his warm manly hand squeezed mine ..
I just missed being around him ..

I pressed his number while picking my red Armani puffed top ..
3alshan albisa with a jeans oo my favourite Gold Cavalli pumps.

Faris : " hala hala .. "

Shoug : " I felt ur smile yal khayis .. "

Faris : " hehehe .. ashwa wasla lay 3endich? "

Shoug : " heheheh eeeeeeh .. agoolik betye today mu sa7? "

Faris : " sure 7abebti .. "

I closed my eyes for a second while saying ..

Shoug : " wavy or straight ? "

Faris : " slick ponytail .. "

Shoug : " hehehehe allah! Great with ur AJ navy cap! "

Faris : " ghasoob ya3ne? "

I giggled : " emmmmm heheheh .. I guess? "

Faris : " heheheh inshalla .. tamren .. "

Shoug : " 7abebe .. "

Faris : " yalla shougoo entay etbadlen oo etsawen sha3rech 3ala ma ana akhethli shower? "

Shoug : " okay 7abebe .. na3iman moqadaman .. "

I closed the line .. oo libast my clothes ..
Sawait my hair ..
And applied a thick black eye liner with lip gloss ..

I texted il rabi3 ..

To: Nouf , Faris , a7med , jassim , fa6oom
" WAINKOOOOOOM? I'm ready! .. menu omoorny? ;p "

" Nouf " Is calling ..

Nouf : " ya3ni menuuuuuuu bemorrich mathalan?? Farrroooooos wela jassom? "

Shoug : " mmmmmmmmm .. lazim ya3ni akhtaaar bas wa7ed? Heheheh "

Nouf : "heheh maliqa! Yalla tara ana 6ala3t mn baitna .. I was going to call you yoom dazaitay ilmsg .. 3edday laima il 20 oo 6el3ay barah! Okay? "

Shoug : " shaaata5allof? .. I'll wait for your call! "

Nouf : " la la maby maby! Kaifeee! Mu ana bamoorch?
Kaify mazajjyyy athelich shwayya! "

Shoug : " waaaaaaaaaaay!! Al7een cham a3ed? 10? Heheheh "

Nouf : " chab chab 6el3ay barra .. huuuuuuf! 7asafa wesalt!! "

I went to her car ..
On the road we kept talking about random stuff laima faj'a I said ..

Shoug : " tadren ena faisal beyye fuds now? "

Nouf : " common! Chathaaaaaabba! "

Shoug : " wala! .. noufo I'm scared .. 7aaaaail! .. akhaf akhaf .. "

Nouf : " shako? Sht5afen menna? You didn’t do anything wrong! .. "

Shoug : " bas .. "

I took a deep breath while staring at the lafta " 2nd ring road " ..

Nouf : " shougoo baine oo bainch .. uhwa laish yay? "

Shoug : " I have no idea! Wallah il3athem! .. getlah ena shako etyee .. wella egooli bas chethe meshtehe erou7 fuds! .. shda3wa 3alaik! Mako ma63am bil kuwait ella fuds? "

Nouf : " madri shenu salfeta hatha! .. I love him by the way .. more than faris .. "

Shoug : " chab nouf! .. shyab lay yab! "

Nouf : " shako? .. he's a doctor woman! Rakzaaaaaaay! "

We both broke a laugh ..

Shoug : " eeh bas dr. jaikar shwaya! "

Nouf : " 7aram 3alaaaaaaaaaaaich! He's cuuuuuuuteeeeee m3a his big puppy eyes!! Walla eshaaaaaaawiiiiiiq! "
Shoug : " madry .. ma7iiss .. he's more than 3ady bil nesba ley .. "

" Faris;*" Is calling ..

My phone rang with faris's pic 3ala kober il screen ..
I yelled while kissing the screen ..

Shoug : " WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY!!! HATHHHHAAAAAAAA IL MAZYOOOOOOON WALLAAAAAAA! MU HATHAAAAK SHAIN IL7ALAYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA .. "

Nouf mumbled : " 7emdellah wisheekir! Mashfoo7a!
awal marra etshofen esbay? "

Shoug : "alooooooo .. "

Faris : " ha 7ube wainch? "

Shoug : " kannah! Bil parking .. ana oo Nouf .. "

Noufo start pointing ib her finger 3ala white bmw saf6a jeddam ilbab ..
Ana gomt agoolaha without a voice " menu? .. menu? "
Wehya etsaweeli be3yoonha puppy eyes ..

Faris : " alooooo! .. shfech tanna7tay? Wainch? "

Shoug : " aaaaam .. aam .. getlik .. ga3ed nasfe6 .. farris degeega oo endish .. bas noufo ga3da tasfe6 oo mat3arf .. yalla ok? Degega oo adish .. "

Faris closed the line ..

Shoug : " LA ETGOLILI FAISAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLL! "

Nouf : " la yadete! "

I let a fake smile and mummbled : " hehe .. oh god! .. hello drama! "

Nouf : " abbaih shako? .. it's not a big deal ok babe? "

I closed my eyes .. took a deep breath .. and opened the door ..

Shoug : " sure! "

Faisal kan ekhezna ethahir mn dashaina il parking..
Did he saw me kissing my mobile screen?
I smiled to him from masafa eshkoburha ..
Well , that good .. bas chethe khalasna?
Aah ashwa! .. I thought besir something big ..
Did he wave?
Aakh! Stupidddddd ya faisal ..
I waved back in a shy way ..
And start walking big fast steps while bushing noufo mn thaharha ..

Shoug : " emshay asra3 noufo .. if you can run ..
well , lets run now! .. yala yala .. "

Nouf : " haw haw! Shfeeech? .. waaay waziin his wave walla! .. ya zeeeeeeennna shougo .. walla 7ada mamlou7! Shofeh shofeh .. "

I kept bushing her ..

Shoug : " chab chab .. emshay .. wala faris be6eqni .. wala bestir salfa .. emshay emshay noufo .. walla akhaffff! "

Nouf : " enzain yala yala! Uuff! "

7amdellah ena kelhum kanaw wasleen .. so kan fe table 7agna ..
Oo faisal oo his friends sajalaw bil waiting list ..

24 } ~

2009-11-09T16:44:00.001+03:00

Nouf Called me immediately after my msg ..
Ma radait .. khalaita eser missed call ..
And I took a shower .. libast my PJ ..
And called her after lying down on my comfy bed ..

Shoug : " ha? "

Nouf : " ha wayhich! Whats wrong? Shfeech with ommch? "

Shoug : " nothing .. 3ady .. faris .. "

She said while giggling : " heehehe wallaaaaain! Shfeeeehh ba3aaaad? "

I took a deep breath while covering my head ..

Shoug : " mama khaifa 3alaih menni .. imagine noufo! Oo khalti ghada too! Khaifa eserla shay .. madre a7is channy going to steal him menhum! Shda3wa? .. I don't know.. "

Nouf : " wait! .. first of all .. your mom khaifa 3alaich then 3alaih! You're her daughter! Fa entay il awla bil nesba laha .. and 2nd thing khalti ghada 6ool 3omerha over protected oo 7ad'ha emsaweya faros ya dhaina la tenkatain! .. they don’t hate you shoug .. bas .. eshofoon il7ub something wrong! Oo ena you guys teenagers lel7een! Ya3ni 7adkoom yahal oo elli benkom le3eb oo kharabe6! "

Shoug : " well no its not! I love him noufo .. wayid! Mu shwaya! .. wayid! "

Nouf : " I know .. khalas khallehum ebrou7hum ra7 yadroon later enna it's true love .. "

*BEEP*

Shoug : " aah .. second line .. wait .. "

I took a deep breath and said my "alo! "

Shoug : " hala hala .. "

Faris : " heyy babe .. menu ur second line? "

Shoug : " my other boyfriend .. "

Faris : " la walla? "

I giggled : " ehehe .. noufo ba3ad menu! "

*BEEP*

Shoug : " wee kahe! Ensad eb her face mn kither ma en6arat! "

Shebakt il kha6 ..

Shoug : " hey .. "

Nouf : " ENSHALLA MA AKHHHHHEEEEEEESSSSSSS!! "

Shoug : " heehehe sorry .. sorry! .. "

Nouf : " menu? Faris? "

I mumbled : " mmm .. "

Nouf : " shyabe b3ad? "

Shoug : " he's here! Heheheh .. weyana bil kha6 .. "

She starts giggling : " haw! .. heheh aloooooo? "

Faris : " kane kane! Shfene mo 3ajbch? "

Nouf : " heheh 3ajeebne laish la! "

Faris : " eeh 3abale! .. shkentaw etsoolfon 3anah? "

Nouf : " shaaaaaaaakkkkkkoooooowwwww? "

Shoug : " about you .. "

Nouf : " entay ebsir3a etkheqeeeeeen! Hehehehe "

We broke a laugh ..

I whispered : " 7adde .. "

Faris : " shfene? "

Nouf : " nothing! Mafek shay 6oowel il3omer! .. bas shougo omha em3asba 3alaikom .. oo enna etshoof hal shay so wrong oo sick! "

Faris : " ah! "

Shoug : " no .. ya3ni mo chethe .. bas enna it's wrong .. oo ena e7na esghar oo malah da3e hal suwalif al7een oo chethe .. bas she loves you faris .. oo ya3ne 3ade she'll understand later on .. bas al7een mama mo metfahma .. bas later akeed eb tetfaham .. "

Faris : " ah .. "

Shoug : " ooo ba3dain I was rude weyaha .. already kent metnarfiza mn many things oo qalait adabe .. so its not about you bethab6 .. bas 6ali3at 7arrat'ha fena .. ya3ni an ail big deal mu enta .. ana elli lsany 6oowel oo radadt .. bas enta 3ady ma tekrehik my mom wela enna etshof our love something 7ail 7ail ghala6 .. ok its wrong .. bas mu wayid wrong .. "

Faris : " ah .. "

Nouf : " shfeek emtannne7!! "

Faris : " nothing .. yalla I have to go wesalt ildowaneya "

Shoug : " and your comment is?? "

Faris : " inshala khair! "

Shoug: " shda3wa 3alaik faris .. sarle sena atkallam .. akhir shay .. enshalla khair? "

Faris : " yala bye .. "

Nouf : " aloooooooo? .. waina hatha ra7? "

I mumbled : " eeh .. sada! "

Nouf : " shfeeh 7imdelah weshekir? "

Shoug : " chab! Shfech entay 3alaih! .. "

Nouf : " law entay 7abatlich jassom wayid a7sanlich! Walla he's funny oo adorable oo mu de3la nafs hatha! .. "

Shoug : " shtabeeeeeeeeeeeen! Omg! Sakhefa! .. shfeeh faris? A7san mn jassom eb million mara! Common aslant its not fair 7ag jassem ena etqarnena eb faris! Cus be6ee7 7atha! "

Nouf start laughing : " hahahah maskeena entay! Wayid shaifa feeh shoofaaaaa! "

Shoug : " shtaben? Kaife kaife! .. huuuuuuuf! Tara ebrou7y mali khulq . yala bye bye .. barou7 adish msn wayid awnas mench! Maliqa .. "

She said while laughing : " heheheh bye bye ! "

I loged in msn ..

Shougan .. enta ma7boobi eb 7ag oo bela neza3;*! Says :
Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ;p

Dr. Faisal Says :
Hala shouggggggggggggg ;D .. shlooonch?

Shougan .. enta ma7boobi eb 7ag oo bela neza3;*! Says :
Mm .. gd I think .. what about you?

Dr. Faisal Says :
Amazing .. foooooooooog ilnakhaaaaaaaal ;p

I giggled while typing ..

Shougan .. enta ma7boobi eb 7ag oo bela neza3;*! Says :
3assa dom ..

Dr. Faisal Says :
A7ad eshuufich oo ma eser zain? ;D .. nice to see you ilyoom ..

Shougan .. enta ma7boobi eb 7ag oo bela neza3;*! Says :
Aaww! Thanks .. nice to see you too ;) ..

Dr. Faisal Says :
Yeah me too ..

We kept talking about random stuff ..
Ghareba shlon he never mentioned his brother thing to me ..
Yemkin 7asabne babe oo mafham eb hal suwalif?
Or makan yabe yetnaqash bil mawthou3 with anyone?

I received a msg from a7med ..

From: A7med
" etrou7oon tomorrow fuds? At 2 pm? "

To : a7med
" sure! 3oqba cinema? "

From : a7med
" affa 3alaich ;) "

Dr. Faisal Says :
Aloooooooo! Wainch?

Shougan .. enta ma7boobi eb 7ag oo bela neza3;*! Says :
Hala? Kane! .. sorry kent atefeq with my cousins 3ala 6al3a bachir ;p

Dr. Faisal Says:
Really? Oo wain etefaqtaw?

Shougan .. enta ma7boobi eb 7ag oo bela neza3;*! Says :
Fuds ;p

Dr. Faisal Says :
Sh6ary 3alaikom? @@

Shougan .. enta ma7boobi eb 7ag oo bela neza3;*! Says :
Madri wanasa fathe oo naakheth ra7atna there ;p

Dr. Faisal Says:
3alaikom bil 3afya .. ana bachir ba6la3 with my friends too ;p .. khalas ashoofch eb fuds enshala! ;p

My eyes popped ..

Shougan .. enta ma7boobi eb 7ag oo bela neza3;*! Says :
Loooooooooool laaaaaa mn sejik! Malah da3ey etyee .. ma63am yahal heheheh

Dr. Faisal Says:
You'll be there .. ekaffffii ;)

Huuuuf! La teeyee! Mabek mabeeeeeeek!

Shougan .. enta ma7boobi eb 7ag oo bela neza3;*! Says :
Heheheh thanks ;p bas wallah kelish malah da3e! ana barou7 m3a cousins aslant! .. ya3ni faris oo a7med oo jassom will be there! ;p

Dr. Faisal Says:
So? .. 3adi! A7san ashoofhum!

Shiiiiiittttttt!

Shougan .. enta ma7boobi eb 7ag oo bela neza3;*! Says :
Bas tara they don’t know enna I have a connection with you ..

Dr. Faisal Says:
Oo men gaal ennch mwa3datne? I wanna go there! Eshtahaait fuds! ;p

Shougan .. enta ma7boobi eb 7ag oo bela neza3;*! Says :
Heheh .. khalas elli eray7ik .. see you then ;)

Dr. Faisal Says:
Enshalla ;)

Shougan .. enta ma7boobi eb 7ag oo bela neza3;*! Says :
Yala ana bagom anam ;p .. goodnight ;p

And .. I went to bed thinking about tomorrow...
While whispering to the sky: "please god .. mali khulq aflaaaaaaaaam! "

sorry..

2009-11-09T09:30:00.000+03:00

I didnt die yet!
Sorry wala!
i'll make it up for you guys! :(

23 } ~

2009-09-24T20:49:00.003+03:00

3eedkoum embarak all ;*
Miss you ..
And looooooooooooooooovvvvvve you wayyyyyid! ;*
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My eyes winded ..
And I gave him a half smile while blushing so hard ..
Omg .. estakhaaaaf hatha?

My mom called me : " Shoug! Shfeeech wagfa there? Rou7ay 7ag ilbnayyat! "

I nodded : " ok .. ok .. baru7! "

I start walking toward the other living room ..
I pressed faris's number ..

Faris : " mmmmm .. "

I whispered : " nemt? "

Faris : " yes .. "

Shoug : " mu gelt masafat il6erej? "

He giggled while rolling on his bed : " heheh .. enshalla 7abebe bas netzawaj you won't go there anymore ok? "

I blushed : " ok .. inshalla .. "

Faris : " shfeeh ur voice? "

Shoug : " za3lan! Cus ma yabe erou7 yeg3ad with the other girls! Maleqeeeeeeeeeen! "

Faris : " heheheh 3an ildala3 .. kelaha sa3a! oo ba3dain keep msging me ok? Ensoolif msgs .. bas la etthaygen khulqich ok? "

Shoug : " heheheh .. enshaa … "

Faisal : " e7mm .. "

I turned to see him walking waray ..

Shoug : " Emm .. agoolik khalas enshalla .. yalla see you .. nighteeeee .. sleep well .. "

Faris : " fee yammich a7ad? "

I smiled : " yeah! "

Faris : " yala 7obi .. goodnight .. "

I closed the line and smiled to faisal elli kan sa6er yamme!

Shoug : " hi there .. "

Faisal said with a big smile on his face : " shrayich bil wink bas? "

Shoug : " heheh 3ajeba! .. " I turned the subject .. " which room elli ga3den feha ilgirls? Yemen or yesar? "

Faisal : " mu tawwich tgoolen 3anhum maleqen? "

Shoug : " ha? I .. "

It was just a slap on my face! ..

Shoug : " aah .. no 3adi .. I just don't know them 7ail .. "

Faisal : " and you hate chatting with someone you barley know? "

I nodded : " yeah exactly .. "

Faisal smiled while saying calmly : " menu kentay etkalmen? "

My heart starts beating so fast ..
And my eyes start etching me ..

Shoug : " ha? .. haw! Laish? .. faa .. faris! "

Faisal : " faris? Ur cousin? She6ary etgoolenlah 3an ilgirls enhum maleqen? "

I rolled my eyes : " daah! Because he's faris! .. 3ade! Agolah anything .. everything! "

Faisal : " I know enkoum close .. bas ya3ne .. ma haqait lay hal daraja ..! "

I smiled : " what an awkward first time meeting! Awal marra ashufek face to face oo chethe ga3ed netkallam? "

He smiled : " that’s right! .. weird! .. ma7essich yahel! "

I giggled : " heheheh ok I'll take it as a mad7a! .. thank you very much! "

He starts laughing : " yes it is mad7a! .. ma a7is enna baina 9-10 years! "

Shoug : " heheeheheh tara ok etha you're 25 tara I'm 16! Mu baby! "

Faisal : " yeah right .. adre .. bas awal marra asoolef m3a wa7da kober 7issa e5ty oo ma a7iss enha yahel! "

Shoug : " tara 7issa bigger than me eb two years! 3ala fekra! She's almost 18! "

Faisal : " hhehehe .. shougo can I have your number? "

I just paused in my place ..
Not knowing what to say!
Kan weddi an7ash .. or at least atesel 3ala nouf!

Shoug : " mmmm .. su .. sure! "

Faisal : " channich tewahaqtay oo ma tabeen? "

I giggled : " hehehe no! shda3wa .. bas ena ma tewaga3t il question! hehe .. mmm .. its 999xxxx"

Faisal start laughing while searching for his mobile eb
his dishdasha's pockets .. : " wait wait ne6ray! "

6alla3 his flip-flop nokia mobile and start typing my number ..

Faisal : " 999…? Then? "

I heard my mom's voice : " yalla ma3a ilsalama .. SHOUGGGGGG! "

I said : " kane yomaaa! Next to the door! .. "

Faisal : " akher shay cham? "

Shoug : " 2 .. 3 ! "

My mom : " yalla m3a ilsalama faisal .. enshufik 3ala khair yoma .. "

He gave her a smile : " m3a ilsalama khalti .. "

I said while walking behind my mom .. : " m3a ilsalama .. see you! "

* BEEB *

From: Faris
" 103.7 dedicated to ur sharp eyes;* love you! ;* "

I smiled ..
Awal ma rekabna il car wella afta7 il fm ebsiiiir3a ..

** 7abeeb ilrou7 ya 7eluu ebtesamak .. oo ya ma7la elliyalee fe gharamak .. eshofoony ma3ak as'har leyalii .. egharuu mn kalame oo mn kalamak .. mn 3eyooni law to6lub 3eyooni .. 7abebe oo 7obbek eb galbe jenouni .. kil 3eyoon ilnas tes'al laish a7ebik? Wana ma hammeni law yes'elooni .. **

I swallowed my tears ..

To : Faris
" a7ibek! ;* allah la ya7remni mennk …. "

My mom : " menu ga3ed edezeenla msg? "

I ignored the question and said : " tadren yooma tawa faisal took my number! Abaih maaaa abyyyy! "

She stared at me for a while .. then mumbled : " mahwa a7san mn ghaira! "

My eyes winded : " shgasdech? "

My mom : " entay fahma! "

Shoug : " omg! Ma asaddeq! .. yuma I wanna know walla sej! Why do you hate me? Shenu sawait lech? Laish me7tara menny? Ana shenuu sawaaait!! "

My mom : " fee om te7tar mn beent'ha?? .. ana me7tara 3alaich! Mu menich! "

Shoug : " aah! .. and it's okay ena faisal eli madre sheserli
ya5eth my number? "

My mom : " mnu gallech it's ok? .. ana aslant kil tasarrofatch not okay bil nesba le! Antay kellich mo 3ajbatne hal fatra! "

Shoug : " and here we go .. "

My mom start yelling at me .. the classic parent talk .. entay ma et3arfeen masla7tich oo hal 3omer qararatich mu right .. and kilshay ga3ed etsawenah wrong oo 3aib! .. etc etc etc ..

I took a deep breath eb nus kalamha ..

My mom : " channa mo 3ajbech? "

I whispered : " khalas mama .. I'll end it .. kilshay beser methel ma you want .. ok? "

My mom : " enshof! "

I texted Nouf ..

To: Nouf
" I hate my mom! "

22 } ~

2009-09-15T15:49:00.002+03:00

I went home .. and my mother didn't said anything to me ..
Bas ta36ene nathrat – I hate you – bas enna thanks god ma sawatli salfa ..

I got into my bed ..
And signed in msn ..

Dr. Faisal .. 3edu? Be ay 7al je'ta ya 3edu? .. Says :
Guuuuuuwa! A7LA 3EEED EMBARAK 7AG SET IL SETAAAAAAT :D

I giggled..
Maynon?

Shougan .. yentehe 3eedi oo tawa ma ektimal!
Youm ma tes7ab mn edaine edaik! .. Says:
Heeeey! ;* .. 3ediik embarak ;* .. shloonek?

Dr. Faisal .. 3edu? Be ay 7al je'ta ya 3edu? .. Says :
G R E A T ! ; ) .. what about you muffin?

Shougan .. yentehe 3eedi oo tawa ma ektimal!
Youm ma tes7ab mn edaine edaik! .. Says:
Amazing I think? Heheheh ..

Faisal had this spirit elli ghasub you'll be happy around him ..
He's just so happy and alive .. no matter what!
When I talk to him .. I feel like im in a wonderful circus ..
His world is so much better than "life"!
Bas ghareba .. he didn't mention his brother salfa! ..
Which is soooo ghareeeeeeeeeeba! ..
Shda3wa ma egooli?

Dr. Faisal .. 3edu? Be ay 7al je'ta ya 3edu? .. Says :
Haaa sharaitay nafnoof?

I smiled ..

Shougan .. yentehe 3eedi oo tawa ma ektimal!
Youm ma tes7ab mn edaine edaik! .. Says:
Hahahah shakhbari nafnoof? ;p la etfashel rou7ik tara Now gamaw esamounah dress ;p bas ethahir enta kent tadris fa ma darait! Loooooooooool

Dr. Faisal .. 3edu? Be ay 7al je'ta ya 3edu? .. Says :
Ya3ni '9a'36atne 7alaya ilkhashem?

Shougan .. yentehe 3eedi oo tawa ma ektimal!
Youm ma tes7ab mn edaine edaik! .. Says:
Heheheheheheeee! Khalas khalas im sorry! Akhir marra! ;p .. eeeh sharait "nafnof" :D

Dr. Faisal .. 3edu? Be ay 7al je'ta ya 3edu? .. Says :
Eee ashwa! Keshkheeli .. mu etfashlene agool 7ag omi ba56eebha etgool shoof shenu labsa! Khu entaw il7areeem edaqeqoon 3ala shaghlat baikha!

Shougan .. yentehe 3eedi oo tawa ma ektimal!
Youm ma tes7ab mn edaine edaik! .. Says:
Hahahahah! So truuuuuueee! ;p .. la inshalla la et7ate ;p

We kept talking about everything ..
Just random suwalif ..

Dr. Faisal .. 3edu? Be ay 7al je'ta ya 3edu? .. Says :
Tadreen gabil cham yoom menu sheft bil salalt? Faris oo jassim oo a7mad!

Shougan .. yentehe 3eedi oo tawa ma ektimal!
Youm ma tes7ab mn edaine edaik! .. Says:
Menu??? Akhaf emthaye3! Loooooooooool ..

Dr. Faisal .. 3edu? Be ay 7al je'ta ya 3edu? .. Says :
La mo emthaye3!! Shtaben? .. walla sheft'hum oo salamt 3alaihum looool! A7medo lel7een chethe skinny looooool?

Shougan .. yentehe 3eedi oo tawa ma ektimal!
Youm ma tes7ab mn edaine edaik! .. Says:
Hahahaha! Yeah khalas 3ayal sheft'hum ;p .. ya7lelhum ;*

Dr. Faisal .. 3edu? Be ay 7al je'ta ya 3edu? .. Says :
Shlounhum? Shakhbarhum?

Shougan .. yentehe 3eedi oo tawa ma ektimal!
Youm ma tes7ab mn edaine edaik! .. Says:
Heheheh laish tes'alne? Chan sa'alt'hum ;p .. zainen 7amdellah! ..

Dr. Faisal .. 3edu? Be ay 7al je'ta ya 3edu? .. Says :
Elli athkera ena faris kan mareth … 3adil?

My eyes winded ..

Shougan .. yentehe 3eedi oo tawa ma ektimal!
Youm ma tes7ab mn edaine edaik! .. Says:
Eeh .. he is ..

Dr. Faisal .. 3edu? Be ay 7al je'ta ya 3edu? .. Says :
Allah eshafeeh inshalla ..

Shougan .. yentehe 3eedi oo tawa ma ektimal!
Youm ma tes7ab mn edaine edaik! .. Says:
Ameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen! ;* 3assa ya rabbb ..

Few days later ..

My mom : " SHOUGGGGG! YALLAAAAAAAHHHH!! TARA ILSA3AAAAA 9AM!! YALLAAAAAAA!"

I mumbled while yawnening: " aaaaaah? Yallaaaa yallaaaaaa! Huuuuufffff .. "

My mom screamed : " 3EEEEEEEDCH EMBARAAAAAAAAAAAAAK! "

I smiled : " ayamich sa3eda .. mwah " I blow her a kiss ..

I dialed Faris's number ..

Faris : " yaaaaaa saba7777 il3eeeeeeeeeeddddd .. "

I smiled while shrinking on my bed ..
I just love shrinking laima asma3 his voice ..

Shoug : " saba7 ilkhair .. "

Faris : " yaaa kaslana! Wakeeeee up!! .. ana badish thaleth dwaneya! Wentay lel7een nayma? "

I giggled : " heheheh maaaaali khuuuuuulq! Abe anam! "

Faris whispered : " yalla babe wake up .. ana lazim arou7 fashla mn ilnas .. yalla 7abebe entay wake up .. I'll see you around 3 ok? "

I mumbled : " fene ilnoooooom! Mabi arou7 il3eed .. I wanna stay on my bed all day .. uuh .. "

Faris said while giggling : " yalla wake up now and we'll celebrate later eb ur bed! "

I blushed : " heheheh qalel adaaaaaaab hehehehe .. "

Faris : " hehehe .. mwah .. yalla bye .. "

I closed the line and went to my lovely bathroom ..
Took a long shower .. "the 3eed" shower heheheh ..
I waved my hair and refa3t one side with cute small glistening bow hairclips...
Applied dark cherry lipstick ..
And called for our maid asking her about my Eid dress!
Libast my deller lilly print silk dress uhwa three mixed colors .. peach , black and gray …

We went to aunt muneera house , then khalti badreya , then … then .. then ..

I mumbled : " way yumah! Bas bas .. dekht!
My cheeks gamaw e3awrooneeeeee! "

My mom giggled : " ya il3ayara! Ana mashoof ella kilshwaya wa7da da3sa eb eedich 20 kd! "

I blushed while giggling : " hehe shaaaaako! "

We went to my father's side half-aunt ..
Khalti Hissa ..
She's like 80 years old!
Allah your7amha now .. she passed away 3 years ago I think .

My mom : " call nada shofeha wainha? "

I texted her : " wainch? Me and mom eb bait khalti Hesa alx. ;p "

I raised my eyes .. to find a full living room ..
The right side full with women ..
And the other side full with men!

I whispered while holding my mother from the back : " yuma! Fashla! "

* BEEB *

From : faris
" haaaa 7abebee .. wainch? "

I smiled ..
And raised my eyes ..
To see fisal staring at me ..

Hissa " faisal's sister " : " hiiiiiiii shouuuuuuugggggggg .. "

I hugged her : " ahleeeen! Miss youuu .. 3eedich embarakk honey .. "

It just popped in my mind " khalti hissa her grandmother!! .. okay!! "

Salamna oo I sat with " the girls" elli I barley know ..

I texted faris ..

To: faris
" uuh! E7na eb bait khalti hessa .. and I'm with banat ma3ref ella asamehum! I hate thisssss! Come pick me! "

From: faris
" yala yala im on my way! ;* "

I smiled ..
And raised my eyes ..
To meet his adorable big eyes ..
Did he winked?
Did he –really- .. WINKED?

21 } ~

2009-09-13T17:26:00.002+03:00

My heart stopped beating..
And my eyes start etching me …
I hate ilchethb ..
Ma7eb ma7eb ..
Specially enny ga3da achatheb 3ala faris!

I whispered : " .. amm .. no!"

Faris smiled : " are you sure? "

I nodded : " eeh! Shda3wa shak fene! "

He stood up ..
And reached for my hand ..

Faris : " emshay! Let's go out side .. ensoolif 3ala ra7atna .. "

I start walking toward the door oo 7asa enna ba6ne e3awerni ..
Oo ena it's the last time eli bakallem feha faris laish ana chathaba ..

Fa6ooma yelled : " WAIN RAAAAAY7EEEEEEENN?? "

Faris : " jam3eya .. taben shay? "

Fa6ooma : " pepsi please .. ooo galaxy elli dakhla caramel .. "

Faris nodded : " sure! .. wentaw taboun shay? "

Jassim : " zgayir oo redbull .. "

A7med : " banak! "

Nouf mumbled : " ahh mishtahya noodles! "

We all break a laugh ..

Shoug : " hahah she6aaaaaary noodles! "

Nouf blushed : " heheh madriiii! Faj'a atnassa! Heheheh "

We walked out side ..
And got into faris's car ..

6ooL il6erej sakten ..
He didn't ask me aw shay ..

" MAMA;* " Is calling ..
I whispered .. : " uuh! Great! "

Shoug : " hala mama "

My mom sij enha open minded oo kilshay ..
Bas as I said before .. makan 3ady 3endaha a6la3 with friends ..
Aw albis geser .. and bikini's makanat eb qamoos'ha at all!
She's 7achra as we say in kuwait ..
Ya3ni madre a7is enha typical mother ..
Edgdg kil shwayya .. questioning about every little detail eb 7ayate ..
Mu 3an shaka fene .. bas she loves me oo etkhaf 3alay mn ildinya ..

Shoug : " yeah .. minu gallch? .. eeh ray7een eljam3eya .. hala? .. yes .. only me and him .. haaw! Yumaaaaaa! Laaaaa! Shakuuuuu! Omg!! .. la .. ok ok .. "

She starts yelling oo enna entay ma tefhemen oo ma e6e3en ilkalam .. oo when you come back e7sabich m3ay .. oo yalla come back home now la ayeelich iljam3eya afashlich .. just kalam ebu6 ilchaaaaabd oo enarrfiz ..

She closed the line eb wayhe ..
Faris smiled : " ha? Zafetich? "

Shoug : " uuh .. 6af .. like I care? "

Faris : " don't say that .. you care .. look at your eyes .. matrosa edmo3 .. "

Shoug : " yeah .. it's not about my mom faris .. it's about .. everything! "

Faris : " everything? "

Shoug : " I just .. "
I took a deep breath ..
And said …
" faris .. it's about everything between us .. it's not working! .. the first thing my mom mu rathya .. and 2nd yours too! .. and now you don't understand me eb salfat faisal oo ena he's my cousin oo emghasebny enna ya achatheb 3alaik or enna I cut him off my life ooh al shay ana mabeeh! Because I don't see anything wrong eb my relationship weyah! He's just my cousin .. "
I start crying .. : " im tired from wearing masks and fake a smile .. a7is enna kilman yekrahne .. kilman eshufni bitch for using you .. 3ala balhum enna you're sick oo ta3ban .. oo ana .. ana .. I'm using you somehow! .. madry shloon! Or shaku! .. bas hatha ray kil elli 7olna .. ma3ada nouf maybe! She's the only one elli shayfa ilmawtho3 ib our view .. "

Faris took a deep breath .. : " la tabcheen inzain .. kilshay yen7aL .. la tabcheen .. "

I whipped my tears and took a deep breath .. : " I know .. I know kilshay yen7aL .. bas Im saying etha it's worth it aw la! .. akhaf faris .. akhaf! .. "

He moved my hair wara my ear …
and whispered : "shloun etkhafen while im here? "

Shoug : " enta sibab khoufi faris . enta! "

His eyes winded and his hand just froze behind my ear : " ana? "

Shoug : " akhaf a7ibek oo akhaf ahedik .. akhaf agoolik ilsej oo akhaf achatheb 3alaik .. akhaf a3temed 3alaik oo akhaf a3temed 3ala nafse .. Im just so scared .. "

Faris : " shoug! Shoug! .. la etgoolin chethe! .. shal 5arabee6? .. ana min meta at7akam feech wela akhalich etchathben 3alay? .. okay I hate your relationship m3a faisal oo I was really mad laish ektishaf sedfa .. bas etha tabeen et'9elen friend weyah .. khalas kaifech! Ok shay mo 3ajebni bas ana mara7 amne3ch mn shay! .. oo ba3dain ilkhoof eli fech 6abe3e! .. mafeha shay ennich et5afen .. I'm scared too .. ne3temed 3ala ba3ath oo enkammeL ba3ath .. shay 6abe3e ilkhouf .. if you care about something shay 6abe3e etkhaf tafgedena .. it's sign of love shougeee .. it's a good sign not a bad one! "

Shoug : " oo omek oo omi faris? Oo omiik oo omeee?? "

Faris : " mekhalif! .. still e7na esghar eb netharhum oo qararatna mu sa7ee7a .. enshalla eb nikbar oo we they see us lel7een 3ala rayna .. eb yeqtan3oon ena It’s a true love oo mu le3eb .. "

Shoug : " and going to usa? Oo etkhalene! "

Faris : " yah! Shfeech shoug? Ghasub etsaween salfa? Ghasub telgain shay ethayyeg khulqich? .. let it go .. live day by day .. oo inshalla kilshay eser ok .. la etfakreen ib the future too much .. khaleeh .. ebrou7ah esir! .. ok? "

I nodded : " ok .. "

* Kisarne ilkhouf .. oo ashwaqee reqeqa mate7eb ilkhouf! .. A7IBEK .. oo ilguloob elli te7eb ... methel il3eyoon etshouf! .. anadelik .. wela radait .. 3asa ma sabat e3youn il7asood egloubena oo malait? ..

Faris smiled while kissing my hand .. : " yalla khaneshtereelhum elli yabona la nenfethe7 .. specially il noodles shefookna mn elsan nofoo! "

I giggled with tears in my ears : " heheheh .. yalla le'ts go .. "

We went to jam3eyat alyarmook …
Me and faris . .walking side by side oo uhwa ediz il3araba ..
I smiled ..
The perfect picture of us ..
With little fay? ..
I love the name " fay" ..

I said while smiling : " I love fay .. "

He gave me a confused smile : " lucky her .. bas which fay? "

I blushed : " our fay! .. bentna esmha fay! "

He giggled : " heheh .. ooh right! Tawni adre .. mmm …
cute name .. mu wow .. bas 7elu .. "

I smiled while staring at chips corned : " mmmm laish mu wow?
It's amazing! Walla 3ajeb .. "

Faris : " I don't know .. fay faris .. too many F's .. heheheh! "

Shoug : " hehehehe! Ohh god! Mokhe madre laish 6ara 3ala bali the F word! Heheheh wai3! Heheheh "

Faris break a laugh : " hahahah me too! Mu agoolich mo wow! Cus mn getleli Fay .. sar fene mmmm fay faris? .. FF? what the F? hahahah! "

We start laughing 3ala ashya sakheefa ..
it was just so sweet talking about ayshay weyah ..
mahma kan esgher ..

20 } ~

2009-09-10T03:10:00.002+03:00

Hey all ;*
Miss you sooo much! ;D
Sorry for taking so long ..
Bas saratli katha shaghla oo khathat wagte! ;x

LOVE YOU ALLLL ;******************

I pressed Noufa's number while closing my room's door ..
Awal ma she picked it up ..
I whispered : " aloo! "

Nouf : " hala? "

Shoug : " Noufo!! Omg!! "

Nouf : " heheh shfeeech etsasreene?? "

I giggled : " heheh madre! .. agoolich tawa sema3t my mom oo nada esoolfon about someone! Atwagga3 he's faisal's brother!! .. "

She cut me off ..

Nouf : " yeah enna tezawaj? Oo ran away to Dubai? "

Shoug: " omgggg!! He ran away?? Wiyaha? Omg!!!! "

Nouf : " yeah! I know!! .. 7adi masdoomaa!! .. my mom tawwa ga3da etsoolif! .. allah e3enhoum!! .. "

Shoug : " what should I do? What should I dooooooooo? "

Nouf : " you? .. wintay shaku? .. it's none of ur business !! "

Shoug :" I was going to block and delete him ilyoom! .. bas noufo 7araam! 7abebeeeee!! Yaksir ilkhaaa6er! "

Nouf : " mmmm well, ana mo meqtan3a eb salfat il delete aslant! Shako faris eb kaifah ye5tar menu etseren close weyah oo menu la? Madre ya3ni ma7iss lah da3e kellish! You're not a child shwaig! You're big enough enna et3arfen what's right and what's wrong! "

I mumbled : " mmmm .. yeah .. a7is chethe .. "

I closed the line ..
And joined msn ..

- Faris .. ENTY MALAK! ;* .. Says:
Halaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa 7ooooooooobee! ;*

I smiled ..

- Shougan .. Says :
Ahlaaaaaaan! ;D

- Faris .. ENTY MALAK! ;* .. Says:
Shloonech?

- Shougan .. Says:
Heheheh very good ;*

- Faris .. ENTY MALAK! ;* .. Says:
7abebe sawaitay delete 7ag faisal?

- Shougan .. Says:
Emm .. eeh kane dashait el msn 3alashan asawelah block delete ..

- Faris .. ENTY MALAK! ;* .. Says:
Kafooooo! ;* .. yalla 3omri ana gaym anam .. gn ..

- Shougan .. Says:
Goodnight ;*

Dawart his email eb my contact list ..
A7is galbe e3awerne ..
Mu gadra asawelah delete!
He's so sweet! Oo 7aram!! Ma sawali anything wrong to delete him ..!

After taqreban a week ..
Fahamt ilsalfa mn suwalif ilnas oo my family oo our group ..
I was really sad ..
Kisart kha6rey ..
It's not easy enna your brother yaskir feek oo ekhalik 7achwa eb ilsan kil elnas!
And his brother married someone mu mn mwakhethhum wela akhlaqha zaina ..
Fa it's so hard 3alaihum ..

One day we were eb bait mama 6aiba ..

Jassim : " ekhasii! Shtabeen etgoolen 3anah ya 7aram! .. la mu 7aram! .. 7aywan oo mu rayyaal! "

Shoug : " omg! Wenta shakuu feh? It's up to him! Khalas bi6agag! Hal salfa sarlikom sena tetkalemoon feha! .. khalaaaas! Move on! .. "

Nouf mumbled : " ee wallah! Telgoonhum now bil honeymoon wela yadron 3an kalamkom! "

A7med : " shda3wa? Mangool rayna ya3ni? Oo ba3dain elli yaghli6 yet7ammal elli eyeh! "

Faris nodded ..
While fa6ma said nervously : " you guys! Madri shlon! Ma etfakroon eb 3aqelkom! .. elbanat eb degega eqesson 3alaikom oo etseroon 3emyan! .. because she's hot oo chanha actor khalas? Manshoof 3aylat'ha wela akhlqaha? Oo we should move on? La hatha mu kalam! .. khalas! Ana basiir ray7a feha oo barou7 akheth wa7da mu kuwaiti! And you guys move on enzain? "

Noufo said while laughing : " oo menu gallich enna you look like an actor? "

Shoug : " yeah .. jeker.com! "

We all start laughing so hard 3alaiha ..

Fa6oma : " chab bas chab! .. shfene? Eshmel7ee wallaaaaaa! "

Fa6oma is really cute mashalla .. white skin .. light green madrey blue eyes mashalla .. her eyes ya36oun akhthar mn loon walah! .. she's cute ya3nee .. she took her look from her father's side .. wayid emkhal6een atrak oo Lebanese ..

Fa6ooma added : " bas bas! Bada3taaaaaaw! La te'97ekooon 3ama!! Huuuuff! .. walla kil el guys " she pointed 3ala faris , jassim and a7med .. " galaw nafs il kalam!!! "

Faris said while laughing : " ehehe ana? Heheheh .. la I didn't say ennah 3adi oo mafe shay! .. ana magelt rayye aslant! .. oo it's not 3ade! 3aib oo qellat 7ayah! "

Fa6oom : " eeeeh sa7! .. channy ashoufek metzawej zbala madre mn wain yayebha! .. "

Faris's eye flashed .. : " hehe .. awarech menu ba5eth! Shaikhat ilbanat walla! "

I blushed so hard ..
And start playing with my mobile ..

Nouf : " ayyyyywa 3ala il7oob oo ilgharaam! Menu hathee elli chethe metwalle3 feha! "

Faris : " heheheh chab entay! .. mu 3an a7ad mo3ayyan .. bas morte ana shaikhat il banat .. "

Nouf winked while laughing 3ala shakil fa6oom oo a7medu elli still yetnajeron! ..

* BEEP*

From : F.
" faisal. dr :
3ash mn shaf hal nickname walla! : ) "

Refa3t my eyes and saw faris laughing m3ahum ..
I felt bad ..
I felt like I'm cheating on him ..

To: F
" ahleen! The smile the smile maaaaaan! ;@ "

From : F
" faisal . dr :
Heheheh! Oh oh asif asif!! .. ha ha >> :D :D :D ! "

I giggled ..

Faris : " shfech ? "

I mumbled while typing a msg for faisal ..

Shoug : " nothing .. "

To : F
" heheh! That's okay! ;p .. shlooooonek? Miss you! Long time! "

From : F
" faisal . dr :
Shda3wa long time! Bas 10 days yemkin! ;p "

To : F
" heheheh really? .. madre 3abali akthar .. "

From : F
" faisal . dr :
Haaaaaa! Ilyooooom done 6oweel? Mo gadra et3addy ayamech bedooone? "

I start laughing ..

To: F
" yaaa! Bamooot mn il walah 3alaik :P .. yala yala brb! I'm with my cousins ;p "

From : F
" faisal . dr :
Tyt yoba! : ) "

After few seconds ..

From : F
" faisal . dr :
Ops! .. * :D! hahahahaaa! "

I while smiling so hard ..
And la7atht faris staring at me kil shway ..
So 7athaft my mobile oo kamalt asoolif weyahum ..

Faris whispered : " You're probably doing something wrong .. mu sa7? "

19 } ~ B.

2009-08-27T22:27:00.002+03:00

I fell a sleep around 8:30 am ..
And woke up 3ala ilfu6oor ..

I didn't found any msg or missed call from Faris!

I texted him ..

To: Faris
" taqabbal allah .. please we need to talk .. call me!"

All the time in tarawe7 I was checking me mobile!
He did even reply 3ala my msg ..!

On the way home ..
I called Nouf ..
And told her what just happened yesterday ..

Nouf : " oh my goodness! He's such a child! Common! Faisal! Shkobrah? He's like our big brother! Ambaaih shougo he's sick wallah!! .. maskeen 7abebe feeh marath nafse!"

Shoug : " uuh chubay! Don't talk about him like that! .. okay he over reacted .. bas he's not mareth nafse or anything! "

Nouf : " mmm .. agoolich wait shrayich ashbuka with us? Oo you can talk to him? "

Isn't that kind of cheap?

Shoug : " mmm .. la la noufo .. I don't wanna talk to him chethe .. etha uhwa ma yabe khalas .. it's up to him! "

Nouf : " mu eb kaifaaaaa! You didn’t do anything wrong! .. omg! .. wait wait .. "

Shoug : " but …… "

She put me on hold..!

* BEEB *

Nouf : " aloooo all! "

Faris : "who's all? "

Nouf : " oh please! Don't act channa there's nothing wrong! .. you and shoug should talk to each other! .. "

Faris : " shit! I don't want to! "

Nouf : " don’t act like a child! Yaaaaaaahil? "

Faris : " chab nouf! "

Nouf : " faris! He's or cousin! .. don't act like she cheated on you or something! .. law ehya 7assa enna it's something wrong magaltlik 3anah wela galatle! .. right? "

Faris : " she didn't told me!! She sent me a msg at 4 am by mistake! "

Nouf : " yeah … but she told me about him .. ya3ne walla he's a brother! Ambaih aslant he's our cousin! "

Faris : " I'm her cousin too! "

I finally spoke .

Shoug : " ouch! "

Nouf giggled : " heheh yeah qaweya tara! "

Faris : " No! Shoug don't say ouch! .. cus it hurts laima ma etgolili about a "cousin" entay 6aqqa suwalif weyyah oo e7na yalah bil sena enshoufah mara! Oo I fond out about him by a msg la oo bil ghala6 at 4 am! With that stupid level of meyana!! .. and you Nouf .. please! I'm not baby 3endich 3alshan tashbekene eb kaifech! I know her number oo meta ma wedi akalemha I'll call her! .. "

I cut him out .. I know him so well ,
After that point he'll lose it …
Be3asib ezyada 3an elizoom .. oo ra7 yet7asaf ..
Bas in order to keep him self " maghloo6 3alaih" ..
Mara7 ye3tether bil3aks bekabbir ilsalfa izyada ..
I know him so well ..

Shoug : " I love you .. "

Nouf : " awwwh .. "

I giggled : " heheh entay ghala6! Sekeeh! "

Nouf : " I can't! ana elli shabkatkom .. etha sakaitah eb yensad menkoum too! "

Shoug : "uh! So khalich .. cus he wont pick it up! "

I said hal 7ache oo ana adre enna he's on line ..
I wanted to him to know enna it's not easy to let my cousin hear me oo ana a3tether ..
Bas .. 3alshan 5a6rah .. I'll do anything ..

Faris : " khalas shoug 6af .. "

Nouf : "Yeah! That's what men says 3alshan et5alis elsalfa .."

Me and Faris start laughing ..
She's crazyyy!

Faris : " entay radio?? Sektaay shwaaaaaaaaaaaay! "

Shoug : " heheheh ambaaaih etyaneneen noufo! Kilma asawey something wrong shebkeenah hehehehe! "

Faris : " khalas shoug .. that's okay .. but please ..
can I ask you for a favor? "

Shoug : " Sure 7abebe .. anything! "

Nouf : " kiss me? "

I blushed and Start laughing ..

Faris : " heheheh la 7ooooooooooooooollllellaaaah! "

Nouf : " Sorry guys bas walla ma7eb laima eser chethe! .. you belong to each other ediots ! "

Shoug : " heheheh I knoooooooooowwww! Hehehehe "

Faris : " Shoug 7abebti .. please delete faisal from your msn list .. okay? "

Shoug : " mmm .. but .. "

Faris : " no buts .. please? "

I mumbled : " mmm .. well, khalas ok .. enshalla "

Faris : " promise? "

Shoug : " yeah .. inshalla .. "

Faris : " great .. "

He whispered ..

Faris : " Now you should give me a kiss .. "

I giggled : " heheh faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaariiiiissss .. "

Nouf : " hahahahah 3aaaaady 3adyyyyyyyyy kiss him I'm okay with that! Heheheheh "

awaL ma wesalt our home ..
7asait fee loya ..

Shoug : " guys shwayya oo adeglikom .. tawne dasha ilbait .. oo ga3da asma3 loya! .. akhaf something efootne eheheheh .. "

Faris : " heheheh .. yalla ok honey .. "

Nouf : " byeeeee! "

I entered the living room ..
Where my mom was talking nervously to Nada!

My mom : " istaghferallah! Oo a7ad esawwey hal sowat eb hal shahar ilfotheel? 3amat 3ainaaaaaaaaaah!! .. qalel el adaaaaab! "

I opened my mouth in a shock ..
How? What? When?

I whispered : " shisalfa? "

Nada smiled : " nothing honey .. rou7ay darich! Rou7ay rou7ay .. "

I couldn't walk to my room ..
Galbe naghazne ..
Oo 7asait something big just happened!

Shoug : " yuma shfekooooooom?? "

My mom : " nothing shoug! Rou7ay darich yomma .. "

I nodded .. and walked slowly to me room ..

I heard my mom whispering : " oo al7een shbesawon? Gharbal allah eblisa!! Walla ma yeste7ee! "

Nada : " madre mama! .. bas shenu eb eed'hum? He's not awal wela akhir wa7ed .. "

I stopped in the middle of our tall mamar ..
And tried hard to listen 7ag 7acheehum ..

My mom : " al7een atesel feha wela shasawey? "

Nada : " yuma shetgoleeeeen?? Waladkom married someone ghasbin 3alaikom? Oo kil ilkuwait tet7acha feekom? .. no! yuma khalas sektay channich ma tadren it's better .. ebrou7 uhma maqhoreen now .. etzedenhm? "

My mom : " walla Om Khalid ma testahel! .. "

Nada : " walla allah e3een faisal! .. kanaw close! .. ma tadren al7een wain ewaddy wayha mn ilnas etha hathe suwat okhooh .."

I closed my eyes ..

Ok ok .. faisal's big brother called Khalid..
He's about 29 years old ..
I don't remember him that much ilsara7a ..
At age 17 he traveled to Canada for studying ..
oo bas mathkira ilsara7a ..

did he married someone oo ahalah mu rathen?
Ok why? When? Menu ehya?

19 } ~ A.

2009-08-25T16:09:00.003+03:00

omg! I don't know what's wrong with me in this Ramadan! .. I have million things to do .. yet I'm not doing anything! Loooooool .

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOUUUU ALL ;********** ,,

My heart starts beating ..
I hate hal msgs!
Type " ga3da? " .. " fatheya? " ..
A7is something bad will happen etha garait chethe ..!

To: Faris
" kane ga3da anam .. what's wrong? "

After 5 mines.

From: Faris
" nothing wrong! .. laish? "

To: Faris
" uuh! Madre! .. I 7asait .. "

From: Faris
" la bas kent as'al 3anich .. 7asaitch metthayga today .. "

To: Faris
" I hate talking about stuff eb msgs! .. and you know that ..
Oo I'm not metthayga at all .. "

I couldn't sleep ..
So I joined msn from my mobile ..

To: 858
" M shoug-alx ilovefaris "

I received a welcome msg ..
And another msg ..

From: 858123
" faisal.dr ;
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa? "

I start giggling..
Mu sa7eee!

I saved him F
3alashan mali khulq a7feth il number mal his email eb my mobile ..

To: 858123
" ha? Heheheh .. mu gadra anam! ;/ huuuf! "

From : F
" faisal. dr:
Ta3awethay mn eblis oo 3eday laima il 1000 oo etnamen .. "

To: F
" huff! Ga3da a7aaaweeeeL ;( .. "

We kept talking oo suwalif oo the7ek ..
While faris mashalla 3alaih 7aqir ..
I though he fell a sleep oo nesane ..

From: F
" faisal. dr:
You're just so sweet shougo! .. ensedamt ennich e7laiwa! .. kanat fekrete 3anich ghaaaaaair! .. "

To: F
" heheheh really? Ashwa ;p .. laish shenu kanat fekretik? "

From: F
" faisal . dr :
I don't know .. awal shay I thought enich baby! Cus bainah cham? 9 years? .. and then shoofa shwayya ;p .. bas akhir shay ashwa dashaitay galbe oo bala3tich .. "

I kept laughing ..
He just glow my days ..
I really loved him ..

To : Faris
" looooooooool! ;p 6a3 ilwaaaayh ;p .. me too .. I thought ennik wayid shayeb! ;p .. bas tara lil7een ma getli shenu sarat ilfekra! ;p .. ghair enny so sweet (a)! heheheh .. "

From: F
" faisal. dr:
Wainch? Alooooo? Looooool e7er laima yousloon
100 msg bil degega! Heheheh "

Haw!
I sent him a msg tawa! .. shfeeh hatha!

I entered my sent items ..

Ooh! No no no!
I sent the msg to FARIS! By mistake!
Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!

To: Faris

Ok ok … what should I say?
Shagoulaah?

After few seconds ..

From : Faris
" huh? "

I took a deep breath ..
And pressed his number ..

Ma eriiiiiid..!

I kept calling ..
And calling ..!
And .. CALLING!

Ma erid ..

He just ignored my calls ..

From: F
" faisal . dr:
Shougoooo? Wain e5tefaitay? Heheh ;p "

Uuh! Go to hell!

I sign out ..
And text faris ..

To : Faris
" Please pick it up! .. you should listen to me!! .. ana shabka eb msn from my mobile .. and I was chatting with faisal alx ..! it's nothing! You shouldn't think that way about me faris! .. 3aib 3alaik! "

After few mines.

From : Faris
" 3aib 3alay? Huh! 6a3 menu e3alemni .. agool agool shoug! .. adding faisal in your msn allah ye3lam mn meta behind my back .. and texting him hal 7azza in this level of meyana! .. and acting today channe ana emgasir eb 7agich .. and after all of that .. etgolele 3aib 3alaik! .. 3almay nafsich! "

My eyes winded ..
Men meta faris yetkallam that way?

To : Faris
" ok answer me .. please .. I hate msgs! "

From : Faris
" I hate lying too.! "

To : Faris
" you don't wanna listen to me? .. to what I have to say? "

From : Faris
" Elli ma e3edny ras mal ya shoug .. ma a3edah faida ; ) "

What that suppose to mean??

To: Faris
" omg! Tara 7adik ga3ed etbaligh faris.. that's too much! .. he's our cousin! Shda3wa em3assib chethe? .. he's akbar menny eb like 9-10 years! .. omg! He's like a big brother walla! "

5 am ..
5: 15 am ..
5: 26 am ..
6 : 00 am ..
6:40 am ..

And I waited tell 8:00 am!
Without getting any respond from faris ..

I hate it .
I just ..

Hate it!

18 } ~

2009-08-23T01:41:00.003+03:00

Ramadan kareem to all of you! ;*

First of all, Sorry for not posting bas kint sick ;( .. still lay3a chabdi ;( bas a7san eb wayid ;* ..
2nd .. I don't wanna talk about ilcomments .. it just too much ! : )
And yeah I don't use bad language .. in (re-love him ) Shaikha's caricature chethe .. bas me as a person I don't curse ella naderan! : ) .. and by the way .. I hate judging others!

Love you all ;**********
.
.

Faris smiled while opening the door for me ..

Faris : "7ayach .. "

I blushed: " e7ayyik .. "

He opened the radio ..

I closed me ears ..

Shoug : "noooo! Mabi! .. I don't wanna listen to music eb Ramadan! "

He starts laughing...

Faris: " uf uf! Shda3wa sadaitay athonch! Khalas yuba ka sakainaah! "

I giggled ..

Shoug : " fashalt rou7ee mo sa7? bas walla sarle 2 weeks wana ma asma3 hehehe "

He gave me a half smile : " no 3adee .. bil3aks I'm proud of you .. "

I smiled ..
Few mines. Passed like hours!
I hate it laima eser chethe baina ..
Close .. But far away!

I whispered : " faris .. "

He mumbled : " mmm ? "

Shoug : " what happened? "

he took a deep breath : " I told my mother! "

my eyes popped out!
And I just put my hand on my mouth ..

Shoug : " oh .. my .. ! why? How? When ?"

He was going to tell me everything ..
When I yelled ..

Shoug : " SHGALAAAAAT??? "

He starts playing with his gofel ..
While his eyes on the road ..
But his mind kan somewhere else!

Faris : " shoug .. ana .. "

Shoug : " yes? "

Faris : " shoug I wanna ask you one question ..
and I need the answer right now .. ok? "

I nodded .. : " sure .. what? "

Faris : " do you know how sick I am ? "

My eyes winded : " she said no? 3alshan you're sick? .. " I start playing with my hair nervously : " WHY? .. why everyone treating me like I'm going to kill you? .. I love you! .. that should refresh ur heart! Not killing you! .. uuh! "

Faris : " shoug .. answer me! .. do you know? "

Shoug : " yes faris! Yes! I know! I know! "

Faris : " shoug I can't handle breathing sometimes .. they think that I can't handle a house .. I can't handle .. you ! "

Shoug : " can you? "

Faris whispered : " what do you think? "

Shoug : " uuh dear god! .. faris tell me .. what happened between you and your mom? Let me understand! "

Faris : " nothing shoug .. just like yours! .. sawatle film oo tabche oo enta ehtam eb rou7ik oo derastik al7een oo enta mareth oo ta3ban oo laish etmashkil rou7ik oo etthaye3 ilbent! Min hal 7ache .. "

I whispered : " I hate them! Wayid mo shwayya! .. why they can't get it! .. mu fahma shloon chethe mu ga3den yefhemonah! .. I can't .. walla .. akrahhum! "

Faris : " give me your hand .. "

I gave him my hands .. both of them .. while tearing up ..
Kena wagfen eb the ishara elli bil second ring road elli enlif side the forth ring road going to the airport road where alyarmouk is ..

I was playing with my thumb nervously ..
He just hugged my small hands with his soft warm hands ..

Faris : " shoug don't cry .. kilshay will be ok .. "

Shoug : " promise? "

Faris : " yes 7abebti .. promise .. "

* BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEBBBBB! *

Faris : " hahah! Uuh! Shabbat il eshara? "

I giggled ..

Shoug : "mo sa7ee hehehehe "

I went back home ..
Chit-chatted with my mom and Nada ..
Then went to my room ..

awaL ma dashait wela alga my laptop on the bed ..
with the msn mafto7 ..
faj'a nesait enny emkhaleetah oo 6al3a! heheheh ..

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Hello Sweetie.. embarak 3alaich elshahar ..

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Hello??

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Wainch ga3da etqarqe3een?

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Alooooooooo?

I start laughing so hard 3ala ( etqarqe3en) loooool! Shakhbare!

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Hahahahaaaaaa! Omggggg! Shakhbaaaare going to qerqai3an!!

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Sorry kent atfa6ar barra ;D .. ahleen .. 3alaina oo 3alaik! Ma3anah ma buqa ella 13 days! ;p

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Halla! Zain radaitay! Sarle nus sa3a mn kalamtich ! .. eeh entay tashbeken 3alashan abareklich bil shahar? Makoo me5tafya!

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Heheheh yeah 7addi me5tafya ;p that’s my new strategy to make you missing me (a)

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Heheheh la walla? .. la walla mokanich bayan 3ad ..

I felt like " aawh sweeeeeet! "

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Heheheh ashwa! ;p .. so? How are you?

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Good ; ) .. entay wain re7tay tefa6artay?

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Chillies with my cousins .. nouf oo fa6oma oo a7med oo jassim oo faris ..

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Yaa7elookum! Entaw lel7een close?

I smiled while typing ..

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
More than ever! ;p

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Mashalla! .. allah ya7fethkom oo e5alikom 7ag b3ath ..

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Thankyou .

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
you're welcome ;)

marraw 5 mines maybe ma gelna shay ..
So I changed my clothes ..
Washed my face ..
And got back to the laptop ..

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Shoug bas'elich souaL ..

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Aloooooo?? Khalas yuba hawannah!!

I giggled ..

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Back sorry! .. amir?

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Welcome .. entay chethe m3a kil ilnas wela bas ana?

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Chethe what? .. what do you mean?

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Rasmeya .. Nervous and sometimes rude?

Uh? Omg! .. was that a bunch on my face??

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Me?

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
yes! You! .. wayid rasmeya .. oo tetkalemain chenny a6er mench ilkalma .. kil sa3a takteben joumla! Oo nafsetik eb 5ashmeich! .. like you're doing me a favor or something!

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Omg! Men sejich? .. Im sorry etha 7asastik like that!!! Bas im not rude or anything walla! .. im just .. mmm .. madre ya3ni there's no meyana between us .. that's it!

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
La walla? Yala 3ayaL we'll keep talking laima et6ee7 ilmeyana ;p

I giggled ..

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Heheheh! Okkkkkk! Yalla! ;p .. I'll show you shkether im "not" rude! ;p

We kept talking about everything ..
Kilshay kilshay bil denya ..
Ramadan series , food , tarawee7 , 7ashaina shwayya ;p
He talked to me about his word oo ilnas elli emoroon 3alaih ..

He was so sweet and funny .. oo 7adddaaaa kind ..

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Omg!!!!! Baqe nes sa3a 3ala ilsu7oor!! .. e7na ga3den naqreq mn cham? 4 hours?

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Loooooool! Taqreban! ;p .. walla 6ala3tay hathra shougoooo! ;p

Shougan .. minhu men ba3dak mohem? Says :
Ahahahah .. I told youuuuuuuu! ;p .. yalla goom tesa7ar oo don't forget to drink water .. and ed3eeli bil salat ;p

Dr. faisal .. RAMADHAN KAREM! Says :
Inshalla ;* .. yalla goodnight ..

I closed the msn with a smile on my face ..

* beep* * beep*

From : Faris;*
" ga3da baba? "

17 } ~

2009-08-17T19:16:00.003+03:00

Great! ..
And that's what I was waiting for!!
Hatha elli nagesnii mu sa7 .. !

I pressed silent ..
And shrieked in my bed ..
And start crying like a little kid ..

It hurts me how much I missed him ..
I miss his face .. his smile .. his voice .. his touch .. his charming ba7a .. his jokes .. his care .. his smell .. I just MISS HIM SO BAAAAAAD!

My mobile kept ringing ..
The light didn't turned off! 6ool illait eshb ..
Every time I opened my eyes .. I'll find it eshb! ..

At 5:28am I opened my eyes ..
Take my dress off ( yeah I slept in my dress .. )
And get back to sleep ..
I check on my mobile ..
There's was 35 Missed call ..

" Faris " Is calling ..

My eyes winded ..
And my nose turned red ..

I mumbled ; " ooh god! Shooug stop it! "

I whispered : " alooh? "

Faris whispered back : " 7abebtiiii .. "

The tears start falling ..

Shoug : " what do you want faris? "

Faris : " I want you 7abebe .. "

I start crying with sniffing ..
I felt like screaming!

Shoug : " after what? .. you let me down faaa… "

Faris : " uuush .. take a breath .. "

Shoug : " faris! "

Faris : " Take a breath ..Now! "

I smiled and took a breath ..

Shoug : " haaa... I took .. "

Faris : " Now kiss me .. "

I giggled : " heheheh fairs! .. why did you called? "

Faris : " I missed you .. when I saw you .. I felt insane enny hadaitech chethe .. I let you down I know .. but I was .. I'm still afraid! .. afraid 3alaich mn ahalich oo omch! .. mabech ta5seren shay for me .. I don't want you doing anything stupid Now to regret it later .. "

Shoug : " will I ever regret fighting with my mom over you? "

Faris : " I don't want you to fight with your mom shouga .. "

Shoug : " well , I did .. "

Faris : " afa!! Laaaaish? "

I whispered while choking with my tears : " et7ebne faris ? "

He whispered back : " is that even a question? .. Entay 7ayate oo ras malii .. entay 7abebtii .. shloon ma a7ebch? .. I love you so much shoug .. "

I start crying and told him what happened with my mom ..

Faris : " uuush .. khalas 7abebti .. khalas la tabchen .. tomorrow the first thing to do ennch etratheenha .. "

Shoug : " and you? .. you will despair again?? mu saaaaa7?"

Faris : " shouga .. ana amot fech .. and I'll come back to you walla .. I promise .. "

Shoug : " no faris! No!! .. don't leave me .. "

I start crying like a child ..

Shoug : " I can't breath without you .. I can't move on without you .. I can't .. ana bedoonik wela shay .. "

He whispered : " aaakh ya galbeee .. "

We both giggled ..

I whispered : " Faris khalas .. we'll continue pretending ena there's nothing between us .. but in real we'll be together! "

Faris : " are you sure? "

I nodded : " yes yes .. I'm! "

Faris : " if that whets you want shougii .. khalas that's fine .. elli tabeenah eser .. all I want ennich happy and save .. "

I giggled : " well I'm happy but not save .. "

Faris : " 7abebti .. you're save damna together .. nobody can ever harm you while I'm alive .. ok? "

I blow him a kiss : " mwah .. ok "

Faris : " raaaaa7 ilsyam! "

We both laughed ..

We kept talking till 11 am ..

He said in a sleepy voice : " yalla 7oobi let's sleep .. "

I whispered : " yalla .. "

I felt his smile ..

Shoug : " don't smile .. heheheh "

He laughed : " heheheh shdaraach enny smiling? "

Shoug : " heheh madreeee I felt it! "

Fairs : " I wanna see you .. "

Shoug : " me too .. I Missed your eyes .. "

Faris : " I missed you more .. khanrou7 netfa6ar barra today .. "

I giggled : " heheh tabe ommi tazne6ne? .. "

Faris : " kelman eye! Me oo jassom oo a7mdo oo fa6oma oo you oo nouf! "

Shoug : " ahh! .. I wanna see you bas enta heheheh that's what on my mind .. bas ok I'll see .. "

Faris : " yala galbe goodnight .. "

Shoug : " gn galbe .. "

I closed my eyes ..
I couldn't sleep ..
I felt so gilty ..

Mama : " yes bring me my black laffa! "

I heard my mom's voice ..
That's when I felt ib weakness on my knees ..
Uuh god ..

I opened my room's door ..

She turned her eyes ..
And gave me a cold look ..

Shoug : " good morning .. "

Mama : " hala .. "

She said and walked away ..

I followed her : " mama .. I'm .. so .. sorry! .. I didn't mean anything men eli geltah .. "

Mama : " no shoug you did! They said .. whatever you said when you're angry that's what's really in your heart! "

Shoug :" mom .. it's over khalas! .. okay I'm mad .. but I'll move on .. 7etan tawa I closed the line from nouf .. kelena benrou7 netfa66ar together .. khalas .. he's my cousin again .. "

Shit shit shit!! ..
How could I lie in Ramadan's day?

She kept staring at me ..

I kissed her head and whispered : " sorry .. "

She smiled : " that's ok .. khalas .. will move on and forget about the whole thing .. ok? "

I smiled : " ok .. thankyou .. "

I went to my room ..
Took a nap ..
And set my alarm to wake me up at 3:30 pm
Kan e'athen around 5:00 ..
So I took a quick shower .. with a huge smile on my face ..

I'm back with faris and good with my mom! Huh ..
What a great life ?

Straight my hair and wore a black hair band ..
With floral sateen elastic waist dress ..
And silver flats ..

I saw my watch ..
Shit it was 4:53!
I ran to the car calling for our driver ..

Shoug : " chilies ebsir3a! now now .. "

I texted the guys ..
From: Shoug
" wainkom? .. I'm On my way ;) ..
faris you told them ina chilies mo? ;p "

From : fa6a6a
" me oo jasom oo a7medo oo faris there! .. you oo noufo? "

I called nouf ..

Shoug : " heeeeey .. "

Nouf : " hey babe .. uugh! The streets 7ad'hum crowded! "

Shoug : " yeah .. heheheh "

Nouf : " why you're laughing? "

I giggled while singing : " back back back baaaaaaaaaaack! "

Nouf : " ooooh shut up! That's greaaaaaaat! Howwwww? When? "

I told her what happened ..

Nouf : " ooooooh babe! That's so sweeeeet! Thanks god! .. "

I start blushing : " yaaa .. heheheh .. yalla I arrived .. "

Nouf : " ok .. give me 5 mines! .. bye "

I entered chilies ..
And they were on the first table ..
so I didn't need to call anyone!

Shoug : " salaam .. "

Jassom , a7med : " wa3laiakom elsalam .. "

Fa6om hugged me : " heeeeeeey .. shlounch? "

Shoug : " good .. bas hungry heheheh .. "

Faris was writing a msg ..
he knew how to act like a "cousin" heheheh ..

I smiled : " Hey faris …"

He raised his big stunning eyes ..
Oh god! ..
Did he gave me a half smile?

Faris : " hala hala .. "

I sat next to him ..
And ordered country fried chicken and water ..

Faris suddenly said : " where's my mobile?? Mu lageeh!! "

I searched around me ..

Shoug : " haw maku shay!! "

Nouf : " I'll call .. wait .. "

She was searching for hers! Heheheh ..

Shoug : " waay! Khalas noufo I'll call! "

I pressed his name ..

** (( enty methel manty 3ala kither ma mar .. aghla ilbashar oo ma7ad yeswach 3endi .. ghalach ma akhfeeh oo agolaha jaher .. ya 7elmi ilawal oo gable oo ba3dii .. )) **

My heart start beating so fast ..
Awwwwww!
Isn't that the cutest ringtone ever??

He fond it under the table ..

Faris : " kahu kahu! "

I closed the line ..
And spotted Noufo ..
She winked ..
I giggled ..

Fa6om : " 3ishtaaaw! Ente methel manteee!! .. what's my ring??? "

She called him ..

* Nokia tone *

We all break a big laugh ..

While fa6oom's mumbling : " shm3na! shm3na! why she's different than meee? Haa? "

Faris winked : " la et7e6en rasich eb ras'ha .. "

I blushed ..

Jassom : " ayyyyyywa! "

Noufo : " hahahah jassomm please 7e6li any ringtone! 7asesni bil 7ub pls la an7eref .. "

We all break a laugh ..

Shoug : " shut up yalla 3ad .. I'll put you whatever you want fa6oo6a .. don't get upset .. "

I blow her a fly kiss ..
She blushed ..

Shoug : " awwwww! Haaaay are you sick!! I'm a girl! Don't get it wrong! "

It was just hilarious ..
We had a great time ..
Till around 8 pm ..

We said our goodbyes ..

Nouf whispered : " menu beridch? "

Shoug : " I don't know .. anyone .. you? "

She pushed me faris's side : " no! go ask him! "

I blushed ..
She's crazy!

I whispered to faris : " etwadene? "

He smiled : " yah .. bas?? .. itha ma shaletich ilsayara a7e6ich be3youni .. "

I blushed : " thankyou .. "

16 } ~

2009-08-17T16:48:00.004+03:00

I moved my eyes away ..
Looking for the small kids walking throw the street ..
Dalal waved to me .. I smiled and blow her a fly kiss ..
She smiled and starts running to follow the other kids ..

I heard his voice saying : " hala nouf .. shlonch? .. "

Nouf : " ahleeeeen .. gooood .. "

I kept looking away ..
Ashuf il kids all over the street ..

Faris : " Shoug shlonch? "

I whispered : " fine. " without even looking to him ..

I felt enna he forze on his place ..

He walked away and sat next to Jassim ..
It was : jassim .. a7med .. fa6oma .. Nouf and me ..
Ga3den chethe yam ba3ath ..

I tried hard to keep my self busy ..
I didn't want to see his face or even heard his voice ..

Jassim : " Shougggooo! Shfeeeech mnafsa! "

I smiled while raising my eyes : " nothing .. sleepy 7ady .. "

They kept talking and laughing while I'm all silent and thinking in my own world ..

My mom kept checking on me every little in a while!
Uuugh! Ba6aaat chabdi ..

I texted her : " STOP IT!!!! "

Dalal entered the back yard ..

Screaming dalal : " auntiiiiiiiiii shoooooooooooooooooooouuuuuugggg .. "

I screamed while opening my hand to give her a bear hug : " daaaaalaaaliiii .. "

She hugged me and starts talking about the qerqai3an and the sweets she got ..

Dalal : " sheftay the white big house elli minak? Yam ilsuper market? "

I smiled : " yes? "

Dalal : " they gave us one kd. Each! "

I fake a surprised face : "WUHOOO! Mashallaaa! Geltay thank you?? "

She nodded while opening kitkat with her small teethes : " eemm eem gilt gilt .. "

I saw a masculine hand touching her hair ..
She raised hair eyes and gave him the biggest smile ..

Dalal : " faaaaariiiiiissss .. "

She opened her hand and moved her body to him 3alshan esheelha ..

He picked her up and kissed her cheek : " shlooonch? "

She opened her small baby pink qerqe3an bag : " zaina .. " she took a small lollipop and gave it to him : " this is for you .. "

I giggled ..
She's lovely walla!
he kissed her cheek saying : " thaankyouuu 7abebtii .. "

after seconds of silent ..

Faris : " daloola entay za3lana? "

Her eyes were confused she pointed on her chest : " me? "

Faris : " yes .. you were playing with your mobile mn awal ma ga3adna .. and your adorable eyes emghorghen mn dashait .. "

My eyes start etching me ..
A7is wedy abche from my heart .. bas my I couldn't ..

Dalal : " ana ma3endy mobile faris! " she starts opening his hand .. : " barooo7 hedny hedny .. "

Faris put her on the floor and smiled : " hehehe 3alabalha mo sa7y! "

I giggled : " hehe yeah! "

Nada ( my sister) : " Shouuug 3afya bring dalol to the dinner! La et7oos barra .. "

I nodded : " Okay! "

Kilman went inside to eat dinner ..
I thought to my self : oh god! I didn't even notice enna all of them went inside! .. why when I'm with him I can't constraint .. and all I could see is .. him!

I walked away while yelling : " dalaaaaaaal come here! "

I felt a strong hand holding me from my shoulder ..

Faris : " don't go! "

My lips froze .. and my eyes winded : " mhmh .. I .. "

" miiiiiiisssssssssseeeeeedddd youuuuuuu! " I whispered to my heart

Faris : " I'll bring her .. "

THAT'S IT??

I went inside .. sat on the table ..
With drops of tears on my white plate ..

Nouf whispered : " Shougo! Stop crying! It has been 2 weeks! Wentay lel7een chethe? .. stop it! "

I took a deep breath ..
And nodded : " you're right .. "

After the dinner we all went back out side to the backyard for drinking tea ..

" baba;* " is calling ..

Shoug : " alo hala yuba .. "

My father : " hala wainkom? "

Shoug : " mama 6aiba's house "

My father : " tell your mom yallah! It's 1am! "

Shoug : " okay enshalla I will .. "

I went to my mom : " yuma .. oboy called and he's saying yalla it's 1 am! "

She said while laughing 3ala salfa : " heheheh .. wee wee .. yala yala .. "

We said our goodbyes ..

And went to my mom's gold Bmw ..

We sat all silent ..
There was a big distance between us ..
I didn't want to speak to her ..
Our even stay in the same room with her ..
I was so upset and angry ..

My mom whispered : " what happened today? "

I was staring at the cars out side .. : " what? "

My mom : " what happened with him around today? Is everything okay? "

I shrugged : " huh mom stop it! .. move on please! "

My mom : " how could I move on while seeing you like this? You're miserable .. "

Shoug : " thanks to you! "

I remember that day so clear .. I was so rude with my mom! .. I remember being a total bitch with her!! .. uuhh I was angry for losing the one I love because of her ..

My mom : " qalelat adab!! Don't speak to me like this .. I'm your mom! And I have the right to raise you! Law inshalla 3omrich alf! .. "

I whispered while drops of tears start running on my cheeks : " yuma please! I know you love me! Bas enough!! He broke up with me okay? It have been two weeks since I heard about him! And yeah he didn't call or sms .. and today when I saw him .. guess what? He didn't talk to me! Or even tried to! .. and .. and .. "

I took a deep breath and broke down ..

Shoug : " what can I do with my heart yuma? What can I do?? .. I thought you would understand! .. but .. " .. I moved my hair away .. and opened the car door : " you didn't! "

My mom froze in her place .. and her eyes were full of tears ..
I knew at this second that I totally ruined her life ..
And I officially broke her heart ..

I sat on the corner of my bed ..
And start crying so hard ..

** (( ilma7aba naraha nar oo dwaha duwa .. wenta fe gourbik sa3ada oo fe bo3dik 3athab .. weddi ennik m3ay et3eesh oo En metna suwa .. ma teghayerna elliyale wela 6ool ilgheyab… )) **

Awhhh .. I felt electricity all over my body ..
That's faris's ringtone ..
I missed his voice ..

I turned my face toward the mobile ..
Omg!
I'm not dreaming! ..

" Faris " is Calling ..

al jahra fire tragedy! .. * Sorry for your lost! * ;'(

2009-08-17T14:51:00.002+03:00

Alsalam 3alaikom all ;*

Yesterday I was in a total shock after opening alwatan TV. To watch the jahra tragedy!
I thought it's a small fire oo salamtkom!
And I was even more shocked when Kuna sent me a msg saying : ( A woman confessed yesterday to setting a wedding tent on fire in Jahra late on Saturday that killed 41 women and children and injured dozens others, some with critical burns. )

My heart stopped beating when they said ena one of the victims were an old woman with her 9 daughters! And the bride mother's & sister were killed too! BURNED if I can say ..!
Alshaikh Sabah alahmed alsabah made his heartfelt condolenced to the victim's families and announced that he'll not accept getting on Shahar Ramadhan in solidarity with the victims and their families . add that Mr. Jassim alkharafi cut his vacation and come back to Kuwait to be there in what the observers said it's the worst tragedy in Kuwait's modern history.

Meanwhile, I received dozen of bbm's joking and laughing about the tragedy! And saying jokes about the women who set the fire! Ana about the 2nd marriage!
COMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEONNNNNNN PPL!!!!!

Ma etha7ik!

My shock was when I woke up in the morning with the women's picture in my bbm!
Saying; "learn from her girls! And set men on fire! ;p"

It's not funny! Walla!
Okay some of the jokes – I admit- kanaw funny!
Bas 3aib guys walla ..
Don't laugh over someone's pain!

Tara they lost their whole families! 7aram ..
And the women born in 1986!! She's only 22-23 years old!
And will spend her life on jail now!

Allah yer7amhum eb ra7meta ..
Oo esabbir ahalhum ..
Oo ma eshammeeeet fena khalqa!

15 } ~

2009-08-15T03:41:00.003+03:00

I sat on our coach...
Staring at the air!
Watching the emptiness...
I felt like my heart just stopped beating..
And all my feelings were frozen..!
I felt .. Numbness ..

Our house phone rang ..
I jumped from the couch ..

Shoug : " alo? "

…. : " haaa? "

Shoug : " menu entay? "

Nouf : " are you stupid? I'm Nouf!! "

Shoug : " Nouf! .. he .. he .. left me Nouf! .. for my mom's sake .. he just left me! .. "

Nouf : " whaaaaaaaaaaaat? "

Shoug : " Is he insane?? Who told him that he should leave me? .. I don't need my mom's approval 3ala everything!! .. omg nouf!! omg!! "

Nouf : " calm down! .. don’t' shout! .. maybe he was on shock .. oo he got scared ..
Let him have his own space and time .. and he'll be back .. if he really loves you .. he'll come back .. he'll propose shoougo etha he loves you! "

My eyes winded ..
Here when the ugly truth crashed into me ..
All my angry feelings turned into sadness ..

I whispered while tearing up : " he let me down .. he left me chethe wana metwahqa with my mom .. "

Nouf cut me off : " calm down shougo .. and don't cry .. if he belongs to you .. he'll be back .. "

I whispered : " he said the same .. if we belong together .. we'll find our ways out of this shit .. "

Nouf : " See! .. calm down now .. and try to fix things with your mom .. ok 7abebtii? "

Shoug : " ok .. bye "

I closed the line ..
And went to my room ..
Changed into black training with white " I <3 color="#ff6600">Shoug : " no! "

She closed the door and went to her room!
She just knew that I'm down .. men eldvd o oil sweets elm7athefeen ..

I was really bored .. and not in the mood for anything ..
So I started another movie ..
And it was .. davidas ..

I cried over every romantic scene ..
I hate this movie! Until today ..
It brought me bad memories ..

After the movie's done ..
I laid my head down ..
And a hot tear drop fond her way on my cheeks ..

I went to the bathroom and washed my face with a cold freshing water ..
It was around 7 pm ..
So I decided to join msn ..
I pressed sign in …

Dr. Faisal … do you know? Says:
Guwa ya 7elwa : )

Oh god! .. I wasn't in the mood for his malaqa oo theqalat 6enaaaaah!

Shougan .. la la etkhaleeni .. wela la7tha!! Says:
Ahleen faisal .. way hal face cham marra agoolek ennah EBO6 ILCHAAAAAABD!!

Dr. Faisal … do you know? Says:
Hehehehe shfeech em3asba!! Khalas youba .. mara7 a7e66a ever again! :D:D <- chethe ok?
Shougan .. la la etkhaleeni .. wela la7tha!! Says:
Hehe yeah good! :D

Dr. Faisal … do you know? Says:
Shloonch? Shakhbarich?

Shougan .. la la etkhaleeni .. wela la7tha!! Says:
Wallaaaah .. good! .. uu?

Dr. Faisal … do you know? Says:
I'm good damich good : )

Dr.Faisal .. do you know? Says:
Sorry Sorry!!!! * :D

I giggled .. 3abe6?

* deeding *

- Faris .. kalemooha , khaberooha, waselou SHOUGI laha , 6amenoha , 3alemoha Enna galbi 3endaha .. Says:
pumpkin :*

My eyes winded ..
And my fingers froze ..
I stared at his nickname ..
It just killed me softly ..

I opened faisal's conversation ..

Shougan .. la la etkhaleeni .. wela la7tha!! Says:
Sorry have to go ;) see you .. and say hello to Hissa ;)

I pressed sign out ..
Without closing the conversations mn iltedoodeh ..

I rolled in my bed ..
And tried hard to sleep ..
I couldn't stop my tears ..
I whispered : " God , I'm scared! "

In the middle of the night ..
I felt someone entering my room ..
My mom shook my shoulder gently ..

She whispered : " Shouga .. wake up drink water .. b3ad shway be'athen .. "

I opened one of my eyes ..

My mom handled me class of water ..

My mom : " do want toast? "

I whispered with my sleepy voice : " no! "

I drank my water silently ..
And gave the class back to her ..
I was half a sleep so I wasn't aware 100%!

* In Ramadan we had this big gathering for women only in the first three days of Ramadan for women elli yabon ebarkon ilshahar for mama 6aiba ..
And Our family (men and women) netyamma3 after 2 weeks of Ramadan for the qirqe3an .. neg3ad together in the backyard with all kinds of tea and 7ab ooo the small kids elli eyoon eqarqe3oon kelna enkoon ga3den neth7ak 3alaihum ;p heheheh ..

So ,

Two weeks passed ..
And I heard NOTHING about faris ..
I didn't call him and he didn't leave me law email

On the way back from tarawee7 my mom told me that She'll give me my mobile back .. and she'll test me for few months until she could trust me all over again! .. and she said things like don't let me down again! And if I fond anything " ya wailch ya suwad lailech..! "

I was scared that I'll see faris and got my mobile on the same day!
It was all new for me ..
I didn't knew how to react or what to do ..!

I went to my room and took a shower ..
Waved my hair ..
And libast a cute off-the shoulder peachy dress with brown flat and mixed bright bangle set ..

On the road to mama 6aiba's house ..
It was all silent between me and my mom ..
Ma3anna the things between us are getting back to normal ..
But I don't know why both of us didn't talk kelish!
She gave me my mobile ..
And we walked in the backyard ..

We kissed everyone ..
And start chatting and eating cupcakes and mini qirqe3an sweets ..
My heart was beating so fast ..

I whispered to Nouf : " do think that he'll show up? "

She nodded : " daah! I'm sure! "

Faris : " alsalam 3alaikom .. "

He said while entering the big silver gate of the backyard ..
I moved my eyes away ..
To find my mom staring at me!

14 } ~

2009-08-14T03:30:00.004+03:00

* ouch .. remembering this .. all over again! :')

I felt weak and scared...
There was like a fire in my bones...
I was terrified... hatha aqal shay!

I knocked on her bedroom door...
I whispered with shaking voice: "ma-mama?"

She replied: "come in ... and lock the door behind you!"

My heart sank...
And my hips start numbing...

"Set here ..!" she pointed on her bed...

I sat on the corner of her big black and gray puffy bed cover...

"Mama I'm sorry ... it's nothing!" I managed to say while playing with my fingers...

My mom raised her voice: "look at me shoug!"

I raised my eyes...

When our eyes met...
I felt like a have betrayed her!
I let her down... deep deep down!

Since forever my mom didn't allowed me to go out with friends...
Only cousins... because she though that they are like brothers to me...
Well, they are... ma3ada Faris!

She closed her eyes and took a deep breath...: "I talked to faris before one hour ago ... and I'm gonna act normal in one case only! If you and him start acting like cousins not like sick lovers! Entaw cousins oo I trusted you guys that way... "

A tear drop fall from her pure small eyes...
It latterly broke my heart...

"I trusted you shoug! What a shame!! .. I didn't raise you to turn out like this! You know me shoug! I could understand love... but loving your cousin? And your sick one b3ad? He's already in a mess... wentay etzeden il6een ballah?? .. Do you think it kind of old literature stupid novels?? .. shoug! Come back her to earth! Come back to reality!! .. it's kuwait out here!! And he's your cousin .. and he's sick .. and he'll travel soon .. "

Shoug : " I didn't choose mama .. I just .. fall .. "

She cutt me off : " you broke my heart shoug! You really did ..
makant il haqwa .. "

My eyes start tearing up ..
And my cheeks became all cold and stony ..
I wanted to say anything ..
To defined my love ..
To clear my point of view ..

But all what I managed to say is tearing up ..

My mom said while staring at me : "switch off your mobile and put it on my closet .. and remember you're just 17 ana I'm you're mother! So if you didn't respect the rules .. I'll create new ones just for you!"

I nodded...
She walked away...
After taking my mobile from my lap...

I start taking deep breaths...
While drops of tears start falling hard...

I ran to my room...
Closed the lights...
And hide under my puffy yellow bedcover...
It was cold... and brings little fresh breezes every time I moved or rolled...
I couldn't stop my tears...
I just wanted to be between Faris's arms rightNow...

I kept rolling all night long...
While thinking;
I can't leave faris ..
I just destroyed my beloved mother's heart ..
What if she told my father? Or brother?
Did faris called me?

I closed my eyes around 3 AM..
And kept opening it every 10-15 mines ..

Around 10 am ..
Tomorrow will be Ramadan Inshalla ..
My mom were in her work ..
I went to her room ..
Searched everywhere!!
finally .. I fond my mobile on her small work disk ..
I start pressing the buttons like a crazy person!
It was off!!
I opened the cover ..
There was no battery!
I was like WTH!!!

I called Nouf from our house line ..

Nouf : " Heeeeyyyy good morning .. "

Shoug : " hey .. "

Nouf : " I'm in starbucks il Odaileya .. wana join ? "

I choked with my tears and words ..

Shoug : " N-o .. b-as .. omm-e .. dar-at .. ab-out .. "

Nouf : " haa? What?? .. take a deep breath Shougo .. mafhaamt shfech ? "

I took a deep breath .. and start talking ..
While rivers of tears start running on my cheeks ..

Shoug : " imagine my mom find out about fairs .. and she called him in a dramatic halaqa scene! .. and I just swelled my word and shut my mouth up! .. but she called me at night and took my mobile from me! And .. "

I broke down that moment ..
And start crying so hard ..

Nouf :" besmellah 3alaich shougooooo .. 7abebti calm down .. that's okay babe .. that's normal I swear .. "

I took a small short breathes and said : " Noufuuu .. She don’t want me to talk ever again with faris! Unless like cousins!! And I know even that is not gonna happen soon!! .. "

Nouf : " omg! Shfeeha omch!! What's wrong with her! .. she's not that strike about love oo hal suwalif! "

Shoug : " yeah! But when it comes to her daughter sarat strike and didn't understand me!! .. yesterday when she talked with him .. she was just fine .. I don't know what happened ella khalaha et3asib .. "

Nouf : " come on!! .. she was under shock! .. she went to her room .. collect her thoughts and talked to you .. anyway don't worry babe .. that's normal walla .. "

Shoug : " what about me? What should I do! …"

Nouf : " first of all .. call Faris tell him what happened! "

Shoug : " nooooooooo nouf! .. I'm scared .. my mom will kill me if she fond out!! "

Nouf : " and how that would happen? .. call him telgaina mn ams e7ateech! "

I nodded .. ; " ok ok .. "

I told you guys ..
I was and still weak when it comes to him ..
He was my rock ..
When he's not around I feel sick .. unsafe and scared!

I dialed his number from our house number of course ..

1 Missed call ..

I called again ..

Faris ; " alooo? "

Shoug : " Faaa-rii-ss .. " * Sneefing*

Faris : " what 7abebti? What 3omre? Shfech? Shfech? "

Shoug : " my .. my mom faris .. after closing the line mennik .. She called me to her room .. oo zafatne oo took my mobile oo galatli you and faris would never be anything more than cousins!!!! .. imagine faris .. " *Sneefing *

I felt like something bigger than us swelled his voice ..
He was helpless!
We were small kids ..
I'm going to 11th grade ..
While he was going to university ..

Shoug : " alo? "

Faris : " alo .. "

Shoug : " ... and Now what? " *Sneefing*

Faris : " I don't know shoug … I really don't .. "

Shoug : " Shlon ya3ne you don't?? shlooooon!! "

Faris : " I DON'T KNOW!!!!! .. you're my cousin shoug .. I can't think right now! .. I'm Shocked! .. your mom were good to me yoom kalamt'ha! "

Shoug : " what did you said to her?? "

Faris : " nothing! .. just normal things such as Sorry and mes7eha eb wayhe and I'm not playing .. "

Shoug : " and now what faris? Now what? .. "

Faris : " I'll never hurt you or destroy your amazing relationship with you mom .. "

My tears just froze!
In the middle of my eyes ..

I whispered : " And what that suppose to mean?? "

Faris whispered : " I'll always be by your side shoug .. I love you and I'll always do .. if you meant to be together .. we'll find a way .. sooner or later .. ok sweetie? "

I just didn't wanted to understand what he's saying..!

Shoug : " whaa-at? "

Faris took a deep breath ..
Is that a sneef??

I whispered : " you're not crying ..right? "

He whispered : " no .. "

I whispered : " thanks for this unforgettable Ramadan! .. goodbye.. "

And closed the line ..
I pressed 000 ..
To delete his number if anyone thought about pressing redial ..

13 } ~

2009-08-11T21:34:00.004+03:00

We went back to everyone...
My eyes were puffed and red...
It was obvious ena I was crying!
I sat next to my mom without saying a word..
Faris sat across of me .. oo kept staring at me ..
Oo making funny faces .. I giggled a little .. bas I was really down
Do you that feeling elli every time you swallow the tear it came back stronger??

Mama whispered : " yalla shougan namshe? "

Yeah! The "shougan" was her nickname to me ..

I nodded ..
I wasn't apple to talk ..
I know my self .. bas atkallam I'll cry ..

I took a bottle of water from the fridge and went to the car ..

Awal ma I closed the door ..
My mom start driving ..

My mom whispered : " shougan .. "

I whispered back : " I don't wana talk .. please! "

I was putting my hand on my lap .. she reached my hand and Rup it …
The tears felled my big eyes ..
I opened the window and took a deep breath ..

My mom : " it's about him going away? "

A tear drop explained all what I was going to say ..

My mom : " I asked you before right? .. why you lied to my shoug? Why? "

I said with a shaking voice : " mom please! I don't wanna talk about it now .. please! "

My mom : " you're not a kid anymore! I understand that you're going to the 11th grade next year! You don't have to lie to me! Tell my the ugly truth better than laying eb million time! "

I closed my eyes ..
I wasn't in the mood for a parental lecture ..

Until she yelled : " CALL HIM .. CALL HIM ..! "

I opened my eyes : " wh-what? "

My mom : " isn't he serious about you?? Call him! I wanna talk to him ..! "

I raised my voice .. I wanted to say DID YOU LOST YOU MIND MOM??
Shoug : " MAMA! NOWAYYYY! THAT'S TOO CHEAP!! OH MY GOD! WE DIDN'T BRING THE MARRIAGE ESSUE UP! OMG! YOU'RE NOT SERIOUS! I CAN'T BELIEVE ITTT..! "

She cut me off : " SHUTUPPP! .. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU LIED!!!! THAT'S NOT YOU!! CALL HIM NOOOOOW!!!

Shoug : " noway .. noway! "

She took her mobile from her bag ..
She dialed his number ..
I closed my eyes ..
My heart stopped beating ..
Omg! That'sssss cheaaaaaaap! I can't believe itttt!!!!!!!

My mom : " he didn't pick it up!! Call him! "

Shoug : " yumaa! Calm down!!! What's wrong with you!! .. he's not like my boyfriend or something! "

My mom : " STOP LYING!!! "

* Nokia tone *

I kept wishpering : " allah efashel il3adouw!! "

My mom : " ahleen hala faris .. hala yuma .. where are you? .. aha .. meta nawey etrou7 america? .. eeh inshalla .. what's wrong with shoug? Laish tabche ilyoom ? .. aha? .. entaw il athnen shenu salfatkom?? I know there's something .. and I know that she's lying to me! "

I couldn't control my self .. I said : " omg! yumaaa!!!!!! "

My mom ignored me .. and kept talking on the phone .. : " aha .. eeh saj .. wene3m feek faris .. ana mu ga3da ashakek eb a7ad .. eeh 7abebe adri .. adri walla .. bas yoma entaw nas metrabeen laish hal suwalif? *she smiled* .. eser khair enshalla .. 3ala khair 7abebe .. enshalla .. "

I covered my face with my hands ..
That was.. DRAMAAAAAA!

My mom didn't talk about it! She just walked out of the car! And left me inside!

I texted faris ..

To : Faris
"Omg! Omg! Omg! Omg! Emsa7ha eb wayhi .. Im sorry!!!!!! "

" Faris .. " Is calling ..

I picked it up while saying ..

Shoug : " omg omg omg omg ! sorry sorry sorry sorryyyyyyyyyyy .. "

He was laughing so hard ..

Faris : " tawny adre enna omch chethe! "

Shoug : " she's a drama queen I knooow! Thank you very much! "

Faris : " la 3aib la etgoolin chethe! .. She's sweet and understanding! I though she's gonna call my mom aw 3ala il aqal yell at me! But she was .. normal! "

I giggled : " yaaa I know my mom 3ajeba! I don't know how her mind yeshteghel ma afhamha ilsara7a .. "

We kept talking about everything ..
like nothing happened in mama 6aiba's house ..
I asked him about what did my mom said ..
he was like : " nothing! Eser khair b3dain agoolich ..! "

Faris : " yala 7abebti sleep now and I'll go to duwaneya ok? "

I whispered : " I love you .. ok .. "

I felt his smiled : " la bellaaaah enqabaaaaal our ramadaaan! "

We both laughed .. and closed the lines ..

I joined msn ..

Shougan .. Ramadhan Mubarak;) .. Says:
Hiiiii faisalll ;)

Dr. faisal :
Ahleeeen shoug .. shlonch? Mobarak 3alaich il shahar ..

Shougan .. Ramadhan Mubarak;) .. Says:
Same to you ;) .. I'm good thanks god .. what about you?

Dr. faisal :
Great .. ha are you ready for Ramadan?

Shougan .. Ramadhan Mubarak;) .. Says:
Yeah I think so ;p

Dr. faisal :
Good : )

EEEEEEEGH THAT STUPID FACE AGAINN????

I was typing ..
I heard my mom's voice : " shouuuuuuuuuug .. "

I scream back ; " YYYYYYYEEEEEESSSSS?? "

My mom : " come to my room .. I wanna talk to you .."

And here when I lost my heart somewhere in the room ..!

12 } ~

2009-08-10T23:24:00.003+03:00

" Embarak 3alaich il shahar .. "
I received a msg from lulu ( a random friend) ..

I said to my mom while I was laying on the couch oo she was reading alqabas newspaper ..

Shoug : " Mashalla! Ebsir3a sar rmothaan! "

She smiled : " eeh mashalla! Elayam tarketh .. "

Shoug :" laish menu la7eqha? "

She gave me the coldest look : " waaaay ya malaqtich! " she walked away ..

I said while giggling : " waaaaaain betrou7eeeeeeen? "

My mom : " bait ome! "

I ran after her : " ana bayye .. "

I went to my room ..
And Called Faris while dressing up ..

Shoug : " aloooooo .. "

Faris : " hala 7abebtiiii .. "

Shoug : " ahleeen .. embarak 3alaik ilshahaaaar .. "

Faris : " 3alaina oo 3alaich .. shenu a3lenaw? "

I said while taking my t-shirt off : " e-ee .. betrou7 bai-t mama 6ai-ba ? "

Faris : " mashalla esbir3a yah .. entay shga3id etsaween? "

I giggled : " Sorry ga3da abadiil .. "

Faris : " yala bye bye .. video call mn ommah! "

I start laughing : " heheheheheh .. farooooos! .. come bait mama 6aiba yalla kane barou7 .. "

Faris : " enshalla ashuf .. 3a6eny sa3a .. "

I said okay and closed the line ..
libast black puffed dress ..
With Leopard Print Hair Band and applied eye liner ..

My mom we7na bil sayara : " 3ishtaaaaw il eye liner ba3ad! Men meeta? ..
a7ad lailat ermothan yetka77al oo ye6laaaa3? "

I start laughing : " hehehehe bas kobart ana lazm aser banoota! "

My mom : " eeeeh intay mo thab7ech ella etseren banoooota! .. "

I smiled : " shenu qasdech? "

She opened the radio .. and ignored my Question ..
Ughhhh! I haaaaaate it ..
I know that she know .. and she know that I know that she know! Bas we both act like nobody knows!! Which I totally HAAAAAATE!

We went to mama 6aiba's house ..
Ga3den oo suwalif oo chay oo 7ab ..
It was like our second house ..
Elli yabe enam , yashbik , eshouf tv , esolif! Heheheh
So casual and kilwa7ed oo kaifa ..

I texted Faris ..

To : Faris
" wainek? .. ana eb bait mama 6aiba ;);* "

After 10 mins. He walked in ..

Faris : " alsalam 3alaikom " with a lifting hand ..

I smiled : " wa3alaikom elsalam .. "

He kissed my mom oo khalate oo my grandma ..
I wish he could kiss me ..

He sat next to me ..

Faris : " ha shlonch? "

I smiled : " zaina .. ha wain kent? Sh3endik ta'akhart? "

Faris : " nothing .. I went to the meeting of the new entrant's
emsaweena lite7ad "

My eyes winded ..
And my heart shrank ..
I missed him already ..

Shoug : " are you sure about it? .. "

Faris nodded ..

I whispered : " la etrou7 .. "

he smiled while saying : " sebeely chay .. "
he wanted to act like "cousins"!

I stared at him ..
With tears on my eyes ..

My voice start shaking ..
And I whispered again ..

Shoug : " Faris 3alashane .. don't leave .. "

Faris :" Shoug .. khalas mama .. khalas .. eser khair .. "

3alait il tv. Volume ..

Shoug : " you'll leave me mo sa7? "

Faris : " No I won't! .. "

Shoug : " embala emabaala you will! "

I start acting like a total cranky kid!
I couldn't control my self ..

Khalti : " Shouggggg! Ez3aaaaaaaaaj! Qasreeeeeeeh! Ma nesma3 ba3ath!!!! "

I pressed mute ..
And walked out of the room ..

There was a big hall and akhra there's salat esteqbal for women elli ezoroona mama 6aiba .. I entered the esteqbal and closed the door behind me .. the light were off ..

My tears start roolling ..
I couldn't let him leave ..
Mu gadra!
A7is lel7een masarat ilsejeya oo my heart eb yougaf!
Shasawey etha ra7??
Shasawey all alone?

I was sitting in the dark ..
All alone ..
There's a tinny light men il window cus e6el 3ala ilstreet ..

Faris entered the esteqbal and closed the door behind him ..

He sat on his knee ..
It was like he's gonna propose ..
He held my hands gently ..

Faris : " shouuu .. "

I whispered : " uuuuush .. "

My tears where falling on my lap.
So some of my tears touched his fingers ..
I knew it just broke his heart ..

Faris : " shouga 7abebti don’t cry 3alshane .. "

Shoug : " la etrou7 faris .. la etrou7! Maby etrou7 maaaaby! "

Faris : " wain barou7? Kelaha America! Kahee yamna .. oo I'll have my phone oo my laptop .. "

I cut him off : " NOOO! Bas you wouldn't be here next to me ..
still enta far away! "

Faris took a breath : " ana barou7 oo adris 3alashan meno? "

I start kicking the floor : " NOOO! "

Faris : " shoug 7abebti don't act like a kid .. "

Shoug : " I can't faris walla galbe e3awerneeeee min al7eeen! "

Faris : " 7abebti entay .. enshalla I'll think about it .. okay? "

I nodded ..
And swelled my tears ..

11 } ~

2009-08-10T00:55:00.002+03:00

My eyes popped...
Omg! Shakuuuu??

I told Noufa about him oo kilshay mn ilmostawsef lay being hessa ilkesha brother lain il add! She was like waaaaay ya7leelaaa ilnerd ye6la3 menah!!
I felt enah 7araam! Okay he's really nerd oo boring shwayya... bas still! 7aram!

Dr. faisal Says:
Elsalam 3alaikom shoug : )

After 5 mins. Pretending inna I have a life;p heheheh

Shougan .. babe that's why;* Says:
Oh! Ahleen! .. wa3alaikom ilsalam ..

Dr. faisal Says:
Sorry for adding you bedon la agoulich ..

Shougan .. babe that's why;* Says:
No you're my cousin ;) no need to ask ..

Dr. faisal Says:
Good ..

Shougan .. babe that's why;* Says:
Who gave you my email bas thakerni? ;p hehehe

Dr. faisal Says:
Hehe sorry nesait as'elich .. I took it from Hissa my sister : )

Shougan .. babe that's why;* Says:
aah great salem 3alaiha ..

Dr. faisal Says:
Is there's anything wrong? : )

Shougan .. babe that's why;* Says:
Nooooo .. at all .. expect hal yellow smile eli et7e6ha oo ga3da et'3ethne ..
Ghair chethe I'm just finnnne! ;p

Dr. faisal Says:
Heheheh sorry! ..

Shougan .. babe that's why;* Says:
Heheh that's okay ..

Dr. faisal Says:
How are you now? 3asa a7san?

Shougan .. babe that's why;* Says:
I'm good 7amdelah .. thanks for the add Faisal I'll talk to you soon inshalla .. but I have to go now! ;) see you dr. ;)

And I signed out ..

I dialled Noufa's number ..

Shoug : " oh god! Manyyy gadraaa! He's maaaaaliq oo yeg3ad 3ala ilgaaaaaalb! "

Nouf : " heheheh you accepted him? Shlounaaaaa??"

Shoug : " yuck yuck yuck! He kept putting hal fake smile et3arfeenah ilface el khayis? "

She starts laughing : " heheheh waaaaaay noooooooo masssta7meeeeeel! "

Shoug : " ohh shut up! Next time aslant I'll invite you! "

Nouf : " NOWAY honey .. walla I'll block you etha sawaiteeha! Way mali khelq malaqa please! "

*beep*
Another line ..
" Faris "

Shoug : " wait Noufoo .. "
I pressed " connect .. "

Faris : " alooo .. "

Nouf : " ahlaaaaaaaaaan! "

Faris paused for seconds ..
I felt chana wakhar il mobile oo shaf ilnumber again! Eheheh ..

Faris : " Emmm .. noufo? "

Nouf : " yes? Shfek! "

Faris : " Sorry shakle I called you bil ghala6 .. "

I start giggling ..

Faris : " aloooo? "

Me oo Nouf start laughing 3ala his tone ..
Etha7ik his voice laima eser confused ..

Faris : " amlaaaaaaaaaaaq ! "

Shoug : " hehehehhe ommmg! Sootik etha7ik shlon e5tara3t! "

Faris : " ha .. ha! Ma etha7ik! "

Noufo : " loooooool 6ala3t chicken faros? 3alabalik ana menu? "

Faris : " chab bas chab yallah .. wayid lagaitkom wayh .. "

Shoug : " lagaitkom? .. its jam3? .. me bil zaffa fariiis? "

Faris : " la bas nouf aqsed .. "

Nouf : " aaaaaaaaa bedainaaaaa?? Affa faroooooos ma haqaitek chethe! Ana khobre feek sebe3 .. mash'ha seeda tara yallah etla77iq .. "

I start giggling : " heheheh maaaaliqa 3ana iltesheyesh .. "

We all start laughing oo suwalif the'3a6 oo the7ek ..
When others ekonoon around me and faris ..
Enrid normal cousin ..
And that's what I love the most about our relationship ..

Faris : " mashala Ramadan after 2 weeks .. metkhaylen? "

Shoug : " Istaghferallah maaali kheeeeelq .. "

Nouf: " laaaa bil3aaaaaaks! I missed jeyam .. and being like sailaneyat in our 3abaya's heheheheh "

I start laughing while remembering suwalifna il 3abee6a eb Ramadan .. istaghferallah ma ye6la3 il yenoon ella eb hal shahar la oo lazm bil mousqe bil salat! ;x

Shoug : " heheheh tathkereen yoom fa6oom edoos 3abayat il old weman wella etzefha oo etsarekh eb wese6 ilsalat oo ma rethat 7ag fa6om etsalle? "

Nouf : " heheheh yaaaaaaa! Omg she was insane! Walla mu sa7ya! Ghasub etzif! Galatlich sorry! La ghasib etkhallis elzafa .. "

Faris : " enzain ana shenu mawtho3ey wana makent labis 3baya weyakom? '

Shoug : " heheheheehhe we told you aslant ilsalfa! Et3arefhaaaaaa! "

Nouf : " yaaaa! The old woman elli fa6om dasat 3ala her 3abaya oo qamat etzef oo etsarekh oo fa6oom etgolaha sorry 3alshan taby tel7aq 3ala ilsalat while ilwoman ghasub betzef .. it took her about 15 mins yalla eshba3at zaf! Bas fa6ooma's face heheheh omg it was worthless! "

Faris : " heheheh eeee thekart .. "

Nouf : " enzain yala I have to go guys .. bye .. "
She closed the line ..

Faris whispered : " heeey .. "

I start giggling as always ..

Shoug : " heheheh ahleeen …"

Faris : " Ramadan this year will be special to someone .. "

I smiled : " really? .. How? "

Faris : " I'll show you inshalla .. "

I blushed ..
I know he's telling me the truth ..
I know he's gonna create my history all over .. Again! ;*